A/N: I am very sorry i haven't updated in anything in a long time. I've been getting sick so I haven't had the time to write or to publish anything. I have been writing some drafts already though. I will publish very soon, I promise.
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DISCLAIMER: if i owned Twilight, BooBoo Stewart would be my boyfriend. Yeah, so i dont
Previously
"I know. I love you Edward."
"And I you beautiful Bella." I peck her lips again and lead her away from my room.
Bella's Apartment(about early January)
"Thank you Bella. I mean this really means the world to me. Being here, living with you. I just hope. . . oh nevermind."
"What is it Edward?" I guess I must've worried Bella with my concerns.
"Nothing, just the last time I lived with my girlfriend, things ended badly. I thought I'd love her, but for a while, she had been cheating on me the whole time. I was just being used by her the whole time. To think I loved her." If not that I still loved her. I know for a fact, I love Bella. But when Tanya left, she left a permanent mark on his heart.
"Edward. Know this. I will NEVER hurt her like you did. I will never cheat on you. Never in my life will I doubt my feelings for you. I love you." She looks so genuine, so sure of this. But even now, I still don't feel completely sure I've forgotten Tanya.
"I know Bells. I know." I just don't feel sure enough to say 'I love you.' I've said it a billion times to her, yet the question is why can't I say it right now?
Time skips to February, both go to Juilliard. Edward is preoccupied with Bella and his classes to be as observant than before. Also, he still doesn't know.
Edward POV
"Don't worry Bella, you'll do fine. If they don't cast you, then they are idiots." I'm trying to reassure Bella right before her audition for Les Miserables.
"I'm sorry. It's just. If I ace this audition, get a role, then I get to travel all around Europe to perform. Two of my three favorite things! Acting and Europe." Bella looks very jittery and nervous.
"What's your third?"
"You of course. Who else would stand in the way? Not even Robert Pattinson could beat you." I know her big infatuation with that guy, but I guess even I'm better than him!
"Isabella Swan." The lady from the production comes out to tell her its time for her audition.
"Knock'em dead, love." I peck her lips and lightly push her to go.
Time has flown so much. I'm in freaking Juilliard for crying out loud. Everything here is the best. I'm learning so much and realize this is my passion; to entertain people and bring joy through theatre and music. So far, I've already recorded a few demos of my piano compositions. Everything is perfect. But why do I feel like something bad's going to happen? Or why does something feel so off being here with Bella? I mean, I know it's my dream school and all, but it's like there is something I just NEED to do.
I check my phone to realize about half an hour has gone by and now it's 3:30. Hmm? I wonder what's taking Bella so long?
-phone vibrates-
"Hello?"
"Edward?" Oh god no. Not that voice. Not that god-awful, high-pitched nasally voice. Not the voice I've tried to deny myself for a while now. Not the voice I used to love.
"What do you want Tanya? What freaking business do you have with me? What could you possibly have to say to me after breaking my heart?" Okay, I had a right to be angry. I mean, she fricking cheated on me, and she bothers to call me. Oh this have better be good.
"I broke up with Riley. I realized I never loved him. I never stopped thinking about you Edward. Edward, I love you. I know this might not be the best time, or not under the best circumstances, but it's true. I love you Edward. I don't know what I was thinking when I cheated on you. I realized now what I missed, and what I missed so much in my life was you." Tanya wants me back? Tanya wants me back. It wasn't a lie, she wants me back.
"Tanya, I love you too. I never stopped." Oh god. What did i just say? What did I just blurt out with my girlfriend just in the other room? What is wrong with me? Do I love Tanya? Do I love Bella? Bella or Tanya?
"Edward, I'm in New York right now, and I know you are too. Meet me at Starbucks in Times Square at six. I'll see you there." At the end of the conversation, she kisses me through the phone. I hang up the phone speechless. Let's go over what just happened.
One: I wait for Bella to come out from her audition
Two: Tanya calls and tells me she loves me
Three: I tell her I love her too and never stopped.
Four: I just made a date with her.
What the hell.
"Edward? Edward? Edward are you okay?" Looking down, I see Bella looking up at me with worried eyes holding deep concern. I know Bella always cares for my worries no matter what the situation.
"Yeah, I'm fine Bella. So how was your audition?" If she took that long in there, I wonder. And I Really need something to get my mind off of what just happened.
"Um, it was good. They said I was. . um good. I might get-um a callback." From the way she was stuttering and stalling, it was as if she is hiding something.
"I hope so Bella. You are the best actress I know at this school and you deserve this part."
"Aww. Thanks baby. I love you." She gave me a kiss, but I just wasn't in to it very much. I hope she didn't notice. Pulling away, taking her hand in mine, we walk out of the audition hall.
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