Chapter 9: Someone That You're With
JPOV
My life sucks…. simple as that. These days have been going from bad to fucking horrible. What the hell has Bella been thinking lately? And now that douche beat me to the punch in telling her that I loved her. Psht, I bet he doesn't even mean it. And even though they're a couple, it doesn't mean they'll work out. They'll probably be over in the next month or so.
To think I was actually about to tell Bells I loved her. And it's 100% true, too. Yeah, I know what your thinking. Jake, you can't be in love with your best friend. You'll ruin everything. Blah, blah, blah. That's all bullshit anyway.
I'm trying to fall asleep now, but all I kept thinking was about Bella. Her smile, her laugh, and of course her body. And then there were also specific memories….
The way she was wiggling in my grasp a few days ago, oblivious to the fact that she was shaking her ass in front of my face. According to Embry, Quil, Jane, and Claire, the look on my face and the bulge in my pants was the true reason they were hysterically laughing. Good thing she didn't notice…
Or when I went into her room yesterday, and she appeared in a towel. At first I thought it was one of my dreams coming true…but then she hit me with her cell phone, assuring me that the sexy sight in front of me was indeed real. This was of course my best memory of her and I seriously think that was the best day of my life. The towel fell, just like I wished it would, but not enough. She came really close to me giving me an awesome view of her boobs, but she just wanted to check on my head. If it wasn't for my raging hard on, I would have kissed her and made sure that towel came off. Then she stepped away realizing her 'mistake' and covered up. Although the hard on didn't leave until I took a cold shower and she was really pissed at me, it was so worth what I had saw.
And then there was what happened just a few minutes ago…
I was listening to the song About A Girl by the Academy is.... Bells got me hooked on some of their music and I have to admit it's pretty cool. While listening to About A Girl, I kept trying to convince myself I wasn't in love with Bells. It was no use and ironically the next song playing was Heartless. I was about ready to belt out the words when the music stopped. I turned around and saw Bells with the speaker wire in one hand and my iPod in the other.
"Hey! I was listening to that! You just can't walk in here when you feel like it." I said.
"Well, you've been doing that a lot lately to me." She said.
"So? Both times I just wanted to talk to you. Yesterday it wasn't my fault you came in naked"- she blushed and I almost got hard thinking about it again-"And it wasn't my fault today when I came in and saw you on top of him!" I said.
"Don't wake Charlie!" she said.
"I think he deserves to know what you were doing." I said. I hadn't really thought about telling Charlie, but now it seemed like a good idea so he could help me get rid of Edward.
She changed her stance and calmly said,"Jake, let's just talk. What's been up with you lately? Your acting so different."
I started thinking for a few minutes about what I should tell her. What I felt like saying was 'Bella, I love you and want to spend every minute of my life with you.' and then I would pull her into my arms and we would start making out on the couch. We might even go a little further if she was up to it, but if not I wouldn't rush her. Instead, I just decided on telling her something that she probably wants to hear, even though it's not the truth. "Bells, I'm sorry. It's just I'm worried that if you go out with Edward, you won't spend anymore time with me."
In a way it was true but it wasn't the reason why I'm acting different. She gave me a surprise hug and said, "Jake, how stupid can you be! Even though Edward is my boyfriend, your still my best friend!"
I cringed at the word boyfriend but she didn't notice. Right now, I'm holding on to her for dear life, hoping she wont pull away. I tighten the hug and want to stay in this spot forever. , "I hope things don't change." I say truthfully.
Then she kissed me on my cheek, as if to make all my previous pain go away. But I know she's not mine now and I know she'll pull away soon. And I know that she kissed my cheek as if to say 'Thanks for understanding I love someone else and not you.' but instead she said, "Don't worry, things won't. Edward and I love each other so please be nice to him."
I didn't want to think about them saying 'I love you' to each other. It breaks my broken heart even more. I mentally sighed and thought of something the Jake-that-doesn't-give-a-shit-that-the-love-of-his-life-is-in-love-with-someone-else would say. I am, after all, trying to put on an act and portray him. "If you love him, I won't bother him, but if he breaks your heart, he won't be available anymore-ever."
She pulled away, just liked I fear. At first, I thought she was angry but she giggled, proving me wrong. "Oooo, your so tough." she said.
I laughed as she walked to the door. The thought going round and round in my head was accidentally blurted out and I said, "Did he really say he loved you?"
"Yeah, and I told him I loved him too." She said while foolishly grinning.
"Oh....night Bells." I said.
"Night Jake." She said and closed the door.
Of course, along with good memories, there are bad memories. Like when she first brought Edward to the house. I felt like I was staring at the clock, counting the minutes until he would just leave. He did, but I could still see that new glow in Bella.
Then there was the day when Edward came to the house in the morning after Bella and I had fallen asleep on the couch. I couldn't help myself by staring at her while she was in her tight tank top and shorts. She was breathing heavily, her chest moving as she breathed. It was hard to resist touching her, but I knew if I did she would wake up and be mad at me. When Edward came and thought we were sleeping together, I couldn't hide my smirk. Well, we did sleep together…not just the way he thinks we did. Even though we technically weren't having sex, maybe he would think so and leave her the fuck alone. But noooo…she just had to invite him in. After breakfast they went up to her room, and a few minutes later I heard the door slam. Then Edward said, "Your going to pay for that." I lost control and when I asked him about it, he said they were playing around. I was about to punch him when he cleared up that he didn't mean it like that. I still wanted to hurt him anyway.
After that, she got mad at me for 'yelling' and 'being mean' so she left with him! She left me all alone too! Then I found out at night she was going out with him again! I had to use Leah to try and make her jealous, but she wasn't. I don't think I'll take part in any more of Quil and Embry's plans.
Another bad memory was when she said, "You should give her a chance. Maybe you didn't like her before but do you really even know anything about her? Remember, it was only a kiss- you gotta get to know the real her" this morning in the car. Ugh, does she even know that she said 'It was only a kiss' like in the song !?!?!?!? It reminded me of when Edward called me that. No, I'm not trying to act like a wuss but he doesn't have to call me that. And she also wanted me to go with Leah. Blah.
When Mike came here earlier today, I was about to kick his ass. That dude seriously has stalker-potential written all over him. Then he showed me the picture of Bella and Edward. That picture broke my heart. I was literally about to punch Mike, just to get my anger out…. and I also want to cause I hate him but that's beside the point. In the picture I could see Edward way too close to her for my liking and having a fucking erection while attacking her mouth! Bella looked happy and seemed to enjoy what they were doing. What the hell were they about to go do? Of course, Charlie was pissed, but not as pissed off as me. Long story, short, he could see himself as Edward and Bella as Renee about a million years ago and wishes they could reunite again. Blah, blah, blah, sappy love story gone wrong. But I don't have time to deal with Charlie's miserable problems; I got enough of those on my own to deal with.
And lastly, the conversation we had was pretty dreadful; especially when she told me he loves her. But it was way worse when she said she loved him back…but she's happy and that's all I can wish for now, even though I want to be the one to make her happy. Ugh, I want to be that someone that she's with….hmm…that sounds familiar. Oh yeah, Someone that you're with by Nickelback. Hello Bells new ringtone. I plugged my iPod back on and put the song on while singing along with it and letting the words hit my head like a ton of bricks.
I reside in 209, you're in 208
You moved in last Friday night,
and I just couldn't wait
So I tried to call across the hall,
to ask you out someday
But a lineup formed outside your door, and I was way too late
Well I'd rather start off slow
This whole thing's like
some sort of race
Instead of winning what I want
I'm sitting here in second place
Because somewhere
the one I wanna be with's
with somebody else
Oh god, I wanna be that
someone that you're with
I wanna be that someone
that you're with
And I can talk about it all day long
'til I run out of breath
But I still wanna be that
someone that you're with
I've got to be that
someone that you're with
And I'm pacing by the phone
'Cause I hate to be alone
And if you're out there with him
somewhere and just about to kiss
God I wanna be that
someone that you're with
Well I hear your favorite songs
you sing along with everyday
And I borrow things that
I don't need for conversation sake
Last night I heard your key,
it hit your lock at 4 AM
Instead of being out with me
you must be out with them
Well I'd rather start off slow
This whole thing's like
some sort of race
Instead of winning what I want
I'm sitting here in second place
Because somewhere the one
I wanna be with's
with somebody else
Oh god, I wanna be that
someone that you're with
I wanna be that
someone that you're with
And I can talk about it all day long
'til I run out of breath
But I still wanna be that
someone that you're with
I've got to be that
someone that you're with
And I'm pacing by the phone
'Cause I hate to be alone
And if you're out there with him
somewhere and just about to kiss
God, I wanna be that
someone that you're with
Well somewhere the one
I wanna be with's
with somebody else
Oh god, I wanna be that
someone that you're with
And I can talk about it all day long
'til I run out of breath
But I still wanna be that
someone that you're with
I've got to be that
someone that you're with
And I'm pacing by the phone
'Cause I hate to be alone
And if you're out there with him
somewhere and just about to kiss
God, I've got to be that
someone that
I wanna be that someone that
I've got to be that
someone that you're with
That song is my new motivation…I need to convince Bells that she loves me too, I don't wanna be stuck here in second place while she and Edward are doing things I rather do with her and not think about him doing with her. I just need a good plan….
A/N: Heyyyy guys! I just wrote a short chappie becuase this weekend me and my besties will be working on a new story coming up soon! Don't worry-I will still continue this story!
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