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Italic- flashbacks

Italic and Bold- lyrics of song


It hurts to love someone and not to be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.


Normal POV

A week had passed since the day Mikan and Natsume went to the cliff. They opened up to each other and they were acknowledging their presence after that.

"Hey, Mikan-chan!" Koko greeted.

Mikan turned around and saw Koko running towards her with Nonoko.

"What's up?"

"I noticed that you and Natsume are closer now?" Nonoko wiggled her eyebrows while Koko just chuckled.

"What are you talking about? I just accepted him as my friend," Mikan said. Nonoko and Koko just shrugged but they their smirks didn't wipe out from their faces.

"Seriously? You guys are just... urgh!" Mikan whipped around and started to walk as her two cousins kept teasing her.

They went into their classroom and Hotaru stood up.

"Hey, Mikan," she greeted with a small smile on her face.

"What's up Hotaru?"

Mikan sat on the desk of Hotaru and let out a tiny smile just for Hotaru to see.

"There will be new students," Hotaru said.

"Really? Do you know who are they?" Mikan asked. Hotaru just shrugged and focused her gaze to the people who just entered the room. Natsume Hyuuga with his friends. They walked to their seats except from Natsume who stood beside Mikan.

"Yo."

"What a nice way to greet me, Hyuuga," Mikan said, rolling her eyes.

Natsume just grabbed her wrist and led her to their seats.

"Did you hear that there will be new students?" Mikan asked.

"Yeah, Kitsuneme kept fussing about those new students a while ago."

"Do you know them?"

"No. But we will see them later," Natsume said. Youichi then slipped next to Mikan and smiled at her.

"How's your morning Mikan?" Youichi asked.

Mikan looked at him with one eyebrow raised and said, "I think you already know... about that."

Natsume looked confused but decided not to say anything.

"Oh. Sorry," Youichi mumbled but loud enough for Natsume to hear. He doesn't know what were they talking about.

"Do you know who are the new students?" Mikan asked, dismissing the subject earlier.

"Yeah, but not the other one. There's a student who's going to transfer here that I know because he's in my precious class," Youichi replied.

"He?" she asked.

"Yeah, it's Tsubasa Andou," Youichi said.

"The guy with the midnight blue hair?" Natsume asked but he's not looking at Youichi.

"Yup, he's the second popular guy here in school," Youichi said.

"Then, what rank are you on?" Mikan asked.

"4th because 3rd is Ruka Nogi," Youichi answered.

"And you're the number one popular girl here in school, Mikan-chan!" a girly voice exclaimed behind them.

"Anna, since when did you get here?" Mikan asked.

"She's not the only one here ya know," Kitsuneme said, appearing beside to Anna.

"And you must meet Tsubasa Andou! Do you know that he's really popular!" Anna squealed. Natsume and Youichi scowled at that.

"Don't worry because you two are closer to Mikan than that Tsubasa," Kitsuneme remarked, noticing their scowls on the two lad's faces.

"Who said that I care?" Natsume then turned around.

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Mikan's POV

I already knew it. I already knew that he doesn't give a damn about me but why? Why does it hurts coming from him? I already thought about it before and I decided to act normally around him. But how can I possibly do that if deep inside I'm expecting something to happen?

"Do you know who's the other one?" I heard Youichi asked.

"Yeah! He's Kaname Sonou," Kitsuneme answered.

"Wait, the blonde one that Andou's hanging out with before?" Youichi asked.

Before? That means they are not hanging out now? Why?

"Why?" I asked.

"Ummm... I don't exactly know what happened but I already know them since I was like... 9 years old, I think. We were in 4th grade and they were really the best buddies but when they were 5th grade, I noticed how distanced they became and I have no idea what happened," Anna said.

"Maybe they had a fight and it's really big that they are now pretending that they are not seeing each other," Kitsuneme muttered.

"Then why are they going to transfer to the same class?" Youichi asked.

Wow. Who knew that Youichi can be a little nosy sometimes. But I'm also quite curious at what happened to these two guys.

"That... I don't really know. Maybe they somehow manage to make up?" Kitsuneme said.

"Sorry mate, but you have to move now because Narumi-sensei will come soon," Ruka said, stopping beside Youichi. He nodded to him before proceeding to his seat. Ruka then smiled at us before sitting down next to Natsume.

Narumi then twirled into the class wearing... arrghh! a frilly top with puffed sleeves and... denim shorts. What the heck?

"Ohayou! I think you already heard that we are having new students today," Narumi said.

The class burst into murmurs and giggles. I couldn't help but to roll my eyes. There they go again.

"Please give a warm welcome to Tsubasa Andou and Kaname Sonou!" Narumi said in high pitched tone.

Then after a moment, two guys walked in. A blonde with brown eyes and a midnight blue haired guy with azure eyes and he has a star tattoo under his left eye. What? Blue haired guy with star tattoo under his left eye? Why he seems so familiar? When did I saw him?

"I'm Kaname Sonou. I'm from the Class WhiteStallion," he bowed and then smiled charmingly to the class.

"Tsubasa Andou. I'm from Class BlackRose," the blue haired guy said before letting a small smile, or rather a fake smile to the class. It's obvious that he doesn't want to be here so why the heck did he transfered here?

"Welcome to our Class MoonLight! Kaname-san will sit next to Kitsuneme," Narumi said. Kaname nodded and walked to the 2nd row.

"And you Tsubasa-san will be next to You-ch-," he trailed off when he saw the murderous glare that Youichi was giving him. I don't need to see it because I already knew what's going on in Youichi's mind.

Narumi cleared his throat and pointed a shaky finger to Youichi. Looks like that Andou got the point so he settled down next to Youichi but not before squinting his eyes on me which I returned with a glare. I think he knows me.

End of Mikan's POV


Normal POV

Lunch time came and Mikan decided to take a walk outside because she suddenly lost her appetite seeing the girls in the cafeteria swooning over the new students. She halted to a stop at the Sakura tree and it's kinda strange because Natsume isn't there when he's supposed to be there everyday.

"Hey!" a voice called out. Somehow it's familiar to her. She looked up only to see the new kid sitting on the branch of the Sakura tree.

"What are you doing here? You're supposed to be at the cafeteria, right?" Mikan asked. She's confused as to why that blue haired kid just appeared out of nowhere.

"I was. But those girls were irritating the hell out of me," Tsubasa jumped and landed perfectly in front of Mikan.

"Then why are you here?" Mikan asked impatiently.

"I found this place peaceful so I was hoping I could get any nap but... you came and started asking me questions," he pointed out. Mikan scoffed and sat down under the shade of the Sakura tree.

"Don't bother me," she said.

"Don't you remember me?" Tsubasa asked. Hope filled his eyes and Mikan couldn't help but to stare at them.

"What do you mean?" she asked, eyebrows furrowed.

All of his hope died and he put a neutral face before walking away leaving a very confused Mikan. How ironic, she also wishes that a certain someone will also remember her and yet she doesn't know what Tsubasa was talking about.

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"Hey! Guess what!" Nonoko exclaimed. Mikan blocked her ears and looked at her with narrowed eyes.

"What?" she hissed.

"We are going shopping tomorrow because obviously we have no school," Nonoko replied.

"Yeah and we will be having a night swimming after!" Koko yelled in excitement.

"So?"

Koko and Nonoko's faces fell. They stared at Mikan like she's some kind of alien.

"You are not going with us?" Nonoko yelled.

"Why should I?" Mikan said nonchalantly.

"You should go because almost the whole class will also come!" Koko answered.

"That doesn't mean that I should go too."

"You're no fun, Mikan-chan! Pretty please," Nonoko pleaded.

"No," Mikan said in firm voice.

"Pleeaaassseeee," Koko and Nonoko begged.

"No. And if you don't mind, I'm going to my room now," she then stood up only to be grabbed by her two cousins who have a firm grip on her leg. She twitched in annoyance and sighed.

"I said I don't want to go!" Mikan hissed but that didn't make the two to budge.

"Mikan, don't be a kill joy!" Nonoko said.

"And a party pooper!" Koko added.

"We just want you to.. have some fun. Your father... And your career... You don't have any photo shoots right? Or any meeting in your company? So why not just come with us?" Nonoko asked softly. That hit the spot.

"Okay... I'll go," Mikan said, presenting them a small smile. Koko and Nonoko grinned and gave each other a high five.

"Mikan, can you play the piano?" Nonoko asked.

"Why are you being... arrghh! Fine," Mikan then stalked off to a room and the two followed behind. It's a room where different instruments are neatly organized. Mikan sat on the stool next to the piano, positioned her fingers and her foot on the pedal. Nonoko and Koko watched closely with smiles on their faces.

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Koko and Nonoko's POV

I wouldn't get tired in watching and listening to her songs. How she plays with passion, I will never forget that. Music relived her when she's depressed and... feeling lonely especially since that accident happened. I just wish that the old Mikan will come back sooner with Natsume on her side now. Like before.

End of Koko and Nonoko's POV

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Mikan took a deep breath before stroking the keys in the piano. Her face is blank but her eyes is full of contentment.

Saigo no kisu wa tabako no flavor ga shita
Nigakute setsunai kaori

Ashita no imagoro ni wa
Anata wa doko ni irundarou
Dare wo omotterundarou

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love song
Atarashi uta utaeru made

"Mikan-chan!" a brown haired woman called out.

"Mommy!" little Mikan waved at her mother. Her mother had short brown hair and hazel eyes with golden specks on it.

"We are going to your dad's office," she took Mikan's small hand and led her outside their mansion.

"Mommy, daddy's going to stay at work again?" the 10 year old Mikan asked.

"Yeah and that's why we have to go to his office so we can give him his dinner," her mother held up a medium bento and Mikan smiled happily.

"Put your seat belt on, sweetheart," her mother reminded her. Mikan did what she told her to do. Her mother also put her seat belt on.

Her mother revived the engine and started driving.

Tachidomaru jikan ga
Ugoki dasouto shiteru
Wasureta kunai kotobakari

Ashita no imagoro niwa
Watashi wa kitto naiteru
Anatawo omotterundarou

You will always be inside my heart
Itsumo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
I hope that I have a place
in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made

"Your father really wants to see you so he told me to tag you along," her mother chuckled.

"I also want to see daddy! I also can't wait for our vacation in France!" Mikan squealed.

"You're too excited! I also can't wait to go there!

The two of them continued to laugh and talk. The bento suddenly fell from Mikan's lap so it rolled over.

"I'm gonna get it," Mikan tried to reach it but she's small so she couldn't.

"I'll try sweetheart," her mother said.

"No, I can do this so you will just drive there mommy," Mikan insisted.

"Okay."

She couldn't help but to glance a few times to her child. After a few tries, Mikan finally got a grab on it. Her mother sighed in relief and looked at Mikan briefly.

"Mommy, see! I to- MOMMY!"

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Mada kanashii love song
Now and forever

Mikan finished the song and her two cousins applauded.

"That's a really beautiful song, Mikan-chan!" Nonoko said.

"Yeah! You know, you should perform and who knows! You might become the new popstar!" Koko exclaimed.

"Have no doubt about it. Koko's right! You are definitely going to be a reaaally good singer!" Nonoko said.

"I have no plans to become a singer," Mikan muttered.

"Why not?" Koko asked with a yawn.

"You should sleep now. Maybe, I'll try some instruments here first before going to sleep," Mikan said.

"Alright. Good night Mikan-chan," Nonoko hugged her and Koko waved at her.

"G'night Mikan-chan," Koko said before walking from the room with Nonoko behind her.

Just because her eyes don't tear, that doesn't mean that her heart doesn't cry. Because even her face shows nothing, that doesn't mean there's no swirling emotion in the pit of her stomach. And just because she happens to be strong outside, that doesn't mean she's not breaking inside.


"First Love" by Utada Hikaru

There's a piece of flashback on this chapter and there will be more on later chapters!

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