Surprise! Yeah, I totally wasn't going to update this soon, but with it being the 4th of July, I'm feeling generous so this is y'alls gift for today. Yes, I'll still probably update on Friday too. Gah, I'm so wanting some peach ice cream right now. It's a 4th of July staple around here. Lol
Ok, so need to explain one thing real quick. Esme is from Louisiana, and has the accent to go with it. If you are from LA please don't hurt me for the butchering of the word 'buhbay' it's my way of spelling it to where I know what the hell I'm hearing. I don't know the actual spelling of it. So, just go with it. If you ARE from LA, and want to correct my spelling, please message me so I can fix it. It would be greatly appreciated.
And on with the usual, Lola(Laurie Whitlock) my monkey is awesomeness.
And I don't freaking own Twilight. I wanna though….
Read on my peeps!
Chapter 9
When Bella walked around to the front of her house, she saw her mother in the flowerbed in the front yard. Bella took a deep breath and went over to her mother.
Esme got up from the flowerbed and walked over to Bella.
"Hey there, my pretty buhbay. Where have you been? I thought you girls went hunting the other night." Esme asked with her Louisiana accent. She wrapped an arm around Bella's shoulder and hugged her to her side. Esme had the same gorgeous features as Bella. Simple, yet perfectly beautiful. She had the same flowing dark brown hair. But different colored eyes. Where Bella had brown eyes, Esme had the same topaz color as the other vampires in their family.
"I was out with Edward last night." Bella said kind of holding back.
"Oh your dad told me about him. I don't know what to make of any of it." Esme said. "So where were you two?"
Bella knew she couldn't keep stuff from her mother. She had always been honest with her. And now was no time to stop doing it. "We were… together… in my meadow." Bella said, not looking her in the eye.
Esme was taken aback by that. "Wait a minute. Are you saying you slept with him, buhbay?" Esme asked with shock across her face.
"Yes." Bella whispered.
"Wow. Are you sure you know what you're doing with this boy?" Esme asked, looking at her.
Bella snapped her head up. "You're not gonna try to kill me over this?"
Esme furrowed her eyebrows. "Why would I do that, buhbay? Have I ever doubted your decisions? I know you can handle anything. I just want to make sure you know what you're getting into with him. Your father seems to like him, so I'm sure I won't have a problem with him." Esme said.
"I know you haven't doubted me. But I figured that you and dad might have a problem with me getting involved with a human." Bella said.
Esme turned to look her straight on.
"He's not a normal human though, is he? He has his own secret from the world. And if he can handle your secret, then why not see what happens?" Esme said.
"You know, most parents aren't this understanding when their daughter comes in after having sex with a guy she just met. But it's not the same as that though. He's so genuine. He treats me like I'm normal. He forgets that I'm a vampire sometimes. And then that makes me forget too. Because he just has this essence about him that I can't get over. He's so wonderful and understanding. He can see past everything that I am and just accept me. I've never had anything like that before. No guy has ever gotten that close to me to know the secret." Bella said, looking up to her mother.
"Bella, do you see how deeply you feel for him? I can certainly see it. How your eyes lit up when you talked about him, how that smile can't help but cross your face. And how lovingly you talk about him. I think you're falling for him, buhbay." Esme said, as they started walking to the house.
Bella thought about it as they walked. She wasn't sure if she was right, but it was definitely a possibility.
"I can tell you're gonna need time to think that over. So why don't you go get cleaned up for school. You're already running behind this morning. Go on." Esme said, as she pushed Bella towards the house.
"Ok. You're right. I gotta get going." Bella said as she sprinted into the house and up the stairs. She jumped in the shower and kept thinking about what her mother said.
When she got out, she decided to talk to him about it when she got the chance. Knowing where he stood on it would help in her thought process.
She actually tried to figure out what to wear today. She wondered what Edward liked on a girl. She usually was up on fashion, but just threw stuff together and it always looked good. But now she wanted to look good for Edward. She felt like such a teenager right now. But she didn't care. She was never really one for dresses or skirts, but she thought today could be an exception. So she rummaged through her closet and found a great black skirt that fell just above her knees. And a light green three quarter length sleeve shirt that was almost the same color as Edward's eyes. Then she would add her black jacket from last night and boots. She felt good about this outfit.
So she got dressed and bolted out the door to go to school.
When Edward got home, he walked in the front door and literally ran into Rosalie in the front hallway. She was running down the stairs to get her breakfast.
"Did you just get home? Where have you been?" Rosalie asked with a little shock in her voice at seeing him in his clothes from last night.
"It's ok, I fell asleep. You and Jasper can go ahead without me. I'm going to go shower real quick and I'll be right behind you." Edward said. He didn't want to let them know yet about what happened last night.
"Ok, fine. Mom called. She's leaving in a while to come back. So she might be here when we get home from school." Rosalie told him as she walked towards the kitchen.
"Ok…umm… ugh, I've gotta figure out what to tell her about all this stuff with Bella. She's not going to understand it easily." Edward said, standing by the staircase.
"You got that right. But I guess if I can deal with it, she can too." Rosalie said as she came back around the corner with a yogurt and spoon in her hand.
"Thanks." Edward said with a condescending smirk to his sister.
"You love me, and you know it." Rosalie said, skipping up to Edward and giving him a peck on the cheek. "Jasper, come on!" Rosalie yelled up the stairs.
"I'm coming, impatient!" Jasper yelled from upstairs.
"Wow, you two really are twins." Edward said with a laugh.
Rosalie turned and smacked his arm.
"Hey!" Edward said, wincing at the shock.
"You're in the mix too, need I remind you." Rosalie said with a laugh.
"Don't remind me." Edward said, laughing with her. "I'm going to shower. I'll see you at school." Then he ran up stairs and into the shower. He started thinking about everything with Bella and how things were progressing so fast. He knew he needed to figure out what he was feeling for her. He came to the conclusion that he would let it come naturally. Even though this was an extraordinary circumstance, like Bella said. He wouldn't let that deter him. He was determined to let this play out, and hope that he could be with Bella. He certainly didn't want to be without her. She seemed to be an extension of him now. Whatever happened to him, affected her somehow. And vice versa. He needed to figure out what his feelings for her really were.
He finished his shower and rushed to get dressed. He ran to his car and drove to school.
When Edward pulled up to school, he saw Bella's car parked beside Alice's Porsche. So he parked in front of Bella's Jaguar. She was just getting out of her car and Alice and Emmett had been waiting for her. Edward noticed her legs as she got out of the car and had to gulp. He had seen her naked but now as he saw her in a skirt, he noticed it a little more. He looked at the rest of her and loved what he saw. She had on a beautiful green shirt and boots that looked so amazing on her.
She looked up to see him staring at her, and he smiled at her with a longing look.
Don't give me that look. We have tonight for that. Bella thought to Edward with a sly grin back to him.
What's wrong with right now? Edward thought back to her with sarcasm.
Well, let's see… school, people, school, your family, school. Do you want me to keep going? She thought back with the same sarcasm.
So… Edward thought.
Then he walked around his car to meet her and hugged her.
"You look incredible." Edward whispered in her ear.
"Thanks." She said back to him. They didn't hold on to each other for long so no one would notice that they were that close yet.
"Let's go. We don't want them getting the wrong idea yet." Bella said laughing.
"Right. Will I see you at lunch?" Edward asked.
"Of course. Why wouldn't you?" Bella asked rhetorically.
They turned and started walking towards the school. Edward noticed Jasper cocking an eyebrow at the two of them. Edward looked at him and said "Not now. Later." He wouldn't say anymore until he talked to his mom. Then the six of them walked into the school.
Edward walked Bella to her first class. She usually had some classes with Alice and Emmett, but some were alone. So she was glad when he walked her to class. It was such a sweet gesture to her. She went through her first few classes just thinking about her and Edward. She couldn't escape his eyes, or how he made her feel completely comfortable. How he never judged her, or made her feel like she was a freak. She could be completely herself with him. And she was.
When she made it to her lunch period, she saw Edward, Jasper and Rosalie walking towards her. Then Emmett and Alice joined her and she walked into the cafeteria. Edward, Jasper and Rosalie came in behind them. Edward walked up behind Bella and was going to try to scare her by pinching her waist. But she saw what he was going to do, and grabbed his wrists as he brought them to her waist.
"Do it and you get hurt." Bella said low enough where he could hear her.
He let his hands hover around her waist, as she was holding them. And then he jerked his hands to her waist and grabbed her.
"Hey." Bella exclaimed. That will get you into trouble. Bella thought to him.
Well you can take it out on me tonight then. Edward thought to her with a laugh.
He let go of her waist and stood behind her and waited to get their lunch.
When they got to their table, Edward pulled out Bella's chair for her. She just loved that he was that kind of guy.
"Thank you." Bella said with a big grin.
Bella and Edward sat on one side of the round table. Jasper and Rosalie sat next to Edward. And then Alice and Emmett sat on the other side of Bella. They started making conversation and really started feeling like they had last night at the restaurant. They seemed like they were warming up to each other rather well. While they were sitting at lunch, Bella brought her hand to Edward's left leg, and rubbed his leg with her thumb. He didn't mind it in the least. He welcomed a touch from her. He knew her mind well enough that she would want to do something like that. So he brought his hand to hers and rubbed the top of it. No one at the table could really see it. So they just sat there, basking in that small touch.
When they left from lunch, Edward walked Bella to her next class. She gave him an affectionate hug before he could leave. He leaned his head into her neck, where her hair would give him cover to kiss her skin. Just then, everything around them froze. Bella looked around to see people frozen in mid-stride.
"Edward…" Bella said trying to see where his mind was going. But she figured it out rather quickly.
He reached his hands behind her, and grabbed the top of her thighs, and brought her legs up and wrapped them around his waist. She was completely off the ground, against the wall. She grabbed his face and started kissing him fiercely, with him kissing her back the same way. Their breaths became quicker, and they both felt like they wouldn't stop. When Edward brought his lips to Bella's neck, she rolled her head back and thought to herself, I could stay like this forever. And before she even realized it, she heard Edward think with a laugh, that doesn't sound like such a bad idea to me I rather enjoy the thought of forever like this.
She snapped her head up and looked him in the eye.
"Oh my god. I don't even know why I thought that. It just…" Bella said trying to explain it to him.
"What if I want it though? Wouldn't that be up to me to choose?" Edward asked trying to sound convincing.
"Didn't I tell you that I would never let anything happen to you? And that includes anything that could come from me. I'm nothing if not a girl of my word." Bella said, as she unwrapped herself from his waist.
"Bella, I want to be with you. I don't want to ever be without you. You're too important. What would the harm be if I want to be with you forever? I think about you when I'm not around you. And all I can see in my future is you. So please tell me what's holding you back from considering this. Because I know you can see it too." Edward said.
Bella did see it, in his head and her own. This had been what was rolling around for most of lunch in their heads. Bella wanted to be with him, but she wasn't going to kill him to do it.
"We need to talk about this later. We can't stand here all day. You'll be discovered as witches if the school day goes by in a matter of seconds." Bella said, looking down.
"Fine, but we ARE talking about this." Edward said, then pulled her back to him, wrapped his arms around her and kissed her again. "I'll see you in last period."
"Ok. I'll see you." Bella said, and then turned to go into class. When she was inside, the room unfroze. Then the teacher walked in and called the class to order. And everyone started getting to their seats.
When she sat in her seat, Alice and Emmett uncharacteristically, jumped in their seats. They had never seen Bella come in. and they'd be able to see if she came in like a vampire. She literally appeared out of nowhere.
Wait a second… Did he freeze everything? Because you so weren't there a second ago. We can usually tell, but we never saw you coming. Alice thought to Bella.
Yes, he did. We kind of had a moment in the hall and I screwed it up and now I don't know what to do with any of this information. Bella thought. She purposely blocked it from them so she could figure it out on her own.
I still can't believe you slept with him. I never thought you would be one to go off like that. You're always the in control one. Emmett thought to her.
Bella turned to look at them both with a serious look.
Do not say anything around them about it. Jasper and Rosalie don't know yet. I'm going to let him tell them when he's ready. Rosalie's not going to take it that well. And their mom is coming back today so we have to deal with that too. She thought to them with sternness. Then turned her face away.
You know it won't last forever, right? He's not like us. Emmett thought to her.
I don't care. I can't be without him. I can't lose him… ever. Bella thought to them.
Alice and Emmett looked at her with confusion and shock.
You're really intense about him aren't you? I can see something in your head. Like you're… in love with him or something. Alice thought.
Bella snapped her head back up to look at Alice with alarm.
What are you talking about? How can I be in love with him? I've only known him for a couple of days. Bella thought to them.
Then she began to think it over in her head. The fact that they were so comfortable around each other, the way they looked at each other. How comfortable he was dancing with her, and how much he loved it. How they both bent the rules of their own values to be with each other last night. And they both knew they'd never bend those rules unless they were sure they knew it was right for them. And they KNEW it was right. And the fact that he told her he only saw her in his future. That touched her heart so deeply. And she could see the same thing, but wasn't sure how to go about it. And when they were together last night, they both felt like they were made and molded to fit with each other, perfectly. Even their connection to each other.
She loved his kindness, his protectiveness, his touch, his kiss, how he could see past everything she was and still find her completely amazing. She loved his playfulness, his sincerity, his commitment, his love for his family. She loved the way he looked at her and could see her soul every time. Suddenly it clicked for her.
I love him… Bella thought to herself. Then a smile crossed her face that completely touched her eyes.
I knew it! I could see it in your eyes. You had that look in your eyes the whole time at dinner last night. Alice thought to her.
Then, Bella thought about what the repercussions of all of this might be. But at the time, it didn't matter. She had to tell him.
She raised her hand hurriedly.
"Miss Jacobs? Can I use the hall pass?" Bella asked in an anxious tone.
"Yes, miss Cullen. Are you ok?" the teacher asked seeing the alarm in Bella's face.
Bella jumped up and ran out with a choked, "No."
She ran fast down the hall, past Edward's classroom.
Edward, I need you! Bella thought frantically.
Edward heard her, and immediately thought something was wrong.
He jumped up and interrupted the teacher, "Mr. Alexander, can I be excused? I'm not feeling well."
Mr. Alexander blinked at him and then said, "Yes, of course."
Then Edward ran out of the room, and followed where Bella's thoughts led him. He froze the classes as soon as he was clear of their classrooms. He ran out the double doors, and around to the back of the school, where he heard her thoughts running at a mile a minute. When he came around the corner and saw her, her head snapped up and she looked at him with all the love she felt for him. Which in that moment had magnified itself. Edward saw it in her head. And he realized, it was the same thing for him. He never thought love could come this quickly, but it did. Their connection to each other had only sped it up. And it's what he couldn't figure out earlier. He had been having this nagging feeling since last night. And didn't know what it was. But now that he could see it in her, he knew exactly what it was. Love.
She ran, in a flash to him and wrapped her arms as tightly as she could around his waist, without hurting him. And he hugged her back just as tightly.
"How could you not have seen it in my head before?" Edward asked.
"I don't know. But I love you. And I don't want to ever lose you. I can't." She said, then grabbed his face and kissed him passionately. He grabbed the back of her head and pulled her even closer to kiss her even stronger. They were almost climbing all over each other.
"Can we talk… about what this means?" He asked after a few minutes, between their urgent kisses.
Bella didn't want to register what he was asking because that meant that they would have to think about stuff. And she didn't want to.
Bella, we have to talk about this we can't ignore the fact that this could be the thing we were looking for to happen. Edward thought to her, trying not to get distracted. But Bella was making it difficult.
But then Bella stopped and looked at him. She knew he had to be right. What if this was what was supposed to happen all along? But 'why' was the major question.
"I don't know why. We may never really know the reason. But can't we figure out where this is going to take us?" Edward asked looking in her eyes.
She shook her head. They both needed to think first then sit down and discuss this. Because this could end up being something that changes anything and everything they thought may or may not happen.
"We need to talk about this tonight. Because this is going to be a long conversation. And we can't stay out here the whole day. There's a whole school that is frozen, and they're going to be suspicious if the next class starts, and we were only ten minutes into the last class. But we will definitely talk about this tonight. But" then she started giving him quick kisses, "I… love you… so… so much. And I… want to… be with you…" Bella said in between kisses.
Edward felt that same surge of energy run through him from hearing that, that he had the night before. But he knew he couldn't lose his control. He needed to go back to class. But he would rather to have stayed here with her. The woman he loved.
Bella heard that in his head, and grabbed him and started kissing his neck.
"I love you too Bella. I don't know if I could ever love someone else this much." Edward said. And he knew it was true. Everything seemed to revolve around the two of them and them being together. It just seemed to fit together like a puzzle. Which seemed to be what their whole relationship was. A puzzle that came together perfectly with every moment they spent together. Everything fell into a seemingly already existing relationship that had been going on for years and years. They both could see there would never be anyone else for them.
He kissed her again, then pulled her back towards the school to get back to class. They walked back through the double doors with an arm around each others waist and leaning their heads into the other. And Bella was holding onto his hand that was on her waist. When they reached the door to her class, they stopped and just hugged each other for a while. Neither of them wanted to leave, but they knew they could be together tonight. They knew they could wait. They'd wait forever if they had to. As long as they knew they could be together. Nothing else mattered as long as that was certain.
"I love you today as if tomorrow would never come. Never forget that." Edward said, as he kissed the top of her head.
She looked up to his eyes and felt what he was saying. The feeling in her heart seemed to magnify once again.
"I won't. And don't you ever forget how much I love you too. Three hundred years was long enough to wait for this. But I'd go for another three hundred if I knew you'd be there waiting for me." Bella said.
She kissed him once more and turned to go into her class. Edward unfroze everything as she was turning the knob. Then he turned and went back to his class.
When Bella sat back in her seat in the classroom, she tried her hardest to block out what had just happened from Emmett and Alice. She didn't want them to distract her with anything. They both looked at her though, with confusion. They had seen her try to hide stuff from them before, but never this well. They both knew something was going on.
What's going on? Did something happen? Emmett thought to Bella.
She shook her head to keep from letting anything slip through.
Later. After I've talked to him further. Bella thought to them.
She stayed focused on keeping them out and thinking about what happened. There was just so much though. This was going to take some time. She had thought through her next two classes without paying any attention to the teacher.
By the time she got to her last class with Edward, she was still holding her thoughts in from Alice and Emmett. But when Edward came into the classroom and sat down with Jasper and Rosalie, she stopped thinking and stared at him for a while, smiling.
You know, someone is going to notice us just staring at each other the whole class. Edward thought to her.
Right now I don't care. I just want to look in your eyes. It brings me peace and happiness. She thought with a huge grin on her face. But she knew she had to look away.
She saw that Rosalie had a very suspicious look on her face. And Jasper could tell something was up between Edward and Bella, but didn't know for sure what it was. It was a little intriguing to him that they were looking at each other like that.
Bella could hear the teacher coming and looked to the front of the class. Edward looked that way too as the teacher walked in.
All through class, they would sneak a peek at each other, and giggle to themselves where no one could hear. They were in their own little world with each other. Even though there were people all around them, it just seemed like it was the two of them.
When class was over, they let everyone leave the classroom. They gathered their things to leave, and Bella made a straight line to Edward's side. Jasper and Rosalie didn't know what their closeness meant. They had never seen Edward so close with any girl before.
"When are we going to know what's going on?" Rosalie asked, a little impatiently.
"When I get to talk to mom and fill her in on what's been happening. Don't worry; I'm not going to keep you guys in the dark. I just need to see if she is going to be on board with any of this." Edward said.
Rosalie gave up. But she wasn't going to let him forget.
They all started walking out to the parking lot together. Bella and Edward didn't touch, but walked incredibly close to each other, where they were almost touching. When they got out to the cars, Rosalie and Jasper got in Rosalie's car and waited. And Emmett and Alice waited between Emmett's blue Jeep and Alice's Porsche. And Bella and Edward stood between their two cars just looking at each other. They were saying everything with their eyes. Most of the students had already left from the parking lot. There were just a few still straggling around, but not paying attention.
I love you. I'll see you tonight. Bella thought to him.
I love you too. I can't wait. Edward thought, then leaned down and kissed her on the cheek.
Bella had to contain herself. So she did not try to kiss him back. She turned and walked to her car and got in. she had a smile stretching across her face. Edward turned and walked to his car too, and drove home behind Rosalie and Jasper.
When Edward pulled in behind Jasper and Rosalie at their home, he saw his mother's car.
"Shit." He took a deep breath. "Ok, let's get this over with." Edward said to himself.
Then he got out and walked to where his mother was unpacking stuff out of her car.
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