Renesmee and Jacob chptr 9

JPOV

"OHHHH, Nessie you're so wet! I groaned as she squirmed underneath my gentle hands. She came right there, in my hands. " Jake, i love you, i would do anything to make you happy." She breathed into my ear. My stomach grumbled loudly and Ness let out a light giggle. She playfully wrapped her fingers around my muscles, and said. " Come on big boy, time for lunch."

I was too hungry to object, and hoped that eating might give me some time to mull over everything that had changed in the last few hours. Ness sat me down in a seat and took the advantage of swaying her hips around while making me lunch. I suddenly felt sick. Edward. What the hell would he do to me when he found out what had changed an happened between us. Ness was only sixteen, and i know how Edward and Bella feel about keeping things traditional, so my mind was made up. I wouldn't make love to Nessie until we were married. I didn't want Ness to be miserable because her parents had the shits with her. And i was desperate for her to understand the depth of my love for her, so i would wait until we were married. I''m not saying its gonna be easy, not with the way she keeps tempting me.

After our late-lunch, we made our way upstairs, showering separately, and hopped into bed together, both fully clothed. Well i was fully clothed anyway, Ness was barely wearing anything but some new strips of lace, courtesy of Alice. Lying there facing each other, Ness expressing her want for me by the second, i decided we needed to talk. "Ness, honey? Please don't doubt my love for you, or my want to be inside of you. I ache for you. But i think, if we want your parents blessing to marry, if you'll have me that is, that we should take home every condom Emmett sent, unused."

The silence after i spoke was incredibly painful. What if Ness didn't want to marry me. What if that was never her intention and she is completely turned off by me now. "Jake, did you just propose to me?" She asked rather hesitantly. I wasn't sure whether to smile or look guilty, so i just kept my lips pressed into a tight line. "I guess i did."

i saw tears start to well in the rims of her eyes. " Jake..."

I bit my lip, what was her answer? Just then, she touched her soft palm to my cheek, allowing her selected memories to flood into my mind. Nessie must have only been physically seven years old, but there we were, standing under an archway, with the Cullen's and the pack sitting watching from behind us. We were getting married. The pictures in my mind stopped, and i opened my eyes. It was then that i realised Nessie was crying with joy, and i smiled. " Jake, it's what i've always dreamed of, ever. I just told my self it would never happen, that you weren't interested me that way."

I kissed her with passion, it was slow and our lips moved in synchronization. We broke apart, and i kissed the nape of her neck just once, leaving her panting. "Ness? i don't think we should say anything until we talk to Edward and Bella. For your sake especially, i want us to go into this marriage knowing your parents support the decision we've made. I don't want to take you away from your family." I expected Nessie to put up a fight about waiting for Eddie's permission, but instead, she smiled, still beautiful even though her face was streaked with tears.