Sorry I'm so late with this! I never found time to do this on my laptop but I've figured out a way to type up a chapter on my phone, which I always have on me, and then email it to myself and then post on here! :) So I give you, chapter nine! I hope you enjoy! It's a bit angsty :3
Chapter Nine
I wake up and my head is pounding. What time is it? Where am I? What happened? I refuse to open my eyes because I can tell the curtain is open and the blinding sun would give me a headache.
"Here, take these," I hear from behind me. I turn around so I'm not facing the window and I finally open my eyes. Jeff is standing there with two aspirin and a glass of water. I take the pills and down them with the glass of water.
"Thanks," I mutter as Jeff goes to put the glass back in the bathroom. I look over to the clock. It's 6:45. Jeff and I usually don't wake up until 7:30. I'm guessing Jeff has some sort of plan for this extra time. And oh was I right...
"What the hell do you think you were doing last night, Nick?" Jeff exclaims, walking back in from the bathroom. I rub at the back of my neck, desperate to get this headache to go away. I open my mouth to respond but Jeff isn't quite done yet.
"Just because I have a boyfriend right now doesn't mean you can fling yourself at any random guy who will have sex with you!" Jeff paces the room and takes a position right in front of me now that I'm sitting up straight. "Do you have any idea how many diseases Sebastian must have? How could you be so irresponsible, Nick? I thought you were smarter than this! At least tell me you used protection! If he gave you anything, I swear to God I'll kick his ass!" I sit there patiently, waiting for him to finish. It's better if he gets this all out now. I'll have my turn. "And you didn't even call! I had no idea where you were! It took me hours of searching to finally find you! And when I do, you're wrapped up in the arms of a man you barely know! Sure, Sebastian is hot but that doesn't mean that you give into what he wants that easily! I'm just trying to look after you as a friend, Nick. You're best friend."
By this point, I'm enraged.
"My best friend? My best friend? I don't have a best friend. No. I haven't had one since you decided to make out with your boyfriend right in front of me even though you know how I felt! You've been an awful friend to me, let alone a best friend! You flaunt your relationship in my face! It makes me sick to my stomach! I'm forced to watch you two hold hands, whispers sweet nothings to each other, kiss, and whatever else you decide to do when you know I'm watching! And of course, I can't say anything because then I'd be a bad best friend! And unlike you, that's something I actually care about! And for your information, I did not have sex with Sebastian last night. Or ever, for that matter. Not like it's even any of your business though! We went up to his room and had a few drinks, you know, taking the edge off of both of our pain. And so we got a little tipsy and started complaining to each other about all the crap we deal with. And in a way that made us closer. So by this time, we're flat out drunk. So yeah, we kissed. And it felt good. My first kiss with a boy, Jeff. I always wanted it to be you but you had other plans. So I went for sexy Smythe. And it was a beautiful kiss. It felt nice being wanted in that way. I'm sure you know what I mean. And yeah, maybe it got a little heated and I climbed on his lap and it got deeper and deeper. But that's as far as it went, Jeff. The only reason we were shirtless is because Sebastian always sleeps that way and I puked on my shirt so I wasn't gonna wear it to bed! And don't you dare imply he's a slut! I don't know for a fact he's completely clean but how can you make up such vicious accusations about him? He's a good guy, Jeff! And I may not have to defend myself to you, but if you're going to talk about him behind his back, I sure as hell have to defend him! Even if I did sleep with him, why would that bother you so much? Do you think I'd do that to spite you? Is that who you think I am? Do you really think that low of me, Jeff?" I can see the tears threatening to fall from his eyes. He thinks I've said too much when I think it was exactly what I needed to do. He grabs his bag, having already been showered and dressed and heads for the door. He's furious, I can tell. But so am I.
"I'm getting breakfast," is all he says as he slams the door behind him.
I take my time in the shower and getting dressed. I feel pleasantly relieved due to my outburst. It's a strange calm that's settled over me. I don't think my stomach could handle food right now after the insane amount of alcohol I put in it last night so I decide to skip breakfast. I grab my bag, not sure where I'm headed to before first period. But when I open the door I think I just found my plans.
"Hey," Sebastian says, smiling and leaning against the door frame. I can't help but smile brightly in return.
"Hey," I say.
"I've got your shirt from last night," he tells me as he fishes the shirt out of his bag and hands it to me.
"Thanks," I say with a smile as I walk back inside my room to place it on my bed. I walk back out into the hallway and lock my door before heading down the hallway with Sebastian.
"So the kiss..." Sebastian began, "what does it mean?"
I swallow thickly, hoping I don't say the wrong thing.
"Well...I thought it was j-just a kiss. But if that's not what you thought..." I stammer, nervously.
"No, no!" Sebastian cuts me off, "I just wanted to make sure you felt it was just a kiss. Like we said last night, it was good but there was no spark."
"Phew," I sighed in relief, "Okay, good. I mean, you're sweet and all but I'm not ready for a relationship."
"Yeah, I completely agree."
I smile and there's a comfortable silence for a few minutes.
"So I take it Jeff didn't like how you were in my bed last night?" Sebastian questions.
"Oh...um, you could hear us this morning?" I ask, blushing some.
"Yeah, I could hear yelling but I couldn't make out what it was about. I figured it was that though." he explains. I sigh.
"Yeah, it was about that. He came into your room last night and carried me out. I wish he didn't. I was completely comfortable with you," I admit, blushing more. Sebastian just smiled.
"Yeah, it was nice having someone to cuddle with. But Jeff thought it was more?" he questions. I sigh again.
"Of course, he wouldn't be Jeff if he didn't jump to conclusions. He started yelling at me last night and it just made my headache worse. So he let me sleep and then start in on me again this morning. But this time, I gave it right back to him. I never knew I had that in me, honestly. I was just sick of how he was treating me."
"I'm proud of you, Nick. I really am." he smiled down at me.
"Thanks. You kinda give me the strength to do it. You support me."
"Of course I do. You don't deserve to be treated like crap. You're special Nick, never forget that. Okay?" he says, giving me that knee-weakening smile. Even though I don't think of him that way, it's still heart melting.
"But I love how we're friends now, Nick." Sebastian said, smiling at me.
"Yeah, I really like it too. It's nice to have a friend right now," I tell him, honestly.
"I agree completely," Sebastian smiles and takes my hand. It feels completely natural and nothing more than friends. It's a nice feeling having my hand in someone's. I always got butterflies when Jeff held my hand but this was different. Sebastian's hand was bigger than Jeff's it, held tighter and felt more secure. It felt good. It made me feel so safe and protected. Like I could count on Sebastian. Right now, he's the only one I could turn to. And I know he'd be there for me. In a way, Sebastian may be the best friend I've ever had. No, we may not have the same history as Jeff and I but right now, Sebastian's there for me in a way that Jeff chooses not to be. Jeff's too busy with his boyfriend to notice his "best friend" is in serious pain. But Sebastian, someone I've barely even spoken to, is there for me. He understands, he knows what to say to comfort me. I'd never forget this. Forever Sebastian will be someone I admire for what he's doing. I will defend him against anyone who says something bad about him. True or untrue. He is now my friend and I will protect him just as well as he protects me. I can't help the smile that spreads across my face whenever he's near. And there's nothing romantic and sexual about it. It's pure friendship and almost brotherhood. I've never had a brother. At first I imagined Jeff as a brother but quickly enough my feelings changed and I realized that our relationship was never that of brothers. But with Sebastian, it felt right. Like he was my brother. My friend, my protector, someone I can confide in. And it felt amazing. I'm pulled out of my thoughts when Sebastian comes to a stop, forcing me to one as well. I look around and notice we're standing in front his first period class. Which, coincidentally, is Jeff's first period as well. They have art. Jeff loves this class and although Sebastian says he doesn't like it, I distinctly remember Jeff telling me that Sebastian did the best work in the class. It doesn't surprise me. Sebastian seems very creative. I look up to see Sebastian smirking in another direction. I turn my head to see where he's looking. He's smirking at Jeff who's standing a few feet away from the class room door. He's looking at Sebastian with these eyes. Not quite a glare, but something unfriendly. Do I see some fear in his eyes? Some intimidation? Yes, that's definitely what I see. Maybe along with...no, it can't be...jealousy? No, that can't be it. Most definitely not. That one I'm just imagining. I look back up to Sebastian and see him looking down at me now, smiling. I can't he but smile back up at him. Before I know what's happening he's leaned down and pressed his lips to mine. I smile into the kiss immediately, kissing back just enough. Sebastian pulls back and kisses my forehead before winking at me. He leans his mouth close to my ear and whispers softly.
"Let's see how he reacts to that one."
I smile and squeeze his hand before he lets go and walks into the classroom, flashing me a bright smile and giving me a little wave. I wave back and bite my lip before turning back in the direction of Jeff. He's looking down, avoiding my gaze. He looks at his feet as he walks into the classroom. Jeff's sad so I shouldn't smile. But then again, why is he sad? I told him I'm not with Sebastian that way. So maybe he thinks I'm lying? That could be why he's upset. But even if I were in a relationship with him, shouldn't my 'best friend' be happy for me? I guess Jeff thinks I'm lying. But he lied to me for months about a) him being gay and b) him dating Thad. So he has no right to be mad. So I won't think about it. I'll just walk to health class and hope David has an interesting story that'll preoccupy my mind. He usually does. I think of the last one he told me where he and his cousins tried biking down the stairs at the park and David flipped three times and landed on his back in the grass and ended up getting bitten by a colony of ants. That puts a smile on my face, laughing at the stupidity of my friend as I begin another day.
Okay, this chapter looks shorter, but it's not! It's just I usually space out my paragraphs but this time I didn't because I think they were fine like this. Let me know if you prefer it like this or more spead out! I'm happy to oblige either way! Hope you enjoyed! And I want to thank every single one of you who have reviewed, favorited, alerted and when I see I've been favorited as an author it makes me so so happy! That you actually like my writing style :) So thank you, guys :)
