Rachel…

I was frozen thinking about Sasha. MY heart ached for her and it's never done that for anyone else. Not even Finn when I had something with him. But my heart ached for Sasha as I thought about not having her in my life. It wasn't a thought that I liked. Not being able to see her. Not being able to know that she was ok even when she was pretending. It hit me right in the gut then. I knew what was wrong with me now and IO prayed that no one else notices it. I'm straight. I don't want to be a statistic with having two fathers made me gay. I couldn't do that to them. I had to hide how I felt because I wasn't going to put my fathers' through that. "Are you ok?"

I looked over at Quinn and she smiled a small smile at me. "I'm worried. What if no one has found her?"

"You must have been worried. I just told you that Noah had found her and she is on the way home. So we are heading back." Quinn said softly.

"I care about her a lot. She is my first real friend. She didn't walk in and look at me with hate or disgust. She got to know me and allowed no one's comments to sway her away. She is my best friend and I'm scared that I'm going to lose her. Because if I lose her I got no one. I'll be that girl everyone picks on again and I don't want that. I am so sick of being that." I said to her and she looked down at the steering wheel.

"I wish I would have gotten to know you instead of hated on you like I did. You didn't deserve that. You didn't even do anything wrong. Finn was the one that did it all. He was the one that was with me when he kissed you. I shouldn't have blamed you for it. It was my fault for being such a bitch anyways. Quinn said to me.

"You know that offer is still open Quinn. You don't have to live with Noah and my dads won't make you suffer by not giving into your cravings. All you got to do is say the word and they'll convert two rooms. One into a Nursery and the other into your room. We would love to have you and Beth there." I said to her.

"Really? You would allow me to move in after everything that I have done to you?" She asked me softly as she turned a corner onto Sasha's road.

"You apologized didn't you? Why wouldn't I? That is what friends do." I said to her.

"When I park I'm going to hug you." Quinn said as Sasha's house came into view.

"I would like that a lot." I said to her.

Noah…

I watched her as she stared at the wall. Nothing came from her mouth and I knew that it would be a long time before she said anything. So I decided that it was time for me to say my peace to her. It was time for her to know just how sorry I was that I had a hand in doing this to her. Because no one can lie and tell me I didn't at least have a little part in it with what happened in the hallway between us. I used what she told me like it was nothing when I knew that it was wrong. It was so wrong but I didn't seem to care. Well, now I do. I care so much and I don't know why.

"You don't need to watch her." Mike said from behind me.

"I think that she needs someone with her at all times if she is just going to run away." I shot back at him and I heard him sigh.

"Maybe, us always being around is the reason why she ran? Did you ever think about that? Maybe she needs some space so she can actually allow herself to feel what she needs to feel? How can she do that when she thinks she needs to be strong in front of us all the time?" Mike asked me and for once I didn't have answer for him.

"She should know that we don't have to be strong around us all the time. We are her friends and being her friends doesn't mean that she has to pretend she is alright when we all know that she isn't." I said to him.

"Why don't you both stop talking about her like she isn't even in the room? That's our problem. She is so quiet that we forget that she is in the same room and we fight over her. Well, stop fighting over her because this isn't about either of you. This is about her. Make it about her and just fucking stop." Kurt snapped which shocked the hell out of both of us.

"We aren't fighting over her." Mike said to him and I nodded in agreement.

"Please, you both are trying to mark her like the dogs you are and she is a toy. Well, I'm sorry to say that she isn't and believe me when I say this you two are shit out of luck because I know a certain someone that she happens to like more then you and the girl likes her just as much although she doesn't know it yet. But she will and when she does neither of you will have a shot with Sasha here now leave I'm staying with her for a while." Kurt said to us and we both looked at him like he was crazy.

"Go already. There is food down there for you two." Kurt said as he sat down beside Sasha and she scooted towards him.

I stood up and looked down at her to see that she had her eyes closed and tears sliding down her cheeks. "I'm sorry Sasha. I'm so sorry."

Sasha…

When they walked out of the room I turned over and placed my head in Kurt's lap. "Thank you."

"Oh you are welcome baby girl." He said softly as he ran his fingers through my hair.

"He is right though. We have your back through all of this. We aren't leaving you by yourself in this. We can't do that to someone that we consider family. We need you just as much as you need us now." He said to me and I looked up at him.

"I just don't think I can be fixed. I feel so broken and missing pieces that I don't even know where to begin to help myself. I don't want to die Kurt. I want to live but I don't want to live like this. So what am I going to do?" I asked him and he blinked away his tears.

"We start at the beginning and work our way to the end. It won't help starting in the middle. If we are going to help fix you then we are going to do it right." He said to me softly and I couldn't help but feel like maybe just maybe we can fix what is broke.

"So, Rachel has feelings for me huh?" I asked him softly and he smiled down at me.

"Oh yes that girl has it bad. She just scared that it means that gay parents raise gay kids. After all you have to mothers too." Kurt said to me.

"Yeah and you have a dad. So what does that say about you? I have a father that is very active in my life. I have three parents and I will always have three parents. They raised me not to judge. They are not the reason I love the way I love. This is who I am because this is who I was born to be. Just like with you. Just like with her. We are born different because we are meant to be different." I said to him and he smiled and laughed.

"You know how to word things don't you?" He asked me as someone knocked on the door.

"Can I come in?" Rachel asked and I looked at the door.

"Please do." I said softly.

"Kurt, can you give us a few minutes. I need to say something to Sasha and I would rather do it alone." Rachel asked him and he looked down at me.

I nodded and moved my head from his lap. "You got ten minutes then I'm coming up and spending some more time with my baby girl. So be nice."

"I will be. Don't worry I won't hurt her." Rachel said to me as they traded spots.

"If I thought for a second that you would you wouldn't be left alone with her ever again." Kurt said before he walked out and closed the door behind him.

Rachel looked down at me and patted her lap. I placed my head there and she started to run her fingers through me hair. "So, Kurt told you I have feelings for you."

"Yeah." I said to her.

"These feelings are really new to me. I haven't ever felt like this before Sasha. Nothing like this. Not even with Finn. I'm not going to lie and say I'm not scared about these feeling because I am scared. I just know that I can't fight them anymore. You mean the world to me and I'm not going to let you go. You are mine and I am yours. This is how it will be." Rachel said to me.

I wanted to be happy about what she said. I wanted to tell her that I was all hers but I couldn't allow herself to be chained to me like that. I couldn't allow that to happen to someone like her. I wasn't someone that could show her how much she was loved anymore. I wasn't. "Rachel…" "Don't you even think that you are getting rid of me. We are together now Sasha. I won't allow you to ruin it. We are meant to be and I know this. We are meant to love each other and we will fix you and we will do it together. Because I need you and you need me. We were meant to be together and we both know it."

I didn't say anything as I closed my eyes because I knew that no matter what I said Rachel wouldn't listen and maybe I didn't want her to. Maybe she was what I needed after all. "See you can't even find a reason to not date me so that means we are now together. You tell Puck and Mike to keep their hands of my girl. I don't share." Rachel said to me and I couldn't help the smile that was coming to my lips.

"Yes!" Was heard from the door and we looked at each other before we started to laugh. Kurt opened the door and flung himself at us with a giggle. "I knew that my gaydar wasn't off!"

"I never said yes." I said to them.

"You asked me out remember? I answered you so that means we are now dating ha, ha!" Rachel said to me and I laughed.

"I don't think that it counts when it's been four weeks since I asked you out." I said to her.

"You didn't give me a time limit now did you?" She asked me and I shook my head.

"So it's good for a year. So just face it you have a hot girlfriend. Now what to do to tell everyone about it?" Rachel asked and Kurt laughed.

"They already know. Puck and Mike are outside right now." Kurt said to us.

"You mass texted it didn't you?" I asked him.

"Maybe." He said and I shook my head.

"Well, my hottie girlfriend shall we go and see how everyone is taking the news?" I asked as I sat up.

That was when it hit me. I didn't feel empty anymore. I didn't feel numb and the pain wasn't as bad as it was before. I knew that this was just the first step and I knew that it would be a long road but I now knew that I didn't have to make that road alone. I had a girl that was willingly taking me as a broken person. I had friends that were at my back even though they didn't have to be there. And it felt so much different than it did before. I wasn't hopeless anymore.