Chapter 8 – No Truth

EPOV

I can't believe I was in love with this girl. I hadn't even taken a second look at any girl and after knowing Bella for less than a week I was in love.

I knew it when I was holding her tonight just looking at her face. It was too bad she didn't feel the same way. Just thinking about that tore me up inside.

I had finished playing a song I just wrote about Bella. It was surprising how much she could influence me. Just two days ago I had wrote her a lullaby on the piano and now the guitar.

I couldn't sleep because of her being in the next room and this song had been ready to explode. But I had to wait until everyone was asleep, not wanting them to hear me. I mean I said I loved the girl in the song. Alice would know who I was referring to immediately.

Jasper knew how I felt and I was praying he didn't tell Alice. But I had to tell someone and that was why I had told him. Bella makes me feel...different. I mean I hadn't played my guitar in years.

I laid on my bed and stared out the window into the darkness. If we lived somewhere else you might be able to see something, but the tall trees that enveloped my house kept away any light from the moon.

I heard a light knock on my door, I probably wouldn't have heard it if I wasn't absolutely quiet. Who would be wanting to see me right now? Esme possibly, sometimes she will check on us.

I put away the notes from the song I just wrote which said 'My Song to Bella' and the notes for the piano piece I wrote saying it was 'Bella's Lullaby.' I went to the door and was shocked to see Bella standing there.

"Bella…we need to talk." I ran my hand through my hair as I led her to my couch. She sat down and I just couldn't help but stare at her.

She was so gorgeous, and it was funny because I knew she didn't see herself that way. She bit her lip and looked down.

I wished she didn't because I wanted nothing more than to stare into her eyes. But asking her to look up would just freak her out.

"Listen Edward I'm so sorry for bothering you right now… but I." The way she hesitated and stuttered just made her even more beautiful.

She drew in a deep breath and even with her head down you could easily see the blush forming on her cheeks. "Edward how do you…feel about…me?"

I was taken aback by her question. I didn't want to lie to her but I couldn't necessarily tell her the truth. I couldn't tell her I liked her because if she didn't like me back things in the house could get awkward.

"You're cool. Why?" The first half wasn't a complete lie, she was cool. But I really 100% wanted to know why.

She blushed so deep her face resembled the fragrance of her hair, strawberries. "I…uh…Alice told me to ask." She stumbled for words as she ran a hand through her hair.

I was hating the fact that she didn't want to ask me on own will. I nodded in understanding as Bella looked up for my current facial expression.

As she stood to leave I stood up too. I don't know what came over me in that second but I reached out and stroked her face.

She bit her lip but kept a straight face. Even so her eyes betrayed her emotions. Shock, flattery, happiness, and…no not love. All of these emotions swelled within her eyes.

I took my hand down and she turned to the door and left. She still seemed dazed. Almost as dazed as I am with her.

The door shut and I went to sleep knowing tomorrow would be awkward after the stunt I pulled.

BPOV

I knew he didn't like me, but hearing it from his mouth was like a blow so hard I could barley live.

While leaving he brought his smooth pale hand up to my face. Whether it was out of pity or…care I would never know.

I would keep that part from Alice and just tell her what he said. I need sleep so I could face Alice in the morning.

Besides she was already asleep. I lay down and close my eyes, I knew tonight would be filled with a restless sleep.