Chapter 9
A/N: So just a warning in advance that there is some pretty strong language in this chapter. So you might want to skip it if you feel strongly about that kind of thing. That being said this is kind of an important chapter, so try not to skip it. And I just want to say thanks for all of the great reviews. You guys are great
They called City Hall and booked an appointment for 4 o'clock that afternoon. That sounded so horrible, booking an appointment to get married.
"Did you call Wallace?" Veronica called from the bathroom where she was straightening her hair.
"Yes, he's going to meet us at City Hall. So's Mac and Weevil. Everything is done." Logan told her, walking in behind her. "You look pretty." He cooed, reaching around and kissing her cheek.
"Thank you. You would look nice too if you put on your clothes."
"What? You don't like my sweatpants?" Logan asked, spinning around to give her a 360 view.
"I love your sweatpants," Veronica assured him. "They're very comfortable. I don't love the thought of you wearing them to our wedding, though."
"I'm going to get dressed right now." Logan promised, walking out of the bathroom and into the bedroom.
Veronica finished her hair and followed him, walking to the closet where her dress was hanging. She stood and stared at it for a few minutes, thinking about what it meant. She was getting married today. She was marrying the man she loved, and her friends were going to be there, but she felt so alone. She was getting married without Lily, and most importantly without her father. She wanted more than anything to be happy right now and she was, she really was, or at least she was trying to be, but there was an all encompassing sadness that went along with it.
"You okay?" Logan asked, rubbing his hands up and down her arms softly.
"I'm fine."
"You have your thinking face on," he shook his head. "Come on."
"I just-" She cut herself off, looking at the floor and back at her dress. "I just want to be happy. That's all I wanted for my wedding day. I wanted to be the happiest I had ever been, but I can't, because my best friend is dead and my dad was murdered and I don't know what to do anymore. But I love you and I'm happy I'm marrying you. I'm just confused." Tears welled up in her eyes. "I miss Lily and I wish my dad was here. God, Logan, why do our lives have to be so messed up?"
"Because if they weren't, we wouldn't be us and this wouldn't be Neptune," he sighed, wrapping his arms around her.
Veronica smiled sadly and turned in his arms, leaning her forehead against his chest. "I just really want Lily," she whimpered.
"I know you do," Logan sighed, feeling the same way. "Do you want to go visit her afterwards?"
"Ya, actually." Veronica looked up, surprised with herself. "That would be really great."
"Okay," he smiled.
Veronica reached up and kissed him. "You're pretty great, you know that?" she smiled, wiping her eyes.
"Somebody might have mentioned it once or twice. Get dressed. We're going to be late."
When they arrived at City Hall Wallace, Mac and Weevil were waiting outside. Mac was wearing her dress and she looked beautiful. Wallace and Weevil were both in jeans and button downs. Logan wore slacks and a shirt and tie, and Veronica looked beautiful in her dress. Wallace made the first move, pulling her into a hug, and Weevil quickly followed suit.
"You're looking pretty good, V."
"Thanks, Weevil." Veronica blushed and backed towards Logan.
"Alright, we have a wedding to go to!" Logan smiled bigger than was probably necessary and grabbed Veronica's hand, pulling her inside at a bit of a run.
They were ushered into a Judge's chambers, and Veronica and Logan stood in front of a desk, holding hands as they were instructed.
"We should have gotten you some flowers." Mac realized, looking around.
"Maybe next time," Veronica joked.
"I wasn't planning on there being a next time," Logan pointed out.
Veronica smiled and gave him a quick peck on the lips.
"Could you avoid doing that until I've finished?" A man asked, walking in. Veronica jumped slightly and blushed.
"I'm Judge Walker. Shall we get started?"
"Sounds good." Logan smiled.
The ceremony went off without a hitch. Veronica successfully kept her nervous breakdowns to a minimum and smiled close to the entire time.
"You may now kiss the bride," Walker finally finished.
Logan grinned from ear to ear, wrapped his arms around Veronica's waist and pressed his lips to hers, still smiling. Veronica's friends clapped and Mac wolf whistled. When they pulled away Veronica grinned back at him, then looked over at her friends. She was really happy right now. Nothing else, just happy.
"So where are we going to celebrate!?" Mac asked grabbing Veronica's hands and performing a strange dance that ended with spinning as they stood in the parking lot.
"We'll meet you guys somewhere, but first we have a stop to make." Logan said, pulling Veronica away towards his X-terra.
"Mama Leonne's in an hour?" Wallace offered.
"Ya, we'll see you there." Veronica smiled before climbing into the car.
The drive to the cemetery was quiet. Logan held Veronica's hand over the gear shift, rubbing circles with his thumb. Once they had parked, he led her to Lily's gravestone.
"Have you ever been here?" he asked, noticing that she was just following behind him.
"Not since the funeral," she shook her head. "You seem to know where you're going, though."
"I've been here a couple times," he agreed. "On her birthday and our anniversary. When you and I started dating."
"Really?" Veronica looked up at him.
"I just felt like I should tell her," he shrugged and Veronica nodded.
"I dream about her sometimes when I would have needed to talk to her if she were here," she told him. "I think it was easier than coming here."
"And here we are," Logan squeezed her hand, stopping in front of a headstone. "I'll leave you two alone."
He kissed her temple kindly and started towards a spot up a small hill and Veronica realized that he was going to see his mom.
"Hi Lily," she smiled sadly, taking a seat in the grass. "I'm sorry I haven't come see you before now, but- you know why I wasn't here. You don't need me to explain. My dad died this week. He was murdered, by Cassidy Casablancas. That seems to be happening a lot around me. I'm really tired of it. I got married today Lily. I wanted you to be there so badly, but you would have loved my dress."
She could almost hear Lily's impatience. "God, Veronica Mars! Get to the good part! Who the hell married you?"
"I married Logan. I know he was your boyfriend and everything, but I also know that you would have liked us together. I love him Lily, more than anything. I just wish that you could have stood beside me and that my dad could have given me away. I got married in a courthouse Lily, and that doesn't bother me. It was fine-" She started to tear up.
"I just wish you could have been there. Whenever I thought about getting married, I always saw you standing beside me, and Dad giving me away. I needed you today, Lily. More than I needed my Dad, more than I needed Logan, I needed you. I just want you to come back. Dammit Lily!" She choked out a sob. "Why did you have to go and get yourself killed? What possessed you to get involved with Aaron Echolls? God Lily!"
From the corner of her eye, she could see Logan walking towards her, but she chose to ignore him.
"You were a bitch sometimes, you know that? I love you, but you're a bitch. And I hate that you're dead, because all I want is for you to run over and kiss me like you used to- or to find you having sex with the best man in a bush during my reception. I don't care if I find you making out with Logan! God, I don't care what you do! Just come back! Please, Lily! I can't do this without you anymore! I just can't!"
Veronica knew she sounded hysterical and she probably looked it, sitting on the ground sobbing and screaming at a piece of stone. She knew Logan was there, but he stayed off to the side, watching and waiting until she really needed him.
"I miss you, Lily. I know I've said it a million times, but it's true. I miss you. I just wish you could come back, even if it was just for a few seconds." She sat silently for another minute, still crying.
"I'm sorry, Lily. I'm so sorry." She kept repeating it, over and over until Logan finally came over and sat down beside her.
"Hey, Lil! So I guess Veronica told you about what happened. I know you're probably so excited that Lucifer is screaming at you to calm the fuck down and sit your ass in a chair. We were pretty happy, too." He looked over and put an arm around Veronica's shoulder. "I know you missed the wedding, but I figured you would want to have a celebratory drink with us."
He pulled a flask out of his pocket and handed it to Veronica, who smiled and took a sip, before handing it back. Logan took a sip himself, and then poured some over the gravestone.
"Here's to us." He smiled, and Veronica leaned into him.
"To us," she echoed. "The three musketeers."
"You ready to go?"
"Ya," Veronica sighed and started to pull herself up. "I'll see you soon, Lily. Sorry I stayed away for so long."
"She'll come back and tell you about the wedding night!" Logan called from a few feet away and Veronica smacked him.
