A.N.: This is it… THE END of the Boy I Missed… Beautiful story… my favorite…. I never knew that this this story would be this popular. It's been about nine or ten days since I started this story and it was fun. I thank all of you who wrote comments and gave me ideas. For those like Darkangelzone and Thegentlequeen who have been with me since day one. The two of them kept me going with Suspian this and Jacksan (I just now made that up) that… Truthfully this is what I planned in the beginning but I didn't think it would work… hold tight… have tissues handy… and don't forget to Review. ;) I'm planning on another Suspian! All I can say is
9. Wake up, Wake up Dreaming
"Good evening, your highness" A faun bowed at Susan, as she entered the dining hall.
"Excuse me" Susan bowed back and walked on. She gave up on wearing full dresses several days back. They got in the way, got caught on things. Susan has ruined two of her favorite gowns. Caspian loaned her and her sister trousers. Poor Lucy, hers were so big on her, Susan spent hours hemming them so they would fit. Susan didn't like pants too much, but it was better than ruining her elegant gowns.
"You look well," Caspian said, pulling out a chair for her.
"I don't feel well," Susan said under her breath.
"How so?" Caspian asked, taking his seat next to her. Peter sat on the other side of Caspian with a pouty visage.
"it's hard to explain" Susan said, "Hey Lucy?"
"Yes?" her sister looked up from her plate.
"I think one of your stories would lighten the mood" Susan said, "would you tell us the story about how you to here and about Mr. Tumnus? Or even better, that dream about Aslan, the one in the forest?"
"Sure" Lucy took one last bite of her food and everyone went quite. Lucy was a great story teller because she remembered almost every detail of everything she has experienced. The twelve year old cleared her throat and began her story.
"It was the first evening of the last time we returned to Narnia. Everything has changed and everything was strange. My siblings and I were trying to find our way across the gorge to get to Aslan's How. I was lying awake staring at the stars thinking about Aslan because he helped us cross the gorge, but I was the only on to see him. Susan rolled over and asked me we she didn't see Aslan. I told her I didn't know and that maybe he didn't want her to see him. Susan looked sad and betrayed. I believe she thought that Aslan didn't trust Peter, Ed and her. We both wondered if he meant for us to return. Susan sighed sadly saying that she was finally getting used to London and living a normal life. I just had to ask her if she liked it here in Narnia, and that she was glad to be back. She told me that she I'll like it while it lasts but wouldn't get her hopes up because we'll be going back once we are not needed anymore. That made me feel sad, because I knew it was true. Before I knew it, it I was asleep. I woke up to a rustling sound. I looked back at my family, and then I chased after whatever was there. I climbed up the hill and heard giggling. I turned and smiled at pink flower peddles flowing on the wind. There were two sets, and they were both giggling. One formed into a woman with long flowing hair. I laughed lightly as they floated around me. They lead me to a ridge where the trees moved out of the way to show Aslan. I was so happy that I ran up to him and hugged his fluffy, golden mane. We both laughed happily at our reunion. WE missed each other very much. I asked him where he has been and where was he when Narnia need him the most. Why he didn't help us. He told me that things never happen the same way twice… Then I woke up… It was a dream."
"That is it" Susan said, "Things never happen the same way twice. That is the answer…"
"What are you talking about?" Caspian asked, shoving food into his mouth.
"The answer to my question" Susan said, "I know why I'm here… I'm here solely to change the course of time, to stop something from happening again, to give my throne completely up to Caspian. I can't be crowned queen twice."
"What?" Caspian rose to his feet, "What are saying."
"Many of the Narnians still call me queen" Susan explained, "But I can't be queen twice. Even though marriage."
"No!" Caspian shouted, "Don't say that! You can't mean it. After all that has happened. You,you are going to leave me again?"
"I'm sorry, Cass" Susan said sadly, "But this is not my real home."
"Does that mean you love Jack more than me?"
"No, I love you Caspian," Susan said boldly, "It's just not meant to be."
"Sue" He whispered, "I can't lose you again."
"Don't cry, baby" Susan said softly and embraced him, "I love you… It's just I can't be here to love you."
"I don't want to lose you," Caspian held her close to him.
"Where do I stand?" Jack stood from a small table in the corner, "If I may ask?"
"Shut up" snarled Caspian.
"no" Jack said and raised his eyebrows.
"Not now, Jack" Susan ordered. Jack stood down by letting go of the hilt of his blade, "Jack, I like you, but I realized it's not in the way you think. Can we just be friends?"
"What are you saying?" Caspian asked.
"I choose neither of you," Susan said, pulling away from Caspian, "I can't be with one of you without thinking about the other."
"Sue?" Peter began.
"No Peter, stay out of this," Susan snapped at her brother.
Peter began to talk again, but Lucy's foot stomped on his. He bit his lip to keep from crying out.
"you can't be serious, Sue" Jack said stepping closer to her and Caspian.
"I just want us all to be friends, for as long as we are on this voyage" Susan said, "No fights, no name calling and no touching me… or any sort."
"I can't be friends with, with this buffoon" Caspian pointed at Jack, "I tried to kill me and he killed Reepicheep."
"I can't be friends with this stuck up bastard" Jack said, "He gets everything he wants on a silver platter."
"That is not true" Caspian snarled, "My uncle killed my father and took the throne right from under my baby feet. I had to fight him to stop get the throne back and restore the peace in Narnia."
"Well I'll have you know, I'm fatherless too" Jack said, "He died on the journey to America from Ireland. A horrible illness killed him before we even knew he had it."
Caspian looked sad for a second.
"Look I'm sorry about your father and your uncle, I'm sorry about my father. The fact that you are a king now makes your life easier than a poor boy who only gets his money from fencing lessons."
"I'm sorry too, but the fact that you almost killed me doesn't change my feelings about you" Caspian said.
"So that settles it" Susan said, "behave, both of you… you both are fatherless and had a rough time. Keep that in mind next time you fight, both with words and or blades."
"Yes, m'lady" Jack bowed respectfully at Susan. Caspian nodded.
"good," Susan said, "I'll be watching you. Now, that was tiring, I'm going to retire."
"Wait for me" Lucy jumped to her feet and ran after her sister.
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"Did you think I did the right thing?" Susan asked her sister.
The two of them are the only girls on the ship, so the share their own room right off of main room where everyone else besides Caspian sleeps. This room was once storage, but it was easily converted into a small living quarters for the two queens.
"I think so" Lucy said, "but it's up to you if it was the right thing or not. What do you think?"
"I think I did the right thing" Susan said, "I just wonder what they think."
"It'll take a while for them to get used to the change" Lucy said, "give them time."
"I will" Susan said, "You know I will."
A.N.: That is it… the end… Surprised? I hope you are… the next story… will be the sequel and it'll continue right where this one leaves off.
