Blame It On Me

Chapter 9

' But it was not your fault but mine. And it was your heart on the line'

Little Lion Man, Mumford and Sons

'I really can't believe that our time is up,' Kairi whispered. She and Sora were just a few inches away from each other, her head inches away from his ear, because she did not want the others to hear what she was saying. She turned her head for a moment, but Roxas and Namine weren't paying any attention to her and Sora. Selphie, Tidus and Axel were in the middle of a discussion, and Riku was staring into the distance.

'Don't worry, I'll call you everyday, and we'll see each other again when you come over in the summer vacation,' Sora said. Kairi glanced at his smiling face and tears welled up in her eyes.

'I don't want to leave!' she exclaimed in a desperate voice and staggered forward, collapsing in his chest. Sora took her in his arms and prevented them from falling on the ground. 'Kairi please.. don't cry. It makes me sad to see you cry,' he whispered. Kairi was sobbing openly now, and her fists were clenching the fabric of his shirt. 'Promise me that you won't forget about me.'

Sora's arms tightened around her. 'I promise,' he said and softly kissed her forehead. Kairi's father then impatiently pressed the claxon, and the sound made Kairi and Sora draw away from each other with akward looks on their faces.

'I guess I'm leaving then..' Kairi said and gave Sora a watery smile. She turned around, and wanted to walk away, but stopped when she felt Sora's warm hand around hers.

'Wait, there's something I need to tell you!' he said in desperate voice. Kairi glanced over her shoulder and looked into his pleading eyes.

'No need to, you can tell me when I'm coming to visit you. We'll see each other soon,' she said and climbed into the car. She waved at her friends until she could no longer see them because the car had turned into another street. She glanced out of the window, and her heart almost skipped a beat when she saw Sora running down the pavement, desperately waving his arms and trying to keep up with the car. The tears were running down her face again because she suddenly realized that she was not going to come back here.

Eventually Sora stopped running, because he could not keep up, but from the window she could see him shouting something. It must've been what he wanted to tell her, but she could not hear… And then he was out of her sight, and at the same time out of her reach. Forever.

The doorbell was ringing. Once, twice. Then it rung again after a short pause. Sora slowly opened his eyes and blinked against the bright light. His heart was beating in his chest and he felt like his stomach was turned upside down, but that was nothing compared to the awful headache that was torturing him. It was not the first time that he had drunk alcohol, but he had never in his life had a hangover like now.

Sora slowly lifted himself in a sitting position and looked around the room. Apparently he had slumped down on the couch in the living room yesterday, and hadn't woken up anymore. Roxas was lying at Sora's feet with a pillow tightly pressed against his head. Sora poked his brother with his feet, and then sat down on him when he got no response. This immediately woke Roxas. He roared upright, pushed Sora off him, and stumbled towards the toilet. The doorbell rang again and he finally realized what had woken him up in the first place. He slowly staggered towards the front door and opened it.

'You look awful,' Kairi stated with a frown. Sora tilted his head to eye her doubtfully. 'You don't, why are you here?' he asked, trying not to sound rude, but it was simply because he had forgotten.

Kairi gave him a stern look and walked in. 'You forgot, didn't you?' she said with a deep sigh and turned around to look at him. Sora was suddenly very well aware that he really did look awful, as the reflection of the mirror on the other side of the room showed. He was white in the face, with dark bags under his eyes and something sticky had nestled itself in his spikes. He was still dressed in the jeans he had worn last night, but had somehow managed to take of his shirt last night because he was bare-chested, showing of his muscles. Kairi must've noticed too because she was now staring at his stomach.

'I drank a little bit too much last night,' Sora said offering her a grin, and he suddenly remembered that she was here to celebrate the upcoming new year's eve. In the background they could hear Roxas throw up, but he quickly dragged her into the hallway. He carefully closed the door behind them to drown out the sounds his brother was making.

'I'll take a shower in just a minute and make sure Roxas is okay, then we can start celebrating. But first we need to talk,' he said firmly and folded his arms. 'Why did you run away yesterday?'

He watched as she lowered her eyes, but she started to talk nonetheless, to his surprise. 'I just can't do this anymore, okay? I'm in love with you, I have been ever since we were young, but I cannot contain myself anymore. I love you so much Sora, and just being friends with you isn't enough for me anymore. Why do you think that I refused to take your calls and all that, it's because I loved you so much it hurt because I knew I would never see you again. And I know that you feel something for me too. All this time I've doubted whether you did or did not like me, but you've proven it to be right when you almost kissed me yesterday. But then Riku came in, and I felt disappointed.' Kairi took a deep breath and looked at Sora. 'I want us to be more than friends.'

Sora sighed deeply and rubbed the back of his head. He was extremely surprised by her sudden confession, but relieved and happy at the same time.

'You know.. Yesterday night when we almost kissed.. I thought you were playing a game with me. I thought you wanted us to hide because you did not want Riku to see us together. I thought you were.. in love with him,' he said and laughed softly at his own stupidity.

The tension silence hung like them like a curtain. They were now staring at each other, but neither were saying anything.

That was, until Sora stormed forward and pinned Kairi against the wall passionately kissing her. Kairi immediately responded, kissing him back. Sora stopped for a short moment and gazed at her. 'I've told you two years ago when you left, and now I'm telling you again. I love you incredibly much, Kairi. To me you're the world, the universe and everything else. I've barely been living this past few months, barely breathing because of your absence, but we're finally together now,' he whispered, and then they kissed again.

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