I'm baack! I've written 3 stories by now, and the two of them will be out there in the next week, probably. But, as I wrote a chapter for Lorelei and ff deleted it and I'm currently pretty mad and don't want to rewrite it, I'll share this with you, as it's checked (only by me though, not by a beta-reader), because it suits my mood.
Stupid chapter, how could you leave me. ;_;
IT IS SAD. You've been warned. /next ones will be happier, promise
He should've known best.
He should've known that she couldn't cope losing him. He shouldn't have left.
He knew what it was like, didn't he?
But he did. He left her there, to be miserable, for over a year. He left her to cry her eyes out, to feel the pain that he shouldn't make her feel.
And now, when he stood in front of her, his eyes filled with regret, she couldn't just forget it.
He abandoned her. She had suffered.
And it was all because of him.
"Luce..."
His voice was trembling, fists clenched, eyes full of tears; there wasn't any rain, the sun laughed at them.
She was relieved he lived, she really was, but she couldn't just throw her arms around him and pretend he was gone for few days.
"Go away." She managed not to sutter. She needed to be strong. She held her tears, not letting them fall in front of him; she would cry later.
Now, she couldn't.
He didn't listen. He stood there, still looking at her.
"I'm sorry..."
She clenched her teeth.
"I don't want to listen to this. Go away, please."
He was not to break her resolve.
"Lucy, I panicked- I couldn't-"
"You couldn't WHAT?"
She snapped.
"What, Natsu? What made you so panicked? Panicked enough to abandon whole Fairy Tail, to leave us behind without a word?" He flinched as she said that. "Yeah, you heard me right, you ABANDONED us. You abandoned Happy. How do you think he felt? And this note, 'Don't look for me'? Are you even serious?!"
Fuck her resolve, the tears had escaped. There was no stopping them now.
"I know I messed up, Luce, for the fuck's sake, I KNOW!"
"I trusted you would never do that to me."
Her voice was small now. She sobbed.
"I trusted you. I believed in you."
"I'm sorry..."
"You wanted it, Natsu. You wanted to leave. You could just say that, for the fuck's sake!" She looked him in the eye. He saw everything in her eyes.
He hurt her. She was furious. She was in pain. And he wasn't making it any better.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you suffer."
"You know what we're feeling because you was abandoned, too. But why did you abandon us? Have you hated us so much?"
All her anger vanished.
She was broken.
He broke her.
And he was unable to turn it back.
IDK, okay? Okay. R&R, leave me anything, motivate me to write more, because I lack motivation so much.
