NO!
"Hey Roxy, like what I did with your brother?" Seifer smirked and Ven groaned, "Shut up slut!" My ex punched my twin in the back and he screamed.
My entire being trembled as Seifer zipped up his pants and walked up to me. Axel held me protectively to his chest. I couldn't move, I couldn't speak, I can't speak. Ven… No… Not him… Please let this be a dream… Please… Mom why?
I pushed past Seifer and held my brother. His eyes were barely open and his face stained with tears and blood. I pulled him close to my chest and kissed his forehead. I pulled out my phone and dialed 9-1-1.
'Hello, what is your emergency?' someone said.
"My brother is really hurt," I said.
'Where are you?'
"West Road in the back alley," I said, "Hurry."
Seifer realized that I called 911 and he ran. Axel knelt down by me and hugged me gently.
"Please leave us Axel," I said.
"But-"
"GO AWAY!" I screamed with tears pouring out of my eyes. Axel stayed but he backed away a bit giving me space.
I looked back to Ven and he groaned trying to move. "Don't move, please," I said.
"I… scared…" he said in a raspy broken voice.
"Shhh," I hushed him as I stroked his cheek, "You'll be ok, I promise."
"Hurt," he whispered.
"Just go to sleep, you won't feel the pain," I said in a gently voice.
The ambulance finally came with police. The put Ven on a stretcher and rushed him in the ambulance. The police offered Axel and me a ride to the hospital and we accepted. I called Cloud, Leon, and Sora to come.
"Axel," I said.
"Hm," he replied.
"Call Terra and tell him that Ven is in the hospital and he needs to get here now," I said as we got there.
Axel and I waited in the waiting room. He tried to hold my hand but I pulled it away from him.
"Axel, there's something I should tell you," I said. What are you doing Roxas, stop! Stop before you regret it!
"What?" he asked as he turned to me.
"Well, I want to tell you about my life before you get in a relationship with me. I'm pretty sure you'll hate me, I know I do. Anyway, my parents died when Ven and I were seven and we moved here. Then," I gulped, "when I was 10 I got raped. Then when I was 13 I sold my body, well tried. Anyway, I cut my wrists and everything. Then I got with Seifer and I became his personal toy. I was willing to do anything. Then he rapped me a while ago."
"What are you trying to say?" the red head asked.
"I'm a slut Axel," I said, "I'm a dirty good for nothing slut! I have been violated in ways you can't even imagine. I'm not even a pretty slut. My uncle talked about a happiness but I see that I'll never have one. I'm sorry Axel, I probably disgust you now, just leave me alone." I turned around to not face him as I cried yet again.
I expected him to slap me and leave, but what I got was a kiss on the cheek. He pulled me into his lap and held me. His warmth melted this ice deep in me. His hands slid down my arms to my hands and he grabbed them. His chin rested on my shoulder as he let go of one of my hands and caressed my cheek.
"I don't care if you've slept with a thousand guys. I don't care if you've had the ugliest face in the world. I don't care if you cry once in a while," he said wiping away my tears, "You're beautiful Roxas, I love you."
I gasped I tried to squirm out of his grasp but he held me tightly.
"I don't want to get hurt again!" I yelled, "I'm done with being hurt. I'm done with all these tragedies!"
"I won't hurt you Roxas," the sexy red head smirked as he placed a small kiss on my neck sending electricity through my veins.
Tears continued to roll down my cheeks until I relaxed in his lap. I curled up on him and rested my head on his chest. His strong arms wrapped around me and I melted in his arms. Axel stroked my blond hair. He ran his fingers through the spikes.
"Don't let me go," I whispered.
Cloud, Leon, Terra, and Sora finally arrived, all out of breath. They ran towards us and formed a mob, like an angry mob.
"Where's Ven?" Terra asked.
"Is he ok?" Cloud asked next.
"What happened?!" Sora yelled.
The doctor walked into the waiting room. "Roxas?" he said. I untangled myself from Axel and I walked over to him. "Your brother will be fine, follow me and I'll tell you what's wrong," he said, "Bring your family."
"Ok, so he has a sprained wrist, many bruises and a few cuts that needed stitches. I also tested him for rape and he is positive," the doctor said, "but he'll be fine."
I walked over to my sleeping brother and held his hand.
"I let you down Ven," I said, "I'm sorry."
Axel told everyone else in the room what we saw that happened to Ven. I didn't leave his side.
Ven began to wake up and the whole room went dead silent except for the heart monitor attached to my twin. My poor twin. It should have been me, not him. I let you down Mom, I'm sorry. I guess you will send me to hell when I die because I'm a reject that couldn't even save his own twin brother.
"Ven! Are you ok?" I asked. He just looked at me and shook his head and looked as his legs.
"No… No Ven please don't do this to me!" I said, "I need you! Don't leave me like Mom and Dad."
He looked back at me and weakly stroked my cheek and smiled.
"I'm so sorry," I cried as I gently hugged him.
"It's not your fault Roxas, don't blame yourself," Uncle Cloud said.
"But it is my fault," I said looking at my blond uncle. Ven turned my head back to him and he shook his head. "But Ven, Seifer did this to get back at me, it's all my fault," I said. Ven pressed his forehead against mine.
"It's never your fault Roxas, I love you too much to put the blame on you," he whispered since that's as loud as he could speak. He probably lost his voice from screaming… I'd know.
That night I slept in the chair next to Ven on Axel's lap. Terra was in bed with Ven. The two were cuddled together and Terra help sooth Ven when he woke up screaming a raspy scream from a nightmare of Seifer attacking him again.
No matter what Ven says, it's my entire fault. I should be dead for hurting my twin. I'm pathetic. I went into the bathroom and searched for something sharp, anything. In one of the cabinets I found a safety pin. It isn't so safe how I'm about to use it. I stuck my arm with it and began to draw down until Axel walked in. He took the pin out and slapped me.
"Don't do that to yourself!" he yelled in a hushed tone.
"Why? I have nothing, it's all my fault," I said.
"Stop saying that," he hissed, "Roxas, it's Seifer's fault this happened. And you do have something!"
"What?"
There was a pause as he pinned me against the wall.
"Me…" Axel smiled, "You don't have to trust me now, I'll give you time, but when you're ready to kiss and stuff I'll be here."
I slammed my lips on his. The room began to heat up as his tongue slid into my mouth. His hands slid up the back of my shirt and memories of Seifer flooded back again and I pushed him away.
"Please, not now, I can't," I said.
"That's ok," Axel smiled.
I stayed in the hospital a whole week with Ven. He was released after that and we went home. Sora, Ven, and I sat on our beds in our room just sitting and talking.
"Ven, what really happened?" I asked.
"Well," he said, "Seifer pulled me aside as asked about you because he wanted to... to rape you again and hurt you. I told him to fuck off and he tackled me to the ground and took out a knife. He said that I'd be a good replacement and it's all your fault that he's doing this. Then he did what he did."
"Oh," I sighed.
"But it's not your fault Roxas," Sora said.
"Roxas, haven't you found your happiness yet? It's Axel right?" Ven smiled.
"Well, something is holding me back. I can't trust him yet. I just don't feel right," I replied,
"Don't worry, you'll trust him soon," Ven said.
I can't be with Axel. He distracted me and Ven got hurt. I can't let that happen again. I have to break it off with him, I can't. Mom, if Axel is my happiness, I'll never be happy.
I told Axel to meet me on the beach. I waited for him there, picking at the scab on my arm from the pin. I want to feel that pain because no matter how many times they tell me it isn't my fault it is. I'm also saving Axel from being with a dirty ugly slut like me.
"Hey Roxas," he smiled as he tried to lean in for a kiss.
"No, Axel I can't," I said.
"Why? I love you?" he smiled.
"B-but I don't love you," lies, why am I doing this, "Axel I never want to see you again." I choked back tears as I ran away. He didn't even run after me, so it's finally over.
An empty feeling filled my body as I stopped in my alley and slid down one of the corners on the brick wall. I cried like a newborn baby. I'll never be happy. I'm just a waste of space. It's best if I leave everyone alone. It's all my fault… Mom, Dad, what am I? Where are you now? I need you.
"Roxas?" I looked up to see my brunette friend, "Is everything ok?" I shook my head.
"Do you want to talk about it?" she asked again. I shook my head.
When I got home I took a kitchen knife and locked myself in the bathroom. I took my sketch pad and opened to a page where I sketch myself. I ran the cold blade over the underside of my wrist and let the blood come out. I let the crimson red drip onto the sketch along with some tears. Then I put the knife to my heart. My hand shook as I was ready to stab myself, but something held me back. Images of Ventus filled my head and I dropped the knife.
So I'm stuck in a world that I hate but I can't leave.
"Roxas, someone's at the door," Uncle Leon yelled.
I quickly wrapped something around my arm and I ran to the door.
"Roxas," it was Axel, "I can't not be with you. I love you."
"But I don't love you," I said.
"That's a lie!" he yelled quickly. I know Ven and Sora are spying on us… it's like what I do with everyone else.
"Roxas, I want to help you," Axel said.
"Ok, then help me get better. Rehabilitate me," I said.
"Good, starting tomorrow I'll help you trust me, and not cut yourself, and convince you that you are an amazing person," Axel smiled, "Can I kiss you?"
"No," I said, "and ok, you can help me, but I can't promise results."
Well, I'm in deep shit now…
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