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As the rain poured down outside, Rey walked through the Falcon. She found Chewbacca in the cockpit, fussing with the freighter's hyepertranscevier. Amongst him were wires tool, and surprisingly a number of porgs surrounding him. She almost smirked at the sight. The Wookie had made a number of friends in the porgs since their arrival.

"Still can't reach the Resistance?" she asked him. Chewie roared a no to her. She felt a little disappointed. "Keep at it. If you get through, check their status. Ask if Jania's around too. I have some questions I need answered and ask about Finn."

The Wookie gave her another growl, promising that he would. She turned and worked her way back to the outside ramp, being mindful of the dozen of porgs and their nests throughout the ship. She guessed that whenever they had made it back to the Resistance, they would not only be bringing Luke with them, but some extra cargo as well.

As she made her way outside, the air felt damp. The rain started to pour down the edges of the ship and it caused her to smile. On Jakku, she had only known the hot desert. Finding water some days was even a challenge. The water was beautiful. The sound. The feeling. She reached out and let some of the droplets fall on her hand. It even felt amazing.

The sea was roaring loudly. The waves were violent and hitting the rocks and cliffs hard to the point where she was getting sprayed with water. She didn't mind it though. In a way, it was very peaceful.

Soon, her sense picked up on something else She stared out at the grey sea area and the next moment she blinked, she felt her a pit in her stomach. That familiar pull was calling to her once more and soon she was once again face to face with Kylo Ren.

Kylo stayed silent for a moment, staring at her curiously."Why is the Force connecting us? You and I?" he suddenly spoke. "I understand why it connected me with Jania...but with you...what's so special about you?"

Rey only blinked at him, slightly wondering what he meant by that. She made a mental note to ask Luke more about Jania's relationship with Kylo Ren at another time. Better yet, perhaps she needed to ask the redhead herself the next time they saw one another. There seemed to be some sort of bond between the two of them. It ran deep.

"Murderous snake" she sneered, as her eyes locked onto his. He walked closer to her and she flinched slightly, but she kept her stance. "You aren't really here–you can't touch me. I'm safe."

Ren peered closely at her and in that moment, she realized that he could see the spray of water from the sea, hitting her. She swallowed dryly, and her heart began to beat fast. "For someone who's safe, you're awfully afraid."

"You're too late" she shot back at him. "You lost. I found Skywalker."

He smirked at that comment, amused by it. The scavenger thought highly of herself and her mission. Yet, if she had been truly successful, then why hadn't Skywalker shown himself then. "How's that going?" he finally spoke. Then his eyes flashed. But he knew his uncle better than her. He knew the truth of what had happened that fateful night. Why his uncle had spent years hidden in some far corner of the galaxy. "Did he tell you what happened? The night I destroyed his temple, did he tell you why? Has he told you about Jania?"

"I know everything I need to know about you" she countered. But she was taken aback. Luke hadn't told her anything about the night Kylo destroyed the temple and the extent of Jania's involvement in all of this. She wondered why? Come to think of it, there were still many answers she was still trying to seek. Skywalker had his secrets and it was a mission in itself to decipher them.

"You do" Kylo asked, peering at her intently. He smiled. "You do. You have that look in your eyes from the forest, when you called me a monster."

He walked closer to her and once he was in within a meter or two of Rey, she heard her breath hitch. She wondered what would happen if she didn't move and the two of them ran into each other. Could she get into his mind as he could into hers? Was it possible for the two of them to even touch? This connection still made no sense to her and somehow, she knew that he felt the same way.

They were both in uncharted territory. Learning more and more, but also questioning a great deal.

"You are a monster" she snapped at him. She remembered how she felt the moment he controlled her movements on Takodana. The moment she witnessed him kill his own father on Starkiller Base. Kylo Ren was terrifying. She stared at him and was almost shocked. His eyes were full of hurt and conflict.

He took a deep breath. Monster. He was all too familiar with that word. Jania had felt her. He felt it in himself. "Yes, I am" he spoke.

With that Rey found herself alone once more. She was left watching the waves of the sea breaking onto the stone cliffs. Once again whatever connection she and Kylo Ren had, it barely lasted. She hoped it would be the last time, but she knew deep down that it would only keep happening.


Poe sat silently fuming, beside C'ai as they were briefed on the procedures and protocol in evacuating the Anodyne by Commander D'Acy. He had gone in and out of listening to what the plan was. He knew he should have been paying more attention, but no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't.

Jania lied to him.

She had been lying to him for days. Hell, it could have been longer. He had no way of knowing at this point. All he knew is that she had her memories. He wondered how long she had been keeping this. When did the memories return and how?

Why didn't she tell him? Why did she feel like she had to keep it to herself? Had she though? Had she told anyone else. Did Leia know? Did Jareth know? Did GG and QE know? He took a deep breath. If anything, the droids had to know. They knew everything. That wounded him further though. He knew that Jania was used to keeping secrets, but he thought they had made progress. Perhaps, they hadn't.

Maybe he didn't know Jania Elestren as much as what he thought he did. How could he had been so blind and oblivious. He had been a fool. He knew something had seemed off with her, but he didn't act on his feelings. He just assumed she was getting used to this kind of life. She had been through a lot. Confronting Kylo Ren. Losing Han. Being reunited with her brother. Finding the map to Skywalker. Still running from the First Order with the Resistance and now everything with Leia...it was a lot for anyone to take in.

Poe himself really hadn't sat down to process his own feelings. A lot had happened in the past few hours and it was not how he was expecting the evacuation to go at all. He had been demoted. One of his plans cost the lives of a lot of good people.

The Resistance and this war was no easy life for anyone.

But that didn't give Jania an excuse for keeping something so big from him.

What could have been so bad in her memories that she couldn't tell him? She was upfront about her mission protecting the map to Luke Skywalker. She was upfront about her past with Kylo Ren and he thought it couldn't have gotten much worse than that.

But maybe it was worse.

But if it was so bad, why wouldn't she have said anything? Her memories dealt with Luke Skywalker and the Resistance's success was riding on his return. That information was vital to the entire organization. It could truly make or break their mission. The entire galaxy's fate was resting on the Jedi Master's shoulders. If something was wrong, then Rey had been sent to Ach-To for nothing. Finn and Rose had been sent to Canto Bight for nothing. Everything the Resistance was doing was nothing more than a suicide mission. They had already lost. If this was possible, why wouldn't Jania tell them? They deserved to know.

Poe had tried so hard to figure out her reasoning, but for the life of him, there was no scenario where it was a good enough reason to lie. He had absolutely no clue what the truth was, and he knew that the only way to find out was to ask her. It wasn't a conversation he was particularly looking forward to though, but it had to be done. He had to know everything. Jania owed him that.

His eyes flicked around to the evacuation group. Everyone looked worn down. Worried about this upcoming evacuation. Yet, no one voiced their worries or any frustrations they might have had. Right now, it seemed as though Poe was the only person who was willing to stand up to Holdo. Others had their doubts, but he was the only one bold enough to stand up for the Resistance and everything Leia built.

How were they going to survive this?

Was there even any hope left at this point? He couldn't say for sure. But his gut was nagging at him that his fears were very much becoming true. What made it worse is that for once in his entire career in the Resistance, he had no clue how to make their situation better.

"We'll need you all aboard the shuttles in 20 minutes" he heard D'Acy instruct the group. "That should give you all enough time to make the preparations you need to leave. Remember only get the officers out first and only take the necessary items. Time is not on our side at the moment." With that she nodded her head and walked away from the group. He assumed that she would be going back to report to Holdo.

How could any senior officer be so accepting of this situation? Their fuel supply was limited. The Anodyne probably had only an hour or two left before it was dormant and then he knew the First Order would strike. There had to be a better plan than this.

Everything was going from bad to worse.

C'ai nudged him and asked him if the pilot was alright. Poe just shook his head and stood up. He looked at his friend. "There has to be something else we can do."

C'ai shook his head and told him that he wasn't sure what else they could do at this point. His friend paused for a moment before asking him what Jania had said about everything that had happened. The group just stared at him quietly for a moment. No one seemed to dare utter a word against Holdo or his orders and once more the pilot was finding himself growing frustrated.

Poe's eyes turned dark for a moment. He bit his lip and shook his head. He was sent back into his doubts about her now. He could feel the anger and frustration bubbling inside of him. He couldn't tell his friends about what he knew. Not yet at least. Not until he heard the truth himself. With that, he just turned and left the group quickly. He had one goal in mind as he walked through the hanger. C'ai yelled at him asking where he was going.

"I'll be back in time for the shuttle" he called back.

He was going to get the truth out of Jania if it was the last thing he did.


Jania punched in tracking coordinates on a tablet screen, frowning slightly. Sitting alone in her quarters, she was surprised to find that QE was not there waiting for her. Come to think of it, she hadn't seen him in quite a while It was very unusual for the little droid to say the least. Usually he had the habit of letting her know where he was going or would check in with her. He hadn't this time. The last time she had seen him was with BB-8

Now that she thought about it, she hadn't seen BB-8 in quite a while either.

She pulled up the schematics for QE's tracking monitor. Poe had made sure that both of her droids had tracking implemented in them as soon as it was decided she was staying with the Resistance. It wasn't something she was opposed to. He had explained that in the event something happened to either one of them, someone could find them. He had done it with BB-8, though as she had been witnessed to, just because the droids had tracking, it didn't mean it couldn't be damaged. She just hoped, nothing like would happen.

Jania frowned as the tracking points of both droids came up. Her eyes went wide. "Oh, you got to be kidding me" she finally breathed out. The tracking dots were in a system, heading straight toward Canto Bight. The two droids had gone with Finn and Rose. She couldn't believe it. QE normally wouldn't do something this spontaneous. She smirked slightly. Somehow, she had a feeling that he had been talked into it by a certain orange and white BB unit. BB-8 seemed very on board with the plan and with how mischievous the droid could be, she wouldn't put it past him not to sneak behind Poe's back and stowaway. "QE, since when did you become so bold? Looks like your new friend is influencing you" she spoke again.

The sound of the door sliding open caused her head to snap up. She immediately saw Poe walking in. She stood up from the bed. "Hey" she greeted walking towards him. "Did you know that BB-8 and QE went with Finn and Rose to Canto Bight?"

The pilot stopped dead in his tracks in front of her and looked her in confusion. "What?" he frowned. Jania stayed silent and handed him the tablet. He took in, frowning further and looked on the screen.

Sure enough, the tracking chips for both QE and BB-8 were flying across the screen. Currently the trackers were on route to the same system that Canto Bight was in. It was clear that both the little droids had taken it upon themselves to go with Finn and Rose. He wondered how they decided it or if one persuaded the other. If the circumstances of why he went to find Jania were different, he would be laughing.

But he was there for one very specific reason. He was there to confront her about the truth he had learned. How he had heard her tell GG that she had been struggling how to tell him about her memories.

Why was it such a struggle?

He had proven to her that he could be trusted. That he cared about her. Hell, she was easily becoming one of the most important things in the galaxy to him. Was she ashamed of something? Fearful of what he would thought? He could take the truth.

At least, he thought he could.

"Did you know about this?" he finally spoke, looking up.

The redhead shook her head, crossing her arms. "I didn't" she sighed with a look of worry on her face. "I haven't seen either of them in ages. Figured QE had just come back here while I went to go check on GG. Why would either of them decide to go on the mission without telling us?"

Poe believed Jania in that moment. She seemed sincere. She was worried about her droid as he was now worried about his own. He licked his lips and shrugged. "Maybe because they were worried that we would say no. Better to ask for forgiveness than permission I suppose. I don't like it, but Finn's looked after BB-8 before and brought him back in one piece. I'm sure BB-8 will also look after QE."

He swallowed dryly before he spoke again. "I...I have to leave the ship for a bit. Holdo's ordered the Anodyne to be evacuated. Figured I'd go and help."

She blinked and nodded at him. "Okay" she spoke. She frowned slightly though. He seemed tenser and upset than usual. It was radiating off of him. Something was wrong. She was sure of it. She walked closer to him. "Is everything else okay?"

Poe stared at her silently for a moment. He could hear his heartbeat getting faster and louder in his ears. All he could think about was the fact that Jania had been lying to him. She didn't tell him about her memories. What else had she been hiding from him? He took a deep breath and rubbed his chin. He turned his back to her and he ran his hands through his hair.

It was now or never.

"No...no" he finally spoke. He took another breath. "Everything isn't okay. Holdo's doing nothing and keeping us all in the dark, Leia's not woken up yet, we're at a standstill until Rose and Finn get back..." He paused for a moment. He turned back to face the redhead. His face fell and took one of a mix of anger and pain. "And on top of all that, I find out you've been lying to me this whole time about your memories."

In that moment, Jania's eyes went wide and her stomach dropped. She felt herself shaking slightly. Her breath hitched.

Poe knew the truth.

She stood in front of him silently. Trying everything she could to hold it together. She was at a loss for words in the moment. She didn't know whether she need to cry, scream, or just confess everything to Poe. But how did he even know? She had made sure she hadn't slipped up.

He looked directly at her and his eyes narrowed, sending chills up her spine. His anger was beaming off of him. It almost scared her in a way. "I came to look for you after Finn and Rose got off safely. I overheard you talking to GG. How you were scared about telling me the truth." Chills were sent up the redhead's spine. It was almost as though he was reading her mind in that moment. He shook his head. "What truth is that exactly? Because I have this strange feeling too that you're also lying to me about a whole hell of a lot of other things."

He watched as she stood in front of him completely silent. He couldn't get a read on her at all. She stared directly at him almost as she was looking into his soul and knew everything he was thinking. He hated it in that moment. He hated the silence. It was just more proof to him that she was lying to him.

He bit his lip and out a huff, smirking. "Alright, fine. Don't tell me about your memories then. How about we go with something simpler? Who's Ben?"

Jania felt her heart stop and her eyes went wide slightly. She tried to remain calm as she looked over at the pilot, trying her hardest not to give away anything. "Where did you hear that name?" she asked.

"You said it" he replied crossing his arms. "During the attack. When you were zoning out, you said the name Ben."

The redhead slowly closed her eyes. Damn it. She hadn't even realized it at the time that she had said anything. That anyone could have heard her. What was she going to do? She wasn't ready for this conversation. How was she even supposed to explain this? It wasn't even her place to do so. Leia hadn't told the Resistance that Kylo Ren was in fact her son. It wasn't her secret to tell.

"You have another brother I'm not aware of?" she heard him huff out. "Someone else who would be after you? Hell, do you have some sort of hang up on a former lover? Who is he?"

She slowly opened her eyes and let out a sigh. "You wouldn't understand" she said quietly. "Besides it's not my place to say."

Poe's face fell, and he glared angrily at her. "Bullshit. Enough with the excuses. Stop lying Jania. Who the hell is..."

"Ben Solo!" she choked out before he could even ask the question again. She let out a shaky breath. Just uttering that name out loud felt painful. Her whole body felt as though it was on fire.

Poe stared at her in confusion. He couldn't have heard the last name right. "Solo?" he breathed out, frowning. "What?" He looked to Jania, hoping with every fiber in his being that she meant someone else, but the look on her face made him realize his worst fears were in fact true.

She had in fact said the name Solo. He knew of only one other person who had that name and the exact person they were so closely connected to.

"You know who he is" Jania looked at him with a stoic look in her eye. "You just know him by a different name. Nowadays, he goes by Kylo Ren."

He felt as though he had been punched in the gut. It couldn't be. No, that wasn't possible. It couldn't be. Was Jania lying to him once more? Was this actually the truth. "Kylo Ren is Leia and Han's son?" he finally managed to get out.

It was impossible. He couldn't believe it. Han and Leia were so good. They fought for what they believed in. How was it possible that their marriage could produce someone that evil? "You're telling me that the monster who tortured me...the monster who tried to kill you...the backbone of the First Order is the son of Leia and Han? Please tell me you're joking."

She shook her head sadly. "It seems like it would be a sick joke, but it's not. It's the truth. Ben Solo, the son of Leia Organa and Han Solo, is Kylo Ren."

Poe stayed quiet for a moment as he let everything process. It was a lot to have to take in. Everything was so connected. How could have not seen any of this before? He should have put the pieces together. Yet...

It had been in front of him the whole time.

Jania was the answer to everything and it had been staring right in front of him. She had hinted that she was close to Leia and Han. Leia had even hinted things to him as well. It made sense as to why. It was because of Ben...Kylo...whatever he was called now. They were close themselves. Best friends. He was in love with her at one point.

He had been so blind.

He licked his lips again, trying to figure out what to even say next. The redhead was continuing to stay silent. She knew she had been caught in her web of lies, but instead of even speaking, or defending herself, she took what he was considering a cowardly way out.

"So, you just going to keep standing there in silence" he finally asked. "Denying everything else you've done."

"I'm not denying anything" she frowned at him.

"But you're not telling me the truth" he glared at her. "You haven't been for a long time. Jania, what more do I have to do to get you to tell me what I want to know?"

She ran her hands through her hair, shaking her head. "You want the truth? You really want the truth?" she exclaimed angrily. "Well here's your truth. Luke did take my memories. But he didn't take them to protect himself from the First Order or Kylo Ren. He did it because he didn't want to be found. He didn't want me to know what he had done that caused him to leave. Once I discovered the truth, I made the choice to stop hiding. To go back to fighting. I couldn't stand back anymore. I knew what I had to do and where I was meant to be." She let out a shaky breath and shut her eyes, trying to keep the tears at bay. Just uttering everything out loud hurt. It made everything so real to her.

"Luke didn't agree with that. He didn't want to come back. He's chose to stay in the shadows. He knew that once I left Ach-To, I would have brought Leia straight to him. He wiped my memories to prevent that." She paused again to swallow dryly and take a deep breath. "I didn't know the legendary Luke Skywalker...the one who had courage to take on Darth Vader. The Luke Skywalker I knew was nothing more than a coward." She took a deep shaky breath, trying her best to keep tears at bay. But it was no use.

Poe's head once again was spinning as he processed her words. He didn't even know how to respond. He was a complete loss in that moment. If everything was a lie then...if this was the truth, then what was the purpose of everything she did. Why had she helped him? Stuck around. Did she even truly believe in what they were fighting for? Why hadn't she said anything. Was it all an act? "So that's it huh?" he finally spoke after a moment. "Everything you've done...everything you've said...has it all been a lie? Have you not believed in anything the Resistance has been fighting for? Why are you even here then Jania?"

The redhead looked at him in disbelief. Once again, he was putting words into her mouth. She had never even thought to utter those words. Though it would seem that the battle against the First Order was one that would not lead to a victory, it didn't mean that she didn't believe in the fight or everything the Resistance did. He was acting like she really had no purpose in staying with the Resistance at all. "I never said I didn't believe in the Resistance" she shot back angrily. "I just don't believe that Luke is going to come back and save us all like you all seem to have in your heads. He's not coming back."

"He could though! What if Rey can convince him?" Poe protested.

Jania just shook her head immediately. "She won't be able to."

"Then why didn't you say anything before she left to find him" he shot back, getting angrier. The Resistance had so much riding on Rey and bringing Skywalker back. It had all been for nothing.

"Because I wasn't meant to" she said quietly. "There's questions that Rey has. Luke's the only one who's going to be able to answer them."

"There you go again with the bullshit" he exclaimed. "This whole thing of you only doing things you're meant to is nothing more than a cop out now." He paused for a moment and ran his hands through his hair. He stared at her. The tears falling slowly down her cheek. She adverted his gaze completely. There was this look in her eye. One that he knew all too well. One that he saw when things were going south. "You just don't have any hope, do you?" he questioned.

Her watery eyes flicked back to him. "I haven't had any hope the moment my memories came back. But again, that hope was in Luke...I have hope the Resistance. I know they can win this." She walked towards him, pleadingly. "Poe I'm so sorry. I'll tell you everything. I promise. I need you to understand everything. I know I shouldn't have lied..."

Poe backed himself away from her and shook his head. His face was now full of pain. He didn't believe a single word out of her mouth now. How could he? She had kept so much from him. There had been too many secrets. "I once told you that I never trusted someone as easily as what I did with you" he paused for a beat. "I think it I made a mistake." With that he turned and opened the door, storming out of the quarters.

Jania let out a shaky breath finally. Her head felt like it was spinning. She almost felt like she couldn't even see or breathe. Her worst fears had not only been realized, but they had also been confirmed. She shouldn't have done any of this. She shouldn't have come back. She shouldn't have tried to fight. It only caused pain and so much regret. All of a sudden, she suddenly choked out and collapsed to the floor in tears. Sobbing loudly, all she could think was how everything she had done leading up to this moment was a huge mistake.

She had been on her own for so long, but in that very moment, she never had felt more alone.

History was repeating itself.

Once again, she had lost everything.

Hello everyone! So, what do you think. We finally got a confrontation, but we still don't have the full story. Don't worry, it will come. I promise!

I am so sorry it's taken me this long to update. I know I said that I would post something on my profile or tumblr, but I've really not had too much time to do so.

I've moved down to where my new job is. Have gotten settled. Just took a lot of time to get used to things and learn my way around this new place. I also have pretty crappy internet unfortunately, so my internet time has kind of cut down. I've also just been taking some time to do some exploring and just get to know some people so I don't go crazy in this new place alone.

Updates probably will be a little more sporadic. I'm going to strive for at least once a month though. I really want to get this story finished cause I have a couple of AU ideas here and there that I think I want to do with Jania and Poe. That is if you all are reading more. It would be something to tide us over till episode 9.

Read and review, and I'll update as soon as I can and if I will be getting sidetracked with real life, I'll make more of a conscious effort to post on my profile/tumblr.

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Guest: Well here's your confrontation. It was a little heartbreaking to write. But I hope it satisfied you!