Kurt POV

Rachel has just started singing and I notice that she is less confident than she normally is when she performs a solo in glee club. But I guess that makes sense since she's singing about her true feelings, which she doesn't do that often. Normally she sings some kind of ballad or pop song, and she tries to imagine or relive the emotions of the original singer. But she rarely uses her own. You can almost say that she's acting when she sings a song. Maybe that sounds ridiculous but it's not, at least I don't believe it is. It's her way to prepare for Broadway without having to rely on her own feelings and experiences all the time. Rachel once told me that it's less emotional draining to do it that way. Plus she doesn't feel confident enough to reveal some parts of herself.

Right now, I truly understand what Rach meant by that. I can see it in her eyes and hear it in her voice how deep in love she actually is. Maybe I underestimated how much feeling you can put into a song, because this is unbelievable. It's so beautiful that someone is capable of touching your heart just by singing a song.

Of course I already knew that Rachel's in love with Santana when she chose the song 'Hello" by Lionel Richie. But still, this performance is literally blowing my mind. Maybe I just didn't realize how she could be so in love with Santana, but she obviously is. How did I not realize this before? I'm her best friend, I should have noticed. Especially because her feelings for Santana are this strong. Although, I do realize that Rachel did not want me to find out. Plus I'm still astounded that she's in love with Santana because they aren't even friends.

However yesterday Rach finally took the time to explain to me and Chloe, why she loves Santana so much. It was the first time that she told us those little details like how she fell in love, what she loves about her and stuff like that. Secretly I was dying to know those things since I found out that she has got a crush on Santana. But I didn't want to force Rachel to talk about Santana, if she wasn't ready yet.

Chloe and I had been trying to figure it out on our own, but our crazy little theories didn't make any sense at all. Nonetheless, Rachel finally told us and I must say the things she told us were rather adorable. She likes the way that Santana stands up for her friends and fights for what she wants. Because everybody knows that Santana Lopez always gets what she wants and she won't go down without a fight. Rachel loves the way Santana's nose scrunches when she's nervous or laughing really loud. She adores the way Santana uses music to express herself when words aren't enough. Another thing that Rachel admires about Santana is the way she protects her loved ones, especially Brittany. Even though I know that deep down, it hurts Rachel because it shows how much Santana loves Brittany. But maybe one day, it will be Rachel who Santana will protect with her life. Also, Rach said that she wants to marry Santana one day and that she wants her to be the mother of her children. That part kind of freaked me out, because it was the first time that I realized how much love Rachel holds for Santana, even though she knows there's a chance that Santana will never feel the same way.

Rachel even told us that she loves Santana more than she loves herself. Of course, Chloe told her that she was crazy but now I'm actually starting to believe Rachel. You see it in the way she's singing right now and in her eyes. Her voice and eyes are just filled with so much emotion; it's almost making me cry.

I notice the tears in her eyes, but Rachel is currently still managing to keep on singing. She stares me deep in the eyes and I look back at her with a proud smile. I know that Rachel is looking at me because I'm the only one in this room who understands. I understand and know what this song means to her, and how much it hurts to sing it because Santana doesn't love her back (yet).

A couple of seconds later the song comes to an end and everybody starts clapping. I'm happy, because this is the kind of applause that she deserves. Even Finn is clapping; I just hope that this song didn't give him any false hope. Seriously, I hope that he knows that she wasn't singing about him, but with that fool, you never know.

Rachel POV

I raise my hand in the hope to get Miss Stewart's attention because I really want to perform my solo today. I don't think that I can wait any longer, otherwise I'd most likely back out. I'm so nervous, because all I can think about is that someone will figure out that the song that I chose is about my feelings for Santana. Even though today in glee club nobody knew that that song was about her. So maybe I'll be just as lucky in my after-school dance class.

When I think back to my performance in glee club a few hours ago, a smile automatically appears on my face. I had put all of my feelings and emotions into my performance, like I never did before. It felt so good to sing about something that has been so hard to talk about or to express. Apparently that's something that I need to do more often, because afterwards it gave me an applause I used to only dream about.

Hopefully, my dance assignment will go just as smoothly as my glee club performance. Even though the lyrics of this song, 'Girlfriend' by Avril Lavigne are rather bold. Plus when you dance to a song like that, you have got to ooze confidence, which is kind of my weak point. But that's because there are a lot of cheerleaders in my dance class and they love to point out that I could never compare to their beauty. They can be so mean sometimes, especially Quinn. But I'm guessing that that has got to do with the fact that I used to date Finn, her current boyfriend. She still thinks that I want him back, which is kind of absurd.

Anyway, I just hope that I will feel relieved after I perform it in front of the whole dance class. That is, if Miss Stewart would finally see that my hand is still raised. After more than two minutes, she finally notices me and says, "Yes Rachel, is there something you would like to ask or say?"

"Yes, can I perform my solo today?"

"Sounds good to me, Rachel. So what song did you pick?"

Before I answer I've already start making my way to the middle of the stage, which earns a few eye roles from Quinn, Jane and Stacey. They probably think that it's lame to have so much eagerness to perform a solo, but they have got no idea what this performance means to me. So I choose to ignore their reactions. "I chose 'Girlfriend' by Avril Lavigne."

"Great choice Rachel, show us what you got."

Quinn POV

What the hell, why is Rachel dancing to a song about stealing my boyfriend?! I mean who else could this song be about?! She's like almost literally telling me that Finn belongs with her instead of me.

When she finishes that song, I'll tell her exactly what I think of it. What kind of person chooses a love song about their ex-boyfriend if they broke up five months ago?! No scratch that, he broke up with her to be with me. Can't she just accept that she has lost, and that Finn picked me? Seriously it's kind of desperate if you still hope to get together five months after you've been dumped.

Finally the song is over and I waste no time to tell that midget exactly what I thought of her performance and I yell, "What the hell was that, dwarf?!"

Rachel turns her head and looks at me, confusion written all over her face. Then she stutters, "Wh-What do you mean, Quinn?"

"Don't play stupid Berry; you know exactly what I mean! You can't just perform a song about stealing somebody else's boyfriend. Especially not if it's my boyfriend, because he told me that you're after him again."

Rachel denies, "I'm not, I swear. I didn't choose this song because I want Finn back. Because I don't. I really don't, Quinn."

"If this song isn't about him, then the one you sang in glee club today probably was. That's right, I know about your little serenade in your precious little glee club. Finn told me all about it and about the way you kept looking at him, like you wanted him to kiss you. So back off bitch, because he's mine and mine only."

The hobbit looks like it's about to cry but before she can reply, San interferes, "What the hell, Q?! That's totally uncalled for; you should be the one backing off, not her. Maybe I'm not her biggest supporter, but that doesn't mean that she deserves that kind of crap after a performance like that. Who even said that Berry chose those song because of Finn?! It could have been any other guy for that matter! Just because apparently she sang a love song in glee club, doesn't mean that it's directed to Finn! Have you ever even realized that maybe not everybody wants to date that moron, you call a boyfriend?! And that maybe some people move on when they break up?"

Shit, I should have known that Santana was going to pick the midget's side. We all know that she doesn't like Berry, but she likes her a lot more than Finn. She never understood what I saw in him in the first place. Ugh, I hate arguing with Santana in public, because it makes me seem weak and I will not give the Berry that kind of satisfaction. Because after Santana's little speech I can already see her smiling a little bit and it makes me sick. So I snap, "What the hell Santana, I'm one of your best friends. I'm the one you should be protecting, not her! And let's face it, if that song wasn't about Finn, then about whom could it have been? It's not like she has been dating someone else since Finn! She's still fucking hung up on him, can't you see that? Or maybe, she did try to date other guys, but nobody wanted to date that thing!"

Santana rages, "Really Quinn, really, is this how it's going to be?! That was a low blow, and you know it! It doesn't matter about who she was thinking when she was dancing, Q! The assignment was dance with your emotions. Private emotions. So if that song expresses how she feels, then she should be able to dance to it without your obnoxious comments. I'm just so sick and tired that you always think that everything is about you and Finn, because it's not. Believe me Q, it's not."

Santana leaves right after her little rant and she leaves everyone including me speechless. This argument was supposed to be between Berry and me, not Santana and me.

Brittany POV

Quinn asked me to come over to her house, but ever since I got here there has been this awkward silence. Deep down I know that it has something to do with Santana, but I won't ask about it directly. Because then there's a chance that she would just put her walls back up and that she doesn't want to tell me how she feels anymore. I hesitate, "Are you okay, Q? Because you've been awfully quiet since I got here."

"Yeah sure, I'm just a little bit shaken up by my argument with Santana in our dance class."

"Is it because she chose to protect Rachel Berry instead of you?" I ask.

Quinn just nods her head slowly, and I know her well enough to know that she won't be able to admit that out loud. So I just decide to finally clear the air and tell her the truth and make her understand everything a little bit better. I sigh, "I know why Santana did it. She did it because she misses you, Quinn. Not because she likes Rachel better than you. Lately you and I have been hanging out a lot more without Santana, and she feels like she's losing her best friend. We used to be best friends, all three of us. But lately Santana and I, and you and I hang out separately. And that's why she defended Rachel, because she's mad. She's mad at you and mad at herself because she feels like her best friend is slipping away and she thinks there's nothing she can do about it. Besides you know that she isn't exactly fond of Finn, she never was."

Quinn looks up at me and utters, "You really think so, Brittany? You think that the only reason is that she misses me? Because I've been hanging out with her every Friday night at the dance studio."

I nod my head and say, "Yeah, I do and you used to hang out with her a lot more. Trust me, I know San well enough to understand why she does and says certain things. She just misses you, Q."

Quinn moves closer to me and pulls me into a hug. Then she whispers in my ear, "Thank you, Britt, for helping me understand. "

I pull away and I decide to talk about something else to lighten the mood, "So Q, I've been thinking about our plan to get San out of the closet. It'll probably be the hardest thing that I've ever done, but I'm going to break up with her tomorrow. Even though I'd better get her back as soon as possible."

"I know you will get her back, Brittany. I promise. And tomorrow, I'll be there for you because I know that it'll break your heart. But remember you're doing this for San, and it's the right thing to do. You'll get her back in no time, I promise."

"Thank you," I whisper before I pull her into another hug. Without her, I would probably have gone mad a long time ago. Tomorrow is going to be such a painful experience, but this is what San and I need. Because hiding our relationship isn't working anymore and this is my only chance to make her want to come out. 'Cause in the end, it should be her own choice to come out, I'm only motivating her by doing this.

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