I am soooo incredibly sorry!
I've been gone far too long T-T
I intended to be back on the 20th, but...dogs took up ALL of my time for quite a while.
I'll be updating everything shortly, hopefully one after another until it's done X-X
This chapter should please many of you...not only is there plenty of Ryuichi x Tohma love, it's also a rather long chapter. I guess it's my way of making it up to you guys, lol
I did raise the rating of this fic. In general, the fic is rather tame, it just gets not so much so at points :)
Again, read and review please. Keeps the motivation going if I know people are reading my fics!
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Tohma gasped in shock as his back hit the floor, Ryuichi straddling him, and his mouth upon his own.
"Ryu?" He asked uncertainly when the brunette pulled away.
Tohma paled slightly as he stared up at a serious looking, yet evilly smirking Ryuichi. For someone who'd really only been bouncing, hurt, or sad during most of their time together, then sudden change unnerved him. He recalled the same look being upon Ryuichi's face at some point during the bar fiasco, but much of that night had become a blur after that 3rd drink...
"Mmm, Tohma... thank you..." Ryuichi purred, still smirking as Tohma blushed and squirmed when he whispered in his ear.
Tohma let out a nervous laugh and attempted to dislodge Ryuichi from his roost.
"Y-Your welcome...but...what are you-" He yelped during his struggle as Ryuichi only gripped him tighter, and pressed his body against his chest.
"Hush!" Ryuichi hissed, crushing his lips back against the blonde's.
Tohma's eyes widened, and he whimpered as Ryuichi forced his arms above his head and pinned them there.
He could not deny that he was enjoying this. Not only did he not think he could form a logical sentence by this point, but his body betrayed him quite obviously, and Ryuichi had already noticed that.
"Tohma...?" Ryuichi whined, pulling away from him.
He licked Tohma's lower lip, begging for entrance. Getting no response, Ryuichi once again connected his lips with Tohma's and groaned as the blonde slowly, finally, opened his mouth.
Tohma was now beet red. His heart raced, and he was rather sure his body was vibrating in panic. Sure, they had done this before...far more than they were currently doing in fact, but he had been trashed, and didn't remember a thing that had happened.
Therefore, in his mind, this... situation... was still REALLY weird and foreign to him.
"Ryu..." Tohma gasped, finally managing to get a hold of himself, pulling away from Ryuichi's hungry lips, "I think maybe-maybe we should wait... I mean it... it feels-" Tohma stopped mid-sentence to throw his head back in a moan as Ryuichi's hand crept up his chest, shirt unknowingly unbuttoned by the brunette's free hand.
Ryuichi only laughed at his reaction.
"Hush Tohma... enjoy..." He smiled and gently began to suck the crack of Tohma's neck, earning a quick sigh from the blonde.
"You're... impossible...you know that?" Tohma giggled lightly as Ryuichi nodded quickly in response, his more 'innocent' self momentarily reappearing .
"Can't help it... you've made me soooo happy... you know that Tohma? You really, really have... and I'm going to prove that..." Ryuichi smirked, trailing off, and slid his hand back down Tohma's chest, and let it snake it's way down to the buttons of the blonde's dress pants.
"You do know how strange you are... don't you? Kami help us all if you ever do drugs..." Tohma chuckled as Ryuichi gave him a quick lick on the cheek.
"Don't know what you're talking about, but that doesn't really matter... now does it? Hm, Tohma?" Ryuichi laughed as Tohma squeaked when he was suddenly picked up and tossed on the bed..
Tohma quickly sat back up and stared at the brunette, who seemed amused at his actions.
"Floors ARE uncomfortable, aren't they? I think they are, don't know about you, but I'm sure it's all the same."
Ryuichi withheld his laughter as he crawled onto the bed in front of Tohma when the blonde began to back away from him.
"You're quite skittish, aren't you? I mean in general. You don't seem like a people person..."
Tohma bowed his head in embarrassment and briefly shook it.
"I'm... not that used to such situations as these... I find myself around meetings and such, not intimate situations. Whoever I was last time has locked himself up, so this is still new to me..." Tohma blushed in embarrassment as Ryuichi scooted between his legs and ran a hand up his thigh.
"Tohma..." Ryuichi giggled, and began to undo the Tohma's pants.
As if the world around them knew just how out of his comfort zone Tohma was, Beethoven's 5th sounded throughout the room.
"Ignore it!" The brunette whined as Tohma, in Ryuichi's moment of distraction, slid out of his grasp, diving for his coat.
"Can't!" Tohma rapidly replied.
It wasn't as though he was unable to ignore it, it was just the perfect excuse to get him out of the uncomfortable situation... Not that he didn't like the attention, it just felt strange...
Ryu could wait a while longer...
"Yes, what's wrong?" Tohma asked with a sigh as Noriko's angered voice rang out into his ear.
Tohma quickly pulled the phone a few inches from his ear to avoid deafness.
"What in the name of Buddha is going on! I come to see you after school and I find an empty apartment! You're lucky that Mika wasn't with me, she would have had a heart attack! You can't leave notes like that laying around... And you moved in with him? You're insane!" Noriko shouted in her mother-like voice at the top of her lungs, making Tohma flinch every few seconds.
Ryuichi sunk slightly into the bed, hearing each word clear as day as Noriko's harpy pitched voiced echoed from the phone throughout the room..
Tohma was unaware...for he was used to it...
"I'm not crazy... just sleep deprived..." Tohma groaned and rubbed his temples.
Noriko snorted.
"Well, you're still lucky that I didn't have Mika with me. It would kill her to find out that her boyfriend was shacking up with a gay lover slash bandmate... Just apologize already! I talked to her today, and she basically just wants you to calm down a bit. Say you're sorry, and I'm sure that you two will be back together. You two have been together too long to just break everything off because of one teensy little fight. You got together with Ryu because you were drunk. Your only intention was to get him to be our new vocalist, nothing more. You can't tell me that you don't feel really weird with a guy being all over you, can you?"
"No... I do... but that's not the point! I said that I was going to-"
"TRY, and you have. You've told me that it feels wrong! Isn't that enough proof to tell you that you're not gay? I'm sure that he's a great guy, and probably a wonderful friend, but not a good choice for a partner. At least not for you..."
Tohma eyes narrowed and he began to pace the room.
"You're only saying that because Mika's like a sister to you...and I never said that it felt WRONG... I said that it felt weird. There's a difference... listen... this might work, and it might not, but I'm not going to end things just because someone tells me to. I'll end them because I feel that they have to. AND it wasn't just some little fight, it was a rather large one AND we're ALWAYS getting into these fights Noriko..." He growled.
A frustrated groan answered him.
"Fine, whatever... your grave you're digging... But, I'm curious... what did you mean by opening the door to have him fall on you, covered in blood?" She asked, very curious as to what their new singer had gotten into.
" He... got attacked... That's why I grabbed everything and moved. I care too much to have him live on the streets, or getting the crap beat out of him all of the time. He doesn't need it... And I'm sure that he's not appreciating this conversation either..." Tohma paled, just then noticing that Ryuichi had been hanging on every word of the conversation.
Noriko gagged.
"He's listening!"
Tohma frowned and squeezed the bridge of his nose.
"How could he not be? I could toss the phone across the room and still hear you... I'm sure he's getting upset over you too, so I think I'll have to let you go now, alright? Bye!" Tohma quickly hung the phone up and switched it off, turning back to the brunette on the bed.
Ryuichi sat in the middle of the bed, head in hands as Tohma walked up to him.
Tohma took a deep breath, and slowly released it before kneeling upon the mattress.
"Ryu, I'm sure she'll calm do-"
"You...have a girlfriend?" Ryuichi half whimpered, half whispered in question.
Tohma sighed.
"...yes, and no...I did, but we broke up not too long before I met you... really...we're not together now, and frankly, I don't intend on making up with her... No matter what Noriko thinks... I'm with YOU not her...Trust me, I'm with you, and only you, and that's how I want it..." Tohma murmured as he slid onto the bed and crawled towards Ryuichi.
'Now or never...' Tohma mentally whimpered, and crawled straight into the brunette's lap.
"Tohma?" Ryuichi blinked as Tohma slid his arms around his neck.
"Hmm?"
"What are you doing?" Ryuichi blinked and blushed as the blonde nuzzled his cheek and licked his ear lightly.
"Whatever do you mean, Ryu?" Tohma with-held a giggle as he looked at the flustered teen's face.
All fear he had before slipped away as in amusement Ryuichi himself began to squirm. Clearly he felt out of place once not in charge.
"Just a moment ago you were wanting to get away... now you're all over me! And you say that my mood flops weirdly!" The brunette whined.
"Ryuichi?" Tohma started.
"What?" Ryuichi cocked his head.
Tohma paused, and shook his head... questions could wait for later.
"Never mind..." He chuckled, staring down at Ryuichi's bewildered face.
"Mmkay..." Ryuichi smiled, although clearly unsure about the situation, and slid the unbuttoned shirt off of Tohma onto the floor.
The blonde's dress pants came next, leaving him clad only in pale blue boxers, and his socks.
Tohma sighed.
It couldn't really be that bad, could it? Otherwise he would have been dead the day after the last time, in which he wasn't. He had just been a bit sore...
Tohma was jolted out of his thought process, and he groaned as Ryuichi's mouth found his collarbone, and he began to nip and suck at it. Ryuichi chuckled lightly and flipped them over, returning to their prior positioning.
"You're strange. Very strange Tohma..." Ryuichi smiled, nodding, as he lay on top of Tohma, head resting on one hand.
"How so?" Tohma managed in a gasp, still out of breath from Ryuichi's touches.
"You... don't want this. You're not ready, and all you need to do is tell me... You don't have to play along. Tell me to stop, without feeling guilty, and I will." Ryuichi smiled softly as he stared into the blonde's eyes.
"We can... wait?" Tohma blinked, sitting up slowly.
Ryuichi nodded.
"Then... can we? It won't take long... I'm sure. Like I said... I'm not really used to anything ... intimate. Mika never really expected more than a small kiss. In a way it was disappointing, but at the same time, I was always relieved. I don't know what to do with myself, and I guess that's what's so unnerving for me." Tohma sighed and glanced up worriedly at the brunette.
"Uh huh. Waiting's okay! But... one thing." Ryuichi smiled weakly.
"What?"
"Can I at least sleep in here with you?" Ryuichi seemed to plead.
Tohma blinked.
The thought of him actually ASKING had never really crossed his mind...
"By all means, go ahead. It would be nice to have the company." Tohma smiled, as Ryuichi tackled him back into the pillows.
"YAY! Tohma let me stay, Tohma let me stay!" He began chanting as he got up and danced across the room.
Then suddenly, Ryuichi paused and swayed on the spot.
"Ryuichi!" Tohma gasped, stumbling off of the bed, as Ryuichi sunk to the floor clutching his head.
"Neh...got up too fast..." he laughed nervously.
'What am I going to do with you?' Tohma smiled and sighed.
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Ryuichi stayed in bed most of the day. Between his injuries and the fever earlier in the day combined with his suddenly lusty rampage, Ryuichi had been down for the count. Tohma had redressed himself, and had gone back out to get groceries. He's returned not too long afterwards. As night approached, Ryuichi carefully slipped out of bed, going slow to avoid another dizzy spell. His bandaged feet throbbed but the cool wood quickly soothed the pain. Tohma watched him carefully, ready to bolt out and catch him at any given moment if it became necessary. Thankfully, Ryuichi managed this task on his own, and side by side they left Tohma's room.
"Well Ryuichi, as you can see, most things are still in boxes. Most of it is mine, obviously, but this box by the door," he pointed to their front door. " is yours from your house. I won't begin to voice my disappointment on how little there is in there. But, my point it, I'd like you to HELP me put things away. Even though you don't have much yet, I still want you to have your say in where things go."
Ryuichi just nodded, and continued to look around the apartment. Tohma had brought him into this new apartment...and he was fairly sure that it was larger than the HOUSE he'd been living in, let al9one Tohma's tiny, yet well furnished, apartment he'd been in before.
"Why did you pick such a large place?" He whined. " This has got to cost way, WAY more than your last place!" He eyed Tohma angrily, although the blonde just brushed his glare off with a soft smile.
"I figured I could use some change. I like my space, and with 2 people there needs to be plenty. I suppose I MIGHT have gone slightly over the top, but that just means we have to do a bit of shopping to fill the excess up, no biggie!" He laughed as Ryuichi's eyes bulged slightly.
Ryuichi was in no way EVER going to ask Tohma just how much money he actually had...he didn't even want to think about it.
The apartment WAS over the top. The living room was extremely large. A widespread hobby/library type room lay off to one side, with a rather large kitchen coming off of the other. Behind them, where they had come from, lay three doors. The one on the far left led to Tohma's room, from which they had came. The room itself had been huge (and had scared the crap out of him upon his awakening...). The middle, as Ryuichi found out, led to a nice sized bathroom with a large mirror, and even larger comfy looking tub (which Ryuichi vowed to take advantage of later.) The bathroom contained three doors, connecting it to both rooms and the outside living room. The door on the far right had led to the room Tohma strictly told him was his, despite his complaints.
"Ryuichi, after all this time of having very little, I'm letting you have all your own personal things too!" Tohma had huffed, refusing to speak on it any longer.
They'd at the very least agreed to leave the rest of unpacking for the following day, and instead, Tohma had broken out the good ole fishy apron, and had started dinner. Ryuichi could NOT deny that he was starving, and hummed loudly and enthusiastically as Tohma raged over the stove. Ryuichi just sat comfortably at the table watching him happily.
It the mean time, Tohma cooked quickly, deciding that simple grilled cheeses were all that was necessary, while he let his thoughts run rampant in his head. He had yet to think of a calm way to ask Ryuichi about EVERYTHING that was on his mind, however, every which way he could think to word his conversation came out rude or accusing in his head. He'd almost burned one of the crispy grilled sandwiches before deciding that dwelling on things while cooking was foolish.
The ate in silence for the most part, which unnerved Ryuichi to a degree. He could tell that Tohma was lost in thought, but with all that had gone on, he couldn't even imagine what the blonde was thinking about. Once Ryuichi had noticed that Tohma had finished there small make shift meal, he'd slammed his glass down, startling Tohma out of his silence, and he'd grinned at the man.
"Tohma! Let's take a bath!" He whooped in excitement, and dashed out of the kitchen, rounding into the living room, with a twitching Tohma trailing after him.
Tohma watched in horror as Ryuichi dove through the long room stripping, his clothes pelting towards every corner of the room. Tohma paused half way across the room to assess what had just happened.
1- Ryuichi had scared the life out of him, making such a sudden loud noise in a previously silent room.
2- Ryuichi had spastically jumped from his seat, knocking Tohma's tea to the floor. He was sure that cup would be broken, or at the very least chipped...meaning he'd need to buy a new set.
3- Ryuichi had professed that they were to take a bath together, and he had been rather sure that did not involve swimming trunks...
4- Ryuichi had fled the room like a bat out of hell, and before he could tell him not to run on hardwood floors with cloth on his feet, he'd witnessed Ryuichi strip at top speed, and practically fall on the tub knobs to get the water flowing.
And 5- He was rather sure that the image of Ryuichi's bare ass would be forever burned into his mind...
Tohma sighed, and unsurely walked into the bathroom behind Ryuichi who was most definitely pouring far too much bubble bath into the rising, steaming water. Before Tohma could tell him this though, he'd already capped the bottle and begun to dance around the room, all the while, still very naked.
Tohma squeezed his temples and let out a brief groan.
He could see it now...nudity was going to be far more common in the house than he was used to...
"Tohma! Come on! Get into the spirit of things! It's a BIG tub! We have to break it in. Tub time! He giggled madly, fumbling with Tohma's shirt buttons.
"You really expect me to squeeze into that tub with you?" His voice cracked slightly as he eyed the tub.
The water was getting far too high for his liking...
"Psh, of course Tohma! This ain't no normal tub! It's HUGE!" he slid the shirt off Tohma's shoulders, and it crumpled to the floor. "Besides, there's bubbles! Not only are they fun and puffy, but we'll be covered from the waist down! Good way to get you less issuey with nakedness in my presence!" He nodded, reaching to undo Tohma's pants as well.
Tohma backed away so fast, he slammed into the door knob and yelped.
That would surely leave a bruise.
"Aww...come on Tohma! No fair!" Ryuichi crossed his arms and pouted.
Tohma would have scolded Ryuichi for the whole situation...if Ryuichi had, had pants on...
Without pants, Ryuichi was rather distracting, and although Tohma made a habit of looking into people's eyes while speaking, doing so was not possible with bits bouncing around...
Ryuichi chuckled.
"Like what you see Tohma?" He smirked playfully, putting his hands on his hips.
Tohma's blush only grew deeper and he grumbled to himself momentarily.
"Shut up Ryu, and just get in the damn tub..." He glared at the brunette, who only giggled and kindly jumped into the tub (although splashing water everywhere) with his back to Tohma, allowing the blonde to finish undressing without eyes on him.
Before Tohma could make it into the tub as quickly as possible, Ryuichi locked eyes with him.
"You know...there is that giant mirror there." He smile.
Tohma just whacked him on the head and sunk into the water.
Clearly he HAD forgotten about said mirror.
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I have found that with Ryuichi I end up making up a lot of words that my spell check hates me for...lol
Again, sorry for the wait, it's been a hectic few weeks. I promise to try and go back to my previous updating schedule if possible. Regardless, it will never take so long for me to update again, I promise!
