Getting some writing done before I forget to do so! x


Dear Jean,

I love this boy and I think he loves me, what should I do?

Nervous


Nervous,

You tell him before it's all too late because don't forget this life you live isn't a right, it's a privilege and if you let it slip away from you there's no turning back.

Your friend,

Jean


Hours and nothing, Kelly had been taken home by her father, A.J had heard a lot of the man and she couldn't really place everything everyone said about him with his appearance. He looked like a young but not too young kind of father, but gave off the aura of a politician like he was. But the way he handled Kelly was as if Kelly's constant rants about him not finding her good enough weren't true.

Kaitlyn had taken Layla home because they both needed showers, Maryse was talking to Mike at the moment and by the looks of it she hadn't been able to let her stress go. Randy had left a short while ago to change and get some rest and promised John he'd be back shortly, Phil was on the verge of leaving and asked A.J if she wanted a ride, she bit her lip before giving a slow nod.

"Yeah going home sounds like the thing to do," she smiles

And he nods taking her hand in his and walking away with her after she bids her goodbyes.

When she gets home her mother hugs her tightly and promises she won't lose someone else in her life. But A.J knows all to well her mother can't control what happens and if something does happen to Mickie then she shouldn't feel bad for it.

"Thanks mom, I'm going to take a shower and a nap since it's like 6 in the morning," she chuckled softly

"Of course, baby," she smiles in understanding, "you hungry?"

"No," she answers quickly, "I'm not."

And with that she heads upstairs, her mother's lingering gaze following her. She feels like this is a year ago all over again, there is a reason why A.J is as thin and frail as she is now and that's because when Scott first died A.J refused to eat, she refused to do anything but cry in her room. And she prays that things don't end badly for her daughter because she's been through enough and watching her lose another loved one breaks her heart.

After a few minutes A.J steps out of her shower and changes into some shorts and a t-shirt. She lets her head hit her pillow and she wonders how Mickie's feeling at the moment, if there's a special place you go to before you are considered dead or alive. She wonders what Mickie's thinking if she's thinking at all, she wonders what she'll say when she wakes up.

"Please be okay," A.J whispers, "you're a close friend, in fact you helped me open up to the world, you can't leave me behind."

And then they fall, the tears she hasn't shed since Scott died, they fall and fall and she does nothing to stop them because at this point she's finally in pain. Regardless of what she told Phil back at the hospital, she's hurt all over. Mickie is like a sister and she feels that if she looses her then she really isn't cut out for this whole idea of happiness.

With that in mind she lets sleep take over, tears staining her cheeks, making Michael the one to wipe them away for her.


They all return around 10 that morning, Randy is still tired but Kelly's father had called him and asked him to take his daughter with him since he had an important meeting in New York and would not be able to "babysit" Kelly anymore. He knew Kelly's father was a very busy man but he couldn't help but be mad that he wasn't going to be there to hear what happened to Mickie, after all Kelly was the girl's best friend and he was sure her father knew that well enough.

He sees her sitting down, she's wearing a hoodie and some skinny jeans with some converse, she doesn't look as glamorous as she does for school but it's fine with him. Tonight he has to leave her side to go to practice because he's a leader and John is in no place to manage the team at the moment. He sits with her and she gives him a very smile but he knows her well and he can't help but notice the smile doesn't completely reach her face.

"Do you think she'll make it?" she whispers to him

"She has to," Randy smiles, "she's got homecoming queen to win."

Kelly giggles then, small tears falling from her eyes, "Mickie would want 'Ryse to win it."

"Why?" he asks

"Because Mickie would rather see everyone around her happy than be happy herself," she tells him, "I've always hated that about Mickie."

"She's very generous, isn't she?"

"She's the best," Kelly giggles, "when my father goes oversea's Mickie drops everything and keeps me company."

"That's very nice of her," he smiles

"Yeah," she smiles, "I wish I could do stuff for her too but I'm not very good at mending broken hearts."

She sighs softly and he wonders what she means by that one but doesn't ask her about it. Kelly stuffs her face on her knees and gives another sigh, he smiles and wraps his arm around her, which she mumbles a 'thank you' to.

He looks at his best friend and frowns, John looks like a mess. His hair is slightly ruffled from all the grabbing his been doing with it, he's never looked so tired, not even when he got in trouble and had to run for about 5 hours straight. He looks beyond stressed, like he hasn't slept in months, Kelly lifts her head then and looks to where he's looking and she frowns.

"He's worse," she whispers, "but I don't blame him."

"Why not?"

"He loves her," she smiles fondly, "you can tell."

"Really?" he looks at her with furrowed brows, "how do you know that, did he tell you?"

"He doesn't have to," she giggles softly wiping some tears from her eyes, "John, Mickie and I have known each other almost all our lives, John has always chased Mickie."

"Is that so?" he asks

"Yeah, he used to protect her from these bullies that would just pick on her for being short," she tells him,"Mickie didn't like it."

"Why does she hate him?"

"Because she's scared," she whispers looking at John

"Of what?"

"Of falling in love him with, silly," she shakes her head before placing it back on her knees, "she's always been scared of falling for him."

"I'm sure he's scared too," he tells her

"Yeah, but he's scared of something different," her eyes move to his face

"Of what?"

"Of loosing her," she yawns, "it's his biggest fear, I know."

"He won't lose her," he assures

"I know," she smiles


John glances at the clock, it's slow and he hates it. The doctor should be coming out soon but soon isn't soon enough, he sighs and runs his hand through his hair once more, it must look awful by now but he's got other things to worry about.

He thinks back to their messages last night, the way she easily typed up how she didn't think they would work and how he should stop being stupid. She hates him, she says, and it all hurts because he didn't even give her a reply, he let her go. He let her go and allowed her to get in a car accident that was life threatening, but he swore that if she makes it, if he can see her smile once more he'd confess in front of everyone and let her know what she means.

He glances at Kelly and Randy who are talking to each other and he marvels in how natural they look. He's not stupid, he knows Randy's been seeing the girl for longer than it seems, he can see it in his eyes. The way he no longer picks fights with her when he does with Mickie and the others do with their respective chicks, he can see the way he talks to her and the way she looks at him.

He's isn't bothered by it, he approves of it, Randy's has had a very difficult life some happiness will do him good. Who knows, maybe he'll take that pole out of his ass now. He looks at Kaitlyn and Derrick who are counting tiles, Kaitlyn counting ceiling and Derrick floor, he knows that's Kaitlyn's way of coping with the situation but nonetheless he finds it in him to smirk at how close Derrick has become to the girl with the two-toned hair.

A.J and Punk are talking to each other and A.J is laughing slightly, he knows she's just as worried as everyone else. He's thankful she talked to him because she gave him courage to face this situation in a new light. She's been through it all and she smiles so he will too, for Mickie's sake.

Layla is sleeping at Cody's side and Maryse is still looking down at the floor, Mike at her side. She blames herself but she couldn't be farther from blaming someone than she is now. He knows it's no one's fault but his own for being such an ass to Mickie, he did this, he made her go out in blinding rage. He hates himself for it but he can't change things no matter how much he wishes he could.

His thoughts are interrupted by a man dressed in a white lab coat coming towards them, they all stand at the sight of him and he gives them all stern looks.

"We have finally completed the surgery," he tells them, "she lost a lot of blood and we did everything we could for her."

"How is she?" Mickie's mother asks

"Well I've got the results right here," he tells them

And suddenly John can't feel his legs anymore, they're numb, and his heart hurts all over again.


Leaving it at a cliffy 'cause I'm evil like that -or I think I am, whatever. Anywho, thanks for your reviews, alerts, favorites! Until next time.

[Oh and if any of you read my one-shot "Everything Has Changed" I have a friend who is writing the full on story of the one-shot her username is ispeaklove and she's basically writing out the in between of the one-shot aka: filling in the blanks of the story! You should check it out, it's titled the same thing as my one-shot, well thanks x ]