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Proverbs 32-33/25-26 - are quoted in this Chapter
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Chapter 8 BPOV - Live for Today
School was pretty good today. Why? Well, for one thing, I couldn't believe Edward went along with the sexy text messages I sent him during my lunch break. I was actually a little apprehensive to send them, because I wasn't sure if he would respond to them or not. So when he did, words weren't enough to express how happy and turned on I was. It also gave me a good opportunity to gauge his innocence factor. It gave me hope that I wouldn't miss my friend "O" for that long… Atleast I hope not.
I was walking a very fine line in my relationship with Edward. I knew he was most likely against sex before marriage, so I'm guessing that meant he might not be comfortable past second base. Foreplay was also not a guarantee either, since I wasn't sure if there were rules when it came to it. I also didn't know how I would seduce him or IF I would be able to seduce him so to speak. I was afraid that he might get upset if I pushed the boundaries, and I wouldn't want that to happen.
I had many questions going on in my mind, regarding how far I can actually go with him. Would he get upset if I took my shirt off? What if I put my hands down his pants? Would he finger to me? Was oral sex considered sex? I mean, I know it's called oral sex, but isn't sex supposed to be like intercourse?
He said some of my requests could be arranged. I didn't know whether it was because there were rules or because of his lack of experience. I didn't want to ask what the rules were though. I figured the best way to find out was to take charge, push boundaries.
Another reason why I was so happy today was that he actually called me. I couldn't believe it when I answered my phone and heard his voice. I was with Jasper at that time, and our classes just ended. I remember him telling me he would call, but I figured guys never really call when they said they would . But then again, this was Edward we're talking about, and Edward was definitely not most guys.
It was a simple conversation, we exchanged hellos and I miss you's. He just told me he wanted to hear my voice, and Jasper teased me because I blushed. It's not like I can help it when the man's voice was oozing with sex.
I told him to meet me at ten o'clock because I didn't want to have to tell Renee I was going out. I would climb out my window when she's fell asleep.
When I got home, my mom was sitting at the kitchen table, highlighting her favorite lines in the Bible. I walked toward the refrigerator, when I noticed something that caught my eye. It was new proverb. It was one of my momsweekly holy activities.
Every week, she would always put a new one up on the chalkboard that hung next to the phone. As I took a looked at it, it quoted the verse from Proverbs 32 and 33.
For the waywardness of the simple will kill them,
and the complacency of fools will destroy them;
But whoever listens to me will live in safety and be at ease, without fear of harm.
I used to write shit underneath the proverbs she put on the chalkboard. Today, I had the urge to write something sarcastic, but Renee said I needed to stop mocking her.
She wrote a verse last week that said some crazy ass shit. I guess it was supposed to scare me into believing, make me fall on my knees and beg for forgiveness. I remember the verse clearly, It said:
Since you ignored all my advice and would not accept my rebuke,
I in turn will laugh at your disaster; I will mock when calamity overtakes you.
I told Renee that I would rather take my chances in the here and now. I would rather live for today. I don't want to look back ten or twenty years from now, wondering what might have been. I never want to end up like other people, whose lives were always put on hold, just because of their fears and worry for their future.
If Edward ever started quoting Bible verses to me, I think I might run and never look back... Or maybe not... Who am I kidding?
"How was your day?" My mother asked me as I opened up the fridge to grab some Red Bulls for me and Jasper.
"It was fine mom." I simply answered.
"You never got a chance to tell me how it went last night. Sit down! I want to hear all about it!" Renee exclaimed, motioning for me to sit in the empty chair next to her.
I took my seat , looking completely uninterested and replied, "I really don't know what you expect me to tell you, mom." Did she want me tell her about how fuck-hot Edward was last night? How he made me wet the second his lips touched mine? Or how about, how I entertained him with sexy text messages this afternoon.
"Well, did Edward's band play any songs you liked?" Renee began her interrogation.
"Actually, they did play a song or two from mainstream radio. He is very talented." I sincerely replied. Next question please.
"Did he say any inspirational messages for you and the other kids? Did you learn anything about God's love?"
"Umm…" I tapped my finger on my jaw, looking as if I were seriously thinking. "I learned how the devil corrupts the innocent and perverts the world." I answered, my voice dripping with sarcasm. I knew Renee hated it when I said shit like that. But it's the only thing I can do to get through a conversation with her.
"Bella, I really pray that you drop that type of humor. That is the devil working in you. It's making you mock the Lord." I couldn't help but laugh a little. My mom's face and tone of voice however, showed how un-amused she was.
"Calm down Mom, I was just trying to be funny. Where's your sense of humor? It's not like Edward talked to us for very long. He just said some stuff about faith and the wind, I don't know." I told her with a shrug. I could never tell her I hung on Edward's words, his hands, his jaw, his hair, his ass…
Oh. Dear. God… Those ass cheeks.
"Well, do you like Edward? He seems like he really cares and relates to all the teens at the church. I hope you show him more respect about his faith than you do to me." Renee asked me.
"Mom, I told you I would be good and respectful, and I have been." In the sense she wanted me to, anyway.
"He is awfully handsome, don't you think?" Aha! I knew that voice. That was the voice she'd always use to fish for information. She was attempting to spy without seeming like it.
"Mom, are you asking me if I have a crush on Edward Cullen?" I acted disgusted by the notion.
"Don't all the girls?" Jasper chimed in from the living room.
Thanks Jasper, now shut the fuck up, thank you very much!
"I guess a few of the girls from the youth group like him. I'm not one of them though." I said with a shrug. I felt really awful speaking those words aloud. It was a complete lie, and my heart somewhat ached that I couldn't speak the truth.
"Well, I really hope Edward becomes someone you can trust and respect Bella. It will be good for you to have an adult whom you could talk to about things. Obviously, there are some things that you don't feel comfortable discussing with me. I hope Edward can help you with that."
You mean like sex? Sure! I'd be happy to talk about those things with him! In fact, I'd be
more than happy to do it with him too!
"Right mom, we'll see what happens." I told her as I stood up to go join Jasper on the couch. He smirked at me, and I rolled my eyes. I could see that he was in the mood to tease me, but I told him not to say a word, not about Edward, and not about the loony things that fell from my mother's lips. As usual, he listened.
Jasper stayed and had dinner at the house. After eating, we watched the Cable Guy, while Renee cleaned the dishes. It was our favorite movie, and I crack up every time we watched it.
Just like I knew she would, Renee said goodnight at nine o'clock sharp. As soon as she closed her door, I immediately ran to my room, and got changed to meet Edward.
I really wanted to look hot, but I also didn't want to look trashy or like I was trying too hard. I decided to put on a short denim skirt, white t-shirt that was almost as long as the skirt, and a short black jacket. Since it was November and cold out, I put on my charcoal knit woven Uggs. I knew I might get a little chilly, but I didn't really care. The convenience of a skirt outweighed the inconvenience of the cold. Better yet, white shirt plus cold air equal hot nipples. I needed all the help I could get. As for my make up, I normally don't wear that much, but I put on some eyeliner and lip-gloss.
I did some last minute touches, and assessed myself in front of the mirror. When I thought I looked hot enough, I went back to the living room again. I did a spin in front of Jasper, and asked him how I looked. He responded with a devious smirk.
"I don't know, come here so I can get a closer look." I rolled my eyes, but went along with his request. I walked over to him and stood between his legs with my arms crossed.
"Is this close enough?" I asked him sarcastically. He put his hands on my hips and yanked me closer to him.
"B, you look hot as shit. If I wasn't such a gentleman, I would've shoved this little skirt up, ripped your panties off and bent you over the couch so I could fuck you silly." I was a bit turned on and a bit annoyed by what he said. I shoved him playfully, and told him to keep his dick in his pants. He just laughed.
He stood up off the couch, and gave me a goodbye hug. "Be good Bella."
"Trust me Jasper, I will be good." He grinned at me, knowing full well that my words had a double implication.
"Good night Jazz." I softly whispered in his ear, and gave him a kiss on the cheek after. I walked back to my room so I could climb out my window like some thief in the night.
I got in my beat up truck and began to drive to meet Edward. I pulled onto the pretty much deserted road in Lynn. It was dark since the Amish don't use electricity. I spotted Edwards silver Volvo, and pulled up behind him. He got out of his car and rushed to my door. He opened it for me, and extended his hand to help me out of my ancient truck.
Once again, it's time to put "Operation Seduce Mr. Innocent" in full effect!
"Hi," I said kind of shy and breathy, and trying to sound innocent yet seductive.
"Bella," he acknowledged me, pulling me down.
I moved my body as close as I could to him, and let my skirt ride up a little to tease him a bit. When my feet hit the ground, I adjusted my skirt and looked up at Edward. His eyes were dark, and I could see they were full of lust. Our faces were inches apart, and I could feel his breath on my skin. He leaned down, and kissed me innocently on the lips.
He looked beautiful as always. Jeans falling off his hips slightly, unbuttoned blue button down shirt, and a t-shirt underneath. I couldn't see his sex hair tonight as he had it hidden beneath a black beanie. Though I would have to admit, the hat was as sexy as his hair. He scratched the back of his neck, and stepped back a little bit examining me.
"You….um…." I could tell he wanted to tell me I looked hot or something, but was having a hard time finding the words. For someone who can say a lot about God, he sure has a hard time saying how good I look.
"So do you." I told him, letting him know I understood exactly what he was having trouble saying.
He nodded at me and took my hand. He led me to the passenger side of his car, and opened the door for me. As I got inside, I bent a little lower than I should, hoping he would notice my panties. Once I sat down and got comfortable, I looked up at him to give him a smile, and knew it was a success. His mouth was open, and his eyes were almost dark and it was filled with lust. He recovered a few seconds after, and closed the door for me. It was odd. I've never had anyone do that kind of stuff for me.
Edward climbed in the car, started it, and began pulling onto the empty road. I really didn't know what the game plan was or where we were going to go. I would follow Edward wherever he would take me, but I still wanted to know.
"So where are you taking me?" I asked him.
"I figured we could go back to my house."
What the hell?!
He said it casually as if there was nothing wrong about that statement.
Well this was starting to look bleak . I was sure he lived at home with his mom so I never thought he would take me there. As much as I would love to get "jiggy" with him, I would never do it with his mom there. Was he purposely cockblocking himself?
"Your mom doesn't mind?" I questioned him, trying to figure out what the night may or may not have in store for us.
"Actually, my mom is a Nurse, and she is working the graveyard shift tonight." As soon as I heard what he said, I was filled with hope again.
Halleluiah! Thank you, Lord Jesus!
"So it's only going to be us?" I hoped my excitement didn't come through in my voice. I didn't want to come across too eager.
"If you're not comfortable being alone with me…" He obviously didn't recognize my eagerness, because he took it the other way around. I cut him off right away.
"No, its fine. I was just curious." I reassured him.
Edwards's house was down a long driveway and the neighbor's houses were all pretty far away. It was a beautiful old house with a wraparound porch. It wasn't very big, but it looked very homey. It was all very country.
After Edward opened the door for me, he led me inside his house. He led me to the living room and offered me a glass of homemade ice tea, the only kind he would drink. It was actually very good.
"Mmmm" I moaned, after I took a sip. "This is good."
"Yea my mom made it for me…" He answered seeming tense. "Do you want to sit down?" Edward motioned toward the couch.
"Sure," I replied.
I took a seat on the couch, and placed my glass on the coffee table in front of me. Edward, on the other hand, sat down pretty much on the other end of the couch. I crossed my left leg over the right and looked at him seductively.
"I won't bite, I promise." I told him as I sucked gently on my bottom lip. I patted the spot next to me as Edward moved closer. I desperately needed him to kiss me. I didn't want to
just ask, so I put my seduction skills to good use.
"You have something…" I reached my hand to his face right by his lips and pretended to wipe away some imaginary dirt or food. I shifted my gaze away from his lips and looked into his eyes. I leaned closer to him, and let our lips touch gently again.
The kiss started out slow. It seemed as if we were exploring each other, and getting acquainted with each other's needs. A couple of seconds after, the kiss began to build. His hand found the back of my head, and he pulled me closer, kissing me much deeper than he ever had. I pushed my tongue into his mouth and nibbled a bit on his bottom lip. He surprised me a bit when he sucked my tongue gently for a few seconds. His hand left my hair and traveled to my waist. I broke the kiss and began kissing, licking and nibbling his neck. I shrugged my little jacket off, telling him I was hot while I bit gently on his earlobe. His skin tasted salty, and he still hadn't shaved so he was all scruffy. Man was it hot as fuck when his scruff would scrap gently against my cheek or lips. I moved back to his mouth and smiled against his lips as I started to pull him down on top of me.
Everything was so perfect… That was until he pulled back and stopped the kiss.
"Bella," he breathed heavily. "We have to slow down."
FUCK!
I wanted to argue with him, and tell him fuck with slowing down. I knew he wanted this just as much as I did. But I could see in his eyes that as much as he wanted this to continue, he really wanted us to slow down too.
"If that's what you want." I took a deep breath, and surrendered. I gave him a little frown and showed him my puppy dog eyes.
Edward reached up and took off his beanie. He tossed it on the table and began grabbing his hair. I was beginning to think it was a nervous habit of his. I wasn't sure how long we stayed quiet, but the second I heard him take a deep breath and stared again into my eyes, I could tell that something was bothering him.
"What's wrong? Is everything okay?" I asked him.
"Talk to me Bella. Tell me about Jasper." Edward wasn't asking me to talk about Jasper… He was telling me.
Dear God in Heaven, let this be okay.
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