Emma turned off her laptop and exhaled. It was only a couple more hours till Regina would be done at her dinner and here in her apartment. Emma was uncomfortably nervous and found herself actually cleaning.
Time flew away as Emma stood in front of her mirror. She turned her bedroom light on and rummaged through her wardrobe. She gazed out her window as she heard each passing car drive by. She changed into a clean white tank top and applied the final touches to her eye make up. She didn't know exactly why she was going to so much effort, it was just a chat, yet it felt like more than that to her.
She knew Regina would have probably ate a lot already, rather knowing her not enough but she figured that she should prepare a little snack just in case. She opened a bottle of red and placed the bowl of pretzels on the coffee table as she looked up at the clock over the tv. She grabbed some tea lights and lit the candles,carefully placing them in the apple shaped glasses Regina had given her when she saw that she had no candle holders and she placed their wine glasses on the silver lined coasters that Regina had also given her when she saw that she had no coasters. Emma smirked as she placed the Mayor's neatly folded clothes onto the spare sofa as she glanced up at the clock again. It was almost ten. Emma began to pace the room in preparation in what she was going to say to Regina.
"Regina we need to talk…" Emma scrunched her face.
"I like…" Emma shook her head.
"I've been having feelings…" Emma sat on the couch and buried her head in her hands.
"Ow" Emma pulled a pen out from the side on the couch cushion. She glanced at the notepad that was next to the tv guide and started to write.
Regina
This is one of the hardest letters I have ever written in my life. In fact this is one of the only letters I've ever written in my life. God I sound so lame but by the time you read this I will have made a complete and utter fool out of myself. If you are smirking and thinking what's new? You'd be correct.
However Regina… my nerves have got the better of me and if by chance I can't tell you what I wanted to, you can read it here.
Regina for a long time now I've felt differently about things,about a lot of things but mainly about you. I don't know how to word it exactly without sounding like a moron so here goes.
Regina I have feelings for you. God that sounds so corny... I don't know if you feel the same way or not but I just had to tell you one way or another. I like you Regina. I like you a lot. In fact I think it's more than that because you are all I can think about. You plague my thoughts and when I'm not near you I long to be. Regina I'm in L...
(Emma scribbled out the end of that sentence as the butterflies eroded through her stomach)
When I saw you that night on the balcony I knew right then that I would do anything to protect you and wanted to pull you into my arms. When I witnessed what happened later that night I panicked and wanted to push away my feelings, You may not have noticed but the reason I left the way I did wasn't because I felt uncomfortable it was because I did. My body reacted to your touch however accidental it was. My body knew before my heart caught up.
Regina when you were on flu meds you were sleep talking… well… Oh gosh darn it you were having a sex dream. You called out my name. It shocked me.
That's why I ran. I wasn't ready to process any possibility that you could feel the way I do. I still don't even know if it was just the meds talking.
When Killian came back I knew he meant nothing to me anymore. It didn't feel right. I wasn't lying when I told him there was someone else...
Please don't hate me.
Emma
Emma exhaled and glanced up at the clock she had been so engrossed in writing the letter that she hadn't noticed that it was nearly eleven. She quickly grabbed her phone to check if she missed a call or anything. Her phone was blank. She decided to send a quick message she may be running late.
Hey
Just checking in. Are you on the way? Hope dinner was nice.
Em
She recorked the wine and took a large gulp out of her glass. As the candles melted Emma's nerves sored. Why did it feel like she was being stood up?
Emma put the leftover nibbles back in the bag and poured some more wine and placed Regina's glass by the sink. She checked her phone and still no reply. Emma decided to call. It went straight to voicemail.
Hey Regina. It's me,ummm just wondering if you forgot about tonight? Okay call me when you get this.
Emma sighed as she finished her glass.
As the clock struck midnight Emma blew out her candles and threw the letter in her trash basket.
Her nerves got the better of her and she decided to go for a run. She ran in the one direction she knew she would and low and behold she arrived at the mansion.
Emma noted that all her lights were out but was startled when she saw Regina struggling to walk up the garden path with Sidney aiding her to the door. Sidney turned Regina to face him and kissed her forcefully. She didn't protest. Regina watched as the man walked into the darkness. She stood for a moment and looked around as if looking for someone else. Emma misinterpreted it as hiding her new love. She exhaled and touched her cheek and closed her front door.
Emma didn't feel the tears till they tickled her neck.
Regina slid down against her bedroom door and held onto her knees. She buried her head in her lap and shook from the force of her tears. She knew Henry would be home and she was determined that he definitely didn't see her this time. She opened her handbag and violently threw the camera footage disc box across her white carpet. Regina was a proud woman and for the first time in her life she wished she had listened to Emma Swan.
Regina stood in front of her bathroom mirror as she drew herself a bath. She stood naked and ridged as the dim light only highlighted the fresh new marks on her olive skin. She ran her fingers through her hair wincing as she found the spot that was now covered in dried blood. She exhaled as she found herself flashing back to the nights events.
As Regina sank beneath the hot water her body flinched. She grabbed her face cloth and held it over her face and prayed for the Savior to save her.
