Episode 2 Chapter 4 Memory Lane

Jenny, Lily, and Summer were sitting at the café. "Okay Lily Roberts why did you call this emergency girl meeting?"

"I think a hot doctor asked me out."

"What?" Jenny couldn't believe it. She had been single for almost a year and couldn't get a date. Lily hadn't even been trying to get a date and she was already getting asked out.

"Well…Remy's dad."

"Remy's dad is a doctor? I never would have guessed after the way she talked about him."

"He was grieving just like I have been."

"Yeah but you didn't self destruct." Summer reminded her.

"No…because of Nate and you guys…You guys got me through this." Lily smiled.

"Anyway get back to the story." Jenny wanted to hear more.

"We went over to his house for dinner the other night and he said that we should do it again sometime."

"Okay not a big deal Lily." Jenny was kind of disappointed. Her story wasn't as good as she thought it would be.

"Alone…he said we should go out together….alone."

"Whoa…that's definitely a date."

"I know." Lily looked down. "I don't know if I'm ready to date. I think it might confuse the kids. Hell I think that it is probably going to confuse me."

"Lily," Summer started. "I know that it is going to be hard to get back out there, but Spencer would want you to be happy."

"That's what everyone says, but Spencer wanted me to be happy with him."

"Yeah but even when you and Spencer weren't together he wanted you to be happy. It's been almost a year." Jenny reminded her.

"I know…" Lily closed her eyes. "I just I don't know if I'm ready. It wouldn't be fair of me to date Graham. He's been through the same stuff that I've been through and we would probably use each other as rebounds…I don't want to hurt him like that."

"First of all it is just one date." Jenny smiled. "And second of all who better to go out with…he's been through what you've been through. He probably knows exactly how you are feeling."

"I know." Lily sighed. "I don't want to get hurt…for so long Spencer has been the only man that I have loved…He was the first man that I loved…I..I'm afraid."

"Lily I've been there…it was easier for me because I had Jamie…but I had the same thoughts that you are having right now…I didn't want to hurt Jamie…but look at us now…We are happily married and trying our best to have a baby…I mean really trying our best."

"Thanks for the vivid details…I'm glad someone's sex life is going good for them." Jenny moaned. "Mine totally sucks."

The girls both laughed at Jenny.

"Well it does."

Lily smiled. "You guys are the best friends a girl could ask for."

"We know," Jenny laughed.

A week passed and Lily finally agreed to go on a date with Graham.

At first they were both quiet and not sure what to say.

Graham finally broke the silence. "I haven't done this since I was eighteen years old."

"Really?" Lily smiled and played with her food a little bit.

"Yeah…My wife was my high school sweetheart."

"My husband was my high school sweetheart."

"I knew the moment that I met her that I wanted to be with her…We got married right after high school and then when I was nineteen Remy was born…That was the best day of my life."

Lily smiled, "I like the name Remy by the way. It is so unique."

"It took us forever to decide on a name. I wanted to name her Rebecca after Kelly's mom…Kelly was my wife. But Kelly wanted to name her Emily after my mom. We argued and argued for days. And then one day we sat down and wrote all the names out…We even wrote our names down." His face lit up talking about his wife and his daughter. Lily liked that. She felt like her face probably lit up every time she mentioned Spencer's name.

"Kelly wanted her to be unique and special…we figured there were a lot of Rebecca's and Emily's out there…So we took the first letter of each of their names and the last letter in both of our names."

Lily smiled. "That's an amazing story. I never would have thought about that."

Graham smiled. "It just kind of fit."

Lily nodded. "I know what you mean."

"I'm probably boring you to death. All my friends told me not to talk about my wife the whole night…They said it would be a total turn off."

"Not for me…maybe for some other girl, but not for me…I love hearing about your wife…I know what it's like, and to be honest with you I was really nervous about tonight, but you are making it so much easier."

"Thanks…I just want you to have a nice time."

"You don't have to worry about it because I am." Lily smiled and touched his hand. He didn't pull away and neither did she. She felt a rush of energy going through her body. She thought she would feel guilty, but she didn't. For some reason with Graham she didn't feel guilty. It just felt right.

The date only got better and better. Lily was actually sad to see it.

"I had a really good night tonight Lily." Graham smiled.

"I did too…It was a lot of fun."

Graham looked into her eyes. "I know that this is the part where I am supposed to kiss you goodnight, but I think we should take it slow. We've both been through a lot and I don't want to rush it. I have a strong feeling that I could really care about you."

Lily smiled and extended her hand. "Okay…well I guess this is goodnight."

"Goodnight…"

Graham walked away.

Lily was extremely excited. She felt guilty for going on a date, but then again she knew that Spencer would want her to be happy.

Two months passed and Lily and Graham went on several dates alone. Every time they ended the date with either hug or a hand shake. Lily had never taken anything that slow.

But on the eighth date…

"Tonight was fun Graham."

"I always have a great time with you." Graham went to hug her, but Lily intervened and kissed him.

Graham pulled away. He was shocked.

"Oh God…you didn't want to kiss me did you?"

"No…" He shook his head. "Of course I wanted to kiss you…I've been wanting to kiss you since the first date. I just didn't know how."

"I'm scared too Graham…"

"Can I kiss you again?"

"Yes," Lily smiled.

Graham leaned in and kissed her.

It was an amazing first kiss.

Graham and Lily had been dating for over a year.

"Alright guys it is time for bed." Lily looked over at Scarlet, Ansley, and Scott.

"Can Remy spend the night?" Scarlet asked.

"Please daddy," Remy looked over at Graham.

Graham looked at Lily. "Of course she can."

"Yay," Scarlet and Remy ran upstairs.

"Alright Annie and Scott…Let's go to bed." She looked over at Graham. "I'll be right back."

He nodded.

Lily came back about ten minutes later. "Sometimes it takes forever to get them into bed. I told the girls they could watch a movie to help them fall asleep. I love how Remy has taken Scarlet under her wing. Scarlet really needs someone right now. She has lost so much in her young life."

"She has you Lily…You are the strongest person I know."

"Thanks Graham…I think you're the sweetest guy I know."

He smiled and kissed her. "I never thought that I would feel this way again. You make me feel whole again."

Lily didn't say anything.

"You make me want a smile. You give me butterflies…My wife was the only person that could ever do that…And you make me want to be a better man. Lily…I'm in love with you."

Lily shook her head. She didn't know what to say. She froze.

"Um..was that too soon?"

"I just…I think maybe you should go Graham. I have long day tomorrow…I need to get some rest."

"Oh okay," Graham was confused. Maybe she didn't really feel the same way about him. "I'll pick Remy up in the morning."

"Sounds good," her heart was racing.

He gave her a quick peck on the cheek and left.

She closed the door. Why couldn't she say it back? She thought that she felt the same way. She was scared…scared to fall in love again.

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