A/N: Thanks to all who have reviewed and I'm hoping the story is good for you guys. I feel like the flow is off since I took such a long break, but IDK. I'm not getting many reviews so please review because that is what feeds my muse! TY

Chapter 9

Ana sat rigidly in the sitting room waiting for Kate. She was on her way up and Ana was nervous to say the least. Christian promised he would stay with and stop Kate should she start questioning her too much. As he had with her parents he had told Kate that Ana had been kidnapped by Jack Hyde and held captive by him until recently when Christian and his team had found her. He'd also asked Kate not to question her about her time there or make her uncomfortable. He knew it would be hard for Kate who was so used slipping into reporter mode. Ana stood as Kate entered the room. "Ana I've missed you so much," Kate said as she pulled Ana into a hug. Tears began to glisten in Ana's eyes as her best friend hugged her tightly. Oh how she'd missed everyone. Ana sat down and Kate followed suite sitting down next to her. Christian hung out by the door not wanting to intrude too much but also wanting to respect Ana's wishes of him staying near by.

"How are you doing Ana?" Kate asked.

"Good... better now that I'm home. Tell me about you what have you been up to?"

"Well I got married to Elliot" she said flashing her ring finger, "I'm interning at the Seattle Times. Things have been well for us."

"That's wonderful Kate, I'm so happy for you and Elliot."

"So is he gonna stand over there the whole time I'm here?"

"I'm here for Ana," Christian explained not moving from where he stood.

Christian was relieved when the visit was over without incident. He watched as the two hugged and said their goodbyes. Ana had visibly relaxed half way through the visit realizing that she hadn't needed to worry so much. She knew she would need to talk about what happened to her soon, but she wasn't ready for that just yet. "See that wasn't so bad," Christian said as he sidled up to her. Ana chuckled a little then started biting her lower lip. "Oh Ana you know what that does to me," he groaned. Ana blushed as she quit worrying her lip between her teeth. Mrs. Jones came around the corner "Mr. Grey?" she questioned. Christian and Ana turned and looked at her expectantly. "I need to talk to you alone when you get a moment," she said then left the room as Christian nodded and told her to give him a few moments. "I'm going to go read in the library," Ana told him as she left him to attend to his business.

"What can I help you with Gayle?" he asked as he walked into the kitchen.

"I'm not sure how the house line got out, but I've been fielding several calls from newspapers," she explained.

"When did this start?"

"Just this morning shortly after breakfast."

"What are they calling about? Did they say?"

"They're wanting to know about Ana. I've not told them anything of course."

"Thank you for your discretion on this matter I'd rather not let Ana find out about this. Have you told Taylor?"

"No I haven't seen him since the calls started."

"My parents and Mia want to come over for dinner on Friday. Ask Ana what she would like. Get her involved she hasn't been doing much but sleeping, eating, and reading it seems."

"Of course Mr. Grey."

Christian walked briskly from the kitchen to his office. He immediately dialed Taylor and told him of the situation. Someone was giving out this information and he wanted to get to the bottom of it as soon as possible. He wanted anybody even minutely connected to them to be investigated. Then Christian remembered the video he had watched. Jack had told Ana he knew all about the subs, contracts, and had even seen the playroom. Christian was going to have to plan a trip to go see his guest ,Jack Hyde, and find out exactly who had been working with him. He would confer on Taylor of the matter that evening and go from there. Right now he just need to keep Ana shielded from all the press and officers until she was ready to face everything.

Christian had managed to keep Ana in the dark and everything that was going or so he thought. As they retired the bedroom that evening Ana asked him what was wrong. He tried to pretend not to know what she was talking about, but she knew something was bothering him. Deciding to drop it Ana ventured to the bathroom to get ready for bed. They hadn't really spoken about their bedroom escapade the night prior so Christian decided to give her some space. He really couldn't wait until Monday when he could talk to Flynn about all this. He wasn't sure what she wanted or how much and he didn't want to push her too far. Things were definitely confusing for them and he really couldn't wait to pay a visit to Hyde either.

Ana was soon done in the bathroom and rummaging through her closet for something to wear to bed. "I'm just going to take a quick shower then I'll be coming to bed sweetheart," Christian said as he turned the water on in the bathroom. Christian turned the water up as hot as he could stand. The hot spray helping to ease his tense muscles. He groaned as he began to wash his face. He felt a burst of cold air as Ana opened the shower door and stepped in with him. Quickly he turned the hot water down a bit then turned to face her. "Ana?" he questioned. She chose not to use words, but instead stood on her tip toes and brought him into a kiss. Christian obliged running his hands up and down her silky skin. Soon the blood rushed filling his member as he continued to make out with his wife. Oh how he'd missed her and was so happy to have her back. He wasn't sure if this is what she wanted or if she felt obligated , but he intended to find out. Regretfully he pulled away from the heated kiss. Gently he held her shoulders at arms length so she had to look at him.

"Ana I love you. Are you feeling pressured?"

"No Christian you've never made me feel like that."

"I know Ana, but I mean inside yourself are you feeling like you need to do this for me?"

"No I need to do this for me."

"Ana I don't want you to regret this down the road."

"I could never Christian you're my husband. I love you."

"Christ Ana you were kidnapped and raped for a year and half how could you want anything to do with sex?"

"I don't know" she sobbed as she pushed away fleeing the shower.

"Fuck fuck fuck," Christian swore to himself.

He hadn't meant to have such an outburst. Leave it to him to put his foot in his mouth when it came to Ana. Turning the water off he quickly exited the shower. He quickly dried himself then tied the towel around his waist. Upon exiting the bathroom he noticed the bedroom door open and no Anna in sight. Angry at himself he stormed into his closet and grabbed a pair of pants then went in search for his beloved wife. He'd been trying so hard not to upset her, but he hadn't expected her to want anything to do with sex and it caught him off guard. He was so used to planning everything and her behavior had really unnerved him.

Christian searched Escala for her, but didn't find her anywhere. The only place he hadn't looked had been the playroom. Slowly he opened he door, which was now unlocked, and saw her sitting on the bed her back to the door. He hadn't been in this room the whole time she had been gone.

"Ana... I'm sorry," he said as he shut the door behind him.

"No you're right there is something wrong with me," she sobbed.

"There is nothing wrong with you. Every one copes in their own way. I was insensitive."

"He did horrible, awful things to me, and I'm practically begging you fuck me," she bit out.

"I'm not him and you know that. It's wonderful that you can separate that."

"I thought those things in your contract were awful. The things he did were so much worse."

Christian pulled her into his arms as she cried. She had cried plenty of times since she'd been rescued, but this was raw and powerful. She cried for her baby, her innocence, and her lost time. She cried because she knew no matter how hard she tried she would never be able to truly erase what had happened. Everything was different now, she was different now. She could never be the same carefree Ana again. She was afraid that Christian would realize this soon and not want her any longer. Most of all she was afraid to tell Christian any of this. Christian couldn't help the few tears that escaped his eyes. He had been trying so hard to be strong for her, but it couldn't last forever. Christina lifted her in his arms and carried her from the playroom. He doubted they would ever explore that side of their relationship and he found himself strangely unaffected by that. He carried her back to their bedroom sitting on the bed with her in his lap. She was still crying, but had calmed considerably. "Please Christian... I- I just want you to love me to show me," she pleaded as she wiped the tears from her eyes.

"Ana" he breathed, "I love you so much."

Christian gently laid her down beside him and brought her into a deep sensual kiss. Slowly he kissed her up and own her neck bathing her ear in hot kisses. "I missed you so much" he whispered as he continued to kiss her all over. If she wanted him to make love to her then he would be sure to take his time with her. Ana's eyes fluttered closed as she mewled in pleasure. Slowly Christian pushed her robe from her shoulders baring her to his gaze. Ana stared into his eyes this is what she had wanted since the day she had been taken. She had wanted to feel Christian against her skin, to hear him profess his love for her, and to feel him inside her. Soon Christian was throwing her robe haphazardly to the floor along with his own lounge pants and boxers. "Are you sure Ana?" Christian stared at her waiting for an instant before chewing her bottom lip and nodding her head yes. Her doe eyes looking so innocently sexy and automatically Christian began to swell at the sight of her. Reaching over he pulled his bed side drawer open and rummaged through it finding foil packet. They really didn't need to add another person the mix so soon he thought to himself.

Christian sat up as he opened the packet and rolled the condom over his impossibly hard member. Slowly he placed himself at her entrance guiding it in. Ana brought her hands up to his chest sliding them behind his back. She wanted to feel him close to her, to smell him, to know it was him. Soon he was fully seated and working his arms underneath her as he kissed her and slowly rocked in and out of her hot core. He stilled inside her as he kissed and licked at her neck. Ana arched her back hissing in pleasure whispering his name over and over again. He started the gentle rocking once again bringing a hand between their bodies searching for her clit. Soon he had found it and began to work it between his fingers. He was soon rewarded with her supple muscles milking him expertly as she moaned and thrashed beneath him. It was long after that he too was cumming and chanting her name. He held her for a long time before slipping out of her and pulling her into his arms. "Thank you," she breathed. "I'd go to the ends of the world for you Ana." He heard her sigh contentedly as she settled in with her head on his chest. He pulled a blanket over them and soon could hear her snoring softly.