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Rosalie's POV
I'd been laying here with my mate for hours when the sun had begun to rise. I was mentally cursing the Earth's entire rotation process as I knew today would be very emotional and I wished for just a few more hours of night to lay with my mate.
Last night was a bit rough to say the least. Apart from my violent expedition I'd come home to learn that Isabella had refused to come into the house at all since I'd left. Not even to eat and that she's stayed in her perch in the tree by my window.
Her mother had explained to me that Isabella felt bad for hurting me and that she didn't feel right staying in 'my' room, 'my' personal space after everything that had happened. She also explained that she wouldn't go back into the house until after I'd let her back in.
Esme basically forced me into the shower before I could let Bella in so I took the shortest shower of my life before rushing to my window to let Bella in. When I opened it all she did was stare at me and I stared back. Didn't she want to come in? That's when I remembered that I had to let her in, so maybe I should tell her to come in.
"Get in here already Bella" I instructed. Her ear twitched adorably as she just continued to stare. I couldn't force her to come in so I figured she'd come in in her own time. I turned around to slip my clothes on under my robe. There was no way I'd have been leaving my room tonight.
After I'd slipped on my last piece of clothing Bella decided to slip through the window and took a seat on the bed. I turned to look at her and was momentarily floored by how cute she looked. Her ears were half way down on her head and her tail was swishing back and forth on the covers restlessly. I looked at her hands and saw that her claws extending, and retracting. She was nervous.
"If you tear anything I'll bite you little miss kitty so change back to human form please" I asked her more just to put her at ease than as a real threat. She gaped at me as she shifted back. It was way passed her bed time so I'd slipped into bed before patting the space next to me. She took the chance instantly curling into me and releasing a happy content purr.
"Rose I'm…" was as far as I let her get before cutting her off. She had absolutely no reason to apologize to me.
"I was very worried when I got home and they told me that you'd run outside and refused to eat after hours" I tell her feeling guilty. "We'll have this conversation in the morning. It's going to be sunny tomorrow so we won't be in school. Get some sleep Bell" I place my hand on her cheek.
"I love you" she'd whispered.
"I love you too" I told her and then she was out like a light.
Throughout the night though she was restless. If I'd moved even an inch for the book on the night stand or to pull the covers up further, her hold on my arm would tighten and she'd start to whimper. So after a restless night can you really sue me for wanting to destroy the sun?
I watched as the rays hit her face and her nose twitched as she scrunched up her face in annoyance. Since we didn't have to go to school today I'd let her sleep for another hour which still passed too quick for me. Here I go.
"Bella" I whisper touching her shoulder lightly. "It's time to wake up" I tell her calmly and she mumbles in displeasure.
"Rose no" she whines as she buries her face in my chest and grumbles about early mornings and the sun. I sigh and slip out of her hold putting distance between us. "Rose!" she shouts as she sits up and looks at me and the space between us.
"Please Bella it's time for breakfast" I tell her and she looks like she's about to cry at the prospect of getting out of bed but she does with a sigh and nod of her head.
"You'll be in there right? In the kitchen I mean?" She looks so nervous like I'll take the chance to leave her while she's eating. Oh my bell I'm so sorry for hurting you.
"I'll be there the entire time" I tell her and she sighs in relief as she stands up. Standing on her tippy toes with her arms stretched as far as they can go her bones pop and I see her go through a fast half shift as if to wake the rest of her body up. "Shall we?" I ask as I open the door.
"Yes" she said with a nod and we went down stairs to Bella's already seated family surrounding Esme's breakfast. "Wow" she murmured as she stared at the table. The table was filled with different foods. I saw scones, waffles, toast, pancakes, hash browns, corn beef hash, eggs, and oatmeal littering the table. All of the cats were practically salivating and waiting for Bella so that Esme would let them eat.
I know why Esme made so much food this morning. She probably wanted to lift Bella's mood even just a little before all of the angst that I was to thrust upon her. I gave her a smile and then sat at the counter top where I could watch her eat but at a safe distance from the food thrown in their frenzy.
Once Bella sat down they attacked grabbing what they liked and pushing and shoving each other out of the way. Apparently Bella enjoyed the corn beef hash and waffles the most and was trying to horde them all to herself. While that was happening her brothers were fighting over the hash browns while her two sisters argued over the pancakes. Her parents just sat there ducking under flying eggs and maneuvering around scratching claws and swishing tails. Honestly these two deserved a noble prize for raising these six and still keeping their sanity.
The Denali sisters, Emmet, and Jasper had all joined me at the counter to watch the show as Emmet had put it. Jasper described it to be more reminiscent of a war. The Denali's really didn't care what it looked like and placed bets on who was going to win and lose.
It seems that Esme had had enough of the rambunctious shifters destroying her kitchen because she began taking away plates and bowls. The twins were so busy glaring at each other over the last piece of toast that they didn't realized it'd been taken or that Esme had also taken away their plates. Bella who witnessed what was happening grabbed the rest of the waffles and corn beef hash pushing them onto her plate and backed away from the table sitting herself on the counter in front of me.
In that moment three things had crossed my mind. One as I watched her tail swish back and forth was just damn her ass. The second thought which was also sexual in nature was what I wouldn't give to be the one to place her on that counter and be between her legs. The third one had nothing to do with sex as I was quite surprised at just how fast she forced the rest of her food down her throat as Esme started toward her. Hell she shoved and entire waffle into her mouth.
Kate laughed at the expression that Esme made as she chastised Bella on eating slower and the dangers of choking.
"Think about it this way Rose; at least you know she can take the biggest st"
Yes I cut her off. Did you think I wouldn't? I looked around to see if anyone had heard what she'd been saying. I could see Kate, Irina, and Emmet snickering in the background. Bella's family who I'm sure had heard ignored the comment. Bella on the other hand was bright red in color. I have to say that Tanya could lift the mood when she wanted to. Though Bella had been fooling around with her family a few minutes ago I could still see the tension in her body. It was nice to see her relax like this. Even if it was just because of a lewd sex joke.
"Come on Bella lets' get dressed" I tell her. She gives the rest of the room a sweep before following me out of the room and upstairs. She's fidgeting nervously and her tail is swishing back and forth banging against things which has to be painful.
"Bella" I say and she looks up at me nervously worrying her bottom lip between her feline fangs. "Calm down, its fine. Everything is fine I promise" what else can I say to calm her worrying down.
She nodded slowly and took a deep breath to calm down. Then she went to my closet where most of her clothes had ended up and began to look for something to wear.
"Try for something you wouldn't mind to get dirty" I told her.
"Where are we going?" she asked me quietly and that's when I realized. This was the first time she spoken to me all day.
"On a walk"
She nods and then takes a look outside to inspect the weather. I'm guessing it's a bit cold outside because she crabs a pair of sweat pants, a t-shirt, and light jacket to pull on. Then she pulls on a pair of old adidas which I'm guessing she saves for times like these. After we finished getting dressed I lead her from the house and onto a trail going off to the left.
For a moment it looks like she is about to walk behind me like she's not sure if she can walk next to me. It hurts that she feels so uneasy and nervous around me. I grab her hand and pull her up so that she's beside me as we walk the trail.
"Bella are you okay?" I ask in an attempt to kill the silence. Usually we talk about everything. Nothing. To be honest I miss her voice.
"It's, it's just… I did something wrong?" she said more like a question. "I hurt you Rose. I never want you hurt" she said quietly.
"You didn't hurt me Bella and I'm sorry that I made you feel like you did something wrong. You didn't know because we've never set any limits but through our years together I'm sure that a lot of limits will be set to make sure this doesn't happen again" I reassure her.
"Where are we going?" she asked.
"There's this clearing that I like to go to. It's a very calming place. We're going to talk there" I explain.
"Are we almost there?"
"We are there"
I push through the bush and we step out into a small field of wild flowers and blueberry bushes. There are birds and squirrels twittering around enjoying one of the few sunny warm days in Forks. In the middle of the clearing is a tall olive tree.
"Wow"
"I know. Come" I say as I lead her to the tree. I leap up to one of its firmer branches and bring Bella down against me, my back to the tree and her back to me wrapping her in my arms.
"Rosalie" Bella said softly putting her arms over mine.
"Yes?"
"I, I just wanted to let you know that if, if this is something that you're not looking forwards to telling me then you don't have to" she said quietly. "I don't want to force you into anything you don't want to do so if you don't want to tell me you don't have to" she said and my hold on her tightened as a warmth spread through me.
"Thank you Bella I understand" She has no idea what she does to me. She's makes me feel so happy, loved, and calm in so many ways. "I want to tell you just no interruptions okay?"
"… okay" she whispered after a moment of debate.
"Okay." Is all I can say back as I nod my head. With a deep breath I begin. "During the time period I was born into it was custom to have your good side of the tracks and your bad side of the tracks. As you can probably tell I was born on the good side of the tracks but just because we had money didn't mean we were so good.
"Many families that were well off would marry their children together to keep the money in the family as well as to increase their own social standings. When I turned eighteen I was engaged to my fiancé Royce King the second. I was extremely excited about the engagement and I couldn't wait to be married.
"Royce and I had dated in high school our senior year. He was the star quarterback and he was very charming. I saw nothing wrong with living my life with him. I had a friend who had been married to her fiancé earlier than myself and they were so happy together. They had a beautiful baby girl and I just adored her.
"That's why I was fine with being told to marry Royce. I wanted children. That's the only thing I'd ever really wanted in my life. A child. One night I'd been walking home from my friends house. It was just past midnight but it was supposed to be pretty safe. Nothing really ever happened back then.
"So I was walking home when I saw Royce across the street with some of his friends. He called me over and I saw that all of them were drunk. He started to kiss and grope me in front of them and I yelled at him for being drunk and doing such things in public.
"He got violent very fast. Apparently he didn't like it when woman told him what to do. He slapped me and I fell. I didn't get the chance to stand back up because suddenly he was on top of me. Crushing me. Beating me. Raping me. They all took turns with me and when he was done he spit on me. When they were walking away I heard him say that he needed to find another fiancé. Then Carlisle found me and changed me in the hopes that I'd be Edwards mate.
"Let's just say that we didn't really take to each other that well and have had a very tense relationship. Then everybody else came to be in the family along the way and I'd found myself believing that I was destined to be alone. I'd given up the idea of this life" I tell her and look at her face to gage her reaction.
Her entire body was rigid and she'd already slipped into her half transformation. Her hair was standing on end, her ears pressed back in an opposing fashion, and I could hear the sound of her teeth grinding together, and her claws scratching apart the wood of the tree. We sat there in silence for a long while just taking comfort in each other's touch and presence. It was so calming.
"Rose?" she said softly disrupting the twittering of the birds above us.
"Bella?" I questioned back.
"I'm … I'm sorry. I'm sorry I couldn't been there to protect you." She mumbled softly her voice cracking through her apology. I buried my face in her neck and hummed soothingly.
"It's not your fault. It's not anybody's fault but their own and they've paid the price" I whisper. Her ear twitched at my statement.
"They're dead?" she asked.
"By my hand… Does that bother you?"
"No I would have tracked them down and killed them myself if they were still alive"
The silence once again returned as the sun began to set. I'd already suggested that we head home as it would be a bit of a walk.
"Rosalie?" she said after we'd been walking for a little under fifteen minutes.
"Yeah?" I asked turning to see her. Her night vision had come into play her eyes glowing in the dark.
"You said that you'd found yourself believing you'd forever be alone. That you'd give up living." She said as her hand sought out mine and brought it to her breast. It wasn't a sexual move to spark any action. She'd simply done it to comfort me.
"Yeah" I said as I felt her steady heartbeat through her chest. Bump-ba-bump bump-ba-bump.
"What made you decide to live again?" she asked and I paused. What had made me decide that life was suddenly worth living? Sixteen years ago I'd been willing to die. I wouldn't have even fought back if death came to me. Sixteen years ago? Huh.
"Well Bella, it was the tiny young leopard cub that I came across in the forest one day. She looked into my eyes and I suddenly couldn't stand the thought of dying and leaving her alone." I explain and her heart beat sped up.
"Me?"
"You" I say with a nod and pull her along so we can continue on our way home.
We'd just made it to the edge of the bush that enclosed our house when she pulled me to a stop. I turned to look at her with an arched brow.
"Bella?"
"Rosalie" she said her voice with a slight tremor. "I know that… I may not be much but. But I will do all that is in my power to make you continue to believe that your life is worth living." I couldn't help but stare at her in shock. How had I been so lucky to come across this beautiful, happy, caring, life loving woman? Beyond that how had she come to fall for me of all people? Me this dark, brooding, miserable soul.
I took a step towards her and stopped when we were face to face. I took her face in my hands and just stared into her eyes. The eyes that shown with such light and reflected the joys of being alive right to me.
"Bella my love, my sun, my moon, I thank you for loving me and allowing me to love you in return." I whisper as I lean towards her our lips centimeters apart.
"I love you my Rose and I'm so happy your alive" she said before pushing forwards into my arms and sealing our proclamations of love with a kiss the best kiss we've shared so far.
