The air in the room is slightly cold, the some what sufferable silence is finally filled by Ghost's voice.
"I was never in denial."
"And here we go again." I say bitterly as I look at the table, The shifting in my happy mood gradually went away and filled with a little annoyance and a hint of depression, I honestly didn't feel like teasing anymore.
This little fight feels like something me and Gaz would do, Of course me and Gaz never fought on whether we had a relationship or not, if anything he was more of a brother, quite like MacTavish is.
I hear Meat say something but I'm sucked into a flashback.
{LOCATING: TASK FORCE BASE...}
{FAILURE...}
{LOCATING: SAS BASE...}
{SUCCESS...}
{8 Years Ago}
"No!." Gaz quickly retorted
Price shifted a little and firmly replied "She's bunking with you."
Gaz's face lit with anger then stormed out of the room.
"Thank you." I say as Price turns to me with a cocked eyebrow.
"For letting me stay here, You honestly didn't have too." I continued.
Price shook his head dismissively "Un tell you completely figure out were you want to go you can stay here...But."
I look at him with a slight frown.
"You cant stay forever, our General will never allow it."
I sigh and mutter "I know, I know."
My eye's were still hurt from crying.
I still couldn't believe it, They all knew. All of them. My dark childhood was now finally off my chest.
Soap takes a seat next to me and says softly "Are you ok?."
I take another deep sigh and say "Yes its just, I've blocked it all out and now its just...Just." I try to finish but Soap puts a comforting arm around me and says "You don't have to continue."
Just like how he did when I spilled my story to them. I give a sniffle as I rest my head on his shoulder. Soap, The big brother I never had.
"And one more thing Alex." Price calls out.
I look up to address him.
"Meet me out at Gun course at 5 o'clock sharp, you need to start training."
I look slightly baffled "Training? I'm a 14 year old girl who needs to be in mental health care, why the hell do I need to train."
I feel a hand lightly slap me, I look over to see Soap who had just did it.
"What was that for?." I scuff
"Stop with the language, like you said you're 14 not 40." Soap replies.
"If you two are done having a childish moment." Price says then stops for a moment, Then continues on "Yes your 14, and you are mentally in a very delicate state, But to avoid repeats in the future you need to know self defense."
I grit my teeth, I can see my self finding self defense useful but a Gun course? Training? I find it a bit drastic, but Price just offered me a place to stay. so I refuse to complain.
"Very well, i'll see you at the gun course then." I say with a straight face.
Price gives a nod then exists the room.
*A few hours later*
I quickly run into the courtyard, barely dodging Gaz.
"Oi! watch were you're running." Gaz scolds
I give him a some what sheepish and intimidated look "Sorry." Is all I can squeak out before i'm off in a run, When I get to the gun course I see a disapproving shake of Price's head, his arms are crossed as he says "Your late."
"Only by 5 minutes." I say with a late shrug.
"If you were a Sniper that was suppose to neutralize a target at 5 o'clock and were to be 5 minutes late then target would already be gone." Price says firmly
I sigh and mutter "I'm sorry."
Price gives another shake of his head "You need to leave at least 10 minutes early to avoid being late, You are still a child so your off the hook, Now c'mon."
I follow behind Price as he takes me to the guns.
"You do the basics of holding a weapon I take it?." Price asks
I take a sigh and say "Not much.", I hate shooting guns, there so loud and scary, they Hurt people, I have hurt people. I'm quickly pulled from my guilt as Price tugs for my attention.
"What is it?." Price asks
"N-nothing." I stutter.
"If it weren't for you being in such a emotional state id say your terrible at hiding your emotions." Price says
"Yes well hiding emotions and conversations have never been my best, Sir." I reply as I look at the ground.
Just then we see Soap jog to us "It's General sir, he wants to speak with you right now."
Price nods then says "I'll be back, don't go anywhere."
I frown and reply "I guess I don't have much of a choice."
Price doesn't respond, I watch him quickly walk back to the base.
"I swear, he's going soft." Soap says with a half smile.
"What do you mean?." I ask
"I mean just the way he talks to you he does it in such a...Delicate motion." Soap answers
"So?." I say
"I've never heard his voice that way, especially to someone who put a knife to his throat 3 days ago." Soap teases
"Hey! sometimes you drastic times calls for completely unrealistic panic attacks." I say with a smile.
Soap then hears his name called from one of the team mates, he groans then says "I have to head for the War Room, do me a favor and not get into any trouble."
"I cant make any promises." I call out as I watch Soap make his way to the base.
After what feels like 30 minutes of pacing, singing to myself if finally got o the gun table. My eyes flick to a Sniper,
I don't know why, but something feels so right when I pick it up. I zoom in on the scope to a far away target.
"Oi you do realize you could blow off your shoulder by holding it like that?." Prices voice makes me jump
"What!?." I say slightly confused.
Price comes behind me and helps me hold the sniper.
"You put in in the pocket in your shoulder, Not on the completely side of the shoulder."
I do as he instructs and put it in the pocket of my shoulder.
"Do you know what a Sniper's greatest tool is?." Price asks as he looks down at me.
I shake my head.
"Relaxation, if you cant relax then your going to have a hard time positioning your sniper in the right area, it will also make you breathing harder causing you to be more shaky." Price explains.
I give a nod then zoom in on the sniper, I to hold my breath a couple of times, but I fail
"Relax your shoulders." I hear Prices voice, I just then mentally make my shoulders relax.
"Good." Price says soothingly
After a moment Price continues with "Take a deep breath, give it a second...then pull the trigger."
I then Take a deep breath, my vision is clear and I line my sights on the targets heart. with just a moment I pull the trigger. I'm suddenly pushed back into Price, i'm happy he was behind me helping me hold the sniper.
I almost see a faint smile on Price's lips when he says "You hit it right in the heart, Now if you just repeat."
{LOCATING: SAS BASE...}
{FAILURE...}
{LOCATING: TASK FORCE BASE...}
{SUCCESS...}
{PRESENT}
"Umm Alex, yoohoo!." Archer says as he snaps his fingers into of my face.
I blink then look around for a moment, I'm here in the Task force base, not the SAS, i'm not fighting with Gaz nor am I training with Price,
I must have a very upset look on my face because everyone awkwardly stares at me. I give a deep sigh then say
"I'm off chaps, if anyone needs me i'll be in my room."
Without another word said I get up and leave the table.
I slowly walk through the halls, i'm in no rush, and I honestly just need some time away from everyone else. I just wish I could ask Price for advice, When I was still a child his words were like Gold in my mind, and even to this day they still are. Just then I find a door that leads outside of the base.
I seat myself on the large porch and look at the sky, The sun is a orange color that is setting, a few clouds stray across the sky, a light warm breeze passes by.
I feel the urge to sing so I don't hesitate.
"If I smile and don't believe, Soon I know i'll wake from this dream."
"Don't try to fix me i'm not broken, Hello, I'm the lie living for you can hide Don'-
I barely choke out the last sentence, I feel like I've just been smacked in the face. I finally just give up with my emotions and let the tears pour down my face.
I feel like I've been living a lie my whole life, That cause of my childhood I hid my shy and insecure personality in exchange for a bright and bubbly one.
Price and Gaz, two people that mean dearly too me, died, and I was never there to say goodbye
This makes me cry even harder as I put the palms of my hands into my eyes.
Just then I hear a voice in the back of my head "Alex, stop crying."
I get even more upset when the voice belongs to Price, I began having a hard time breath as I uncontrollably sob.
"Alex you need to stop crying."
"But... I... I...I cant just.." The memory begins to play in my head.
"Take a deep breath."
I obey the order and take a hard long shaky breath, its always the first one that's the most difficult.
"Now exhale, and repeat."
I then exhale and continue to do this, now that I have control on my breathing I've stopped crying.
Mentally, I feel exhausted. so I get up and take a few minutes to regain my normal face in case if I have to talk to anyone on my way back to my room.
When I get inside i'm very fast to my room, when I open the door I give a relieved sigh to see that Ghost isn't in here.
I quickly change into a pair of comfy shorts and a tank top, I then crawl into my bunk like a child.
After a few minutes i'm out like a light.
Light streams through the blinds, its humid, very humid. I drag myself out of bed and go to the cafeteria.
When I arrive I receive odd glares from people, I simply ignore them and get a bowl of cereal.
I decide to go on ahead and sit by Royce, who also stares at me.
"Was it that bad?." I cant help but to ask.
"Yes, At first you were amused then suddenly you looked depressed and stared at the table, you started muttering things to yourself, we didn't notice at first." Royce states.
"Oh my god." I say completely mortified, I let my face bury into my hands.
"I had a flashback, no wonder you all looked at me like I was a bloody lunatic."
"I hate it when I get flashbacks." Royce says with a frown.
"Oi Love!." I hear Ghost say
"You aren't here to say i'm crazy right?." I ask
"I could, but MacTavish wants to see you."
"I swear if that bloody man thinks I can go on a mission-
"Actually, he seems fairly concerned." Ghost cuts me off.
I look at the table and give a sigh. Without a word I get out and walk out and into the busy hall way.
Before I get very far i'm stopped.
"Night are you alright?." Ghost asks,
"Yes i'm fine, I just had a flashback last night, it was rather...Overwhelming." I explain, theres no use in trying to hide it from him.
Ghost gives a understanding nod then says "Well if you need someone to talk too, you know were to find me."
Without another word he goes back into the cafeteria.
Why!? Why does he do that? Ghost tries to act like he doesn't give a damn about me and then, and does something so sweet, like this.
I sigh then head to MacTavish's office.
Its going to be a long day if MacTavish is concerned about me.
Hey Wassup People!? Here is another short chapter, This one is a bit more of a flashback as well as Alex being depressed about Price and Gaz's deaths (We all know the truth about Price though :P) but whatever, the chapter is slightly depressing as well. Alex just goes off and deals with her emotions as well. I seriously wanted to let Ghost come in comfort Alex when she was singing, But I went with a more realistic view and made him not, Being realistic sucks :P anyways sorry for any grammer mistakes but I am seriously tired so i'm gonna be lazy and not check :P
LOL so I debated a little and decided that if I make the rest of the chapters just a bit longer that there will be 3 (or 4) more chapters, and I got sucha romantic ending Hehehehehe. anways im out
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Sincerely Red Dawn Shadow.
