This chapter is very...fluffy and cheesy and corny. But hey, I figured after the hell I put them through they deserved a little bit of happiness. This is mostly a filler chapter so there aren't any actual stitches happening but hey, I missed them being happy and figured I could give them a little break before I screw with their lives some more.
And FYI we are back to it being Logan's point of view again.
Disclaimer: I do not own Big Time Rush or any of their awesome songs.
Things started to get better, for real this time.
Kendall started to drag me to a psychologist that specialized in traumas, at first I didn't want to go but after a couple of sessions it really did begin to help. Most of the time Kendall and I would go in together but occasionally we had separate appointments too. We even brought James and Carlos in for a few sessions because the car crash had affected them as well.
After a couple more months things really were almost back to normal. Except now somethings were better than normal. Kendall was the most amazing boyfriend I could have dreamed of. He still had his moments of being an annoying, glory hogging, prick but he was Kendall and therefore he was amazing just the way he was. We had another first date and it went better than I could have hoped. Neither of us almost died this time so that automatically made it better than the first. And several more dates had followed that, each one better than the last.
Sadly Mama Knight made us stay in separate rooms but we easily worked around that, taking advantage of every private moment we had. We still haven't gone all the way but for now the heavy make out sessions were enough.
The only thing that wasn't quite back to normal was Big Time Rush. Kendall still struggled with his voice and after all of this time Griffin insisted on taking us off of hiatus. For now it was just James, Carlos and I which was hard on everyone. We had to choreograph completely new dance moves and change around a lot of vocals but we made it work. And everyday after our practice was over Kendall would come in and work with Gustavo. He'd smile, give us all high fives as we passed each other and then he'd stop and give me a kiss. 'A kiss for luck' he'd always whisper in my ear. It became our thing, before each rehearsal, psychologist visit, test for school we'd always give each other a kiss for luck.
After all of the news stories came out after the crash we didn't even bother trying to hide our renewed relationship. Sometimes we'd come across a scathing article about how we were 'influencing children to become gay' or how 'Our music was inappropriate and filled with homosexual innuendos,' which quite obviously they weren't. But over all most of the articles depicting Kendall and I were surprisingly positive. After a bit, most of the publicity died down as the newest teen scandals erupted but we almost always had to deal with some paparazzi following us around when we went on dates. It was incredibly annoying but Kendall and I learned to ignore them, we didn't have anything to hide after all.
It had been a particularly long day at school, it wasn't always easy being the class genius. Sometimes the days would go by so slowly when we were learning about subjects I could probably teach better than Ms. Collins. But in a way it was nice that my biggest daily nuisance was a slow day at school. That afternoon I was able to get through my homework and help the guys with theirs, all before we had to be at the studio with Gustavo.
Just like every other day Kendall gave me a kiss for luck, he didn't have to be at the studio for another two hours so he was staying behind with his mom and Katie. The rehearsal was like it was every other friday, long, tiresome and boring. I loved being a part of Big Time Rush but it just wasn't the same without Kendall.
Once we left I was confused, just like everyday I expected to pass Kendall in the hallway as he went up and we went down. James and Carlos didn't seem worried so I pretended not to be too. For a split second while we stood in the elevator I felt panic take a hold of my chest. Maybe he was in another car accident on the way here! But then I used a technique my psychologist taught me, I took control of my breathing and then I just started talking to James and Carlos. Not about anything particular, just something to get my mind off my negative thoughts. It was something so simple but it really did help the anxiety.
We took the bus back to the Palm Woods since we hadn't gotten a new car since the accident. Another reason Kendall couldn't have gotten into another accident, duh. It amazed me how I had let my fear take over my rational mind and I promised myself to never let it happen again. But that didn't mean I didn't get a little…nervous when we got back to 2J and I saw Kendall lounging on the couch in plaid pajama bottoms and grey v-neck tee.
"Hey, why aren't you at your practice with Gustavo. Are you okay? Are you sick? Are you running a temperature?" I put my wrist against his forehead but he batted my hand away laughing.
"Im fine Logan, really." Kendall grinned, "I had the night off."
"Why? Gustavo didn't give us the night off!" I said affronted at the injustice of it all.
"Well, sit down and I'll show you why."
"Show me what? You know I don't like it when your'e cryptic, it scares me."
"Just sit down!" he smiled and I did. I'd do anything for him if he kept on flashing that smile at me.
Kendall grabbed the guitar off of the coffee table, I hadn't even noticed the guitar before but he started strumming.
"I don't know why you always get so insecure , I wish you could see what I see when you're looking in the mirror. And why won't you believe me when I say that to me you get more beautiful, everyday. When you're looking at the magazines and thinking that you'll never measure up, you're wrong. Cause you're my cover, cover girl. I think you're a superstar, yeah you are. Why don't you know, yeah, you're so pretty that it hurts. It's what's underneath your skin, the beauty that shines within. You're the only one that rocks my world, my cover girl. Oh, oh, oh, oh, my cover girl, Oh, oh, oh, oh." Kendall's eyes never left mine as he sang, I had heard him playing this tune on his guitar for weeks now and it occurred to me that this must be an original song. "You walk in rain boots on a perfect summer day. Somehow you always see the dark side, when everything's okay. And you wear baggy clothes that camouflage your shape, whoa, but you know that I love you, just the way you're made. When you're looking at the magazines and thinking that you're just not good enough, you're so wrong, baby. Cause you're my cover, cover girl. I think you're a superstar, yeah you are. Why don't you know, yeah, you're so pretty that it hurts. It's what's underneath your skin, the beauty that shines within. You're the only one that rocks my world, my cover girl. Got a heart of gold, a perfect original. Wish you would stop being so hard on yourself for awhile. And when I see that face I'd try a thousand ways, I would do anything to make you you're my cover, cover girl. I think you're a superstar, yeah you are. Why don't you know, yeah, you're so pretty that it hurts. It's what's underneath your skin, the beauty that shines within. You're the only one that rocks my world, my cover girl. Oh woah oh oh, my cover girl. Oh woah oh oh, my cover girl. Whoa oh, my cover girl. Whoa oh, my cover girl." He finished the last note beautifully, flawlessly. His voice didn't crack once. He barely had time to set his guitar down before I threw myself at him, wrapping my arms around his neck and kissing him passionately.
"That was amazing Kendall! I can't believe you wrote that. You were fantastic." I said between kisses.
He laughed and kissed me some more, after a few minutes we finally separated. "I've been working on that song for a while. I actually wrote the melody years ago while we were in Minnesota, I used to play it for Katie to get her to go to sleep when she was younger. But it wasn't until I started dating you that a lot of the words came to me. I figured singing you this song was a way to tell you just how much I love you. And to make the announcement that as of tomorrow Im officially returning to Big Time Rush, full time." he grinned proudly. "The private sessions with Gustavo have really helped and he also helped me finish the song too."
"Its beautiful Kendall. Except for one thing."
"What?" He asked confused.
I grabbed a pillow and smacked him over the head with it "I am not a woman! Or a girl!" I yelled but it was more playful than angry. Kendall laughed and with one hand snatched the pillow away, using the other arm to wrap around my waist and pull me flush against his chest. He smiled, kissing right underneath my ear then trailing slowly down my jaw.
"I know you aren't a girl but Gustavo helped me finish it, remember. He finally got to add 'Girl' into one of his song titles. He was thrilled." Kendall smirked.
"It really is a fantastic song."
"Thanks, I've also been working with him on some other songs for our second album. Since I wasn't much good at the singing lately I thought I could help in other ways. Writing Oh Yeah with you guys made an impression on me and Im really starting to like the song writing aspect of music too. But I am really glad I can get back to singing with you guys."
"Me too." I smiled, laying my head on Kendall's chest softly.
Things were great, the trauma of the car crash was still present but slowly fading away, Big Time Rush was finally getting back on track and most of all I had Kendall. I never thought that my little crush on him could turn into something like this. Maybe everybody felt this way about their serious relationships, I didn't know for sure but what I did know was that I loved Kendall and could see myself spending the rest of my life with him. He was my Cover GIrl too.
Damn, we all really need to stop acting like women around here. Tomorrow Im going to organize a game of hockey…manly hockey.
Well there's the fluff chapter, I hope you enjoyed it while it lasted *Evil Chuckle*
I could just end it here but I feel like doing a bit more, maybe at least getting past the World Tour and into them really becoming famous.
Well, as always please REVIEEEEEEEEEEWWW!
