A/N- This definitely makes up for my lack of writing, this chapter is also dedicated to MissHaru because she is the most amazing reader ever and PM'd me and that kind of motivated me so your thanks should also go to her, enjoy people.
It had been a month since Paul and I had become 'official', frankly I thought it was stupid to call it that but I never would have guessed how much could have happened in a month, I mean four weeks wasn't really that long right. Well in the supernatural world it was. My brother had gotten his bones shattered as well as his heart when Victoria attacked with her new born army followed by Bella kicking him while he was down when she chose Edward. The whole pack got put in danger and paired up with their supposedly enemies to fight for the life of the bitch who hurt my brother. Edward of course got his revenge by killing her and Bella came out injury free and left the pack to pick up the pieces of my brother. I seemed to be the only person willing to knock her teeth in whereas everyone else was either pissed or worried about Jake, couldn't they be all that and want to bring her physical harm. I had even got in the car to go over to her place but Paul had just dragged me back inside where he told me he wasn't risking me getting eaten and had caged me in his arms till I swore on an oath I wouldn't try to kill Bella Swan. After he let me go we had argued and he had kissed me and I forgot my anger, for that amount of time anyway. We hadn't had sex yet, I know it may not seem like such a big deal but having a super hot boyfriend and trying to keep him from charming you into it is harder than college and high school ever was. I wasn't sure what do to about Jake, it's like he isn't even here anymore, he just walks around and looks so lifeless. Dad keeps brushing it off, telling me to let him heal on his own time but it's unhealthy for him, I mean he used to eat as much as the other guys now he eats less than me or not at all. I was going to visit him today, take the littlies around to see him since dad was out with Harry Clearwater and Charlie Swan, fishing or something and Paul was patrolling. I strapped Amy into the car as the boys raced around on the front lawn, tackling each other once again.
"Alright guys, in the car, were gunna go see Jake" I said and they cheered as they climbed in. I waited for Riley to get in and then grabbed Alex's seat but he stopped me, standing in the way. "Come on Alex, I gotta put your chair in" I said, to exhausted for games. He just shook his head and I could feel the annoyance shadow me but pushed it aside, I wouldn't let it out on a little kid.
"I wanna be a big boy" He said quietly and I tilted my head to the side.
"You are a big boy, just because you use a car seat doesn't mean you're not sweetie" I smiled softly and he looked at his feet.
"None of the other kids at preschool sit in car seats" He mumbled and I shook my head as I crouched down.
"Hey if something makes you feel safe that's okay, it doesn't make you any different" I said as I looked into his green eyes, his little glasses like a shield.
"My seat makes me feel safe" He whispered and I smiled at I pulled him into a hug.
"Then we can keep using your seat till you feel safe, if your ever scared just tell me and I'll keep you safe, just life mum and Paul okay" I said as I strapped the seat in then put him in. He nodded up at me and I ruffled his hair before sliding into my seat.
"Daddy doesn't make me feel safe" Riley piped up and Alex nodded his head in agreement. "Will you keep us safe from him" He asked and I turned around in my seat.
"Of course I would" I said and they both smiled and began singing along with the radio as I pulled out. I got to our house pretty quickly and it looked quiet compared to the usual, I mean dad and Jake weren't party animals but they usually had music or the TV blaring. I got the kids out and carried Amy to the door. I opened the door and called out but got no reply. The boys ran around calling out to him but there was no answer but the TV was on mute. I checked the bathroom and the bedroom and he had just disappeared. I checked in the garage and there wasn't even a trace of him. I stopped in the kitchen and put Amy on the ground to let her crawl or walk around. I pulled out my phone to call him when I spotted his phone, crumbled into pieces on the kitchen bench. I picked it up and it was as if he squeezed it, moulding it to his hand. Panic flittered through me and I searched for a note or anything that could tell me he just went to the shops but there was nothing. The boys were still running around, calling out to him and I quickly dialled Emily's number, maybe she knew where he was. She answered in a happy voice.
"Em, its Rachel, you wouldn't happen to know where Jake is would you" I asked in a hurried voice.
"Sorry Rach, I haven't seen him since yesterday, about lunch time, he isn't on patrol right now and Sam hasn't got him at work since I just spoke to him, is he not at your dad's" She asked in a soothing voice even though I doubt she meant to.
"I'm there now and it's like he's disappeared, his phones here but it's pretty much crushed and I've searched everywhere" I said, worry floating in my voice.
"I'll call Sam and let him know, I'm sure he's around Rach, don't worry, I'll call you back in ten" She said and she hung up, leaving me listening to the dial tone. It wasn't like Jake to disappear like this, even with this whole Bella thing. I was worried so I did the only thing that popped into my head, I called Paul. I found the emergency number he told me to call and rang. He picked up after the second ring.
"Rach, what is it, are the kids okay, are you" His rough and panting voice asked.
"Their fine, I'm fine it's Jake's missing and no one knows where he is, I know I shouldn't have called the 'emergency phone' but I was panicking and I'm scared something happened to him" I breathed, my heart race slowing a bit when I first heard his voice and his comforting breathing.
"Hey it's okay, if you're scared you call, I felt him phase about an hour ago but he was just thinking about Bella the whole time, he didn't cross the Fork's border but I just guess he phased back when his voice died off" He explained and I played with the phone in my hand.
"His phone is here, it's crushed Paul, like when someone squeezes clay and the TV was on and everything, why would he just disappear" I said quietly as I kept an eye on Amy who was playing with a piece of paper or something.
"Calm down babe, maybe he just got mad and needed to phase, he's probably with Sam" He replied soothingly and I sighed.
"You're probably right, I guess I'll just wait for Em to call back" I mumbled.
"Do you want me to come get youse, Embry and Jared will be sweet for twenty minutes" He said and I shook my head then remembered he couldn't see me.
"No, no, I'll just see you tonight, bye" I said and hang about after he said goodbye back. I shuffled through the cupboards, planning on making some lunch for the kids when my Amy pulled at my leg. I reached down and brought her up on my hip. She giggled at the speed and I laughed as she did, waving the piece of paper she had in my face. "What have you got Amy" I said as I took it off her and while she babbled an answer I caught sight of writing on it. I turned it over and my eyes scanned over it.
I decided to go away for a little while, the pack will be okay without me and Rachel will look after dad, I'll be back, I just don't know when, Sorry
Love Jake.
I stood there, shocked and jumped when my phone rang. I looked at caller ID and saw it was Emily and brought the phone to my ear.
"He's gone, he left a note, he's just gone" I said and she gasped.
"What do you mean he's gone, what does the note say Rach, I'm coming over now" She said and I heard her grab the keys.
"He's just gone, the note say's he needs to go away for a little while and he doesn't know when he'll be back" I said as I sat on one of the stools, Ay trying to grab at my phone.
"I'll be there in two seconds, it's okay Rach, I'm just around the corner" She said before hanging up. Two seconds later her car pulled up and she jumped out and raced inside, a quick greeting to the excited boys, asking where Claire was. She walked in and put a hand on my back as she read the note quickly."Okay I'm gunna call Sam, I'll take Amy as well, maybe you should try calling your dad, he'll wanna know" She said as she grabbed the baby and dialled Sam's number. "Sam, Jake left a note saying he was leaving, we're at Billy's, you need to get here now" She said quickly and I heard Sam answer in reply. "Do you want me to call your dad for you" She asked and I shook my head as I stood and found dad's number. He answered instantly.
"Dad, you need to come home, Jacob's gone" I said and I heard the confusion and panic in his voice as he replied asking where. "I don't know, he just left a note and said he was going away for a while, Sam's on his way over now" I murmured and he shot back with a 'be there soon' and hung up. I went into the lounge room and turned the TV off before collapsing on the lounge next to Emily who was trying to amuse the kids.
"The guys will find him, he's hurting Rach" She said, grabbing my hand and rubbing soothing circles on it.
"I know he's hurting, god I hate Bella, I don't wanna lose my brother just because of her" I said angrily and she sighed.
"I know how you feel about Bella but in the end it doesn't make any difference, she chose Edward, she was just following her heart, in a way it would be selfish if she had let hope still run in Jacob, she could have had better timing but still, I guarantee she would be hurting to and in the long run it will be better for Jake" She explained as best she could.
"He deserves better though and he's my little brother, I should wanna kill her" I shrugged and she squeezed my hand as Sam and Quil walked in. Emily handed Sam the note and he frowned.
"Go alert your brother's, I want a pack meeting now, we'll try contact him, if he's running hopefully it's in wolf form" Sam ordered and Quil nodded, giving me a sad smile before running off.
The guys had been running the border for almost an hour, searching out for Jake but he was in human form and they couldn't pick up which way his scent went, it's like he goes a certain way then just disappears. Dad and Charlie were both sitting in the lounge room with me, Emily and Kim and the kids. Quil Senior and Harry Clearwater were talking to Sam and Leah came in and pulled me into a hug.
"He'll be back, even his note says that" She said as she pulled me down into a seat.
"I know, I just wish he would have talked to us about it first" I shrugged and she laid her head on my shoulder as Sam looked over at me, sometimes it was like he was my alpha, someone I looked up to.
"Sorry Rach, I guess we'll just wait it out" He said and I nodded, my brother would come back, he just needed to go for a while.
A week and Jake hadn't even contacted us, I was frustrated and worried, I mean really, a phone call wasn't that hard to make. I was hanging out at the Clearwater's, Sarah was home today so I didn't worry about skipping out on her or anything, she was taking the kids to the park last time I heard but that was a while ago, it was almost 4 now. Leah and I were just lying around watching movies and sharing a blanket not that Leah really needed one since she was above body temperature and all. Seth was out with the guys or doing something like that and Sue and Harry were out in Seattle, going out to dinner and a movie for their anniversary. They'd been married thirty years, high school sweethearts, Harry had been pretty much the only Uncle I had ever had and liked. I wonder if Paul and I would get married, I mean, were destined right, I didn't really understand the whole imprint thing, just that we were soul mates and it was meant to be. Leah kicked my leg with her foot, pulling me out of that fantasy.
"Stop thinking about your boyfriend while I'm around cougar" She said and I glared over at her as she poked her tongue out at me.
"How'd you know I was thinking about him" I questioned curiously as the Titanic sunk on the TV. She snorted and looked at me with a 'are you seriously asking that' look. "Well" I egged on and she rolled her eyes.
"Okay first of all you get this stupid little smile on your face which practically screams 'I'm thinking about a little boy' and secondly when are you not thinking about him, you imprints can't go ten minutes without day dreaming" She said and I hit her for the 'little boy' comment. She just laughed and we turned back to the movie.
"Stupid" We both muttered as the two main characters kissed lovingly as she freed him. We both laughed at that.
"It is stupid though I mean the boats sinking, as if you'd waste time making out, get the fuck out of there" She pointed out, making me laugh.
"I get it was in the old days but women and children first is just stupid, like children first with three men and then the women and men, I'd rather die than lose my kids and guy so she gets brownie points for skipping out on them there but she full hogs all that floating thing and he only tried once to get some room and gave up, they could have taken turns and not frozen to death" I said and she nodded in agreement.
"But then again, Jack hasn't got amazing body heat whereas Paul does and he'd force you to stay up there" She said and I nodded in agreement. "So have you fucked him yet" She asked in a casual tone as she chucked a chip in her mouth from the packet on her lap.
"You have such a way with words" I said sarcastically and she laughed.
"Whatever, come on spill" She said and I shook my head.
"No, I haven't 'fucked' him yet" I said and her eyes widened.
"Are you serious, since when does Rachel Black not get down and dirty" She said shocked and I hissed a shut up at her even though no one was around. "Oh sorry Virgin Mary" She giggled and I groaned. "You're serious, what gives" She asked and I sighed.
"I don't know, it's not like we don't want to and we get close but I always back away or change direction" I shrugged, stealing a chip and munching on it.
"Sounds like your scared he'll do and dash" She said and I met her eyes. "You remember your his imprint right, it's not physically or mentally possible for him, he doesn't even look at other girls anymore" She reassured and I rolled my eyes.
"I trust him Rach, I'm just taking our time, why jump in when we can take things slow" I said and she snorted.
"Paul's not my favourite person in the world but I feel for the guy, I mean he's suffering blue balls right now" she said and I pegged the pillow at her head, causing her to drop the chips and she glared over at me.
"Well don't, just because you're a wolf doesn't mean I can't beat your ass" I smirked and she growled. "Oh please spare me" I said sarcastically and she grunted before picking the chips up off the floor. "I don't have to be able to read your mind to hear those curses Miss Clearwater" I grinned and the pillow hit me scare in the forehead.
"Hah and if you were a mind reader I'd be thinking you were some leech" She said and I raised an eyebrow as the idea hit me.
"Hey do you think any of the Cullen's would know where Jake went, I doubt he'd tell Bella but what about one of those special ones" I asked and she shrugged.
"I don't think so, I mean the pixy one can see the future but she can't see us wolves for some reason, I guess Edward may have heard where he was going or something but we aren't exactly on talking terms with them, if you know what I mean" She said as she got up to get the vacuum cleaner.
"Maybe not youse but they'd talk to me right" I said as she re-entered and she stared at me.
"Don't even think about, you'd give Paul a heart attack and we can't protect you when you're on leech land" She said as she searched for a power point.
"But what if they know where Jake is" I protested and she glared over at me.
"Don't" She warned and I sighed. Good thing she can't read my mind. I waited half hour until I said I was going home to see Paul, he'd still be sleeping off his patrol. I grabbed my car keys and hugged Leah goodbye before heading outside and climbed into car. She stood, leaning against the front door, watching me go and I turned away and then sped up, heading straight for the Forks border. I cruised along past the houses and shops, too fast for people to notice me. I hit the road surrounded with the woods and picked up speed again, praying that none of the wolves will see me or try and stop me. I was going around the last bend when I heard the howl and cursed. I looked in my rear-view mirror and two seconds later a grey wolf appeared in my vision. I was so close and he was still a few hundred metres away. I pressed down on the accelerator, knowing he'd stop me if he reached me. He was gaining ground and I saw the big black wolf, Sam, just behind him as they sped towards me. The sign was just ahead, the sign that split the lands. I just slid over it just as they reached me and they both stopped, pacing the line as I pulled over. I made it, I actually made it, this was my chance to find some answers. I climbed out of the car as Paul howled and walked towards the line, making sure I didn't cross it.
"Paul" I said as the wolf glared down at me with sad eyes, it was amazing, being so close yet he couldn't touch me because it would break the treaty, I had to be the worst Imprint and girlfriend ever. "I have to do this" I said quietly and he shook his big head before his body began shaking. I thought it was his temper but instead I watched in amazement as his bones shifted and he transformed back into his human form, his very naked human form. I looked down and felt myself actually blush before looking up to meet his angry green eyes. He slid the shorts off the band around his leg and pulled them up before meeting my eyes again. Sam stayed in wolf form, being the lookout I'm guessing.
"Rachel get your car and get back over that line, now" He growled and I squared my shoulders.
"I don't see how you can make me" I said back as I folded my arms, my stubborn side lurking up.
"Rachel" He snapped and I flinched at his tone. "I mean it, it's not safe, you're in their territory" He said, toning down a bit as he saw me flinch. I shook my head and his eyes skipped between anger and fear. "Please, I-I can't protect you when you're there" He pleaded.
"I have to Paul, if they know anything about Jake, maybe I can get him back or just to know where he is" I said quietly as Sam headed into the tree's. It was two seconds before he walked out again in cut offs, like Paul.
"Rachel, if they hurt you, war begins, do you understand that" Sam said sternly as he stood next to Paul.
"I'll break the treaty before that happens" Paul growled and I met his eyes, shaking my head.
"You won't put your brother's in danger like that" I said and he growled.
"The hell I won't" he snapped.
"No one will be in danger if you just come back" Sam interrupted.
"I can't sit around and know nothing, I'll be back and they won't hurt me" I said, as convincingly as I could. I started walking backwards and Paul went to step forward, making me stop and Sam pull him back.
"She's right Paul, what if they know something about Jacob, she can talk to them and be back in less than half hour" Sam said, looking over at Paul.
"What your sending my girl out on a death wish as well, fuck you" Paul growled and Sam looked at me, nodding. At the same time Embry and Jared ran out of the tree's and over to the guys, looking at me cautiously.
"I promise I'll come back" I said before turning and running to the car. I jumped in and sped off towards the Cullen's. My time limit was twenty minutes, they could hold Paul off until then. I floored it along until I came to a long driveway. I turned onto it and as met by the huge white house, that had glass windows everywhere, don't they sparkle in the light, I mean shouldn't it be all dark and gloomy. I pulled up next to the silver Volvo and stepped out, searching around me and before I could even step towards the house, the little one, Alice stepped out onto the porch.
"Rachel, I saw you coming, my names Alice Cullen, your very pretty" She said, throwing a smile over at me.
"I need to talk to youse but I don't have much time, I kind of broke free" I said, feeling guilty as soon as I said it.
"Sounds like what Bella did when she...never mind, come on in" She said and I swallowed the warning that my head had lodged into my throat and walked up next to the vampire and into the house, talk about rich. La Push was the slums, hell Seattle was the slums compared to this place. I was looking around and my eyes fell onto a lounge room full of vampires. I took a breath and nodded at Doctor Cullen.
"How's your head" He asked and my hand touched it automatically.
"Fine, 100 percent better thanks to you" I said and he nodded, a smile on his features.
"Rachel, what are you doing here" Bella's voice said as she appeared in front of Edward. I remembered to keep my thoughts and opinions of her to a minimum since I could pretty much feel Edward scanning my brain. He laughed at my thoughts making him get curious stares.
"I'm here because Jake ran off and we don't know where he is, we were hoping you might have a clue where he was going" I said as I looked around at the surrounding Cullen's.
"So they sent a human" The blonde one sneered, of course the supermodel would be the bitchy one.
"Actually I raced one over the border before convincing them to give me twenty minutes to find out whatever I can about my brother so if you don't mind I'd like to do just that" I shot back at her and she rolled her eyes before I looked over to Edward. "I know Alice can't see wolves but you didn't see anything in his head when he was hurt, or maybe he skimmed the border and you picked up something" I asked him hopefully and his face fell into a frown.
"I'm sorry, I haven't heard his thoughts in a while and when he was hurt he was too distracted by the pain" He said almost regretfully.
"When did he leave dear" The mum of the gang spoke up, she looked like a Doctor's wife, Emily told me she was very kind.
"About a week ago, he hasn't called so I don't know, no one does, the guys can't even pick him up because he's staying in human form, he never mentioned a place he would go when he was with you did he" I said, directing my question at Bella. She shook her head sadly as she avoided my eyes. She should feel guilty. I caught Edward's frown and apologised before sighing.
"Okay, well my time's on short so I guess I better go, thank you for your help" I said, nodding at them and as I went to turn Alice grabbed my arm gently. It was amazing how cold it felt, especially compared to Paul's touch.
"I'm sorry we couldn't be of more help, we'll keep an ear out and call you if we hear anything" She said, pulling me into a hug and I patted her back awkwardly as I stiffened up. "So like Bella" She giggled as she pulled back. I gave her a little smile before turning walking out the door. I climbed in the car and sighed before driving off. A minute to spare. I drove back home, surprised no wolves were around waiting for me or there to stop me and question me. I decided I'd go over to Sam's after I stopped at home, they knew I was back on the reservation by now. I pulled up at the house and Sarah's car wasn't in the drive way so I was guessing they weren't home. Paul's truck was sitting there but he had phased so he could be at Sam's for all I know. I got out and closed the door when Jared walked out of the house and gave me a small smile.
"He's pissed but that's just because he was worried about you, it's hard, knowing you can't protect your imprint" He explained as he came to stand in front of me. "Any word on Jake" he asked and I shook my head. "Good luck Rach" He said, pulling me into a hug before screwing his nose up. "And I'd have a shower if I were you" He said and I went to punch him when he skipped out of the way, laughing as he headed into the woods. I made my way to the house and when I opened the door I'd barely made it over the threshold when I heard a bang.
"I said fuck off Jared" Paul shouted out and I closed the door and walked around the corner towards the kitchen where the bang came from.
"Good thing it's not Jared" I said and he looked up at me, fire in his eyes.
"You survived huh" He said and I could see the relief behind the anger.
"I am sorry Paul, if it was one of the boys you would have done the same" I said and he shook his head.
"It would never be one of them, I'd stop them before they took their first steps to leave" He growled. "And they wouldn't sneak off without telling anyone either, their smarter than that" He said, opening the fridge and pulling out a milk carton.
"Oh I'm sorry, I thought I was old enough to not ask permission and you would have stopped me if I told you anyway" I snapped back.
"Do you think it's a game Rach, vampires kill people, their dangerous" He shot back and I shook my head.
"What and the rest of the world is safe" I replied, my voice sizzling. He met my eyes before pulling the carton up to his lips to drink. I walked over and snatched it out of his hold and he grabbed my wrist, keeping me still. "That is disgusting and other people have to drink out of it" I spat and he pulled me against him, his lips attacking mine in an angry and hungry kiss before I was pushed away and he glared down at me.
"Why you were on your little death trip Jake phased" He said and my eyes widened.
"What!, do you know where he is, what did he say" I asked and his eyes narrowed at me.
"Arizona" He said before walking out the front door, leaving me there full of questions that his stubborn ass wasn't willing to answer.
"Paul" I shouted angrily from the front door and just kept on walking into the woods before disappearing. "Asshole" I yelled before slamming the front door.
A/N- this chapter is a whole lot of...stuff, I hoped you liked it, review my beautiful people and I shall write more. P.s any ideas welcome.
