Okay guys I am really really really sorry that I haven't updated in like forever. I'm not even going to use the excuse about school I've just been lazy and haven't wanted to update so I'm sorry and I'll make this chapter and the next one super long.

I sat there for long time thinking. The sun started to go down, and it got a little colder.

"Bella. It's getting dark out I think we should get home."

I knew what he was saying but I couldn't say anything I just sat there staring at the grass like I had been doing for the whole afternoon. He slowly picked me up not waiting for an answer.

"Close your eyes I'm going to run." I did as I was told. We got home in no time at all. He brought me into my room and set me on my bed then left and shut the door. I sat there for awhile, but I finally thought that I should do something. I decided to take a nice warm shower.

I walked into the bathroom and started the shower. I looked at myself in the mirror. Geeze I am a mess. My hair was tangled from the wind and I had tears running down my face. I stripped my clothes and stepped into the shower. I squealed when I got in the water was hotter than I thought. I turned the cold on higher and let the water relax me. I didn't think about what Edward had told me before or about anything else. The only thing that I thought about was my mom. I know that would be a weird person to think of at a time like this but I did. Sometimes I just needed my mom.

She wants nothing to do with me now though. After, she found out what I had done with my life she refused to talk to me so now I can only think of two people who I could really talk to about all of this. I needed them both. I never had been the person to really need someone to care about me, but that is all I want right now. I know Edward cares about me, but I like have two people talking at once in my head.

One is saying that he doesn't care about me and that he would rather be with Tanya. I mean she is a vampire too. He doesn't have to be careful with her or worry about wanting to kill her every second of the day.

And the other one is saying that he does care and he wouldn't be here if he really didn't want me. Edward loves me and I can see it in his eyes that he truly means it when he says it.

I got out of the shower and dried myself off. I walked out into my room and got a nice long sleeved shirt and some sweatpants. I walked into the bathroom and threw the towel in the laundry basket and started to brush my hair. I put it up into a ballerina bun so it would make my hair have nice curls once it dried. When I walked into my room I decided that I had to do it. I couldn't wait anymore.

I walked over to my bedside table and picked up the phone. I dialed the familiar number and listened to the ringing. Finally, they picked up.

"Hello?"

"Hi."

"Bella is that you baby girl?"

"Yeah. Uhhh Tony can you please come over," My voice cracked and tears started to fall," It's a code red." And that's when I started sobbing.

"I'll be right over." And then the line went dead.

Back when Tony had been dating different guys they would end up lying to him or cheating on him so we came up with code red which means sad movies and lots of chocolate and then we talk about it after everything. I've never had to do it so it felt weird being the one to have to call him up for it instead of the other way around.

"Alice I really wish you were here." And once I said that I heard a knocking on the front door. Edward must've answered it because I heard someone knock on my door. It must be Tony.

"Come in." I barely whispered. And there she came in. The wonderful little black haired pixie that I know and love.

"Alice." I started to smile and more tears came, but these were happy tears.

"I saw what happened and knew that you would be calling for me soon."

I ran to her and just hugged her. We stood like that for a long time while I cried and she held me.

"Uhhh Bella?"

"Oh Tony." I broke away from Alice and brushed away my tears, "Tony this is Alice, Alice this is my best friend Tony."

"Nice to meet you Tony."

"Nice to finally meet you too." He said with a grin on his face. When I would tell Tony all the stories of what happened to me Alice would be in a lot of them. I would always say that she was my sister because of how close we were.

"Now what do you want to do first watch the movies or talk about it?"

"Ummm I think watch the movies."

"Bella," Alice said," I'm going to go talk to Edward real quick and then I'll be right up."

"Okay." She left the room while Tony popped in the first movie.

It was The Notebook. Whenever I watch this I always cry. Alice came back in as soon as the movie started. We were all snuggled under the covers of my bed with me in the middle and Alice and Tony on either side of me. Finally, when the movie was over we started eating the chocolate and popcorn. Alice of course didn't have any. She claimed that she had eaten before she came over. I giggled a little to that.

"Bella," Tony spoke up," do you want to talk about it?"

I just sat there for a minute trying to figure out if I was ready to or not and I finally shook my head.

"Yeah I think we should."

Okay again I am really sorry, and I promise I will update more often. Review! Tell me if you want Bella to keep Edward or to tell him to hit the road. Much love.