Chapter 9

Dun dun dun… Freya returns in this chapter. I bet your holding onto the screen yelling 'OMG what the hell?!' Well your about to find out. So this chapter starts with Merlin telling Morgana about Freya. Then the lady in question turns up. So let me know if you listened to that song or not. Anyway on with the show. Xxx

"Confession is not betrayal. What you say or do doesn't matter; only feelings matter. If they could make me stop loving you-that would be the real betrayal."

Merlin was sitting in Costa waiting for Morgana to arrive. It was Saturday afternoon and Merlin had decided it was time to tell Morgana about Freya. Not because Arthur had pressured him, which he had, no he wanted to because she had every right to know. He had told her to meet him here at half past two but as usual Morgana was late. 'One is not late everyone else is simple early.' She told him every time he had commented on the matter, quoting the Princess Diaries which was her favourite film growing up. So when his watch showed the time to be 2:40 he wasn't worried.

She walked through the shop door at 2:55 and Merlin had to admit that he had started to panic because she was never normally this late, but when he saw her walk through the doors all his worry melted away. Sliding through the people waiting to be served she waved over to Merlin and kissed him gently before taking the seat opposite him.

"Sorry I'm late, huge history test coming up and I wanted to study at the library where it is actually quite and I can't hear Arthur and Gwen through my bedroom walls." She shuddered and made a grossed out expression on her face and Merlin chuckled at how even when she tried to look disgusted she still ended up being beautiful.

"Don't worry about it. Two minutes before you came I ordered you're favourite. I'd drink it if I was you before it gets cold" He smiled and signalled to the cup of hot chocolate in front of her.

"mmm" she said in satisfaction as the warm liquid travelled down her throat. "You even got them to put honey in it."

"I'm just that good." He teased and she playfully smacked his left arm. They both sat drinking the contents of their cups before Morgana broke the silence.

"Merlin, why did you ask me to come?" She questioned.

"What, do I have to have a reason for asking my girlfriend out?" he replied with a loving smile which should have made her blush but it didn't. Instead she stayed as cold as ice. Her eyes as stern as her expression.

"No Merlin you don't, but I know someone with a secret when I see one so don't try and pretend otherwise." In Morgana's defence she had seen a lot of people keeping secrets from her, her mother for one, and here was Merlin buying her her favourite drink and making it even sweeter with a bit of honey. And no this wasn't suspicious behaviour, but Morgana had a feeling and when she had a feeling she was usually right. In this case she was.

"I'm sorry. It's scary how well you can see right through me." He gave a half-hearted smile to the beautiful girl but again she didn't move.

"I've been texting someone. Someone who we all, erm Me, Gwen and Arthur know or knew." He stuttered before looking at the unchanged beauty sitting before him and continued. "Her name is Freya, she's my ex. No before you say and think anything I'm not cheating on you, she contacted me. She told me that she is back in town and is coming back to our school on Wednesday."

"So why would this bother me? She is just an ex Merlin and I know you wouldn't cheat on me. Arthur would probably castrate you if you did." She joked seeming unfazed by what Merlin had said. He on the other hand didn't.

"That's not all." He replied grimly and watched as the smile on her face became non-existent and her face turned to a frown.

"Then what is it? Because you are starting to have me worrying now." He took her hands in his and gently stoked her knuckles.

"Our relationship didn't end well. I cheated on her with her best friend and she found out and got angry and left." She quickly pulled her hands away from his.

"You cheated on her with her best friend." It wasn't a question so much as a fact and it felt like Merlin had just been punched in the guts.

"You're disgusting!" she spat at him like she was a snake spitting out venom.

"Why are you so angry Morgana, it's not as if I cheated on you." He replied with a little more anger than he would have liked. This only made her more angry and he could see it written all over her face. The tight pull on her ruby red lips, the flared glint in her eyes.

"Because Merlin. If you cheated on her than what is to stop you from cheating on me? Oh yeah that's right nothing! You know Merlin I don't like being vulnerable I try to avoid it like a plague but I didn't care about that when I was with you. All barriers seemed to break down and crumble before me as I began to love you. I like being in control Merlin, it's one of my many flaws, but I found myself lost with you, lost in you. And now when I really love you, you tell me this. You tell me that you have cheated on someone you loved. Have you heard the expression Merlin 'Once a cheat always a cheat? No. Well I'll be dammed if you hurt me like you hurt her. I won't let myself go through the pain again. So tell me Merlin what is to stop you from cheating on me?!"

With that last question hanging in the air she stormed out almost knocking out a few of the other customers in the shop. She didn't look back and she didn't have too. Merlin knew exactly how she would look. It was the same way Freya had. He understood why she was angry, it was hard for her to trust people he got that. But she could trust him, he wouldn't do anything like that to her, because unlike his relationship with Freya he actually loved Morgana. He loved her so much it hurt and he knew all he had to do was prove it. The problem was how.


They hadn't spoken since their conversation on Saturday, and she thought it was probably a good thing. She had seen him at school but when he tried to talk to her she walked away. Gwen had tried to comfort her and tell her that Merlin never loved Freya as much as he loved her but for some reason that only made it worse. Morgana was no longer vulnerable or in pain she was just hollow. All her barriers had been rebuilt with strong reinforcements, someone would have to burn them down if they wanted to take her heart. So when she walked through the school gates and into the main building she didn't stop when Merlin called her name, nor when Gwen grabbed her arm to see if she was ok. No she didn't stop at any of them. What she did stop at was the hushed whisper behind her as the lady in question was back.

Freya had arrived and by the look on her face she means business.