Danielle still hadn't come to a decision about leaving this place or staying here. Adam was trying to help her figure out what she was going to do. They did a pros and cons list for both places. It helped but it also made it harder for her too. She saw so many good things with staying here. She was still getting to know her dad and the rest of her family. She didn't see Marty as much as the others but it was going to be changing soon with college coming to an end. They were planning on all going to see her walk the stage. She had just come home from her grandparents. She liked going over there and spending time with them and Adam. She really felt like she got a lot more done there than she does when she is home. It never seems like her parents are home because they are always afraid they will run into one another. She wished they would both get over it and just deal with how things are. Sometimes she felt like she was the adult in all of this. When she got home she saw her mom was already figured this would be a good time to talk.
"Mom why can't we just stay here?"
"Because, your dad isn't going to be able to leave hockey."
"So what does that have to do with anything?"
"He will never be around. I want a man that will be there for me and won't be gone for months on end."
"How will you know that this is bad unless you try it?"
"I don't want to go through anymore pain. Like I had to before. I want a stable life and this isn't it."
"Mom I don't want to make this decision. I know it will hurt one of you. I don't want to hurt my family."
"You have one month to make your decision. After that I will be moving."
Now my life has just fallen apart. I wanted tog o with my mom but another part of me wants to stay with my dad. I want to know how things would be if he was in my life more. And if I move to New York then nothing will be the same. Now she had to decided if her mom was right, could she live with someone who would be gone most of the time because of his job. She didn't see how it was any different than when her mom had to work late or go out of town for business. She felt like her mom was hiding something from her. There had to be more than what she was being told. She walked down to the back yard that they had. She had just had enough she couldn't stand to be here anymore and she wanted to know what to do.
"Someone just help me! I can't take this anymore!"
"What do you need help with?"
"Wow, Nick you scared me I didn't know you were out here."
"I was walking over to see if you wanted to go to the mall. And I heard you screaming."
"Oh, I would love to go to the mall. I need to get away from here."
"What is wrong?"
"Everything I have the most important decision I will ever have to make and I don't know what to choose."
"I understand."
Just seeing Nick and how much he cared just made this decision even harder. How was she suppose to choose what to do when the unknown looked scarier and scarier every day. How could she go with her mother when she had what she wanted here. The only thing that would be missing is her mom and that is because she mom decided to leave to go start a new life away from all of this. She was mad at her mom for not wanting to try. How could Casey say she cared for Derek but didn't want to put up a fight to keep him in her life.
"So Nick, what will happen if I move to New York? Will we still be friends?"
"You know we will always be friends. No matter what."
"That is good to hear."
They walked over to the food court to get some pizza and drinks and sat down and started to talk to one another. Today was the day that Nick decided to tell Danny how he felt for her. He couldn't let her leave and not know. He had been debating with this for sometime. Nick knew it was a risk of her turning him down but he was willing to take that chance if it came to knowing Danny a little better. Danny felt like she could lose everything at any second and she wanted to make sure that Nick would know the truth. If she did leave she didn't want to leave with any regret.
"Danny I have something I need to tell you. I don't care what you say after it but I just need for you to know before you leave if you do leave."
"What is it Nick?"
"Well Danny, I really like you. I like you more than a friend."
"You do Nick?"
"Yes Danny I really like you."
"Well Nick I like you too. I just didn't know how to tell you."
Just then Nick leaned in and gave Danny a kiss. Now she knew her decision was harder hen ever. Could she give up everything she had gained in these last few months. She had finally made some true friends that weren't just girls from her other school. She met a guy that she cared about and he cared about her too. She had a family that seemed cool for as cool as families could be. She had finally gotten to know her dad a little. She just had a bad feeling about all of this. The more she thought about it the more clear it became she had to do what was best for her and not for anyone else. She had to stop thinking what everyone would think or how they would act when she made the choice. She just needed to say the first thing that came to her mind. Nick had walked her home and she said good bye and that she would see him later. When she made it up to her place she heard her dad. That meant they were both home, it sounded like they were fighting but she couldn't hear what they were saying. They stopped as soon as they heard the door open. It was now or never Danny needed to get this off her chest before she went back to over thinking it again.
"Mom, Dad I need to talk to both of you."
"Yes Sweetie what is it?"
"Well as you know I have to decide we I am to live. With you or Dad."
"Baby you don't have to make it right away you can think about it."
"Dad I know but I have made up my mind and I want to tell you guys what I have decided."
"Okay Sweetie go ahead."
"I have decided to live with….."
This will be continued in the second part of this story.
