Hikaru X Kaoru

Short chapter I know. And I know what most of you will be thinking but don't worry. :D I have big plans for all of the hosts!

Kaoru sat in the third music room while everyone was gone. No club today, Tamaki wanted to go to the commoner's market again. Haruhi had mentioned something about a sale or something. He hadn't really been paying attention. Sitting on a windowsill he looked down at the empty campus below. No one would disturb him here everyone was already gone. Hikaru had left with Haruhi, taking her in their limo. She'd protested some but Hikaru had been adamant and she'd allowed him to lead her out of the club room.

No one really question him not wanting to go. The only one who'd put up a semblance of a fight was Honey and that had lasted a minute before Mori had picked him up and taken him out of the room. Kaoru was glad for the solitude. He was tired of playing the game he'd created to make his brother happy. It seemed the happier his brother got the more depressed and angry he himself got.

He'd received a letter in the mail. He got them often. It was a letter from another private academy saying that he would be an asset to their school. He received them often for his background, money, and grades which were usually straight A's. He may look like a slacker but, he was actually very diligent when it came to school. He and Hikaru got them all the time but never paid much attention, usually throwing them away.

But lately he'd started keeping them, and looked through a few. Just a couple. There was a private academy in Okinawa that wanted him. One in Tokyo sounded really good. Maybe it was time for a change. He obviously wasn't happy here, though at one time, even just six months ago he couldn't imagine leaving anything. But that was also a time when he and his brother loved each other. Now, they were as distant as strangers. The only time they spoke was during club. Rarely even then. If their customers noticed they remained silent. The other hosts had tried to bring him out of his mood before, but to no avail.

Kaoru lay his head against the window and closed his eyes. He was bored all the time. Nothing ever sounded interesting. Going home sounded boring, staying her did too. Going to the commoner's market didn't sound any fun either. He had homework he could be doing but that sounded just as bad, if not worse. Deciding being bored at home was the better option he grabbed his bag and left the room.

The tears never stopped. He'd tried to stop them for so long but it hurt more to try and stop them than it did to let them fall. His pillow was wet from all his tears, his throat was raw, and his shoulder's ached from the shaking. Sob after sob broke out of him.

Then there was an arm locked around him, warm and calming. A voice in his ear whispered softly, "Why are you crying my Kaoru? Who hurt you so much?"

Kaoru's voice broke, "Y-you did, H-Hikaru. You hurt me."

"You are the one who created the game. You wanted me with Haruhi."

"I thought that it would make you happy, then I would be happy."

"I was happy when I had you."

"You still have me."

"Do I Kaoru? Do I really? As you've pushed me toward Haruhi, you've left me."

"You allowed me too."

"I want you to be happy Kaoru. What will make you happy."

"For you to love me."

Hikaru chuckled. "You're my brother of course I love you."

"No. I mean-"

Hikaru placed his hand on Kaoru's wet cheek and turned him to face him. Looking deep into his eyes he said, "I know what you mean. And I love you, just as much as you love me. In the exact same way you love you me."

Kaoru's tears continued to stream down his face. But now they fell for a whole another reason. "Why didn't you tell me sooner? How much pain could you have saved us?"

"I know. But how could I know that you loved me too?"

"You knew how I felt. I didn't have to tell you."

"Yeah, I guess you're right."

Hikaru bent his head forward and softly touched his lips to Kaoru's. "Don't say anything else. Not one more word. I want our first time to be perfect."

Kaoru nodded. Hikaru touched his lips to his younger twin's eyes, nose, cheeks, forehead, down to his chin and gliding them over his neck. He gently bit the skin where his shoulder met his neck then soothed the area with his tongue. Kaoru bit his lip to keep from making a sound. Hikaru chuckled. "I said you couldn't talk. I didn't say you couldn't make a sound. I want to hear your voice. I want to hear you cry out when you come. You'll come for me won't you?"

"Y-"

"Ah ah aahh. I said that you couldn't talk. Answer me with your body." Hikaru undid the buttons on Kaoru's pajama shirt and kissed each inch of skin as he uncovered it. Kaoru's hands slid up Hikaru's arms and around his neck, leaning his head up for a kiss. Hikaru obliged, meeting him halfway. Kaoru responded to the kiss sticking his tongue into his brother's mouth searching for the places that would make him feel as good as he did. Hikaru responded in kind by letting their tongues dance together. But the gentle touch was becoming too heated so Hikaru drew back.

"Relax little brother. We have all night. We have forever."

When Kaoru opened his eyes his cheeks were stained with tears. Trying to roll over he found it was impossible. A warmth rested across his middle. Lifting he covers he saw it was an arm over his bare waist. Turning his head he noted that Kyouya was deeply asleep. Rolling back over Kaoru closed his eyes and tried to find sleep again.