Clare's POV
"I HAD SEX WITH ELI!" I blurted out and her mouth dropped open.
"You…did….what?" Ali responded once she could somewhat compile a sentence.
"I had sex with Eli." I mumbled and plopped down in the nearest seat.
"When you mean sex you mean?"
"Full on sex" I said putting my head in my lap.
"Oh my Gaga are you serious! Clare, you lost your virginity!? I'm so happy for you I cant believe you lost your virginity that's a monumental moment in a girls life."
I don't think Ali actually made the connection with the fact that not only did I lose my virginity, but also that I lost it to my boyfriends best friend.
"You're a woman now you have crossed over to the….wait a second you lost your virginity."
"Yeah Ali I think we've covered that."
"To Eli, not Adam."
"Correct."
"Oh my God."
"I know."
"Clare"
"I know Ali I know"
"What wait.. first off how? Secondly oh my god."
"Well basically…"
After a long detailed explanation of what happened and how Eli and me got ourselves into this mess, I felt way better than I did earlier. Not completely better but the fact that I was able to talk to someone who was completely neutral about the whole thing made me feel better.
"Why are you doing this to Adam?" Ali exclaimed.
So much for being neutral.
"Ali!"
"Clare honestly, I'm your best friend and I'm trying to tell you what's best, Adam is your boyfriend do you honestly want to throw that away because of a little fling with , Dr Doom?"
"Don't call him that" Right than and there I realized what Eli meant by Emo-Boy.
"Clare look, rethink what your doing here, this thing with Eli will pass but Adam loves you."
"Eli loves me too."
"Do you honestly believe that, how many guys say they love a girl and sleep with them?" Ali sighed deeply and rolled her eyes.
She made me think hard about that and I saw where she was coming from. Did Eli honestly love me or did he say that just so I would sleep with him?
"Clare?" I guess I was staring off into space because Ali tried to capture my attention.
"What?"
"Do you honestly think he loves you?"
"Do you think I would sleep with him if I didn't?"
I was surprised I said that but it was true. I don't think my heart and mind or body for that matter would let me loose something I kept so sacred to just anyone. There was an obvious connection between Eli and me whether it is love or something else. Though I didn't really have proof that he loved me but I wasn't going to let Ali see my doubt.
"Clare if you feel that way, I'm here to support you. I just don't think you should string either boy along, choose one. I support you either way but you need to do it."
Then there was a knock on the door and Eli poked his head in.
"Hey uhm I'm here to talk about the article." He said shakily, I guess he was trying to disguise his real purpose because of Ali.
"I was just leaving." Ali said as she walked to the door before she exited she turned back to both Eli and me. "And Clare, make sure you do fast." And she closed the door.
"What was that about?" Eli asked as he dropped his backpack on the table.
"Don't get mad but I told her what happened"
"You did what?" Eli yelled.
"Shhhh, be quiet, I had to tell somebody and she's my best friend."
"Well unfortunately I can't tell my best friend because he's your boyfriend!"
How could he get mad at me for asking Ali for advice. It wasn't fair I had no one to talk to and she was my best friend I told her everything. This was the biggest secret I had and I couldn't hide it any longer.
"Eli look this isn't the easiest position for me to be in so I'm gonna search for any advice I can get and if that means confiding in my best friend I'm gonna do it."
"Easiest position for you! What about me?
"What about you? This is really hard for me I lost my virginity to someone who isn't my boyfriend nor husband."
"I told you if you weren't comfortable we could've stopped?"
"I was comfortable but it doesn't make it right, you're his best friend."
"I know it's not right but sorry if I forget my best friends feelings when the girl I've been in love with for years …."
"You can cut the 'I'm in Love with you' bull Eli I already fucked you."
"Excuse me?"
"Its okay Eli I don't regret having sex with you, you can drop the whole "Love" thing"
Eli grabbed his bag off the table.
"I didn't just have sex with you Clare, I made love to you."
"What?"
"Look if you were worried about choosing between me and Adam you don't have to be anymore I'm done."
"What do you mean your done?"
"You've already hurt me, so seeing you with Adam wont really make a difference."
"Eli wait!"
"Bye Clare."
What did I just do? If I was unsure that Eli loved me, seeing the hurt in his eyes right then and there proved how much he actually did love me. and now that good feeling I had earlier had demolished completely.
