Chapter 9
The next few days of work were nothing of unusual. I tried not to get close to any of them. I stayed my distance especially with Niall. After a while, they seemed to do it too. I just followed them and help them with work and nothing more. I sorted out fan mail. Took them to venues and waited for them. I managed to go through twelve books while waiting for them. I felt detached from them but I guess that was the only way I wouldn't get fooled or perhaps fool myself. I only had another month before I started my term. And honestly I couldn't wait to get away.
It was the start of their first ever UK tour. I didn't tell my parents anything either and I knew that if I didn't go for this trip they woulod get suspicious. We were in some room at the airport waiting for the gates to be open for their flight to Edinburg. I sat there reading Happiness Sold Separately by Lolly Winston while listening to Wonderful Tonight by Elton John.
All the boys sat together with Sadie and I sat away from them.
Then Sadie received a call and told us that it was time to board the plane. I put my book in my bag and left the room after all of them did. We walked towards the gate with four security guards following us.
In the plane, I sat next to Sadie and some other guy. I just read through out the entire one hour and ten minutes.
We got off the plane and had little time to settle down or even rest. We got to the hotel room and had our lunch before proceeding to the concert venue for a rehearsal before the show.
I sat backstage and read as they rehearsed. After they rehearsed, there was only a few hours to their actually performance. As usual, I waited backstage for them. Holding on to a few bottles of water.
After performing about five songs, they came back to take some water. And went back out. They talked to their fans and soon Liam hushed everyone and I saw Niall sitting on stage with the other boys. 'We're going to sing something special now'. It was Zayn who was speaking. The entire audience yelled and screamed. I felt nauseous from all the noise. 'You see, I loved this girl. Then I made a mistake. I guess I was wrong and I feel bad but I don't dare to talk to her. I want her to know that well... I was enchanted to meet her'. He shot me a look and for a moment our eyes were locked together. It brought me back to the very first time we met.
The music starts playing and I instantly recognise the song playing. Enchanted by Taylor Swift. My eyes began to tear up. My hands that were holding the bottles of water started to shake and I accidentally dropped them. I bent down to pick them up and Niall starts singing. I fell to my knees and I couldn't help but cry. I ran through the backstage crew to the dressing room.
I slammed the door behind me and stated at myself right in the mirror. My eyes were all red. I could still hear the faint sounds of them singing and the audience clapping along. I sat in a chair and buried my face in my hands. I tried to pick myself up and get out but I couldn't. I had no idea why. He was all I could think about. Sadie came in and held me close to her. 'Come one darling, guess you had a crazy night best get to bed. The car's here to pick you'. I nodded as she held me and brought me out.
I sat silently in the car as I watched the street lights flash pass. I couldn't stop thinking of Niall and what he said. His words in my mind on repeat. 'I loved this girl'. 'loved'.
I got out of the car and made my way up to the room and sat in bed holding the pillow close to me. I was in a daze. I wasn't fooling myself after all. I wasn't just crazy. I was then crazy in love. But I started crying when I thought back about how mean I was to him all this while.
I laid under the sheets and tried to fall asleep. I heard the door opening and people streaming in the hotel room. I heard Sadie telling the boys about their itinerary. They then said goodnight to everyone and I heard door opening and closing. I heard my door click open and then close. I felt someone lying beside me and I turned around. 'Hey' he said. I knew exactly who it was. 'Hey' I said. I tried not to let him see me face because I knew how hard I had been crying. Sadly, I couldn't as the lights were still on. He held my face and looked right at me. I started crying again. He held me close to him and I felt him rest his head on my shoulder. 'Come on love, don't cry' he said as he petted me. I still couldn't stop.
Then I felt something wet on my back and I knew he was crying. I tried to mimic him. I leaned back and grabbed his face. 'Come on love, don't cry'. He laughed a bit and so did I. 'I'm sorry' I said as I held him close again. 'I should be the one who's sorry Val'. 'I was so.. so cold'. 'I shouldn't have lied'. We said nothing more after that. Only thing that could be heard was the occasional sniffing. I felt tired and so I closed my eyes and feel asleep hugging.
I awoke the next day to find Niall sleeping next to me with his arms still around me. Our faces were so close together. He slowly opened his eyes. His eyes were still red but he smiled. I smiled back.
'We best get up' I said as I tried to wriggle out of his grasp. I only managed to get up from the bed when he grabbed my waist and pulled me back in. I laughed but immediately faced away. 'What's wrong?' he asked as he sat behind me and put his arms around me. I said as softly as possible. 'I have bad morning breath'. He let go and burst out laughing like some mad hyena. I tried to get up again but he grabbed onto me even tighter this time. He pulled me back down and rested his elbows on either side of me. 'I love you every way' he said as he leaned in. Our foreheads were pressing together and I could feel the weight of his body on mine. 'I love you' he said as he moved his lips to meet mine. I closed my eyes and we stayed like that for a while, just kissing.
I heard a knock on the door and I pushed him off and went to the bathroom.
I washed up and got out to find him still in my bed. 'Sleepy head' I said as I hit him with a pillow. 'Guess I should go back huh?'. 'You think?'. I pulled him out of bed and hugged him for a while. He then left the room and I continued getting ready. I left my room and wenT to the table where Louis and Sadie were already having breakfast. 'Someone sure is happy' Louis said as he nudged me. I laughed and sat down next to him. Zayn then came out 'Vas happenin?'he said and sat next to Sadie. We all laughed.
I took a muffin and and poured a glass of orange juice. 'Hello lovelies' Harry said as he sat down. 'Good to see you happy Val'. I smiled at him. He had a very serious look on his face as he talk to Sadie with a mouth full of muffin. 'Now Sadie, please hire someone for me ya?'. Sadie replied him calmly 'behave and we'll see'. We all burst out in laugher. Soon, Niall joined us. He gave me a peck on the head before sitting next to me.
The mood that day was definitely a whole lot lighter. The rehearsals seems a lot less stressful too. I didn't realise how much me and Niall affecting everyone. But then it hit me. was going to have to leave all of them sooner or later. I was going to have to put my heart and soul into my studies. I couldn't possibly give my parents' dreams and mine.
