A/N: HAPPY NEWYEAR EVERYBODY! I'm sorry this is such a short chapter! The
next one is going to be longer, maybe the next chapter will be the last
chapter but I'm not quit sure.
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A hundred days had made me older
since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder
and I don't think I can look at this the same
I'm here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
-Here Without You by 3 Doors Down
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Chapter 7:
It's been a week and a couple of days now since I left her alone in her
apartment.
It's been a week and a couple of days since i wanderd around the streets of
the city she calls home.
It's been a week since I returned to this miserable place.
My room has been dark from the moment I entered it.
There isn't enough light to light it up.
I have been sitting here for three or four days and the only light I see is
the light of the moon.
During the days I sleep, trying to make this life shorter.
During the nights all I can do is stare, stare at anything that keeps my
mind of her.
What can I do to make that happen?
What does it takes to keep her of my mind?
Am I doing the right thing?
That's the only question that is going through my mind lately.
There is nothing to calm me down, not a person to find comfort with or a
friendly stranger where I can poor my heart out.
The only thing that calms me down is the rain falling down to the window of
the bus where I'm sitting in.
The bus that will lead me to the person I love and need.
As I see the city lights getting closer and closer every minute, I start
feeling nervous.
Every minute I'm getting closer to him and every minute my heart starts to
beat louder.
This is the first time I see the world so different.
It's the first time I know that I lost her.
No that's wrong, I didn't lost her cause I never had her.
The pain she felt when he left, I didn't understand when they told me about
him, but now I know I lost her long ago and I can't seem to understand why
she still longs for him.
I don't understand why you love somebody after they just leave you, why you
still love somebody after everything he or she put you through.
I can't lose her and especially not to somebody who doesn't love her for
real.
Her mother understood that I can't give up without a fight.
She told me where I could probably find them.
Them.
God I hate that word, it makes two people so bonded.
And now I'm using it for the woman I love.
It's up to me now, I have to make things "okay" between me and her.
I can't let some loser come between us.
It's a beautiful place.
I have no idea where I am.
When I came off the bus I just walked in a direction.
And here I am, sitting in a bench, in a park somewhere in a city.
I look up to the sky and see the most beautiful stars.
People probably think I'm insane to think that these stars are different
then other stars, but they are.
Maybe it's this night or maybe it's this moment.
I don't know.
I know I have to visit him cause I can't stay in the cold all night, but I
just can't bring up the courage.
I came this far so I have to finish it.
I slowly rise from the bench I'm sitting on and start to walk in a
direction of which I don't know if it is the right one.
Maybe I'll never find him in this godforsaken city, maybe if I find him he
won't be able to forgive him...
If only I could turn back time.
The stars that were standing so bright at the sky tonight, dissapeared
completely.
The only way to discribe the sky is to say that it turned into one big
black blanket.
Things are going to chance and I've got a feeling it won't be for the
better.
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next one is going to be longer, maybe the next chapter will be the last
chapter but I'm not quit sure.
Feedback: justsomebodycalledme@yahoo.com
______________________________________________________________
A hundred days had made me older
since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder
and I don't think I can look at this the same
I'm here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
-Here Without You by 3 Doors Down
______________________________________________________________
Chapter 7:
It's been a week and a couple of days now since I left her alone in her
apartment.
It's been a week and a couple of days since i wanderd around the streets of
the city she calls home.
It's been a week since I returned to this miserable place.
My room has been dark from the moment I entered it.
There isn't enough light to light it up.
I have been sitting here for three or four days and the only light I see is
the light of the moon.
During the days I sleep, trying to make this life shorter.
During the nights all I can do is stare, stare at anything that keeps my
mind of her.
What can I do to make that happen?
What does it takes to keep her of my mind?
Am I doing the right thing?
That's the only question that is going through my mind lately.
There is nothing to calm me down, not a person to find comfort with or a
friendly stranger where I can poor my heart out.
The only thing that calms me down is the rain falling down to the window of
the bus where I'm sitting in.
The bus that will lead me to the person I love and need.
As I see the city lights getting closer and closer every minute, I start
feeling nervous.
Every minute I'm getting closer to him and every minute my heart starts to
beat louder.
This is the first time I see the world so different.
It's the first time I know that I lost her.
No that's wrong, I didn't lost her cause I never had her.
The pain she felt when he left, I didn't understand when they told me about
him, but now I know I lost her long ago and I can't seem to understand why
she still longs for him.
I don't understand why you love somebody after they just leave you, why you
still love somebody after everything he or she put you through.
I can't lose her and especially not to somebody who doesn't love her for
real.
Her mother understood that I can't give up without a fight.
She told me where I could probably find them.
Them.
God I hate that word, it makes two people so bonded.
And now I'm using it for the woman I love.
It's up to me now, I have to make things "okay" between me and her.
I can't let some loser come between us.
It's a beautiful place.
I have no idea where I am.
When I came off the bus I just walked in a direction.
And here I am, sitting in a bench, in a park somewhere in a city.
I look up to the sky and see the most beautiful stars.
People probably think I'm insane to think that these stars are different
then other stars, but they are.
Maybe it's this night or maybe it's this moment.
I don't know.
I know I have to visit him cause I can't stay in the cold all night, but I
just can't bring up the courage.
I came this far so I have to finish it.
I slowly rise from the bench I'm sitting on and start to walk in a
direction of which I don't know if it is the right one.
Maybe I'll never find him in this godforsaken city, maybe if I find him he
won't be able to forgive him...
If only I could turn back time.
The stars that were standing so bright at the sky tonight, dissapeared
completely.
The only way to discribe the sky is to say that it turned into one big
black blanket.
Things are going to chance and I've got a feeling it won't be for the
better.
______________________________________________________________
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