A/N- Hey guys! I know it's been awhile, and I'm sorry. I have been very busy latly and this was the first chance I have gotten to start writing again. I am back and more new and better stuff will be up soon. I hope you like it! A special thanks to my new beta who just broke there arm and is editing with one arm, so sorry if anything is out of place, but thanks Lauren! And to my boyfriend Sam, who has never seen a Torchwood episode, but still pulled me through! Now enjoy!

I do not own anything. Everything belongs to BBC.

Jack and Ianto finished their food and then sat and watched the kids. When they took their last bites, Ianto cleared the table and went to make coffee and hot chocolate, leaving Jack alone with the kids. Jack leaned back on his chair and put his feet up on the desk.

"Uncle Jack?" Anna asked timidly.

"Yeah, kiddo?" Jack responded to the small child.

"Are you going to marry our Uncle Ianto?"

Jack stopped and stared at her. He smiled softly. "Yes, Anna. I'm going to marry your uncle." He told her, smiling.

Her face lit up as she hopped out of the chair and walked toward Jack. "My Uncle Ianto really loves you. I can tell."

"Oh yeah, how?" Jack asked the young girl.

"The way he looks at you is funny. And the watch-thingy he has, it has your name on it with a date." Anna told Jack.

Jack sat in his chair and smiled. Did Ianto look at him the same way he gawked at Ianto? If the little girl sitting next to him, who had no idea what love was yet, apparently saw the harmless act, then the looks must be true. There was one thing that made Jack smile the most: the stopwatch. That stopwatch was everything to Ianto; it had been passed down to him from his father, and had been treasured by him. Jack got up and went through Ianto's coat pocket and sought out the prized possession. He found it and held it in his hand. He ran his thumb over the body of the watch, and found the girl was telling the truth. His name was engraved into the gold, but there was no date, only a saying.

"I must be dreaming?" Jack asked himself.

"It's a song. It reminds me of us." Ianto's voice rang out unexpectedly.

Jack jumped slightly at his voice and looked up. "What?"

"I Must Be Dreaming, it's a song by The Maine. It reminds me of you and me. That's why I put it on there." Ianto told Jack, as he set a tray of cookies, coffee, and hot chocolate down on the table. "You should look it up sometime." He said, sitting down.

"Okay, but why do you have this on here?" Jack asked, handing the watch back.

"Well, I love this thing and I love you, so why not put both together." Ianto explained, looking up to see that the kids were no longer listening; they were too busy with the cookies and drinks.

"But I still don't quite understand why you did it, though."

"It's because I love you, and you mean a lot to me. I put in on there so when you're gone, I still have you here with me." Ianto confessed, blushing a little.

Jack smiled as he wheeled his chair over to Ianto's. "Yan, I love you a lot and want to spend forever with you." Jack confessed, reaching for the small gold band on his finger. "I meant it, Yan." He leaned in for a kiss but when Ianto pulled away, he stopped.

"You hear that?" He asked, turning his head, trying to hear better.

"Hear what?" Jack asked, also straining his ears to hear.

They were silent for a moment before the lights went off. The red security lights came on. The kids screamed as the dark consumed them. Jack pulled the frightened children to him as Ianto got up to test the phones.

"Dead." He said flatly, putting the phone back on the receiver.

"Damn it!" Jack called out momentarily, forgetting the kids.

He pushed the kids out of the way, and ran to the door.

"Jack, where are you going?" Ianto asked.

"To see if the computers are running." Jack answered, running out the door.

"Jack, wait!" Ianto called. Jack was already too far gone to hear his call. He sat down, scared, and pulled the kids to him.

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Jack walked out the door and down the stairs to the main part of the hub. He reached his office and typed franticly on his keyboard, trying to wake it up.

"Fuck." He said, giving up on trying to revive the computer.

He walked out of the office and over to Tosh's desk. He tried everything but couldn't get her computer to work, either. He slouched over and put his head in his hands. They had gone into lock down, and he had Ianto and the kids here, and he couldn't do anything. His head shot up from a scream of beautiful Welsh vowels.

"Jack!" Ianto screamed from the conference room.

Jack shot up from the chair and ran toward the conference room. The glass door was shattered, with pieces scattered across on the ground. He walked in to see the back of a familiar figure.

"You! What are you doing here?" Jack yelled, grabbing the gun from his holster.

As Jack pulled out his gun, another figure came up behind him. "Adam's with me."

Jack didn't even have to turn around to know who it was. "Heart!"

"How'd you guess?" John asked sarcastically, walking over to Adam.

"Where are they, John?" Jack never took the gun's aim off of the two men.

"Right here." Adam said, pulling Ianto up by his hair. Ianto was clutching the two small, crying children, all the while scared for his life.

"Ianto!" Jack plunged forward towards his captor, dropping the gun's aim on Adam.

"Come any closer Jack, and I order him to shoot." John informed, as Adam lifted the small hand gun he held to Ianto's head.

"John, I'm the one you want to get even with, not them. Please, let them go." Jack pleaded.

"Why him, Jack? How did you go from me to him?" John blurted out, unable to mask his emotions any longer.

"I love him, John. He's different; he's good, unlike you." Jack spat out with hate at his former lover.

"What, he has a heart? When did you ever like that?" John spat back.

"Since I realized there's more to life than just sex, booze, and violence. I have a life, a home, a family! If you really still love me John, please, let me be happy." Jack begged.

John stood there silent, staring at a pleading Jack. His heart broke slightly as his old lover, the man he still loved, pleaded and begged for another man's life. Anger and sadness filled him and he hated it.

"John orders." Adam called out.

John just stood, staring at the almost crying man in front of him, and the man demanding orders. "Kill him. Put the Welsh and the brats in the corner and make them watch. Then kill them, too." John ordered, looking directly at Jack the entire time, more full of hate then he had been in his entire life.

"No!" Jack and Ianto both screamed out, the kids crying harder. Adam pulled Ianto and the kids to the far corner, as John held Jack at gun point.

"Move." John demanded of Jack, moving him over with the others in the corner.

He threw Jack down at Ianto's feet. Ianto quickly grabbed Jack, grateful that he would be able to hold his lover one last time before they were both dead.

"Aww, how cute." John mocked, although inside he cringed at seeing Jack, the man he loved, embrace Ianto instead of just letting him die.

"Jack, the kids can't die, please, anything but the kids." Ianto pleaded to Jack.

"I know, Yan. I won't let anyone hurt them." Jack reassured.

"No, they're going to kill you, too." Ianto choked out. He couldn't hold back the tears anymore.

"I'll come back, Yan, I always do." Jack took Ianto's hand and held it near his heart. He leaned in so their foreheads were touching.

He placed Ianto's other hand on his cheek, wiping away tears that had fallen. "I won't leave you. I'm not scared, Yan. Not while knowing that you're here to hold me when I came back."

"I might not be this time. I love you, Jack." Ianto said, kissing him softly. "I really, really love you." The tears were flowing harder now, the saddest tears that had ever fallen from Ianto Jones's eyes.

"Yes, you will. You'll be right here when I come back." Jack said to Ianto, even though he was partly just reassuring himself.

John stood there watching the little show. Anger bubbled up, about to burst. Adam saw the emotional struggle he was having, and placed a hand on his shoulder, sending messages into his head to get those feeling back. Anger and hate filled him again. He raised the gun to Jack and shot, not thinking twice about the deadly deed. The gun rang out across the room and Ianto closed his eyes as Jack fell to his feet. He pulled Jack's limp body into his arms, cradling him, hoping to never witness Jack's death again.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, baby." Ianto sobbed, rocking back and forth.

"John, grab the body, we have to do this fast. We don't have much time left." Adam demanded, getting a cell phone out of his pocket.

John walked up to Ianto and pried Jack from his arms. "No! Stop, don't touch him!" Ianto yelled, fighting for the limp and lifeless Jack.

"Adam, get the kids and knock him out." John ordered, throwing Jack's body over his shoulder.

"Will do." Adam agreed, knocking out Ianto with the barrel of his gun. He took the two small children into a small room off of the conference room. He locked the kids in and walked over to John.

"The body, what did he ask?"

"Just leave him; it's the Welsh and kids he wants." John informed.

"Can't we just off them now?" Adam asked, cocking his gun and pointing at Ianto, who on the ground.

"No, don't touch the Welsh. I have my own plan for him." John warned.

"Then you kill the kids." Adam pointed the gun towards John.

"No, I can't. He ordered you." John walked away toward the broken glass door.

"Fine, you hate the guy and you can't hurt him. Truly pathetic. You still love him, don't you?" Adam spat at John.

John turned around sharply, walking towards him. "I am not! He betrayed me once and it won't happen again."

"Then kill them!" Adam handed John the gun.

John took the gun and walked into the locked room with the kids. He entered the room, making small screams sound out from the two small children cowering in the corner. Before John closed the door, he looked back at Jack's dead body on the office table, before he mouthed the words 'I'm sorry' to him, and closed the door as two gunshots sounded throughout the hub.

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Jack woke up with a gasp of breath. He was having terrible vertigo this time around, and had to lie back down. When he came to again he looked around him. The glass door was still shattered and he was lying on the office table. He started to remember things that happened.

He sat up straight and franticly looked around. He saw Ianto hunched over in the corner. He got up and ran toward his limp lover.

"Ianto!" he screamed falling on his knees when he reached him. "Come on baby, wake up. Don't be dead, come on." He pulled Ianto to him, holding him closely. "Please baby, don't leave me, please." He begged, beginning to rock.

He checked Ianto's pulse as his own was shooting through the roof and saw that Ianto was still alive. He breathed a sigh of relief and pulled him close again. "Thank you God, thank you." He breathed, kissing Ianto's lips softly.

Ianto started to move in Jack's arms. His eyes opened slowly as a smile grew on his face as he gazed upon Jack.

"Hey," He said with a raspy voice.

"Hey," Jack said, tears falling onto his face.

Ianto just smiled and closed his eyes slightly again. Jack brought him up more in his arms, so that he was holding the young Welsh up to his shoulder. "I thought I'd never see you again." Jack said, cradling him.

"The kids Jack, the kids." Ianto said into his shoulder.

Jack looked around franticly for the young kids. He placed Ianto down back on the floor and looked around. "Anna, Max! Where are you?" He called.

There was no reply. He walked to the corner door and stopped with his hand on the doorknob. He closed his eyes, and prayed to whatever god there was that there was nothing behind that door. He slowly opened the door and his heart fell. Anna and Max's lifeless bodies laid there on the ground. He turned and rushed to the phone that was on the conference table. Ianto stared at Jack, a puzzled look on his face.

"Where are they? Who are you calling? What's the matter?" Ianto asked Jack.

There was no reply from Jack, as Ianto got to his feet. "Jack, answer me!"

"Tosh, I'm calling Tosh." Jack said franticly, avoiding the other two questions.

Ianto started to walk toward the door that Jack had just came from, while Jack got a hold of Tosh on the phone.

"Hello?"

"Tosh, we need you back here, now!" Jack said, not wasting anytime.

"Jack? Is that you? What's wrong?" Tosh's voice became worried.

"I can't tell you exactly, but you need to get here now, with Owen." Jack instructed, looking around to see where Ianto was.

As Ianto reached the door and looked inside, he fell to his knees. A scream rippled through his body and he screamed out, "Jack! Get help. Call for help now!"

"Jack! Who was that? Was that Ianto?"

"Shit, Yan hang on they're on their way! Owen, we need you here!" He said looking back at Ianto, his heart breaking.

"Jack, what's wrong, tell me? You're scaring me!" Tosh said, the tears threatening to fall visible in her voice.

Jack looked back at Ianto again, as he cradled and held the two lifeless bodies. "Something terrible has gone down at the Hub. And it's not going to be pretty." He said hanging up, defeat in his voice.

Ianto turned back to Jack with tears in his eyes. "I didn't save them. I couldn't save them."

"It's okay Yan; they're on their way now. Owen will know what to do. I'm so sorry." Jack walked up to him and held him in his arms.

"They're dead, Jack! It's not fucking okay! My niece and nephew are dead! That is not okay!" He screamed, gripping at the children's body's that lay at his feet.

Jack slowly backed away. He didn't know what to do. He was panicking. "I'm…I'm sorry Yan."

"Do you even care, Jack? Do you even care that they are dead?" Ianto screamed, anger starting to rise.

Jack had never seen Ianto like that before and it scared him. He did care, it killed him to see Ianto suffering and in pain, and the only thing he had close to a family with Ianto was now gone. It did hurt him, but he was scared. He had let Ianto down and he didn't know what to do. "I do so care! How can you say that I don't?"

"Well you sure don't seem like it. You haven't cried, or broke down, you haven't done anything!"

"I care! God damn it I care! They were everything to me. They were the only thing I had in my life that I could say were my family! They were keeping me sane! I thought I could do it again, be a father. I would bring Anna up right, fix the mistakes I did with Alice. I had a family again, Yan. I thought this could be different. Losing those kids is losing my only hope of a family with you." Jack spat, tears on the brim of his eyes, ready to fall. "So don't you ever, ever, tell me that I don't care." He turned and stormed out of the office.

Ianto was left there appalled. Tears were falling harder as a mix of fear, love, hate, sadness, and abandonment washed over him. He heard the cog door open and muffled voices, before a terrified Owen and Tosh came rushing into the conference room.

"Ianto, what happened?" Owen asked, moving quickly to the kids.

"I…uh…" Ianto stuttered, unsure of what was going on.

Tosh saw that Ianto was all flustered and led him out of the room. "It's okay, Ianto, Owen is going to take care of it." She reinsured him, taking him down to the main floor, to the small couch by the med bay.

Tosh and Ianto sat there for what must have been a half hour, before a defeated looking Owen came down into the hub. Ianto looked up from his feet with a hopeful look at Owen, but all he did was shake his head no. Ianto looked down, defeated. He broke down and every emotion in the book was hitting him at that moment, and Tosh saw it. She picked him up by the arm, and led him to the docks outside. He ran to the railing and threw up over the side. When he was done, he fell to his knees, sobbing. Tosh came up behind him and rubbed his back, trying to calm him down.

"Shh, it's okay, Ianto. I'm here, you're okay." Tosh tried the best she could, knowing that things were not okay.

"I…lost…every…thing…I…have…ever…loved." He sobbed into Tosh's arms.

"No you haven't Ianto. You still have so much."

"No, I don't. I lost Anna and Max, who I promised my sister that I would take care of, and I ended up killing them. I have no clue where Jack went; he probably left me for good now. I have no one left!" He sobbed, thinking that if he truly lost Jack too, he would surely die along with Anna and Max.

"Oh, Ianto. Jack didn't leave you. He would never leave you, he loves you. Why would he leave you?" Tosh asked, looking into Ianto's face.

"I told him that he didn't care about Anna and Max dying. I feel so bad; I never meant anything by my ranting. I was just so hurt and lost…and now I lost him." Ianto said, putting his head in his knees, hugging them tight.

"You didn't lose him, Yan. He just needs to cool off for a bit. He'll be back." Tosh reinsured him.

Ianto nodded. He wiped his face with the back of his hands and stood up. "I think I'm going to head home, see if Jack is there."

Tosh nodded in agreement and started to walk back to the hub. Ianto watched her for a bit, and then turned and walked in the direction he needed to go. He got to the parking lot and saw that the car was still there, Jack didn't take it. He got in and started to drive. He wanted to go numb. He wanted the pain, anger, and guilt he felt to just go away. He drove around looking for Jack, but he had no luck finding anything. He got back to the house just before dark. He pulled in and saw Max's bike lying on the front lawn, knowing the small boy would never ride it again. Anna's little Barbie car was parked on the side of the driveway. Ianto remembered that she always insisted on parking it there, wanting to be a big girl. Tears brimmed his eyes. He got out quick, running into the house as fast as he could. He got in and looked around. Dinner was on the table with a note from Lisa saying that she would not be coming in tomorrow, considering it would be her day off. Anna's drawing of him and Jack was on the fridge, but Jack's boots where nowhere to be found. He sighed and walked up stairs. He stopped at Anna's door and then Max's, not going in, but imagining them in their beds sleeping, safe, and unharmed. Tears escaped his eyes as he entered his room at the end of the hall. He opened the door hoping to see Jack curled up on the bed, but there was no Jack. He broke down, wanting Jack to be there so bad, to wrap his arms around him and tell him that they would get over this together. That he was sorry for the way he acted, and that he didn't mean anything by what he said. He just wanted Jack to be here. Defeated and abandoned, he crawled into bed and hugged the pillows next to him, smelling those fifty-first pheromones that Jack left behind, falling asleep in tears, and smelling the man he loved that had left him when he needed him the most.

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The music was loud and the drinks were hard. Jack couldn't hear himself think over the bass of the music. He needed somewhere loud, and crowded, so he could keep from thinking. Jack had left the hub not to long ago in rage and anger at Ianto. He was starting to regret doing that now. He shook his head, trying to get rid of the thoughts, not wanting to think about it, and downed a shot of vodka, numbing the pain. He called the bar tender (who was looking at him all night) and ordered another shot. He wanted the pain gone, and the thoughts to stop. He downed the shot again and figured out that the club was not helping. He got up and left. He walked outside, stumbling a bit, but not much. He started to walk, he didn't know where but he just needed to do something. The pain he felt was starting to suffocate him. He didn't want to lose Ianto, but he thought he was going to because of the kids. He was supposed to protect them, not put them in harm's way. He sighed and looked up. He found that his feet had brought him to the bay. He stood near the railing and looked out. The sun had not yet gone down all the way, so the sun touched the water perfectly. He was so caught up in his feelings and thoughts that he didn't see someone walk up next to him.

"Beautiful, isn't it." The voice said, setting Jack off guard a bit.

"Tosh, what are you doing here?" Jack asked, shocked that she was still there.

"Owen just finished up some stuff, he's getting the car, I'm waiting for him." She said, turning around and putting her back against the rail.

"Oh, I see."

"Where have you been, Jack? Ianto has been worried about you. He thinks he lost you." She informed him.

"He thinks he lost me? Why?" He asked, shocked.

"You left him to handle this on his own. He thinks that he made you mad and you left. He's devastated."

"I…I didn't want to leave him. It was just that I was so scared of everything. All the death I have seen in my life, this set them apart from all the rest." Jack tried to explain to her.

"Where did you go, Jack?"

"To a club up the street. I thought that the loud music and people and drinks would help me. It didn't. Is Ianto still here?" He asked, anxious to see him again.

"No. He went home a while ago. He thought you were going to be there. We can give you a ride if you would like." Tosh offered.

"Please. I want to get home. I need to sort this out. I don't want to do this alone, and I don't want him to do it alone either."

Tosh nodded and took Jack by the arm. Owen came around and picked them up. Tosh jumped in the front with Owen and Jack took the back seat. He stared out the window, thinking of what he was going to say to Ianto when he got home. The car ride was faster then he thought it would be. He got out of the car, and avoided looking at the kids' toys on the ground. He walked in the door, took off his boots, and placed them next to Ianto's. He ran upstairs and into their room. There he saw Ianto on his side of the bed, turned, hugging a pillow. Jack smiled to himself and walks over. He climbed into bed as softly as possible and snuggled up next to Ianto. He put his arm around his waist, bringing him closer. Ianto started to wake up, turning around to see Jack.

"Jack? What are you doing here? I didn't think that you would come ba…" Ianto didn't get a chance to finish his sentence before Jack pulled him in to kiss him.

Jack pulled away slowly to see tears falling from Ianto's eyes. "I thought I had lost you." Ianto said, stroking Jack's cheek softly.

"I would never leave you, babe. I love you." Jack said, pulling Ianto closer into him.

"I'm sorry about before, I didn't mean anything by it. I was just so confused, and angry, and upset, I didn't think." Ianto blurted out.

"I know Yan, I'm sorry for leaving you." Jack confessed.

"I know Jack, I know. Let's put it behind us. I…I just want you to hold me right now." Ianto begged, as Jack obliged and pulled Ianto onto his chest and cradled him.

"You're okay love, I'm here, we will get through this, I promise." Jack swore to Ianto.

Ianto snuggled in as sleep took over him. "I love you, Jack Harkness, and I always will."