I'm so sorry for taking so long to upload this, I had sort of forgotten about it, until i received a review about in my inbox yesterday. : ) It's not that good of a chapter, but I'll update this story soon with a better one. Review please, I'd really appreciate it.
" Eric." Calleigh whispered.
" I know you don't want to talk about this here, and trust me i know it's not a good place, but I really need to explain things to you Calleigh"
" Eric, I don't think there's anything to explain."
" There's a lot to explain Calleigh and you know that. I know I hurt you, I'm not denying that, and you have no idea how much I regret not letting you know what was going on."
" Why now then?" she harshly asked, now looking straight at him
He was shocked by the intensity in her eyes, which lead him to look down and pull at a small strand of grass. " Because I had time to sit and think about it, to see things from your point of view."
" It took almost losing your life for you to see it Eric?" Calleigh said now hurt.
" Calleigh, i didn't do things to hurt you..."
and before he went any further Calleigh started speaking " Yeah? what about when you threw my past in my face when we got in that argument Eric?"
She didn't give him time to reply " uh? about how messed up my family is, how they always fuck up my life but I still helped them?...You don't think that hurt?"
" I was mad Calleigh, I didn't want listen to what you were telling me and i just reacted...I didn't mean it." Eric said louder, attempting to let make her understand
" You know you meant it Eric " Calleigh added softly but strong at the same time.
" I didn't mean it the way it came out, I was mad and i said it to make you make you mad. And I'm so sorry because I know it hurt you. You have no idea how much i wish i could take it back."
" What's done is done Eric..."
They both heard laughter coming from behind them. Eric looked back and saw his nieces running around the backyard and some of his family members starting to take their place in the backyard at the tables with sodas in their hands, his father and uncle were starting the grill with a beer in their hands. He knew that this wouldn't be a good time to talk about them, because the family would probably start to wonder where they'd disappeared to and he could tell that calleigh had noticed the same thing.
" I know this is not a good time to talk, and I know you don't even want to talk...but I really am sorry calleigh, and I need to explain things to you so that you at least understand where I'm coming from, I'm not asking you to forget what happened and take me back." Eric tried one more time.
" Then what do you want Eric?" She asked looking at him
" I just want you to listen..." Eric replied looking right at her eyes.
Calleigh did not say anything and for a while neither did Eric, he just looked at the sight in front of him and tried to gather his thoughts and voice it to her to make her at least give him a chance to explain.
" you know me better then anyone Calleigh...you know I would never do things to purposely hurt you. If there's a part of you that still cares about me, about us, that misses what we had before this whole disaster started, please just give me a chance to talk to you. That's all I'm asking." Eric started speaking looking towards the lake but by the end he was looking at her.
She knew for a fact that he knew that she still cared about him, because if she hadn't, she wouldn't be here. They'd been friends for years, best friends, and dated for another 7 months, and she couldn't lie about the fact that those were probably the best 7 months of her life, with the exception of those last weeks where things started going downhill with the whole sharova thing. She couldn't deny that during that time he made her feel unconditionally loved, even though the words were never voiced out loud. They had their disagreements from time to time, but nothing that wasn't solved by the end of the day, until now. She couldn't deny the fact that she knew he didn't do things with the intention of hurting her. Eric was the type of person who worn his heart in his sleeve, he always wanted to make others happy, he always found the good in others, but he also tended to forget the bad in them which eventually lead him to trouble. This time it almost cost him his life, and that scared her to death because as much as she hates to admit she depended a lot on him. She hadn't been there the day he was shot, but she remembers the feeling when she found out the officer down was Eric and he had been shot in the head, as if her heart was about to come out of her throat. She didn't think there was a worst feeling then that, but she was proven wrong this time. Even though they weren't talking for a week, things had been rocky even before that and she was still mad at him, when she saw him the car her heart drooped. She knew she had hit him in the car, she rarely missed. And she thought she was going to die when Horatio told her that they had found his car but Eric wasn't inside. There was blood everywhere and Sharova said it wasn't his, which could only have been Eric's. She was there the when they found him laying by the river and what she felt when she saw him was undescribable, she had never been so scared in her life. She was at the hospital every single day, even though he was unconscious throughout all of them, because of the surgery and she didn't return after he had waken up. She cried like never before, even in public and Calleigh was never one to let her emotions show in public, that's how she knew people in the lab knew something more was going on between her and Eric. She couldn't deny that a part of her missed him and still deeply cared about Eric. A big part of her.
And while thinking about all this, She couldn't deny that even through all this, she still found herself falling in love like never before for the man sitting next to her.
