Secret Serenade

A/n: First off my adoring fans completely sorry for long update this has to be the longest writters block in history for all my stories. this by far was the worst i put so much hard work into it. Also if it makes you feel any better the maddest person and biggest fan has been in my ear this whole time pissed off at lack of an update also. my lovely husband... well without firther delay...

p.s. reviews are bloody fantastic! so is watermelon kool aide..

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guardian angel

i give u my heart n let u just hold it

i give u my soul but i already sold it

on theat that day i walked away in december

i will always remember ill regret it forever

i remember blue eyes so sad and blue skies

turn to darkness and night im so sick of this fight

i wont breathe unless you breathe

i wont bleed unless you bleed

i wont be unless you be

til im gone and i can sleep

i was running in circles

i hurt myself

just to find my purpose

everything was so worthless

but to me you were perfect

"... And that "Circles" the latest track from Secret Serenade. Premiered at their latest concert. Although the song is greatly rising the charts extremely fast for less then a week. It's what the lead singer, Phantom had said at the end of their concert that has the fans all riled up. Youtube hits for what he said has more then the song its self. Here at channel one has the first airing of said clip..."

"Did you like the song?" Phantom spoke behind the usual projection screen. He waited for the crowd to settle down and took a deep breathe before he spoke again.

"Now I know since we've begun this band couple years back, you are adoring fans have been dying to find out our true identities. we'll i have an sort of a deal for you... You see a terrible tragedy occured to your very own Phantom a few weeks back. I lost the love of my life. She's the inspiration to our songs and my whole world. I refuse to accept the worst. I know in my heart that she's out there some where. So spread the word out. I looking for 'My blue eyes'. she knows who she is. If you are watching this my love, please return to me. I miss you and love you more then life itself. Im begging you to forgive me and just come back to me. I'm so lost without you. If 'blue eyes' returns i will reveal myself to everyone. The phantom will take off his mask."

"Actually'' The drummer pipped up. "if Blue eyes is found we ALL... Will reveal ourselves."

"There you have it folks. The band plans to reveal themselves if this 'Blue Eyes' is found. fans are going crazy over this. The world's largest missing persons search. As it seems its shocking the police in all countries at how much p.r. this is getting, This message has made several thousand websites, hundreds of headlines, billboards even t-shirts. Over 200 countries from Canada to China. Must be an extremely special girl..."

Eli turned the telly off. It had been weeks since the last phone call from Clare. Her screams continued to fill his ears and the nightmares. the nightmares were getting worse. He hasn't slept a full night since. Her face and that bloody knife haunts him. Julia was no where to be found. He fiddled with Clare's necklace that was around his neck. Had been since that day. refusing to believe she was really dead, he held on to it until the day he returned it to where it belonged. Around his beloved Clare's neck.

Clare. my Clare, he thought, where are you my love. Please come home.

"Hey Eli." Adam said walking in to his room newspaper in hand.

"hey." he managed to choke out.

" They finally ran Clare's missing person report in the Toronto mom picked out a nice picture of her. Thought you'd want to see."

He handed him the paper. Eli looked down at the article tears welled up in his eyes. gently stroking the picture. Adam and the rest of the gang had spent the last few weeks watching Eli slowly die internally. Broke his best friend's heart to see him become like this with nothing he could do about it. Eli looked and felt like hell. spent most of the days drinking heavly. The nights he did get some sleep it wasn't long before the whole house was awoken to the screams. They tried so hard to get him through it. Get him to talk but no avail. So they settled with making sure he showered and ate something daily.

"Any news arcoss the web about her?" asked Eli.

"Nothing yet." Adam sighed sitting on the bed next to him. "We will find her, bro. The whole worlds looking for her. Simpson called yesterday. He says if you dont start attending school again today he will expell you."

"How can i go when shes not there?"

"Look I know its hard but you can't throw your life away for Clare. What if she's really de..."

"DON'T YOU DARE FUCKING SAY THAT!" Eli yelled. "Clare is alive and out there somewhere! she will come back to me."

"I'm sorry Eli." he appologized. "It was out of line. i was just trying to prepare you for the worst."

"she's not dead. OKAY? Now get out so i can shower for school."

Adam walked out the door. Once shut his heart broke as he heard his best friend scream and break glass. Please let Clare be alright, adam begged, He wont survuve without her. he wont.

Eli POV

This was a very bad idea. School was complete hell. Everywhere memories of Clare. i remember her routine like the back of my hand. Everytime i'd should of seen her in the halls. What classes she had. this was just to much to handle. Nothing was the same without her here. i missed her smile. The way she laughed. i could still remember the way she felt in my arms. the feeling of her lips against mine. her blue eyes looking into mine. She saw right into my very soul. i am nothing without her. completely lost.

the students around me acted like nothing was wrong. like Clare was never there to begin with. They went about their day with no problem. i hated them, every single one of them. Even those who 'claimed' to be her friends were oblivious to her disappearance. Blammed it on teenage rebellion. Jokes about 'The Saint Clare' gone naughty sinner filled the halls. i wanted to rip the throats out of everyone who got a laugh out of what was causing me the most horrible pain.

besides the band members, noone noticed my pain. Hell, noone noticed me at all or that i had been gone from school for the last few weeks. Only a small handful of teachers took notice that i was ever gone.

i come to the comclusion that when you truely find love, hold on to it for as long as you can. fight for that person no matter what. Because when its gone. A. youll never ever get over it and B. you realize your nothing without it. no matter how hard you try to move past it. no matter even if you move on to someone else, you will always think about that one and still love them completely. once you give your heart away fully to someone else you will never get it back. To me Clare is that person. my other half the girl who owns my heart completely. I pulled out my phone to send my daily i.m. to her phone praying she will get it along with the hundreds of others.

To BlueEyes

From Phantom112

school is utterly awful without you here. i cant stand not seeing you. i miss you so much baby. i am truly sorry that you think what i feel about you is nothing but a lie. it is not i promise you that i love you. i meant it. please come home. let me prove to you that what i feel for you is real. i wont accept that you are dead. i cant. i wont. i cant breathe without you. i feel like the air is being ripped out of my lungs. i gasp for air. i need you in my life again. i am nothing without you. i will accept it if you hate me and never want to be with me. but please still come home id rather watch you from afar and know that you are safe then never see your beautiful face again.

i love you clare

elijah

end POV

the final bell ran. Eli didnt know exactly how he did it but he made it through a day of school. he needed a drink, bad, but realized it wasnt a good idea. band practice was tonight. the one thing he kept up on. making sure the guys didnt kick him out of the band. it was his best resource to find Clare by using the millions of fans to help. the band understood to a point what she ment to him so they were going along with it. as long as it he checked all that shit at the door. when practicing he was to completely focus on the music. Come in drunk and he was out for good.

walking up to morty eli opened the door to his worst nightmare. Clare's jacket stained with blood, the bloody knife and a lock of her hair. just as he was about to touch them he heard sirens of cop cars pulling up fast behind him. he shrugged off his jacket and threw it over the seat locking the door. Adam was running up to him as the police was stepping out of the car.

"elijah Goldsworthy, you are wanted in questioning for the murder of Clare Edwards." the officer said taking out the handcuffs.

"can i give my keys to my friend? " he asked trying to hide the panic in his voice. "if he dont take my car home they will tow it tonight."

"i guess that will be okay."

eli walked up to adam handing him the keys. and whispered in his ear. "dont touch the seat with bare hands. dont let anyone see and call our lawyer. "

adam hugged his best friend then watched as the officers put him in hand cuffs. As Eli was being stuffed into the backseat of the cruiser he looked over and across the street was julia. sporting a big evil smile on her lips.

adam waited for the crowd to die down and the rest of the band to arrive at the hearse with gloves before he even opened the door. opening it then removing eli's jacket they saw what eli had not wanted the police or anyone else to see.

"holy shit!"

toronto police station

four hours later

"this is complete bullshit!" he snarled slamming his fists on the table of interrigation room number one.

four hours he had been sitting there. no food or water. no human contact just him and the slow tick tock of the clock. it was the police's scare sit behind the two way mirror and wait probably stuffing their faces with coffees and sweer eclares. he was wondering how much longer until they decided to come in and grill him about a night he wish he knew what had happened himself. the he heard it and a smile crept across his face. their was yelling out side of the door. a man and a woman. probably the chief of police and the womens voices he knew all to well. CeCe Goldsworthy and Mrs. williams. The bands smart mouth firey lawyer. eli really was now greatful for adam's mom pestering that we had gotten a lawyer. outside the door he could hear it all.

"you had my client in there for the last four hours. Without a his phone call i might add." said sternly. "By standers also reported the lack of his miranda rights being read."

"elijah is only in there for questioning." the chief stated.

she and CeCe bursted through the door moments later. CeCe walking up to eli. Mama tiger being protective of her cub.

"if your not charging him, then he is free to go. C'mon Eli. "

"But we have yet to question him. By the way how can the boy's family even afford a lawyer that charges two grand an hour?"

"first off. You left this boy in a room for four hours. No phone call probably no food, water or even a bathroom break. His parents could sue you for child indangerment! also it was your mistake not asking him anything. What trying scare tactics on a teenager? One that was only here for 'questioning' not being accused of anything. the ammendments states he has the right not to say anything and the right to a lawyer. i suggust you keep your mouth shut before i have your badge on my desk by the end of the day officer Moore." she said. the chief of police's jaw dropped in complete shock with a bit of fear. "firther more how they afford me as a laawyer isn't any of your buisness. You all have a good day now."

"Aadam called me and told me what happened. All of it." She said as they were driving out of the police station car park.

"Everything?" eli asked nervously.

"Yes everything. Dont worrry what was found on your seat was taken care of properly and i have a guy processing it as we speak for finger prints."

"Julia's will be on it."

"what?!" My mother screatched. "Impossible, shes dead."

"Apparently not. She did this for revenge."

"by the amount of blood." Mrs. Williams stated. "I'd hate to say this hun, but by the amount of blood on everything. Clare really is dead or is seriously injuried. Ive been checking local hospitals within a fifty mile radias looking for jane doe that checked in a few weeks back matching her discription. Nothing yet,"

"We will find her son." Cece conforted him. "We will, i promise."

Band practice went well considering all that had happened today. The guys teased him about being about the police station today. Mrs. Williams being his big hero and saving his small ass. Apparently dthe students had a new name for him. Degrassi's fellon. Well now it gave them more reasons to leave Eli alone. Now that they think he had something to do with clare going missing. No one would be messing with him.

Since the forensics guy had his car for firther testing Eli was forced to walk home. despite his buddies offering to take him home. He felt that the short walk would do him good. it was dark but he knew the neighborhood and he knew it was safe. Halfway home a figure stepped out of the bushes. Cloaked in dark clothes. A hood covering their head and a mask covering their face.

"Why couldn't you have just let her go and gotten over her?"

"Clare?"

a/n: yep i just dropped you right off that cliff didnt i? Well maybe i pushed you, just a little bit... you have no proof! lol ... sorry again for the late update. and i still feel this was too sappy of a chapter wanted to scrub it all but the hubby pushed me to keep it.. hope you all like it... reviews... please...

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