AN: A short but much needed chapter. Thanks for reading, it is GREATLY appreciated. A huge thanks to Godisgood3, you truly are amazing! R&R
I followed Roy's scent into the woods, barely focusing on where I was going. I kept thinking of what to ask him, what he could say. I wondered if I really wanted to know, but I knew deep down I did. I don't know why, honestly if it were anyone else I wouldn't even bother. I had no idea why I was so fascinated by him. I had seen him murder my mother. But I knew he didn't want to do it, I just knew it. I don't blame him, I blame Evelyn. I know, I just know that she's holding something over his head like she is doing to me. But that's still not a good excuse. It doesn't mean I'm soft, that I do like vampires. It just means that I still have a bit of my humanity left. Don't get me wrong, I'd rather every vampire in the world just stop existing, myself including. But I still have human emotions, some. It's hard to explain, and I'm probably not doing a good job but it's the truth. I don't truly know why I want to know about Roy, maybe he could help me some day. I don't know. I just don't know.
"Bella." Roy walked out from behind a tree, running his hand through his hair.
"I need to know about you Roy. I need to know why you're going along with her." My voice was shaky but I wouldn't give up.
"Bella, it's a long, old story." Roy turned from me and placed his hands on his hips.
"It's the least you can do for me." I spat at him and he spun around.
"I never wanted to do any of this! This is not what I wanted!" Roy sounded angry and it took me off guard, I rarely herd him raise his voice, except for when he told Evelyn that she was going to get us killed.
"Tell me." I pressed on, my voice sounding less mean and more sympathetic. "What happened to you?"
"I was changed ten years ago... I was in a car accident in Seattle and was dying fast, blood loss. A vein in my arm was cut and I was bleeding so fast... I didn't hear any sirens, I knew nobody was coming. I could feel myself go cold, to die. And that's when I saw her..." He turned away from me and took a few steps forward. "I honestly thought she was an angel. She was so beautiful to me and I thought she was going to take me away, to Heaven. The next thing I know is I'm back at my house and I'm different. I had no idea what I was. When I woke up...She was laying besides me. She told me to follow her and I did. I had no idea what was going on! My mother was dead on the floor, her neck cut. My father was sitting in the chair, his eyes nearly popping out of his head. She told me that if I didn't go with her, that if I didn't follow her and do what she says that she was going to kill him. She told me exactly how she planned to kill him, in the most brutal way. It's like you Bella, you're too scared to disobey her because of your friends. I'm the same way. I never wanted to hurt you or make you do this, but with her there's no choice, only to follow her. But it won't matter. She got a taste of power and is going to end up making a scene, the Volturi will be notified. We will all die." His eyes were pleading with me, but no matter how much I tried to understand and sympathize, I knew I could never forgive him.
"You did to me what she did to you. You didn't give me a choice. You didn't have to change me, you know. You could have just bit me and pretended to lose control. You could have just killed me and I wouldn't be here, I wouldn't have to deal with this. You never gave me a fucking choice!" I turned from him, leaving him behind me. I mean, I do understand what he was saying. I understand why he did everything, the same reason why I'm going to change people against their will. Call me a hypocrite and you'll be correct. But I just can't bring myself to forgive him. He could have just killed me like he did with my parents, then none of this would have been happening. They could have found someone to change without a family. Maybe a serial killer who already liked killing people, or a junkie who wouldn't care anyway. There were so many other options than to drag me through this fucked up mess.
I sped out of the forest and I knew Roy was right behind me. I turned the corner and Evelyn was waiting, her eyes boring into me.
"Is everything done now? Everyone knows everyone's secrets?" She didn't wait for us to answer and continued speaking. "Good. We're all leaving now, let's go. It's this way." She sped away and we stayed on her trail. I could feel Roy staring at me and I knew he was pleading me again, but he was just a disgusting as every other vampire out there. I don't care about him or his past, it was a mistake to be curious. And I regretted it already. I looked out of the corner of my eye and he was still silently pleading me.
"Leave me the fuck alone." I said using my handy gift, and he never looked at me the rest of the way.
