Rexa13: So it has come to my attention that Kana's story has been a little confusing. Well I think it is only going to get worse. I will try to explain it all in the end.

Disclaimer: I own nothing.

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Being with Shigure and Ayame really only made Kana feel worse. She loved the two of them in a friendly way but just being with them didn't help her at all. At first they acted like they weren't even with her. They talked about being with each other and about Ayame and his life. They also talked some about Yuki, Ayame's little brother.

Kana stopped paying attention to the two of them and looked out the window of the car's backseat. She thought about how the scenery looked really pretty and it was even more interesting because they were driving by it. It would make really lovely pictures and Kana wished she could take some to take home.

"Kana-chan you have certainly been quiet back there," Shigure said looking in the rearview mirror and gazing at the woman.

Kana looked in the man's direction and caught his eye in the mirror. Shigure's eyes seemed to be smiling like he knew something she didn't. It startled Kana and she began to fear they weren't going to lunch at all. Was this a trap? If it was, what did they want with Kana?

"I didn't want to interrupt your fascinating conversations," Kana mustered a smile and broke her eye contact with the driver.

"See Shi-chan I told you we were very interesting," Ayame spoke gracefully with so much pride. Ayame's ego was so huge that it would be more than impossible to destroy it. The thought of Ayame being one without so much self pride made Kana smile.

"May I ask where it is we are going?" Kana asked.

"Out for lunch," Shigure said innocently, "I thought since it's like we are having a reunion we should go somewhere nice."

"Oh Shi-chan that is so kind of you," Ayame smiled very lovingly at Shigure.

"I know Aya-chan sometimes I just can't help but think such beautiful things for great people," Shigure spoke in the same tone as his cousin and was hardly focusing on the road for a minute. They swerved a little and there was a honk from another car before Shigure put his attention back on the road.

"So how are things between you and Hatori?" Shigure asked after a moment of silence.

"It doesn't matter how things are between us right now," Kana looked out the window and let grief settle in again. "Things will return to the way they were meant to be. Life will go back to normal."

"Kana do you know about defense mechanisms of the mind?" Shigure asked.

"Id, ego, and super-ego you mean?" Kana looked back to the rearview mirror. Was Shigure going to be able to answer some of her questions? He didn't look like the type that knew about psychology but he was an author so he did have to do a lot of research for his line of work.

"Well those are parts of the human psyche that can make a person who they are. Our family's suppression is an act of the ego. A suppression blocks out memories that are too painful to deal with. I am sure you know about suppression considering you have gone through it yourself," Shigure said.

"What does this have to do with anything?" Kana asked suspiciously.

"Well suppressions don't normally last. In dreams and such your psyche wants you to deal with the pain that it has hidden away. Eventually you remember everything. Repressed memories on the other hand are more difficult to overcome," Shigure paused and turned a corner.

"I still don't understand what you are getting at," Kana had her hands clenched in her lap as she wondered what was going on.

"We never knew if the suppressed memories would wear off. In fact we have been waiting to see," Shigure said.

"So this is like a game to you? See if you suppression will last? What the hell kind of sick twisted people are the cursed members of the Sohma family?" Kana was shouting. Ayame turned and glared at her causing her to stop speaking.

"That isn't what it is at all. Not really anyway," We wanted to know if it would last and it didn't, at least not for you. We haven't had any other people with memories that they lost," Ayame turned back around and pushed hair behind his ears.

"Well you can just do another suppression and get that done every time someone remembers," Kana said.

"We know you were going to get suppression, but we don't know if that is good for you," Shigure paused. He pulled into the parking lot of a very nice looking restaurant. The man then turned around and look Kana in the eyes with a seriousness that surprised her, "In fact it may be very dangerous for you. We don't know what this is doing to your mind. It isn't natural to make someone forget something."

"What is the worst that can happen to me?" Kana asked. When they first pulled into the parking lot Kana just wanted to jump out of the car and get away from the men, but knowing something could happen to her because she had the choice to forget these heartbreaking memories just made things feel worse.

"We don't know for sure what could happen to you," Ayame unbuckled and also turned to look at the frightened woman.

"We're guessing the worst that could happen in a brain tumor or cancer. I really doubt that it would go to such extremes with only one suppression but having them every time you remember could be a problem," Shigure finished.

Kana was quiet as she thought about these consequences. She didn't want a tumor and she certainly didn't want cancer, but she wanted to go on with life and with all of this on her mind and just going on, it was going to be impossible to just go like nothing was wrong with her.

"Maybe I could just have the suppression as planned. Like you said you don't know if it will be a problem or not so please just let me get over this," Kana mumbled.

"Your health could be at risk," Shigure said.

"My health can be at risk walking into that restaurant or getting out of you car. I can breathe in germs or get a cold," Kana took a deep breath. "I can die from so many things. And my body could have suppressed these memories by itself but it didn't. Maybe I just need help to get on with life and be happy. To me Hatori would be doing a favor by helping me forget."

The two men were quiet for a moment. They didn't look at Kana or each other. Ayame just stared out the windshield and Shigure looked at the seat by Kana. They both seemed deep in thought like they were trying out what was the best course of action.

"Well gentlemen I'm not exactly hungry so I think I shall leave," Kana said unfastening her seatbelt.

"No Kana please have lunch with us," Shigure said snapping back to reality. "You are the guest of honor. Then we can give you a ride back to the estate."

Kana was about to decline but she paused, "Uhm well I guess it can't hurt." The woman sighed internally. It would only be a little over an hour before she could go back to the estate, besides Hatori might still be with the head of the house.

"Good let's go," Ayame smiled and quickly got out of the car. Shigure and Kana followed after the silver haired man with a little less enthusiasm.

When they got inside the restaurant Shigure spoke quietly with the hostess who smiled flirtatiously with the handsome Sohma. The woman led them to a table in the back that was very private. It was disconnected from the other tables and had a nice deep red velvet curtain around it. Kana had only seen tables like this in very expensive restaurants in movies.

Shigure and Ayame entered the little room where the table was, Kana was hesitant as she followed. She bit her lower lip as she followed the men in. Inside Kana was shocked at the two guests already seated. Hatori definitely wouldn't have been able to help Kana back at the estate right now.

Shigure sat next to a woman with a masculine haircut and plain face. She wore a black dress that made her look a ghostly glowing white. She looked annoyed at Shigure who wrapped his arm around her thin and well dressed frame. "You were supposed to be here ten minutes ago," She said snapped as Shigure kissed her cheek.

"I'm sorry Akito I didn't expect it to take so long," Shigure apologized to the woman who still looked displeased. "I'm surprised you didn't wear a suit or kimono."

"I wanted to but my maid insisted I wear this dress," Akito said looking at the table and crossing her arms.

"Kana sit down," Shigure said looking over his shoulder at the woman. Kana did as she was instructed and sank into the only free sit left at the table. She found herself sitting next to a quiet Hatori who was sipping a lighter coloured drink.

Shigure and Akito continued their conversation quietly. By the look of Akito's blush and stern face it seemed Shigure was being his usual vulgar self. Ayame was telling Hatori of his engagement to a woman named Mine. Akito looked at Ayame when she heard of the engagement; she didn't seem very approving of such a thing.

"Can we get to why we're here?" Akito asked in an irritated voice. "I would like to go home soon. I feel as though I am sick just breathing this place's air. Honestly they should keep this place more clean."

"I'm sorry to say that this is about as clean as it can get, Akito. You really do need to get used to being out and about," Shigure smiled as he played with a bit of the woman's shorter hair.

"Why are we here?" Kana had been looking at her lap where his hands were in fists. As she spoke she closed her eyes and took a deep breath.

"As you already know we are concerned with the idea of you having another suppression," Shigure started the conversation.

"So you need to drag me to a restaurant to tell me that there are risks?" Kana asked looking up the four Sohma's. "Look I think it is kind of you to state that there are risks but there are risks for everything. I consent to this and if you need it in writing or something I can do that."

"No Kana we aren't sure we want you to do the suppression," Shigure said.

"So you dragged me here to ruin my day and possibly my marriage?" Kana snapped and stood up. "I can NOT deal with this, I need the suppression."

"Sit down foolish woman. You are being an embarrassment and acting like a drug addict or alcoholic," Akito glared at Kana with her black eyes.

Kana looked at the head with fear. She sat down feeling weak as she remembered her time with Akito when she and Hatori had planned an engagement. Those eyes seemed nicer now but they were still full of anger and they were still tinted with cruelty.

"People can go through great burdens and pull through very well, especially women. You can handle heart ache, miscarriages, death, and all your little things," Hatori said this without looking at the woman. He took another sip of his drink and looked to Kana for a split second. His eyes held determination and their usual serious look; there was also a hint of something that looked like guilt.

"You look guilty," Kana accused the man as she glared at him.

"Please really consider what can happen to you," Hatori asked.

"I have been considering this since I learned about being able to have another suppression. I want this pain to be over and I would like to go back to my normal life," Kana said, "You people have no idea how difficult things have been made for me. I just want things to be back to the way they were!"

"We understand that Kana but everything can change at any second," Ayame said.

Kana's cell phone began to ring. The soft piano melody filled the ears of everyone and they looked at her questioningly. Kana opened her purse and began to dig through the medium sized bag. She pulled out the older looking phone and looked at it. The song ended and a loud beep was made.

"That was my mother," Kana said opening her phone. "I am going to leave and call her back." Kana stood up and slung her purse over her shoulder. "Before I go I am going to tell you this: I will learn how to do suppressions and even if there are risks I will perform one."

Kana stormed off from the group that was taken aback. Akito whispered something about stupidity as she took a drink from her glass. Shigure smiled his mysterious smile and Ayame seemed to match the dog. Hatori looked frozen in fear. He jumped to his feet and followed the woman outside.

When Hatori got outside Kana was moving her phone around in the air obviously looking for cell phone service. She didn't notice that the dragon had followed her out and she had her back turned to him. The man stood there for a second gathering all his courage.

"Kana," Hatori said. The woman jumped and she looked at him angrily.

"Hatori please not now I am trying to see what my mother wanted," Kana said.

"Please can you just listen to all of us or at least me?" Hatori asked his question in an almost begging tone. He walked closer to Kana who was surprised. "I don't want anything bad to happen to you."

"Why not?" Kana asked putting her phone back in her purse and crossing her arms.

"Because," Hatori paused and took a deep breath. "Kana I love you, I always have. I can't let anything happen to you. If another person came and asked me to have a suppression I would do it without a second thought, but you, I can't do that."

"You did it before because you love me," Kana said quickly. She sounded shocked and it was obvious that she was trying to stay on this conversation. "Hatori you know I love you but I am married."

Hatori was silent. They didn't need to say anything about the subject of the marriage. They both knew it was in the way and that Kana did love her husband. Marriage hovered over them like a rain cloud hovered over unhappy characters in stories. The two could feel their love for each other radiating off of each other, but their rain cloud was holding them back.

"Kana I can't suppress you and I can't let you do it to yourself. You might learn something totally unrelated and hurt yourself," Hatori sounded concerned as he looked at his love.

"Hatori…" Kana's eyes welled up with tears that spilled over. Kana didn't try to stop the tears, Hatori needed to see the pain that she had been in because of this problem.

In an instant Hatori's lips were on Kana's. The kiss was sweet and not intentioned to be anything but sweet. It was full of love and understanding. It also brought on dread because understanding meant that they knew nothing could be. The kiss also said that Hatori would do as Kana asked despite his fears about it.

When it was over Hatori took Kana into his arms and held her as she cried. It was over, their relationship, their remembrance of each other. This was the closure that their relationship had never gotten and the two were able to accept it now. Suppression or not Kana felt better about whatever would happen. It would be hard for the both of them, but more for Hatori, but now they could both move on.

The piano tone came again and Kana got her phone out. It took her a second to gain her composure and she opened her phone and put it to her ear.

"Hello mom?" Kana answered the phone with curiosity.

"Oh Kana thank goodness I was able to get a hold of you," the older woman was crying but sounded pleased that she could reach her daughter.

"What's wrong?" Kana asked waiting for what more could be wrong. She was frightened she couldn't believe anything could be worse but obviously something was wrong.

"There's something I need to tell you," her mother said, "This is hard for me to say and it should be in person but you need to find out from me and not someone else. There has been a death…"

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Rexa13: I'm sorry to end Kana's story in such a way. Akito is out that she is a woman in this story by the way; she is too adorable not to be. Oh and don't fret there is a surprise that I have for you so please don't think this is the complete end.