A/N- This chapter took sorta long and I'm sorry. But I want to keep everyone in suspense.

Disclaimer: I do not own Instant Star, I do own Johnathan, Ryan and Petey.

It was about 9 am in New York and Jude was wide awake.

Jude didn't sleep all night. She told Lucy her story and it took almost all night. But that's not what kept her awake. She kept thinking about everyone back home. She didn't want to, she wanted to start over, but she couldn't. It was hard not to wake up thinking of going to the studio with Kwest, and hanging out with Speiderman and goofing off with him, Kyle and Wally. It was hard not to think of Sadie and her constant girl talk. She thought of everyone and everything. Even Darius. He was really mad the last time she saw him, but so was she. Liam practically told her she was laid off! Only her, Darius and Liam knew about the pictures. Karma luckily only saw one picture, that wasn't that bad. Jude tried to fight the urge to think about Tommy. The way he laughed, the way he smelled, the goofy grin that he got sometimes. She missed him like crazy, but of course he didn't miss her. He was probally glad to have her out of his hair. 'He's probally off laughing and having fun with Jessica.' Jude thought bitterly. But Tommy wasn't her problem anymore. He was getting married and probally going to have more kids with Jessica. Jude also thought about her friends and her sister. Speiderman probally hates her, and she couldn't blame him. She left without a real goodbye. Just like Tommy did to her. She knew Speid would be crushed, and he didn't deserve that. Sadie didn't deserve it either. She has been such a good sister, taking care of Jude and keeping the family together. Sadie always gave, and she always took. To repay her, she left her out in the cold without a real, face to face goodbye. Someone that Jude didn't think about much was Kwest. He became one of her good friends. He was like the brother she never had, and she didn't even leave him a goodbye. She felt really bad about that. She left him a short video but thats it. Under her bed she left a few boxes with things she would like her friends to have. Jude sighed, feeling guilty as ever. She left her new room and walked out into the kitchen. Lucy was already there with coffee. She had gotten up a while ago to get ready. Her wild curly hair was straightened and pulled back into a neat bun. And she was wearing dark blue jeans, and a white long sleeved button down shirt, and a small brown vest over it. She had on light makeup, she didn't need much, she was only 19 years old. She wore knee high brown boots.

Lucy: "Hey sleepy. Did you sleep okay?" She smiled warmly at Jude and offered her a cup of coffee, which Jude gladly took.

Jude: "I didn't get much sleep. I was up thinking about everyone back home." Lucy shot her a sympathetic look.

Lucy: "Jude.." Jude sighed.
Jude: "I'm fine, I made the right decision. That's that. Now, since I live in New York, I need a job now." Jude said, quickly changing the subject of her old home. Lucy smirked.

Lucy: "You sure are fast to change the subject of Toronto. Well I can help you out with your job problem. You can work at the restaurant with me. I know it's kind of lame, but you said you didn't want anyone to find you, and-" Jude cut her off.

Jude: "No, it's perfect. Thanks Luce." She smiled. Lucy's family owned a small, friendly restaurant, Lucy handled buisness and profits. Lucy's three brothers also worked there.
Lucy: "Well I'm already ready for work. If you want to get started you should come with me." Jude nodded.

Lucy: "We have to leave by 10:30, so get ready. You already met my brothers Johnathan, Petey and Ryan, they'll make work fun for you." She smiled.

Jude had met them while visiting Lucy once, Johnathan was the oldest, 21 years old. Petey was the youngest, at 15 and hilarious, like Speid. Ryan was 19 years old and alot like Jude, they got along very well.

Jude: "Well I can't wait, I'll go get ready." She tried her best to smile, but Lucy wasn't convinced. Jude left to take a shower. Lucy knew she wasn't okay. Last night she heard her crying and saw her holding a picture of her friends and family. Everytime she smiled it wasn't genuine. Lucy felt helpless in the matter. At about 10:25 Jude emerged from her room. She wore faded blue jeans, a navy green band t- shirt, her leather jacket and dark green converse. She straightened her blonde locks, and put on some makeup.

Lucy: "Ready to go Judith?" She said as she grabbed her keys.

Jude: "Yeah, lets go. it's time for me to go start my new life." She mumbled the last part.

Meanwhile back in Toronto, Tommy was at home, having yet another fight with Jessica.

Jessica: "Stop moping around the house Tom! Ever since you came home from G- Major you've been acting like a ghost. Why don't you spend some time with Anna? I'm tired of you acting like some depressed teenager! When we got back from Montana, you act so far away. It's that Jude girl. Why is it the overly dramatic, britney wannabe, child get's more attention from you than me! We have an agreement Tom!" Tommy grew angry at her 'child' statement.

Tommy: "Do you ever just shut up!" She stared at him, shocked at his sudden outburst.

Tommy: "First of all, Jude is not a child! Nor a britney wanna be! So you don't talk about her that way! Second of all, I know we have an agreement. Trust me you'll never let me forget it!" Jessica gaped at him, suprised at him for sticking up for Jude like that.

Jessica: "Your engaged to me Tom, not that girl, don't you think you should spend more time with me? What makes her mean anything at all. Who care's about her?"

Tommy: "I DO! Because I.. I have to go." And with that, he grabbed his car keys and ran out to his car and drove to G-Major. When he got there, he parked his hummer and went inside. It felt so empty. Sadie wasn't at the front desk. SME wasn't joking around on the couch. The interns weren't even gossiping like usual. He walked into Studio A, which was not the same without Jude inside. It was like, since Jude wasn't there, the air got sucked out of G- Major. Kwest was sitting in his chair as usual. He looked like crap, and his face showed how upset how he really was. Tommy wasn't any better though. Kwest and Tommy both had dark circles under their eyes. Kwest was closer to her than other people knew. They actually were really good friends, they would goof around together, and go to lunch together and hang out outside of G-Major. Even though she was sad when Tommy was gone, he used to cheer her up. She was gone for one day, and he missed her so much. He was a bit upset that he got no letter, or email or anything.

Kwest: "Hey man, how you holding up?" Kwest asked. He stared at his bestfriend, clearly worried, but too upset himself to help him.

Tommy: "Not too good." Kwest sighed and looked into the soundbooth.
Kwest: "Darius let Sadie have the day off. Even he looked a little sad today. He said that you, me and SME could leave early if we wanted too."

Tommy: "Well why are you here then? If Darius said.."
Kwest: "I don't really know. I guess I sort of want answers. I wish I could help. Sadie is really upset, and I am too, but I feel helpless."

Tommy: "Me too. And it's mostly my fault. I miss her." Kwest continued to stare at the floor.

Kwest: "Me too." He looked around and sighed.

Speiderman was with Kyle and Wally at 620 when he called Sadie.

She had been in Jude's room, looking at her stuff and crying. She heard the phone ring and picked it up.

Sadie: "Hello?" She said softly, she tried to pull herself together so her voice wouldn't show she was crying.

Speid: "Hey Sadie, it's Speed." He said just as softly.

Sadie: "Hey Speed." Her voice cracked a little, and Speiderman noticed.

Speiderman: "Are you okay Sadie?" He asked.

Sadie: "Yeah, I'm fine, (she sniffled) did you call for something?" She asked him, while her voice was a little back to normal.

Speiderman: "In my letter from Jude, she said under her bed there were photo albums, and stuff she wanted her friends to have. I thought maybe we can call everyone and come over and get them." He wanted whatever she left, because the letter was almost not enough. He needed some other part of his bestfriend.

Sadie: "Sure, I'll call Kwest and Tommy, you call Jamie, Patsy, Wally and Kyle. You guys can come over now."

Speid: "Well I'm with Wally and Kyle right now, so everyone will be there soon."

Sadie: "Alright, bye Speed."

Speid: "Bye." He turned to Kyle and Wally, "I just gotta call Jamie and Patsy, and we'll go after that." Twenty minutes later everyone was at the Harrison house.

Jamie: "So.. Are we all gonna just go into her room and take stuff?" He said trying to break the silence. Sadie and Speiderman looked at him.

Sadie: "No, me and Speiderman are going to bring the boxes down here into the living room. We'll sort everything out together. Tommy, do you want to help?" He was suprised that she wanted his help, but he nodded yes. The three, went upstairs into Jude's room. Tommy had never seen her room before. It reminded him so much of Jude, he saw a picture of him and her on her dresser. It was in the studio, he was holding her on his back, as if giving her a piggy back ride. Her arms were around his neck and they both were smiling. Memories flooded through his mind, and he almost couldn't take it. They looked under the bed, and there were a few boxes, filled with photo albums, cd's, and other things. Speid and Tommy took two boxes each and Sadie took one. They went downstairs, and put them on the coffee table.

Patsy: "Well I guess we should see what kind of junk blondie left behind." Sadie smiled sadly. She then started taking things out. Jude left Jamie most of her cd's and pictures of them. She left Patsy her collection of beer caps, and oddly a self help book. Sadie, she left the boots that she always stole, lots of pictures, and other things. Kyle and Wally got guitar picks, funny pictures of them, and some video's they made on tour. She left Kwest pictures of course, a lot of mixed cd's, and a tape of looney toons (which was an inside joke of theirs), and some video that he would watch later. Speiderman got her favorite stuffed animal Mr. Fluffles, a photo album that was labeled 'Bestfriends Always for Forever' inside she said it was for her Bart from Lisa. She also left some video's of them together, and her gibson guitar! Everyone thought that was really unfair, except Speid of course. She also left him her diary that had songs in there. Last came Tommy. They didn't record any video's together, so he didn't have any of those. She gave him a photo album with lots of pictures of them together. She left him a journal full of songs, her favorite cd's, and a mixed cd that she said reminded her of him. They all took their things and went home.

Back in NewYork, Jude was at Lucy's familys restaurant 'The Thomas Diner'

As soon as Jude walked in Petey tackled her in a hug, Johnathan and Ryan heard a girl squeal and went out to see that it was Jude. Ryan's eyes became wide in shock.

Ryan: "Jude?" She looked up from Petey, and saw Ryan and Johnathan and smiled. John went to help her up.

Johnathan: "Are you alright pickle?" She glared at him for the use of the childish nick name he gave her long ago.

Jude: "Yes, thank you. It's good to see you all again." She smiled and hugged Johnathan. She walked up to Ryan nervously and held out her hand. The last time they saw eachother they had a small fight, nothing big, but still a fight.

Jude: "Hey Rya- uh Lucy's brother, person?" He looked down at her hand and smiled. He took her hand in his, then pulled her into a hug. She sighed in releif.

Ryan: "Hey Harrison." She smiled sadly, remembering how many times Tommy and Speid called her that. She pulled away.

Petey: "So what bring's you to New York? Run away from your rock star life?" Lucy gave him a look telling him to shut up. He stared at Jude in wonder.

Johnathan: "Oh my god, you really ran away?" She turned away and didn't look at any of them.

Jude: "Well.. Kind of.."

"Jude!" "Pickle!" Ryan and John said at the same time.

Petey: "So what happened? Are the police after you or something. Were you doing drugs on the road? Kill your back up band??" Everyone looked at him like he was the dumbest person they ever met. Jude just glared at him.

Petey: "Well, you never know. I mean the life of a rockstar. No offense but you guys do some crazy stuff." John laughed and ignored Jude's glare.

Jude: "Well no, I didn't do anything like that. But listen, no one can know where I am. You can't tell anyone. I'm never going back. No one can know anything."

Petey: "Because your hiding something?" He half asked, half stated.

Jude: "No, it's a long story. You all should sit down." They did as told, and she told them her story. Leaving out a little, she said she was being blackmailed, but didn't give all the details. She would work at the restaurant as a waitress, and they would tell no one who she was.

There it is! Kind of boring, but it was basically a filler. Review:D