Hey guys! So sorry I haven't updated in forever. No need for the excuses. Here's the next chapter!(:
BPOV:
"What do you mean Bella? Why is the engagement off?" Rosalie asked me and I sighed and wiped the tears from my face.
"I broke it off. There is no more engagement between me and Jake." I explained and she looked shocked.
"Bella do you love him?" Esme asked me and I put my head in my hands.
"I don't know anymore." I told her and she smiled sadly.
"What changed your mind?" She asked and I looked at her in confusment.
"What do you mean?"
"What changed your mind about your feelings for Jacob, Isabella? A couple hours ago you were ready to run off to Vegas and marry him. Now you are telling us that you broke off the engagement and you aren't sure if you love him anymore. What changed your mind?" She clarified the question.
"I don't kn-"
"Isabella Marie Swan! You do know! The answer is so obvious. Bella, you were ecstatic with your news when you told your family. You were so excited that you and Jake were taking that next step. Bella, your mind changed at what point?" She asked me again and the teers flooded my eyes again.
"When I told." I said quietly.
"When you told who?" She asked me sadly and I sighed and looked down at my hands.
"When I told you. My mind changed when I told you and you looked at me like I was some sort of a mistake. Like you were disappointed in me. Like anything else I could possibly say would be better than what I actually did say." I replied sadly as the tears leaked over and flowed down my cheeks.
"It was your family that changed your mind Bella. Not your heart. If you had listened to your heart you would still be with Jake and, despite the wrongful looks from your family, you would be happy. Bella, we love you, and I will be the first to admit that I was wrong. I was wrong to make you feel lesser of a person for agreeing to marry the man you are in love with. I was wrong to judge you and to automatically assume that there was another reason behind the engagement rather than looking at the bigger picture and for that I am truly sorry. I love you Bella, as if you were my own birth daughter. Now I know I can't take the place of Rene and I never want to. I know she will always be in your heart and she will always be in all of our hearts. But Bella, you have a family still. You have us. And we will stand by you and support you through anything and everything." She told me and I launched myself into her arms and sobbed into her chest as she rocked me back and forth.
"Thank you so much. I love you like you are my mom too." I told her and I felt her own tears leak onto my shirt and she kissed the top of my head gently.
"Now, we have plenty of time for this later. But right now, you have an engagment to go fix." She told me as I smiled at her as I jumped out of her arms and grabbed my keys and my purse. I climbed into my truck and drove as fast as legally possible to the reservation. When I finally got there I took a deep breath and, after fixing myself in my mirror, I climbed out of my truck and walked around the front of the house to the back. I saw all of Jake's friends crowded around him while he sat with his head in his hands. I sighed and felt my heart break at how sad he looked. I took another deep breath and walked over towards them.
"Bells! Hey I didn't think you were comming! Jake just said something came up." Billy, Jake's dad, said as he wheeled himself over to me.
"Oh hey Billy! No ummm yeah something did come up but I just needed to talk to Jake about something real fast." I explained and he smiled at me and knodded.
"Well no rush Bells. You are welcome to stay for the fire tonight." He told me and I smiled warmly back.
"Thanks Billy. We'll see." I replied before turning my attention back to my mission at hand and walked the last few feet over to where Jake was.
"Hey Bella." Seth, one of Jake's younger friends, said excitedly and I smiled back at him. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Jake's head snap up and all of his surrounding friends turned to look at me with sad expressions on their faces.
"Hey Seth. How are you?" I asked him, not really paying attention to his answer but still wanting to be polite.
"I'm pretty good Bells. Well you look like you are pre-ocupied so when you get a minute we will talk. There is actually something I wanted to run by you anyways. I'll see you later Bells." He told me as he hugged me quickly and I smiled warmly back at him as he walked away. I sighed and turned my attention back to Jake, who was suddenly alone with the exception of his best friend Sam.
"Hey Jake." I said quietly as I judged his reaction.
"Hey." He replied and I could hear the sadness in his voice as it cracked.
"Ummm, can we talk?" I asked him and he sighed but nodded.
"I'll be right over here if you need me." Sam told him sincerely as he patted him on the shoulder and walked away. I sat on the log next to Jake and sighed as I looked down and started playing with my hands.
"Look Jake. About earlier today... Jake I take it all back. I don't know if I can do that. I don't know if I'm allowed to do that and I completely understand if you don't want to take me back after that. But I love you Jake. I love you more than anything in the world. And I know that I called our engagment off earlier but, I would like to call it back on." I got out in a rush before chancing a glance over at Jake, who looked slightly happier.
"Bella, are you serious?" He asked me, hope clear in his voice.
"Yes, I am serious." I told him sincerely as I turned towards him and took his hands in mine. "Jake I love you more than anything in this entire world. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me and I am so happy and grateful that I met you and you have become such a huge part of my life. I made a huge mistake breaking things off with you earlier. I am so sorry and I will do anything to make up for that. Please, just tell me what to do." I begged him.
"What about your family?" He asked me sadly and I smiled at him.
"They are fine with it. They are fine with it and they are going to support us." I told him and he smiled and kissed me deeply.
"I love you Bella. I love you so much." He told me as he pulled away and pulled the ring back out of his pocket and slipped it back on my finger. I smiled and leaned my forehead against his.
"I love you too Jake." I replied before pulling him back in for another kiss. I heard clapping around us and blushed as I pulled away and hid my face in his chest.
"So are you two back together or was that the heated breakup session?" Sam asked and I shook my head and felt Jake's chest rumble with his laugh.
"You tell me." Jake replied as he took my hand and showed all of his friends and family the beautiful ring now sitting in its rightful place on my finger. There were a couple wolf-whistles and cat-calls which made me blush even more and hide my face even further in Jake's chest. His arms tightened around me and he kissed my forehead gently.
"Congrats guys. We are really happy for you." Is all I heard throughout the night and I smiled, said thank you, and blushed every single time.
"Hey babe, you want to get out of here?" Jake whispered in my ear. We were all sitting around the bonfire, me in front of Jake, while he wrapped his arms around my waste.
"Yes." I whispered back and he got up and held out his hand for me. I took it and pulled myself up.
"Hey guys. Thank you all for coming. We will see you all later." Jake told all of his friends.
"Bye Jake! Bye Bells!" They all yelled back. Jake took my hand and led me to his car. I climbed in the passenger seat and relaxed against the seat and closed my eyes.
"You tired baby?" Jake asked me and I smiled over at him.
"Yeah a little. But I'll be fine. Where are we going?" I asked him as I buckled myself and he smiled back.
"La Push." He replied and I giggled and shook my head. Jake loved La Push beach like it was a part of his family. It was where he went to get away and where he always brought me when we wanted time to ourselves. "Don't judge." He told me as he laughed with me and I rolled my eyes at him. We pulled up to the beach and I got out of the car and walked down to the water's edge. I inhaled the smell of the salty water and stretched out. Jake came up behind me and wrapped his arms around my waste. I leaned back into his embrace and inhaled his musky scent along with the beach smell and I felt at home.
"I love you Bella." Jake told me as he kissed the side of my neck. My head fell to the side to give him better access to my neck and I closed my eyes.
"I love you too Jake." I said softly as he turned me around to face him. I wrapped my arms around his neck and closed my eyes as his lips decended onto mine. I threw everything feeling I felt for Jake into that kiss and he did the same for me. It was passionate and getting heavier. He slowly bent me down and laid me gently on the sand. His body completely covered mine and we stayed like that for a while, just letting each feel all the feelings behind our relationship. After a few minutes, the kiss slowed and Jake slowly pulled away. He rolled off of me and pulled me so that my head was on his chest and his arms were wrapped around me.
"That was amazing." He said, slightly out of breath.
"Yes it was." I giggled and cuddled further into his warm embrace. We laid like that for awhile, just letting our feelings for each other course through our bodies and connect us. Everything was quiet except for the sound of the waves crashing not far from the shore. Every few minutes the sound of a hooting owl would ring out in the crisp clear air and we just relaxed, reveling in the silence and comfort that surrounded us. I slowly felt myself begin to drift off and gave myself over to the darkness when I felt as though I could not fight it anymore.
"I love you Isabella Marie Cullen." was the last thing I heard before I drifted off.
Hey guys! So there's that(: hope you liked the chapter! Sorry its taken me soo long to update. My life is crazzzyyyy!
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