Aiketi - Right about now I have no idea what is going to happen now but I'll just see what happens when I'm writing this thing, but something good I guess? Haha

deslil – haha oh yeah I was really excited about writing Meredith's reaction at school today, believe you me (:

Team McOrton – I'm really glad it was worth the wait for you! I have missed this story for some reason... Same with Addek, they were sooo good together

alterus – Updating right now ;-)

Grace gold – I'm glad you hate Meredith, I do too, very much I may have to say. Dumb... well I won't say it, I'm always hoping she will die or something at some point but it's just not happening...


A/N: Now to everyone else who is reading this: I hope there's still a few of you who are reading this story, even though I hadn't updated in a year (ya haaa). Still only five reviews, that kinda saddened me... But anonymous reviews aren't disabled anymore, I don't know why they were in the first place... Hmm...
Okay, I have thought about this story today during school (yes, I'm in grade 13 in Germany fml much!) and when we had to swim our 2000 meters today (ef'd up yah) BUT I really couldn't come up with anything... Now let's see how this will go!
As I'm watching x diaries I may add, if you're from Germany you know what I mean! Writing with a Burger King crown woohoo

Chapter rathed M (beginning) once again (yah it rhymed!)


Chapter 9

The morning came way too quickly, at least it did for Derek. He had been watching her sleep most of the night, not actually believing this had actually happened. It had only been a few hours since he had made love to his wife. Yes, the 'ex' escaped his mind at this time, maybe it was because his subconscious had been trying to make sense out of this but maybe, and Derek preferred this explanation, it was because it didn't matter whether Addison was his ex-wife or not, she was still the love of her life.

His fingers ran over her right arm, the rest of her body still facing him. Derek smiled softly as he brushed a few strands of auburn hair out of her face.

But then she began to stirr, it was nine in the morning after all. "Hey." She whispered sleepily, giving him a soft smile. Yes, she should feel bad about having sex with her ex-husband but for one reason or another she just didn't.

"Good morning beautiful." His fingers ran along her jawbone and her skin began tingling and burning once again. His touch made her melt into him completely and he noticed it too, a smirk appearing on his face.

"Oh don't you give me that look!" Addison had to laugh, she knew exactly that this one particular look meant 'I know you won't be able to keep your knees closed around me'. "Because none of this will happen again." She tugged the white bed sheet over her chest.

"How can you be so sure?" Derek moved closer towards her, pushing the sheet down to her hip before he ran his hands over her exposed skin. Glancing up at her expression he saw that Addison had closed her eyes, her teeth sinking into her bottom lip. This only encouraged Derek to move on top of her, his lips finding her pulse point.

"Derek..." She breathed softly as her fingers tangled in his hair to pull him closer. There was something about this man that made her lose all semblance of control she had within her.

"Hmm?" Derek grinned rather smugly when the only response he received were her legs parting for him to move in between them. "So are we still standing firmly on this not happening again?"

"Yes, very much so." She sighed in contend before drawing his lips to hers, biting them softly as she knew this turned him on and his reaction only proved her right. It felt like they had never stopped doing this. They still knew how to touch one another, traces of fire forming in their wake.

"It's good that we have rules." Derek chuckled, moving her thighs around his waist before his fingers trailed up the inside of them. She moaned at this as she pulled his hips closer to hers, the contact causing her to throw her head back. "Maybe I don't stand on the nothing will happen part so firmly..." She breathed heavily the sensations crousing through her body already becoming too much for her.

"Are you sure?" Derek pulled back and raised an eyebrow at her, Addison shot him a look of slight annoyance before she pulled him down, raising her hips up to hers before she moaned "Derek, I'm so wet." into his ear and moved his hand between her legs to prove her point. His eyes widened as his arousal grow. Derek let out a sound that sounded like a growl before he pushed two fingers inside of her. "Ohh..." She breathed, her eyes now fixed on his, which drove him even crazier for her. Slowly he began to move his fingers only for her to push them away, which took most of her willpower. "I need you." Addison emphasized the 'you', leaving no doubt about what she needed from him.

"And what do you need from me?" Derek sounded calm, but he was absolutely bluffing, hoping she wouldn't catch onto that.

"I need your dick inside of me." She breathed, knowing he liked it when she talked like that. And as she had expected he entered her in one smooth trust causing a low whimper to escape her mouth. Addison couldn't believe how incredible it felt to be connected to him in this way again. Sex hadn't felt this good in so long, not after they had seperated and not in the two years before the divorce. But now everything was back to... normal?

Addison threw her head back against the pillow, her aubrun locks spreading out all over, contrasting to the white bedding. Derek bent his head down to place open mouth kisses along her collarbones, down to the swell of her breasts and in the valley in between them while his hips kept moving against hers in a torturously slow pace.

How could he ever have forgotten how amazing she felt, sounded and looked when he was doing these things to her? His heart broke just a little when he thought of the fact that he had let her go but Derek quickly focused on the here and now. This was what mattered, Addison lying beneath him, fingers clutching the sheet, her knuckles turning white. Her hips rising up to meet his and oh god the way her inner muscles clenched around him.

Derek slipped his arms underneath her shoulders, bringing her closer to him before he whispered "Open your eyes, baby.". She opened her eyes, which were the greenest shade he had ever seen, as she gave him a loving smile before she kissed him affectionately before pulling back again. His hips moved quicker against hers, making Addison gasp at the friction he was creating. Her legs moved up higher, one of them was now resting on his shoulder, creating a whole new angle.

"Addie..." He moaned against her lips, knowing she was as close as he was, which she confirmed only a moment later when she convulsed around him, her eyes still piercing into his. All of this was more than enough for Derek to lose it as well, breathing into her hair rather heavily.

"This was... so incredible." Addison whispered to him after both of them had come back down from their highs.

"You're incredible." He gave her a smile, starting to move off her only to be stopped by her arms tugging on his shoulders. "Stay." She told him, her legs resting against the side of his hips. Derek nodded and smiled oh so dreamily at her.

"I'm really glad you didn't fall asleep, you know." Addison chuckled, knowing this had probably killed their moment now.

"Oh ha ha." He gave her a look but failed at making her believe he was actually mad about that. "Aren't you funny."

"I thought so." She wrapped her arms around his neck, her fingers running through the curly hair in the nape of his neck. "You're so pretty." She teased, pecking his lips.

"You could have said 'hot' or 'handsome' or 'so amazing in bed' but you chose 'pretty', really, Addie, really?" Derek laughed softly, nuzzling his nose against hers, making her laugh as well.

"Really." She confirmed before pulling him a little closer. "But Der, where do we go from here?"

"I remember you asking me that last night as well."

"And I remember you not answering me then either." Addison raised her eyebrows at him, she actually needed him to tell her how he felt about her, what he wanted to happen between them. Tell her that maybe, just maybe they had a chance of being happy together again. No, she could not get her hopes up!

"Addie..." Derek sighed. Oh no, this was it, it was just sex between them. She closed her eyes,, willing the tears that were forming in her eyes to stop. But then he continued, "I love you, so much and... I hope you feel the same way about me..." Derek sounded so hesitant, so unsure of himself and what he had just said to her.

Her eyes snapped open and she looked at him in slight disbelieve. "Are you serious?"

"I... If you want this to just be sex... Then... I mean..." He began to ramble but was soon cut off by her lips on his. "I don't want this to only be sex. Of course some sex would be very nice... But, sorry, my point was that I feel the same way about you... Again... Or still... I don't know."

Derek smiled at her before he kissed her again. "We won't screw things up this time."

"No, we won't." She was so happy, not believing this was really true. Then, just then both of their pagers went off. "Come on!" Addison grumbled, seriously who would page her on a Saturday?

He chuckled at her reaction, moving off her to check his pager. "911?" He glanced over at her, seeing her nod. "I think we need to hurry."

And that they did, not even twenty minutes later they were in the elevator that was supposed to bring them up to the desired floor. Addison tried to pull all of her hair into a bun, which, once finished, looked rather messy.

Since nobody else was in the elevator with them Derek pulled her close to look at her properly, a smile forming on his lips.

"You look beautiful."

"I look messed up." She contered. "I'm not wearing any makeup, my hair is messed up, clothes don't match and..." She took a breath. "I had just enough time to brush my teeth."

"You look gorgeous without makeup, your hair is adorable like that, you'll be changing into scrubs now anyway and you had time for a lot more this morning." Derek gave her a mischievous grin, seeing a smile appear on her features, before bringing his lips to hers.

"Hmm..." She kissed him back softly, pulling back when the elevator doors opened. "Dr. Shepherd." Addison grinned at him, rushing off to the room she had been paged to.

On the radio they had already heard about the big accident on the interstate this morning. Both of them could only imagine how long this day would be.

"I hate car accidents. We should just walk everywhere." Addison sighed as she sat down next to Derek on a gurney on the hall. He gave her a soft smile, wrapping his arm around her as she rested her head on his shoulder. Derek could only imagine how tough her day had been, seeing babies suffer was probably even worse than what he had had to deal with today. "How did it go?" He asked after a bit.

"Good... Well, not good but no one died... How about you?" She closed her eyes, breathing in his scent. She felt so calm and relaxed with his body so close to hers.

"Same. But I heard more than five people didn't even make it here."

"I know, but Derek, we did all we could." She took his left hand in hers, squeezing it.

"Yeah, we did." He kissed the top of her head, he couldn't even imagine what it would be like without her. Or with them the way they had been after the divorce, before they became friends and now, more than that.

"I can NOT believe it!" Meredith shrieked. Izzy and Christina looked up, already fearing that this was about McDreamy again.

"What is it this time?" Christina was already regretting she had asked this.

"They... Are cuddling... On a gurney!" She exclaimed, her voice rising as she was gesturing wildly.

"Weren't they before too?" Izzy asked with a sigh.

"Not like that!" And with that she rushed off, leaving her two friends exchanging looks.

"Well I guess the McDivorced couple is fucking." Alex shrugged, he had heard the entire conversation but had chosen not to say anything.

"Excuse me?" All of them turned only to see Richard Webber standing behind them. Their eyes were widened in slight shock, except for Alex's, he was fighting to hold back his smirk.

"Nothing, sir." Izzy said quickly, hoping he wouldn't ask any more questions.

"The gossiping in this hospital had become unbearable! What is it with you people, can't you just accept that two people who have shared so many years with one another can just be friends?" He sighed, palms rubbing over his eyes.

"With all due respect, I doubt that they're just friends." Alex told him, causing Richard to turn around, an annoyed look on his face. It was only then he realized that it didn't take Derek more than twenty minutes to be at the hospital after he had paged him and the car ride from the trailer to SGH was already twenty or more, depending on the ferry schedule. Great, just great. This mess was never going to end. He sighed and walked down the hall, spotting both Derek and Addison, who he had known ever since they were interns. "Both of you, in my office, now." He breezed past them.

"What the..." Derek started, looking at Addison who apparently was just as confused as he was. "Do you think he meant now now?" She nodded her head, slowly getting up, not so sure of what was expecting them now.

"Oh great, is the entire staff supposed to be coming here?" Addison mumbled as she saw Meredith Grey sitting right in front of Richard's desk.

"Sit." Richard ordered sternly, his jaw clenched. This wasn't good, not at all. Derek and Addison exchanged quick glances as they sat down.

"Now, I wanted to talk to the three of you since most of the gossip involves you." Richard started. "I don't want my hospital turning into a tabloid!" He tried to calm himself, but failed terribly. "Meredith, you and your friends need to stop. Your relationship has ended, yes, even I am up to date about this and it's not making me happy!" Again, he took a deep breath which he did rather frequently when he tried to keep himself from yelling. "Addison and Derek are friends, just friends. Thank goodness, they're just friends." He murmured the last part more to himself than to anyone else. Addison was staring down at her hands and Derek avoided Richard's gaze as well. "Oh, please, no." Richard sighed when they saw the looks on both of their faces. He had seen the exact same look before, when they had been caught doing things that weren't supposed to be done in an OR, a gallery, their offices... a supply closet... And not to even mention an on-call room. Richard sighed at the memory.

"Please no what?" Meredith exclaimed, her voice much too high pitched for a Saturday Addison was supposed to have time for herself, in quiet...

"Nothing, never mind. You can leave now. All of you." He gave both Addison and Derek an annoyed look before they practically sprinted off.

"Talk to her." Addison hissed quietly and he nodded his head in agreement.

"Meredith, I need to talk to you." Derek sighed, stepping closer to her. This was meant to be doomed.


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