A/N: Everyone is going to hate me with a burning passion after you read this chapter…
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My scream detonated around me as I touched the notebook. Memories I didn't know I had flashed before my eyes. My head felt as if it would burst from all of the pictures and information crammed into it.
It hit me like a bomb.
I was Kira.
***
I tried to play it cool around L, but he knew something was different. I had completely devoted myself to the Kira case, throwing myself in. I carried out my plan perfectly, killing Higuchi. Misa and I started dating again. I knew if I wanted L's real name from her, I'd have to become involved with her.
Misa made the eye deal with Rem for a second time. I knew she could get me L's real name, and then I could finally kill him.
But first I wanted both Rem and Misa out of the way. It would be incredibly hard to kill Rem, but I hoped the circumstances would be just right and she would kill someone who threatened Misa.
My wish came true when Misa and I were walking back from the local market. Rem had followed us, wanting to keep track of Misa. L had asked us to pick up a few baking goods for him, but I knew he just wanted me out of his hair. I realized we'd forgotten the flour and hurried back into the store.
As soon as I re-entered the store I heard a hideous screech from the alleyway next to the market. I rushed outside, peering down the alley.
I couldn't believe my eyes. The pesky girl from the Tilt-A-Whirl had cornered Misa! I remembered her name was Hideyo.
I cowered behind the brick wall next to the alley, peering around it to watch what happened. I knew Misa didn't have any paper from the Death Note with her, and wouldn't be able to kill her.
"What are you doing?!" Misa screeched as Hideyo approached her.
"I've been following you and Matsuda (1). Ever since the carnival, I knew he and I were meant to be," Hideyo growled.
"What are you talking about? You don't even know him!" Misa cried.
"I know him enough!" Hideyo snapped. She reached into her pocket and pulled out a jagged knife. The blade was at least eight inches long.
Rem hovered behind Misa, her fists clenched.
I reached into my pocket, knowing I had a piece of paper from the Death Note with me. But it was pointless seeing as I didn't know Hideyo's full name. Plus, Rem might resort to killing Hideyo to save Misa, which would help to complete my plan.
"Please! Don't hurt me!" Misa held her arms up to shield herself. Hideyo had a crazed look in her eye as she got within a foot of Misa and held up the knife.
Rem looked increasingly nervous, clearly wondering what to do. Panicked, she pulled out her own Death Note, gave Hideyo a quick glance, and scribbled something down.
I felt a smile stretching across my face as I checked my watch. In forty seconds Hideyo and Rem would both surely be dead.
My heart pounded as Hideyo stepped closer to Misa, pressing the tip of the knife to her neck. Misa whimpered and tried to sidestep around her, but Hideyo grabbed her shoulder and slammed against the wall.
Ten…nine…eight…
Misa closed her eyes, preparing herself for death and Hideyo began to apply force. A bead of blood dripped from her neck.
Three…two…one…
Hideyo clutched her chest, gasping loudly. She fell backwards, fighting for breath. Misa bent over her, clearly confused and petrified. She looked back at Rem, who nodded solemnly.
"Oh Rem!" Misa exclaimed as Hideyo took her last breath. "You shouldn't have done that for me!"
Rem began falling apart, piece by piece. Her body disintegrated into the ground slowly. Misa started crying, picking up a dusty piece of Rem's body. The bit crumbled in her hand.
"Oh Rem," Misa sobbed.
I took that as my cue to come running around the corner.
"Misa!" I yelled. "What the hell—" my eyes froze as I spotted Rem and Hideyo.
"They're dead!" Misa sniffled. "The psycho girl from the carnival came after me! She had a knife at my throat, and Rem k-k-killed her!" she blubbered.
"Oh no! So of course Rem died too!" I said as if I'd just realized it.
"It's all my fault!" Misa bawled.
"Don't say that, it'll be alright," I patted her on the shoulder, kneeling over the remains of Rem's body.
"But it's true! It's all my fault!" she repeated. I tried to comfort her, continuing to rub her shoulder. After a few more minutes Misa stood up slowly, still sniveling.
"Come on Misa, let's get back to headquarters. We need to tell L about this," I put my arm around her shoulder and we walked back together.
***
Everyone at the task force was shocked to hear of Rem's death. None of then were aware of how to kill a Shinigami. Even L seemed surprised.
"…strange," he said as he stacked chocolate chip cookies. "Why would she choose to advance onto you when she knew Light was so close? Seems like a risky decision," he stroked his lip with his thumb.
"What? That's not important! Hideyo is dead. She didn't have anything to do with the Kira case!" I blurted out.
"No, I suppose not," L shrugged. The stack of cookies fell. The room burst out with more conversation. Everyone had a different idea on what to do next, how to cope with the loss of Rem.
I stepped back from the group, smiling roguishly to myself. Now that Rem was dead, I could treat Misa however I wanted. It would be just too easy to get L's real name from her now.
***
L was crouched in his normal position on the chair in the living room, switching back and forth between examining the Death Note and typing on his computer. Everyone once in a while he took a sip of coffee or a bite of cake.
I was sitting on the floor, slouched against the sofa. I had one hand in a bag of potato chips and the other was flipping through the newspaper, looking for any piece of news we might find useful. Inside I was a bundle of nerves as I watched the clock, waiting for eight o'clock to come.
I hoped L didn't catch onto my plan. All hell would surely break loose if he did.
I was positive he'd be jealous, but perhaps he wouldn't say anything.
I made my way over to his chair, twirling a finger through his hair absentmindedly. It had been sometime since our last rendezvous, but we'd both been too busy to fool around.
L ignored me as I kissed down his neck, stopping to suck his earlobe. He shuddered but kept typing, doing his best to sit still. I placed one hand on the base of his neck, pulling down his shirt to give him a wet kiss on his shoulder.
"Not now, please, Light," he said softly, increasing his typing speed. I straightened myself up (2), embarrassed.
An awkward moment passed before a knock came on the door. It was Watari, claiming Misa was here to see me. I went to the door to greet her.
"Light! I missed you!" she squealed, hugging me.
"Hey Misa," I faked a smile. L nodded briefly in our direction.
"We're going out for dinner, and then probably back to Misa's floor. Don't wait up," I winked at L before Misa and I left together.
My heart broke for L as I caught a glimpse of his expression before I shut the door. He looked more alone than ever.
***
Misa and I made small talk at the restaurant. The waiter recognized her and let us eat for free, which put her in a good mood. It'd be easier to get the name than I thought.
When we finished dinner Misa invited me onto her floor. It was remarkably clean and tidy, the only exception being the picture of her and me she'd tacked up onto the bare white wall. It was covered with lipstick stains. Misa pulled it down as soon as we walked in, blushing furiously.
"Have you been kissing my picture, Misa Misa?" I wiggled my eyebrows at her.
"Huh? Of course not!" she dropped the picture and kicked it under the couch. "Oh Light, I'm so glad we're finally alone!" she beamed.
"So am I," I said, taking a step closer to Misa. I mentally prepared myself for what would happen next, and did my best to picture L's face as I kissed Misa.
This time she was expecting the kiss, and dove into it. Her hands raced through my hair and she kissed me eagerly. Her tongue parted my lips skillfully, and L's face melted out of my mind as we made our way into Misa's bedroom.
What had I been thinking? It would be no problem to seduce someone as beautiful as Misa. Even though she was annoying when she spoke, she was simply gorgeous when she shut up. She was a celebrity, after all.
Of course I felt some guilt about L when I thought about him. Even though I'd remembered I was Kira, it didn't change my love for L. The fact that I would have to eliminate him was just that, a fact. I couldn't let my emotions get in the way of justice.
My thoughts returned to Misa as she unzipped her dress and stepped out of it. I licked my lips, removing my pants and shirt before kissing Misa once again. Our tongues danced with passion as I reached around to unclasp Misa's bra. She slid out of her panties, and I got my first good luck at her.
I quickly felt an uncomfortable yet familiar bulge in my boxers, taking Misa's breasts in my fingertips and pulling gently on her nipples. She let out a soft moan and stretched her fingers down to pull off my boxers.
I shoved her back on the bed but remained standing up. Misa ran her fingers over her breasts, moaning loudly as I propped her legs up on my shoulders. I had clear access to her entrance.
Although Misa was wet enough that I didn't need to use any fingers, I wanted to pleasure her extremely well so she'd be absolutely inclined to give me L's name.
I bent down and lowered my face to her entrance, sliding my tongue into her lips. She gasped as I licked her clit.
"Oh, Light!" she moaned, thrusting her hips toward my face. I licked her harder, giving her what she wanted. I brought up a finger and slipped into Misa's entrance. I'm not sure she even noticed it was there, she was so positively soaked. I added another finger, this time receiving a slight moan.
I was up to four fingers and Misa was barely reacting. My erection throbbed with desire as I swished my tongue around her clit. Misa writhed under me, but I wouldn't let her come quite yet. I wanted her orgasm to be absolutely explosive and fabulous.
I pulled my mouth up and entered her. She sheathed me completely and quickly started thrusting against me, moaning with every motion. I found Misa to actually be incredibly sexy, and I was fighting orgasm with every thrust.
I reached up to play with Misa's nipples, wondering why she hadn't come yet. If she was L she would've been done ages ago. I was thrusting unbelievably deep, sweating flowing down my body.
Suddenly I remembered something and brought my hands back down to Misa's sex. I felt like a total idiot for forgetting.
I used my thumb to circle Misa's clit. Now she was really getting going. I thrust harder, and when she rewarded me with a heavy moan I knew I'd hit her sweet spot. I continued to rub her clit, and within seconds she was screaming my name as her back arched uncontrollably. I let myself go inside of her, gasping for breath. My orgasm had been every bit as explosive as hers had been.
Misa scooted over on the bed so I could join her. She snuggled up against my chest, breathing deeply.
"Wow, Light," she giggled. "I didn't think you had that in mind."
"You're just so beautiful," I kissed the top of her head.
The image of L's face shot through my mind, and all of a sudden I felt sick. Not only was I using Misa, I was using Misa so I could kill L! L, the love of my life!
A million memories chased each other through my head. My first kiss with L, going to the carnival, humping him like crazy in the kitchen…
A solitary tear slid down my face. I was a horrible person! My heart belonged to L, one hundred percent. What the hell was I doing in bed with Misa?
I sighed as I remembered justice. If I wanted to continue on as Kira, everything I'd done so far was absolutely necessary. I would have to betray L, for the better of the world. If he discovered I was Kira, it would all be over. I just couldn't take that chance.
"Misa," I whispered.
"Hm?" she looked up at me.
"Misa, I need you to tell me L's real name," I muttered. I figured the cameras wouldn't be able to pick up on the sound as long as we were buried beneath the covers.
"Why?" she looked puzzled. "Are you going to kill him?"
"Shh!" I shushed her. "Yes, of course I am. He's my biggest enemy," I rolled my eyes.
"No!" Misa objected.
"What?! Why not?! You know that if L finds out I'm Kira, everyone who believes in me is as good as dead!" I pointed out.
"I can't let you kill him," she shook her head insistently.
"That doesn't make sense! Tell me why not," I demanded.
"He makes you happy," she said simply. "I've seen the look you get around him. There's no way I'm going to let you do something as stupid as kill him. You'll be heartbroken!" Misa explained. "I couldn't bear it."
"Misa!" I protested.
"Don't worry, Light! Just don't give L any reason to suspect you as Kira! You'll thank me for this one day," she rolled over and went to sleep.
I cursed quietly and smacked my fist against the bed. Now that Misa wouldn't give me L's name, I was regretting letting Rem die. I could've at least tried to stop Hideyo from attacking Misa. If only I knew beforehand!
I struggled to think of a new plan to extract L's name from Misa, but I my mind was blank. My happiness as Misa's number one priority, and she there was no way she'd do anything to take that away from me.
An idea hit me like a brick.
If I started acting like L didn't make me happy, Misa would want to kill him! But if I acted strange around L, he would suspect me even more as Kira.
I sighed, frustrated, and closed my eyes. Maybe I would know what to do in the morning.
(1) Don't forget, Light told Hideyo his name was Matsuda as an alias.
(2) No pun intended
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