Hey Everyone, so sorry for the long wait and all! Have been distracted by other TV shows and fanfictions and movies etc. You know how it is I'm sure! so to make up for it I will post two chapters tonight and one in the morning and then a few more in quick succession I hope! so enjoy! Disclaimer as always!
First break up
"Did I hear you right? Cause I thought you said, let's think it over?"
"I did."
"What do you mean, think what over?"
"This. Us." Hermione's heart did a bit of a flip at the word us, but landed hard in light of the reason it was being said.
"Why Draco, it's been wonderful up to now!" Or rather up to the point in time where he became more thoughtful, she couldn't quite put a finger on when that was but he had somehow drawn into himself a little bit and she was confused as to why he would do that.
"I don't know that we work together, it's just..." he paused, trying to come up with an understandable reason why he started this conversation in the first place, his mind was so riddled with doubts that it was hard to string a sentence of words together that made sense.
"It's just that all through Hogwarts we hated each other, what if something were to happen and you realised that we still do but we've been , I don't know, acting or something." This was an even more foreign Draco than the one that showed up just 4 months ago, asking her on a blind date. This Draco even scared her more than Hogwarts Draco ever did, he was too emotional, too calculating, not living in the moment like she always saw him doing.
"We were teenagers, raging hormones and all, this is different. We are both mature adults, or at least I am, unless you've got a better reason than that to be having this conversation."
"But I was a death eater..."
"No, you weren't. You were led wrong, you failed miserably to be who they wanted you to be. You are Draco Malfoy, where are all these doubts coming from?"
"I just don't think this relationship is going to work." Draco huffed, now he was getting mad, why couldn't this stubborn woman see that he was trying to be nice, let her off easy before he ruined everything they had built together.
"That's not a good enough answer, why are we even having this argument. Maybe you need to simmer down a little bit, I'll go get us..." Hermione made a move towards the kitchen, planning to go and make anything that might give him some time to realise he was being ridiculous.
"You were so good with them." His voice was barely a whisper, she was lucky to have heard the last couple of words and sum up the rest herself.
"What?" She stopped mid stride towards the kitchen and half turned to him again.
"The children okay, all the little kids, you were so good with them. And clearly you want some of your own; your best friend already has three. I can't give you that, This is me we are talking about..."
"Stop, just stop." She interrupted him by throwing up her hands and slicing them through the air. "This is bullshit and you know it, I'm not going to listen to this anymore, I never said I wanted children, I'm not pressuring you." Hermione's exasperation was thickening the air and it was contagious. Draco stood from his place on the sofa.
"You know deep down that's what you really want, security and a family and I can't give you that. So maybe it will be better just to..."
"No don't...say it." Hermione's eyes widened and pricked with tears, after only four month she couldn't imagine what she would be going back to if he broke up with her. But the tears felt a little excessive. She, the Griffindor princess never cried and she wasn't about to start now. Especially over some Slytherin asshole who was doubting himself like a school boy. He was putting words in her mouth. No-one ever did that to her, no-one ever just dumped her on a whim either. It was better just to end it herself and save the pain of being the one left in the dirt. All this would end as soon as she left him anyway.
Draco saw her face harden and knew this time he had pushed to far, maybe he should of just let sleeping dogs lie.
"Hermione, I..." she stopped him again, it was too late for him to come to his senses, she had made up her mind.
"Well, I'm sorry that I left you so far behind me, obviously I took this relationship for granted and jumped to too many conclusions about it being black and white and us not having to change anything about it." Draco flinched at ever climax of her sentences. But he couldn't stop the tirade.
"Maybe it would just be better for us to break up and never see each other again. That's what you want isn't it. Well here you go, you've got it."
"Wait a second, I'm not going to be dumped by some filthy mudblood." It was too late to stop the words before they spilled out of his mouth. He was so mad at her stubbornness and on some level at his own secret fears that caused all this.
As soon as the words were out he could practically see the bruise on her cheek as though he had just slapped her. She was dazed and he could practically hear the shattering of her heart like glass dropped on a hard floor.
She disappeared in a whirl and he knew he had done his dash, it was over.
Next one will literally be up momentarily.
