It Hurts.
So here is number 9…
So, after spend two hours in a soft play area with screaming kids I finally sorted out all my idea! So, thank you for all the reviews and support! It's made me want to write more, so I hope you enjoy this!
When Alex see's Olivia crying, it kills her inside to see the strongest person she knows so upset and so broken.
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Sometimes people just break. Sometimes people cry because it all becomes too much, sometimes people laugh because it's either that or they'll break down in tears.
"Are you hungry, I can order some food?" Alex asked walking to sit down next to Olivia who was curled up on the sofa. Alex knew this day would come, the job she did was so hard and most people couldn't stand it for more than a few hours but not Liv. The case was hard, what had been done to those children was awful but Olivia kept her focus, part way through Alex could see it was all getting to much and she was right, they hadn't been in the apartment more than 5 minutes before she collapsed in tears.
"You can get some for yourself but I am really not hungry…" Olivia said sucking up a breath trying to hold the tears in.
Alex just nodded, planning to get her some food as well in hope she'd eat some.
"Do you want anything at all?" Alex asked standing to get the take away menus.
"No, thanks… I'm fine, really." Olivia said smiling at how worried her girlfriend had become.
Alex decided to leave it, and planned to talk about it later, maybe when Olivia had let all her emotions out and calmed down a little bit.
The night slowly passed and as Olivia silently cried whilst trying to watch TV and Alex couldn't take it any longer.
"Liv baby, please talk to me." Alex begged muting the TV moving closer to the brunette.
"Sometimes it all becomes too much…" Liv said looking up to the ceiling trying to stop herself from crying.
"I know baby… I know…" Alex said, she did know, she'd seen the pictures, she's seen the perps who showed no remorse, she could never say she had seen what the detectives had seen, but she's seen more than most A.D.A's.
Pulling her close it almost killed Alex to hear Liv cry as hard as she was, Alex pulled away enough to kiss her forehead then moving to kiss her lips.
"You know what we need?" Alex asked and Olivia shock her head a little, looking into Alex's eyes.
"We need to go away, no phones, no laptop, just a vacation, in a villa in massive heat with a swimming pool…" Alex said with smile as Olivia nodded.
"I think I would like that a lot." Olivia said, she loved her job, of course she did, but she so badly needed some time off.
"I can't stand to see you like this Liv, I wish I could take all this pan away…" Alex said, tears in her own eyes.
"I love you so much Liv, and this is so hard, to see you crying to see you upset…" Alex continued.
"I love you so much Alex…" Olivia said, it was the only thing she could think of.
"You know you can talk to me, whenever you like, don't you?" Alex asked figuring it was the best time to talk about it all.
"I know, I just, how do I explain it all Alex, I mean, so much of it reminds me of my mother and I try so hard to just let it go, but I can't."
"You get attached Liv, and sometimes that's not a bad thing, I just want you to feel like you can talk to me about anything, you know I am in this for the long run…" Alex said they had already been together for 2 years and Alex was serious about having a future with the detective.
"I know, I know…" Olivia said, she had no excuse about not talking to the blonde, because she knew that Alex partly understood.
"Sometimes I just convince myself I can work through it on my own, I've done it for that long that it just seemed like the right thing to do instead of bothering you with it all, because 9 times out of 10 it's the same things." Olivia tried her hardest to explain.
"Olivia, I don't care if you say the same thing every time, if it helps you then I am okay with that, Olivia seeing you break down like you did, that hurts me, and I will do anything to stop it happening, or to make it a little less worse than it is." Alex said knowing there will be days where Olivia will just cry, she imagined all the detectives did it, maybe not cry, but she guessed that they had their days when they just need some time to sort their heads out.
"Thank you so much, for all of this… not just for tonight but for everything, the love and support…" Olivia said smiling at the blonde who began to blush slightly.
"You are the love of my life, and I mean that, and I want you to be happy and that is why I want us to go away, for a few weeks… just me and you, like I said." Alex said moving so Olivia could rest her head on the attorneys lap as they carried on talking.
"We can have a look tomorrow and once we've got a date I can tell Cragen… Do you think Liz will let you have time off?" Olivia asked.
"This was Liz's idea, I got pissed at her today because I saw how upset you were and I wanted nothing more to get home, so she suggested we go on holiday for a few weeks…" Alex smiled and Olivia laughed, she could see Alex getting pissed off because of her, it proved to Olivia she really did care.
"I have an idea to make you feel better right now." Olivia said with a cheeky grin.
"Really detective?" Alex asked having an idea of what Liv was suggesting…
"I think it will make all the hurt go away." Olivia said getting up and pulling Liv towards the bedroom.
This was going to be a fun evening.
Number 9 is now complete!
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Bethanyy!
