Diary,

He came last night! It was truly him! I was feigning sleep: shallow breathing, little to no movement, eyes closed, and my entire body felt numb. I had to occasionally pinch myself to make sure I was awake. In this placid state, he appeared at the window and watched me for only a few moments, then whispered my name. Immediately, my eyes flew open and I went to look at him. He drew the curtains so that I couldn't find his form and said, "You must not see me as per your orders." Embarrassed, I dismissed the orders at once and found him instantly in bed with me. He wrapped me up in his arms and couldn't stop falling over himself; he couldn't tell me loved me because of how much love he was feeling for me in that moment. Like a child, I couldn't help but cling to him in return and cry into his strong chest.

I have never been so happy in my whole life. I was bathed in the light of day in the middle of the night, cloaked in a raven darkness that felt warmer than any summer had given me. Though I could not see them, Sebastian's tears were falling on my shoulders, so I reached up and wiped them away from his eyes, "What sort of butler shows himself to his master in such a state?" He laughed, blissfully unaware of formalities or mannerisms. I didn't care at this point. I wanted to go home with him that night, but I knew it would take another before I was allowed to travel with him.

"You smell like him." Sebastian said in a low voice. It wasn't threatening, but it wasn't a light statement. I frowned, "I know." He released me only to turn me around so that I could sit in his lap facing away. He wrapped his arms around me again and nuzzled my neck, "I'll have to fix this before you leave this place." I sighed. Though I wanted our first time to be in my own home, I knew there was no other choice. I didn't want to leave this place reeking of Alois; everyone would know my shame. He kissed my neck and teased my thighs until I could bear it no longer, and eventually he had me pinned on the bed moaning his name. It was so much different with him. He knew my body like no one else, and treated it like a precious jewel. He made me feel so relaxed and loved, and in the end he laid his scent in me. It will take a few hours to mask the other, but I have time to wait. He is coming for me tomorrow night. Finally, everything is perfect.

Yours truly,

Ciel