09. I love you

Here's a picture of us two, I look so good on you
And can't you please forgive me for the hurt I put you through

(Britney Spears – E-mail my heart)

Kelly opened the door.

She had known who was standing outside but seeing her was something very different. She wasn´t able to say anything. Not even hello. She just stood there watching Brenda and trying to make herself believe she was awake.

Brenda too hadn´t said anything. She was glued to the floor looking into Kelly´s eyes.

Finally Kelly managed to make one step to give her best friend room to enter the house. They never broke their eyecontact while Brenda walked in, placed her suitcase somewhere on the floor and closed the door behind her.

´Hey!´

Brenda was the first who got back her voice. Still not taking her eyes off of Kelly´s she made her way towards her. She was standing just a few steps away from Kelly but it felt like years before she finally stood right in front of her.

Kelly hadn´t spoke or moved yet.

Somehow this situation wasn´t new for Brenda. Her thougths shortly drifted back to the day Brenda had come here about two weeks ago. It was kind of the same situation now. She was torn out of her thoughts as Kelly finally found the strenght to speak.

´Hi, honey!´

And like it was exactly the same situation Kelly fell into Brenda´s arms embracing her like she never wanted her to let go. Both Kelly and Brenda could feel the trace of warm tears falling out of their eyes over their cheeks. But this time these tears weren´t a sign of sadness and pain. This time these tears were tears of joy.

´Let´s just ....´

Kelly couldnt´ve said more because Brenda cutted her of. She had softly taken Kelly´s hands in her own and was looking staight into her best friends eyes again. While Kelly was speaking Brenda had seen her looking all over her. She stopped stuck on Brenda´s mouth and so Brenda decided to say it now instead of waiting til the end of their conversation.

´Before we´re going to talk things out that are clear to see. Let me do one thing I´ve been dreaming of since I left you.´

Kelly knowing what Brenda meant just smiled and gave Brenda a silent ´yes´.

Brenda just layed her lips on Kelly´s not sure how far she should go when suddenly Kelly deepened the kiss. She placed her right hand on her best friends neck. With the other hand she grasped into Brenda´s long dark hair, holding her close. They first broke their kiss as both of them needed to take a breath.

´You know, I really really love you!´

´I know! I love you too, Kel!`

Still holding each others hands they walked over to the couch and sat down. How much they wanted to take the whole thing for granted they knew they had to talk. There was just to much going on the last two weeks to not carrying about it.

´Well, I think I don´t have to tell you this but I loved you since High School. You remember the first time we met? When I was walking into the classroom and you waved me over to sit at your table?´

They were sitting as close as possible on the couch. Their hands interlaced into each other´s and looking at each other. Both of them were smiling. Not just a bit but bright and glad to be here with the other.

´Yeah. We didn´t know each other but I wanted to be bice to you on your fisrt day.´

´Exactly like I remember! Even if I didn´t know you I knew that there was something. Something about you that made me want to know you better – wanted to be your friend.´

´You know, normally I don´t believe in love at first sight.´

´Me neither!´

Both of them were laughing. They didn´t have a real reason but it felt good. They wanted this moment to last forever. This moment when they were just sitting together, laughing about nothing and being who they were.

At this moment everything felt right. The only disturbing thing was the fact that they needed that much time to figure that out.

´Why you haven´t said anything the whole time?´

Kelly could´ve thought of the answer but she wanted to hear it from Brenda.

´I was afraid. I was sixteen and I didn´t know this feelings. The only other person I ever felt this with was Dylan. I knew it was love with him and because of the fact I had the same feelings when you were close I knew I was also in love with you. But I was so damn afraid because you were my best friend and a girl. I didn´t know what to do!´

She wanted Brenda to tell her that the night they two were fighting Kelly was the reason.

It was back in High School. Everywhere Kelly and Brenda were known as best friends. They were just talking about every kind of stuff teenagers were talking about as Kelly asked Brenda a simple question wich Brenda hadn´t answered. Kelly wanted to know if there is someone Brenda was in love with exept of her boyfriend. Brenda admitted it but she never told Kelly with who Brenda was in love besides Dylan. This time Kelly was angry because her best friend didn´t tell her a secret but now she could understand.

´That night... mhh... our little fight! I was so stupid! I should´ve known.´

Brenda just nodded. She didn´t need to do more for Kelly to know she was right. But to know that doesn´t made her feel better about it.

Now that Kelly new Brenda would stay with her and she would have enough time to ask her every question on her mind she decided to change the topic. Well, she actually didn´t change it but headed it in another direction.

´You know, there´s something else I wanted to do since High school!´

´Yeah, really? I think we´ve got the same thing in mind!´

Just as they two were kissing again Sammy joined Silver standing at the stairs on the second floor, watching her sister and Brenda the whole time.

´What´s mommy doin´?´

Silver took Sammy´s hand and went to his room.

´Well, mommy just made clear Brenda´s going to stay with us forever!´