Chapter Nine: In Which Edward Played Question Time
Edward, still sitting on the edge of Bella's bed, was watching her sleep peacefully. He smiled as he thought to himself that she was his. He watched her steady breathing and listened to the rhythmic beating of her heart. He knew that he couldn't wake her, the late nights and bad dreams were beginning to take its toll. Plus, he would much rather wait for a more romantic scene, like his meadow, than in her room, which, if woken now, could look quite odd. So, he left his Bella sleeping, only wishing he could tell her how he truly felt. Maybe he'd leave her a note one day when he went hunting. As the thought of what to put in his love note, he continued to read Bella's true feelings.
March 9th 2005
Today could possibly have been the best day of my life. He said that he would see me today, and I did, he turned up outside my house after Charlie had left. I was just going around doing my daily routine; I'd finished all the stuff in the house so I scooped up my bag and left. Locking the door, I turned around to my truck and there, leaning on the door of his Volvo, was Edward, dazzling me with that crooked smile of his.
When I asked him what he was doing, and he said that I had no jacket so the least he could do was give me a ride to school, and bring me a jacket too. The scent was just as imagined it was, just as alluring as it thought it was…oh how I wished yesterday wasn't a dream, but it couldn't have been, we were here in his car so it must have been real. He asked me why I wasn't asking any questions, I thought that they bothered him but he replied not as much as my reactions do, that I take things too coolly. He wanted to know what I was thinking, and that my editing drives him insane, I mumbled that he didn't want to hear it, I regretted it though, it pained me to say it and I hoped it didn't show. We drove to school in silence until, although thankful for the alone time, his family wasn't with him. When I asked where they were, he pointed to a red BMW convertible, and said they took Rosalie's car. When I asked why, after we had got out the car, he smiled saying that he was breaking all the rules now, as he walked less than an inch from me. I so desperately wanted to reach out and hold his hand but I was afraid that he wouldn't like that.
We arrived to find a bewildered and eager Jess who was clutching my coat. We both said hi and she just looked shocked and said she'd see me in Trig. Edward read her mind, she wanted to know if we were dating and how I felt about him, I knew what I wanted to say, but saying it, was a different story. I asked him what to say, he told me to say yes to the first but he was going to listen out for the second, then smiled and walked away. He's such a cheater. The lessons went so fast, it was soon Trig. Jess asked me so many questions, wanted every detail. I told her about the extremely pretty waitress and how he paid no attention to her, she asked if we were dating, of which I said yes to. She also asked how much I liked him; I replied too much, more than he likes me. We talked about what we talked about, well obviously not all of it, and she kept going on about how gorgeous he was, so I told her he was more remarkable behind the face. It was a good but scary chat, I hoped he wasn't listening.
Lunch was the next time I saw him. He smiled and filled a tray, not that we eat it all, or should I say I wouldn't eat it all. I dared him to eat food, it was quite funny, though he said it tasted of dirt but he laughed at my curiosity. It took awhile but he eventually brought my conversation, starting with the waitress who he really didn't noticed that she was pretty. He said something that I had said bothered him, I laughed telling him that if you eavesdrop you often hear things you don't like. He asked me if I really thought that I cared for him more than he cared for me, but he was dazzling me, so it took me a while to answer that I did think it was true. He told me that I was wrong, I argued about it but he asked me what makes me think so. So I told him, that, apart from the obvious, it feel like he's always trying to say goodbye but that was his reason for him caring more. Then he wanted to know what the obvious was, so I said, as calmly as I could that I was so ordinary whereas he is so…perfect. He just told me that I didn't see myself clearly, yeah right. We kept arguing about the ability to say goodbye meant that we cared more, when he asked me if I really needed to go Seattle on Saturday, I laughed, telling him I still hadn't forgive for it, that I didn't really but it was the only excuse I could think of, because me and dancing doesn't go very well. I asked him if I could drive because I would have to lie to Charlie which I don't like and leaving my truck would bring up the conversation of not going by myself needlessly. He laughed but he told me that I should tell him, to give him some incentive to bring me back, that did scared me a little, that he may not bring me back.
Then we talked his trip away, I learnt a few of their dinner favourites, Emmett's is bear, early spring when they are most irritated and Edward's is mountain lion. Apparently, they hunt like the animal of which is their favourite, but Edward got a little angry when I wanted to see, I asked if it was because it was too scary, he replied if it was he'd take me, I need a good dose of fear, but he could never have me around while he lost control like that, he might attack me too.
Everyone watched us all day, it was quite annoying really, and I really do hate attention. Mr. Banner put a really boring movie on in Biology, but as soon as the lights went dark, there was this strange electricity current between us. My eye involuntary peeped at him and I smiled, his position was the same as mine, even the eyes, smoldering, I had to turn away before I started hyperventilating. Through the entire lesson it remained the same. Afterwards he walked me to gym. How I hate that lesson. When it had finished, Edward met me, idiot had watched the whole thing through other peoples minds, that's going to get incredibly annoying, I was rather irritated at him, I forgave him because he said he was sorry and he would let me drive on Saturday. Before I went inside, he said tomorrow was his turn to ask the questions…great.
Well, better get some sleep, got a lot of questions to answer tomorrow.
Night x
Edward laughed at how absurd Bella's image of him was. And how ordinary she thought she was. She just doesn't seem to comprehend how extraordinary she was, she was the most beautiful, remarkable, and special person Edward had ever had the fortune to meet. He liked that fact they were out in the open now, that he wouldn't have to pretend or ever leave her side. He thought it was funny how she couldn't seem to grasp that yesterday was real, well, at least he thought it was real, spilling his secrets to the girl he loved, it must have been real. He felt said that she thought he didn't want to know what she was thinking. He always wanted to know, although he may not like what she was thinking, he still wanted to know what it was. He laughed at the thoughts of Jessica and Bella's distaste to him listening in on their conversation. He only skimmed their argument, not wanting to dwell on the memories of the conversation or the thought that came with it. He also skipped over the talk of his trip away, not wanting to feel the anger he felt when Bella asked if she could watch. However, he was thrilled that she felt it too. The strange electricity that flowed through their vein in the bittersweet moment alone in the dark, she felt it too. He wondered if she felt the aching, the longing to reach out and just touch her hand, run his fingers over her soft skin. She must of; he balled up his hands, just as she did, and every now and again, they would look at each other from the corner of their eyes. She must have felt it, he thought, she must have. He smiled at tomorrow…his turn, the questions. This was an entry he was looking forward to.
March 10th 2005
Today was Edward turn to ask the questions. He was outside my house again this morning; he asked how I was and told me that I looked tired. I hadn't slept well that night, I dreamt of the electricity we had in biology, I was tossing and turning all night. He asked me loads of random questions like my favourite colour, the music in my CD player, the movies I'd liked and hated, the few places I'd been, the many places I wanted to go, books I loved and hated, my favourite gemstone, which was topaz, until recently it was garnet but it was the colour of his eyes today, and I flushed when I told him. It was a common occurrence throughout the day, me blushing. The day past so quickly as I tried to explain impossible things, like scents, describe scenes of Phoenix, textures and beauty, it was really late when Edward told me that Dad was home. When I asked how late it was he replied "It's twilight. It's the safest time of day for us, the easiest time. But also the saddest, in a way… the end of another day, the return of the night. Darkness is so predictable, don't you think?" I replied, "I like the night. Without the dark, we'd never see the stars." I had it all again tomorrow, and in an odd sort of way I was looking forward to it, the time together, I liked today very much even if it was a little like psychoanalysis. I was just letting myself in when Jacob and Billy rolled up behind me, scaring me half to death. Billy gave me a death-stare, like he knew I was with Edward. Bill y was here to watch the game and Jake was well to see me I think, we talked about his car, my truck and Edward. It was nice, a little awkward though. Billy was still giving me the death stare when he left, luckily he didn't say anything to Charlie. Anyway I'm off to bed now, so tired from not sleeping well last night.
Night x
Edward was so pleased that Bella answered all his questions, at the time it was the only means of being inside her mind. Although some of the questions made her blush, he didn't care; he thought the crimson red of her blush was one of the most gorgeous colours he had the pleasure to lay his eyes upon. He hated that the day past quickly, he wanted to have more time, but he could not he would have to wait for another day, however, Bella lightened his entire mood when she spoke of the stars, for she was his star, the gleaming brightness in the night. He thought that it was funny she compared the endless questions with psychoanalysis but was thrilled that she enjoyed spending time with him. Unfortunately, his mood was dampened when Jake re-entered the picture, maybe he should have crushed while he had the chance and Billy, doesn't he ever forget? He guessed not. Maybe he'd go back now and crush Jake now while he had yet another chance, or wake Bella and tell her that he loved the blush on her cheeks and he wanted to spend the rest of forever with her. Decisions, decisions, decisions…
(A/N: Another cliffhanger to another end. Like it says, decisions, decisions, decisions, which will he choose? If any? Or both? Who knows? Anyway hope you liked, took me a while to write, it's getting harder to think. Anyway, thanks you great reviewers, I love you, please review more, reviews are the reason I get out of bed in the morning!! Thanks guys, love you all xxx)
