Chapter 9: The Play of Rain
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…Emily POV…
The cold was like a creepy monster surrounding me from all corners, the cold fog blinding me. I was running with frozen legs. I knew I was back to where I started but I wanted to run in hope I might find a way. The monster was chasing me, slowing engulfing me inside the cold, dark hole where I couldn't even hear myself scream. I was dying but that face, that smile, that warmth echoed in my mind, I desperately wanted to hold on that image, forever freeze that look in my eyes, it was my life, I wanted that smile again, again, now, now….please….
I fling open my eyes finding the same old hospital room residing me. I was sweating and breathing faster. The nightmare was now becoming my routine. It always accompanied my sleep. I was freaking tired of being on that bed. I held my hand up high until I could see it. All my fingers were covered in bandages protecting the exposed tips after surgically frostbite was removed. JJ and my mother kept me company but I was still restless. I wanted to meet Morgan and Reid just to make sure they were alright.
Finally, this afternoon Morgan entered my room hiding his face behind the white rose's bunch he held in my hands. I smiled seeing him all happy in front of me.
"How's my girl doing?" Morgan took a seat beside my bed after placing the flowers in my lap. They looked fresh and the scent took me to another world for a moment.
"You like' em right?" His voiced pulled me back to my world. I stared back at him realizing how lucky I was having him here with me.
"I love them" I answered "Thank you" Morgan shyly smiled and grabbed my hand.
"Emily, we are worried about you. Please get better fast, we miss you already" He said.
"I am good. How's my man doing there with that leg?" I asked pointing to his injured leg.
"It's healing fast, not a deep wound though" he answered.
"William scared the hell out of me when he stabbed you there-" I talked but Morgan stopped me in the middle "We are not wasting our time talking about what that bastard did to us. He's not worth it". Silence fell between us for few minutes.
"I thought Reid would visit too" I commented.
"Our boy Genius needs his beauty sleep; he was all cranky when I called him in the morning" Morgan said. I nodded and smiled imagining Reid peacefully sleeping on his bed with a smile that could melt ice. I wish I could see that smile again.
"He needs his time adjusting I guess" Morgan said before my mother entered the room.
"Well, hello there Agent Morgan!" mom greeted him before praising the flowers he just got for me.
"How's Dr. Reid doing? I think he was discharged yesterday right?" Mom asked.
"He doing pretty good as well, he got home yesterday but still on bed rest for another week."
"I heard he gave a tough fight to that criminal to save you and Emily" Mom spoke. Morgan signed before answering.
"Our kido is not as vulnerable as he looks. He knew the situation well to attack. We are all thankful for that." Morgan answered. General conversation started between them and I sat there replaying the fight Reid gave to William in my mind. I remembered how his voice cracked when he told William that love conquers all. Did he really meant what he said that time, was that comment for me or was he just taking revenge from the Unsub? Whatever it was I was now official fan of his bravery. Morgan soon left and promised to return tomorrow with Reid. I was eagerly waiting to see him and that haunting smile of his. I slept that night again going through the same nightmare, fighting cold, fighting death and trying to chase that smile for miles and miles…
Morgan POV…..
I wasn't calling the Kid anymore, I tried enough but he seemed to not pick up. Finally I gave up on calling and in the morning got myself to his apartment. It was raining lightly wetting all the streets. I parked in his parking place and took out the bags from passenger seat. I brought in some good food for him.
I walked up to his place and knocked. There was no response. I knocked again, louder this time. With time, nervousness started to kick in with bad thoughts bathing my mind. Was something wrong in there? This time I planned to kick the door open. I placed the bags on the floor and backed off just to hit the door with full force. That very instant the door opened and my strong kick landed right onto Reid's stomach. Losing my balance from injured leg, we both fell on the floor crushing each other's body. I quickly got up from top of Reid and sat aside holding my aching leg.
"AHHH! Man that was some bad, bad timing!" I sat and gave him space to get up.
"You hit me very hard" Reid said in an agonized tone and went outside to get my cane back for me. He extended his hand and I took it to pull myself back on my feet. I took the cane and walked over to the couch. He came back inside with the bags closing the door behind him.
"Why weren't you opening the door, I knocked forever" I said relaxing my head back. He went into the kitchen leaving me behind noticing his place. It seemed like many battles were fought here, books everywhere on the floor in different positions with clothes hanging here and there.
"What happened out here?" I asked as he appeared back. Even he resembled hell, hairs not combed properly and only loose clothes covering him. At my question, he only gulped and sat across me.
"Are you going to say something or not?" I asked again.
"What do you want me to say?" Reid asked looking away.
"Explain this mess and then yourself?" I demanded.
"I was kinda sick, I'll clean the mess when I feel better" Reid simply summarized his last few days.
"If you needed help, you couldn't called me or at least attended one of the thousands calls I made or texted me" I started out.
"My phone is not charged" Reid answered still looking away.
"I should call in a doctor then" I said and took my phone out, Reid flinched.
"There's no need for that Morgan" Reid panicked.
"Seriously kid, you clearly need help, the decision to discharge you yet wasn't right." I said.
"No, I don't need it. I am fine; I'm tired that's all. I can rest and it will be better I'm sure." Reid spoke in fast.
"Come on don't be stubborn now" I said while dialling Dr. Adam. Reid forcefully snatched the phone away from hands.
"NO, means NO!" He yelled this time ending the dialling.
"REID! What's wrong with you! You're not picking up my call, you're cranky, mean and yelling for no reason. And now that I want to help you, you got problems with that too!" I raised my voice and he sat back down bowing his head. Silence fell between us, an awkward one. I suddenly felt guilty yelling at him when he's not in his normal state. His face tensed as sadness radiated from it.
"Look kid, I am sorry but I need to know what's bothering you" I politely asked, he lifted his head to face me.
"I am sorry for snapping at you like this" He apologized.
"You know you can't hide anything from me" I said. He faintly smiled.
"I just need time" Reid said.
"Is it William?" I asked and he shook his head.
"Then it is Emily?" I asked cautiously.
"Why would you ask that?" Reid asked confusedly.
"Well William had you two be a couple, you must've felt awkward. Then all his words, false lessons, I mean you do realize he was all just a pyscho." I softly said.
"I know it was hard to hear him say all those ugly things" he agreed.
"Then there were your feelings for Emily, they may have got into the case bothering you. You shouldn't worry about that now" I claimed. He bit his lower lip at my words.
"Once or twice, such foolish words escaped my mouth. I wished I could get them back. Just imagine what she might have thought about me. I was so embarrassed afterwards." Reid explained.
"O come on, you know she didn't mind it" I said.
"It was just so inappropriate for the situation. I'm still mad at myself"
"You were her hero there baby" I teased while smiling "how in the world can she mind this?" Reid smiled with me.
"Still she must've thought I'm crazy" He replied.
"She knows why you said what you said" I finally let out and he looked up at me with amazement.
"Hhmm?" Reid eyed me.
"I kinda told her before we got captivated by William" I said. Reid became even more confused.
"What? What did you tell her?" He asked abruptly.
"Your real feelings for her" I answered and he stood up all angry.
"WHAT THE HELL, Morgan?" he asked loudly.
"I knew you could never build enough courage to say it yourself so I did it for you" I explained myself.
"REALLY?" Reid yelled this time.
"I didn't expect you to get this mad"
"Morgan, who gave you the right to advertise my feelings like this?"
"Hey, chillax-"
"SHUT UP MORGAN" Reid's sudden anger shocked me. His face was all flushed out. I didn't know he never wanted to tell her that.
"I trusted you and in return I get this. I shouldn't have done that, such imprudent of myself" Reid softly said this time biting his lips. Then I saw him blinking his tears away. I descended another level in my guilt.
"Reid, I had no idea that-"
"Enough with your explanation! That whole time she knew what I meant, why did you do that?" He let out sadly staring at my with his innocent eyes demanding answers that I had not.
"Sorry I didn't-"
"Sorry doesn't bring time back!" Reid yelled again.
"Kid, you need to calm down." I said.
"DON'T call me that. My name is Spencer Reid!" He spoke with no emotion in his tone. I had never seen our genius this angry before. I gave up talking and he too sat back down on his place. He covered his face with his hands. He was hurt and betrayed by his very trusted friend. What if he asked for her reply? I remember how lightly she took those feeling and laughed off saying he was not her type. I was becoming more ashamed as silence continued to dwell between us. Reid sat still hiding his face. I got up and walked over to his side. I grabbed both his wrist and pulled them away from his face to find tears falling off his cheeks. He resisted but I pulled harder.
"Let go!" He pulled backed his writs but I had them in control.
"You haven't even met her yet to see how she's craving to tell you how proud she is, so stop wasting these precious tears of you" I said but he kept his eyes low.
"I am not crying because of her" He barely spoke.
"Then for who pretty boy…" I asked squeezing his wrist gently emphasizing my point.
"YOU!" He screamed before forcefully pulling his wrist out of my grip "I am done talking here so kindly leave me alone now"
"Reid, I didn't come here to leave this early, I got all the food that we can eat together then go meet Emily and clean this mess as well" I protested.
"I don't need you anymore" Reid stood up and moved away from me.
"I get it that you're mad but come on there's no point in it" I said.
"I am done with you, please, please, please leave me!" Reid pleaded insanely. My world fell apart hearing those words leaving his mouth. I took my cane in my hand and stared back at those eyes that looked dead. He must be very exhausted but I never wanted to leave him alone at this state. I had to stay here, take care of him. He needed someone.
"Please, let me stay here for a while, I want to help" I requested.
"I am not helpless" He snapped.
"What if I say I won't go no matter what?" I exclaimed. Reid looked at me again wiping his tears away with his sleeve and walked over, grabbed me with my arm and gently started to pull me toward the door.
"Reid, this is very rude of you, REID!" I said realizing how determined he was this time. He swung me outside the door and went back inside for a while bringing all the food bags back and placed them in my hand. Tears started to wet my eyes, why was he doing this to me.
"Reid, please!" I said before he stood in the doorframe looking all betrayed.
"It takes a lifetime to build it but only a moment to break"
"Give me one last chance" I pleaded as he slowly started to close the door.
"Broken things can never be put back together"
He closed the door. It wasn't only the door he closed, he closed himself away from me; he didn't throw me out of his place but out of his life. I stood there, waiting he might open the door again. I knew he was exhausted, tired, sick and now mad but it was all so quick. I left the bags there and walked back into the rain.
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