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Hi Guys! Thanks for the reviews.

Here's chapter 9, hope you like it.

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Chapter 9

It had been the longest night in JJ's life. It was now 5.30 in the morning and they hadn't heard anything about Emily's surgery yet. Garcia had made her go clean herself up and got her some new clothes. JJ was so worried she felt sick. She had drifted of to sleep for short periods but every time she found herself waking up in cold sweat. Garcia had never left her side, trying her best to soothe her best friend. She was really worried about Emily too but she also knew she needed to be there for JJ. The tech analyst had never seen her friend like this, she was completely broken and she prayed Emily would make it through this.

The rest of the team sat in silence, they had all tried to get some sleep during the night, but as for JJ it had only been for short periods. Morgan got up and offered to go get some coffee.

" I'll come with you" Reid said and followed Morgan to the cafeteria.

Hotch sat deep in thoughts, he had gone through the events of the night over and over again in his head, trying to figure out what went wrong. Rossi was deeply worried about his colleague and friend. He had a special bond to the dark haired woman, he felt this like fatherly connection with her. He couldn't explain where it'd come from but he felt a need to protect her.

Morgan and Reid returned with the coffees. JJ took the mug and just held on to it, the heat from the hot liquid almost burned her hands through the paper mug but she didn't care. Penelope stroked her back gently. Suddenly the door from the trauma unit opened and a doctor came out. JJ immediately stood up, her heart racing in her chest.

Please please please say that she's alright... say that she's alright...

Everybody waited for the doctor to say something.

" The operation went well" he started. Everybody breathed a sigh of relief. JJ's eyes started to fill up with tears again, this time from relief. Penelope got up and stood next to JJ wrapping her arm around her shoulder. The doctor continued.

" She lost a lot of blood and she was still bleeding when she got here. Fortunately we managed to stop the bleeding, a couple of more minutes and she would have bled to death. She was very lucky, the knife didn't injure any vital organs so we're expecting a full recovery" the doctor finished.

By now JJ was crying of happiness, Emily was alive and she was going to be just fine.

" Can we see her?" she asked. She needed to see her, needed to see with her own eyes that she was okay.

" She's in the intensive care unit now, but I guess one of you could go see her for a little while. She needs to rest." the doctor stated.

JJ looked at her team, everybody knew what she was silently asking. Hotch spoke up.

" You go JJ" Hotch said.

JJ just smiled at her boss and followed the doctor to the intensive care unit. Her heart was beating hard in her chest as she approached Emily's bed. She had never seen the dark haired woman look so fragile. She sat down in a chair next to Emily's bed and gently took her hand and stroked it lightly with her thumb, afraid of hurting her. A single tear rolled down her cheek, she quickly wiped it away.

" Hey Emily... it's me... I've been so worried about you..." she lifted her hand and slowly caressed Emily's hair. She couldn't stop the tears from falling as she continued talking to her sleeping friend.

" The doctor said you're going to be okay... you lost a lot of blood but the doctors were able to stop the bleeding..." She studied her face and whispered.

" I can't believe you did this... I can't believe you jumped in front of me when he was about to attack me... It should be me in this bed... not you... I'm so sorry Emily..." JJ wiped her eyes and brought Emily's hand up to her mouth and gently kissed it.

A nurse came over and said she had to leave now. JJ reluctantly let go of Emily's hand and got up to leave.

" I'll be back tomorrow..." JJ said and leaned forward to place a gentle kiss on Emily's forehead.

" Bye..."

JJ walked out to the team who were still waiting in the waiting room. Penelope got up and walked over to JJ and hugged her.

" How was she?" She asked.

" She wasn't awake... she looked so fragile and pale... but I guess that's because of the blood loss..." JJ answered and trailed off.

" Don't worry baby girl, the doctor said she will be just fine" Garcia said.

" I know... It was just hard to see her like this, she's always so strong...But it was good to see her, thanks guys for letting me go see her, I needed that..." she trailed off.

" After everything you two have been through tonight it was no doubt you would be the first one to visit her" Hotch said.

" Thank you..." JJ said sincerely.

"We're gonna take off, do you need a ride home?" Hotch asked.

" No, it's okay. Garcia's gonna drop me off, see you guys tomorrow" JJ said as the team left.

" Are you ready to go?" Garcia asked.

" Yeah... No... I don't know... I don't wanna leave her alone Penelope..." JJ said meekly.

" She's probably going to be asleep for several hours and you really need to get some rest Jayj" Garcia said and rubbed her shoulder.

" Look it's 7.15 AM now, how about I take you home, make you something to eat and you can lie down for a couple of hours. Then we can come back her some time after lunch, maybe she'll be awake then. How does that sound?" Penelope asked.

" Great... I love you, you know..." JJ said and pulled her friend in for a hug. She was so grateful she had Penelope as a friend right now. She didn't know what she would do without her best friend.

" I love you too sweetie, come on" Garcia put her arm around JJ's shoulder as they walked out from the hospital.

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As they arrived to JJ's apartment and walked inside, JJ felt completely exhausted. She wanted to jump straight to bed but she really needed to take a shower first, she felt really dirty. The hot water made her relax and gave her some new strength.

Garcia had made her a huge breakfast as she walked in to the kitchen in her bathrobe with a towel draped over her shoulders.

" Wow... How many breakfast guest are we having over?" JJ asked and smiled at her friend as she saw all the food Penelope had made for her.

" Very funny! I figured you must be starving by now" Garcia answered.

" I am, but you know you made food for the entire BAU " JJ teased her friend.

" Shut up and eat " Garcia said back, smiling as she continued.

" It's great to see your smile again... I was really worried about you too over at the hospital. So it's nice to see the old JJ starting to slowly come back"

JJ just smiled at her while she continued eating, the food was amazing. After eating as much as she could, and then some more after Garcia insisted she needed to eat more, she thanked her friend and headed to her bedroom. She fell down on her bed and just stared at the ceiling. Thousands of thoughts swirled through her mind. She thought about all that had happened tonight. She was so relieved that Emily was going to be okay. She couldn't stand the thought of losing her. Then her thoughts wandered back to the events in club. She was so confused about what she was feeling. She knew they were only pretending but when she thought back to the kiss they shared on the dancefloor, her whole body tingled. She could swear there was something in that kiss, something that wasn't an act. The way they both got lost in the kiss, it had to mean something right?

God I wish I could talk to her about it but what do I say? And even if I felt that there was something more in that kiss, it doesn't mean she felt that way. Of course she didn't feel anything, you're just fooling yourself to think that. I know Emily is straight, and so am I. Or am I really?.... God I'm so confused. I don't know what I feel... or maybe I do but I just don't want to admit it. JJ closed her eyes and tried to not think about it. When her eyes were closed she felt how tired she was and within seconds she was asleep.

When Garcia had finished cleaning up in the kitchen she went to check on her friend. She was pleased to find her sound asleep on the bed.

" Sleep well my angel" she whispered and closed the door.

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On the hospital Emily had been transferred from the intensive care unit to a room at the nursing ward. She was still on pretty heavy pain medicines and she was still sleeping.

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A couple of hours later JJ woke up from a nightmare where Emily had been stabbed , but in the dream she didn't make it. She sat up in her bed and screamed. Garcia almost fell of the couch when she heard JJ scream. She rushed over to her bedroom and walked in to find JJ sitting up in her bed panting heavily. She hurried over and took the younger woman in her arms trying to calm her down.

" It's okay Jayj... It was just a bad dream..." she spoke softly.

" Emily... she was stabbed and... she... she..." JJ broke down and cried in her friends arms.

" It was just a dream JJ... Emily is okay, she's at the hospital remember? " Garcia could feel her friend starting to relax a little.

" It was so real Pen... " JJ said slowly.

" I know sweetie, but she's alright " Garcia said and stroked JJ's hair.

" I need to see her" JJ said.

" Okay, if you get ready I'll wait for you in the kitchen." Penelope kissed her on her head and walked out to the kitchen. Her phone started ringing, she picked it up and saw Hotch name on the display.

" Garcia" she answered.

" Garcia, it's Hotch. Are you still with JJ? " He asked.

" Yes, she's been feed, showered and she has rested. She just woke up so I'm gonna drive her back to the hospital. She wants to see Emily" Garcia said.

" Okay, I'm really glad you were there to look after her" Hotch said.

" I couldn't leave her sir, she was so broken and exhausted. I think she's feeling a little bit better now though" Garcia continued.

" Well I appreciate it, you're a good friend Penelope. I've got to go, talk to you later" Hotch finished and hung up. He still felt like it was his fault what had happened to his agents. He was glad Garcia had been there for JJ when she needed someone.

JJ walked in to the kitchen as Garcia closed her phone.

" Oh hey! You ready to leave? " she asked JJ.

" Yeah, all set. Who was that on the phone, has something..." JJ asked nervously.

" No, it was just Hotch checking up on us, he said he'll get back to us later" Garcia explained.

" Oh, good. For a second I thought... Never mind, let's go shall we?" JJ asked.

" Yepp" Garcia said as they both left.

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When they reached the hospital JJ couldn't help but start to worry. She knew the doctors had said Emily would recover but she looked so vulnerable when JJ saw her earlier that morning.

If only she's awake now so I can talk to her and ask her how she's doing...

JJ and Penelope found out Emily's room number from the hospital reception. As they stood outside her room JJ took a couple of deep breaths to calm her racing heart. Penelope gave her hand a gentle squeeze before they walked in to the room. Emily wasn't awake.

" Oh my beautiful brown eyed girl..." Garcia could feel tears threatening to fall when she saw her friend lying in the hospital bed surrounded by different monitors. She took a deep breath and composed herself. She needed to be strong for JJ. She leaned forward and placed a gentle kiss on Emily's forehead.

JJ took Emily's hand in her own as she sat down next to her bed. Penelope took a seat on the other side of the bed.

" Hey Emily... It's me, Jennifer..." Usually she wasn't so fond of her name, but recently Emily had started calling her by her real name every now and then, and somehow when Emily said it, it didn't sound too bad. She actually liked it.

" Penelope is here too" JJ continued.

" Hi Em..." Garcia said softly.

Suddenly JJ felt Emily's hand move in hers, she looked up at her face and could see her eye lids starting to flicker slightly.

" Oh my god Pen, I think she's waking up" JJ said.

" I'll go get the doctor" Garcia said and left JJ alone with Emily.

" Emily... can you hear me?" JJ asked softly. Once again she could feel Emily move her hand.

" If you can hear me Em, try to open your eyes..." JJ pleaded.

Emily slowly started to open her eyes, her sight was a bit blurry at first but after she blinked a few times she slowly started to get her focus back. The first thing she saw was a pair of beautiful blue, tear filled eyes, looking at her.

" Jennifer...." she whispered.