Title: Lovers for Eternity
Summary: Sequel to Friends for Eternity! What if Bella and Edward were best friends before lovers? This is a story on how they up as teenagers and into adults where their feelings become more than friendship. All Human.
Disclaimer: I (unfortunately) do not own Twilight, New Moon, or Eclipse they are all owned by the very talented Stephenie Meyer.
A/N: I've gotten questions asking how many chapters are left of this story. To tell you the truth, it's anywhere from two, to like five. I guess I'll leave it up to you guys. Do you want this story to end after Edward and Bella get back together for good, or do you want more than that? I'm going to be really sad when this story is over.
Chapter 9: Timidness
BPOV
"Bella, pass me the popcorn please!" Alice said in her chipper voice as she reached across me. I laughed and held the bowl further away from her. "Aw come on!"
I smiled then handed the bowl of popcorn to her. "Thank you." She muttered as she let go of Jasper's hand and dug into the bowl. Jasper rolled his eyes and put his arm around her shoulders and focused back on the movie. They were so cute together.
"You're welcome." I said back then pulled my knees in my chest and hugged them to me.
"You scared over there Bella?" Emmett asked in an amused voice.
I rolled my eyes. "Oh yeah, the commercials are real scary." I said in a sarcastic voice. Rose, Emmett, Alice, and Jasper we all sitting on the floor together and I was sitting up on the couch. Emmett looked back to the TV, then back at me.
"Opps, sorry. I thought the movie started. Well, you will be sacred. Just wait!"
"Whatever." I muttered. I wasn't a big fan of scary movies, but it was better than sitting through a chick flick right now. That was something I could not handle at this point in time. The movie wasn't at all frightening in the beginning, but as it progressed, I realized that I had a death grip on the couch cushion. I tore my gaze away from the movie and looked down at the floor of people. Alice had her head tucked into Jasper's shoulder and Emmett was staring the television will horror shown in his eyes. Rosalie kept peeking from the corner of her eyes at him with a very amused expression on her face. I laughed quietly the focused on the movie again. I was getting really drawn into what was happening when I heard a voice from in front of me.
"Bella." It whispered.
"Ahhh!" I screamed at the top of my lungs then turned beet red while I looked around and realized that it was only Jasper. I put my hand over my racing chest and drew in a deep breath. Everyone had turned to look at me and that made me blush deeper. I put my face in my hands to hide my mortification.
"What happened?" I turned and peeked out of my shield to see Edward jogging down the stairs, taking them two at a time. "Is everything okay?" He asked when he was all the way down.
Everyone was laughing and I was still concealing my face. "The movie got a little scary for Bella." Emmett teased.
"Hypocrite! You were the one that was being a big baby over there." Rose punched his shoulder playfully.
"It was my fault, I'm sorry Bella." Jasper laughed. I looked up at him and sighed.
"It's okay." I was still drowning in chagrin. Edward started loudly chuckling beside me. I turned and glared at him. I felt my eye brows scrunching in and my eyes closing into a squint while I fumed. He noticed and started laughing harder. I threw the pillow at him then moved to the other end of the couch to ignore him. He held his lips together, trying to control his laughter. He came and sat in the middle of the couch. "What are you doing?" I asked, annoyed.
"Making sure no big bad monsters will get you." He mocked and I blushed again. Alice started the movie once more and I was in the same situation, death gripping the couch cushion, as before. I felt Edward's eyes on my face, so I reached for another pillow and held it up to block his view. I heard him chuckle in the darkness. "Always so stubborn." He murmured as he pushed the pillow down. I put it back up then he smacked it down, causing it to fall on the floor in front of Rosalie.
Edward put his arm around my waist and pulled me toward him. I rolled my eyes, clearly annoyed by the gesture, but didn't object. He set my head in-between his chest and shoulder and kept his arm around my waist. I tried to pull away, but his strength kept me where I was. I growled in agitation. "I. Am. Not. Stubborn." I growled up at him.
He tried to keep a straight face. "Of course you're not." He said sardonically.
I grumbled again and suspired. He really was comfortable. I snuggled into his warm body some more and felt my eyes start to close. I started to get melancholy as I thought of how he, Jasper, and Emmett would be going back to college tomorrow morning. I didn't want them to leave. Alice was just starting to brighten back up and I didn't want to look at her depressed face like last year. I wasn't really worried about Rose, she and Emmett seemed to keep contact fairly well. Emmett came down almost every other day. My theory was that he wasn't taking very many classes or he wanted some, if you get what I mean.
"Sleep Bella." Edward stroked my back in circles.
"I don't want you to leave." I whispered into his shirt.
"I don't want to go either, but I have too."
"I know." Then I drifted off into a comfortable sleep.
BPOV
"Bella…" He started. I turned to him, searching his eyes. He reached over and placed his hand on my face. I leaned into it and closed my eyes. "I love you… I don't think I ever stopped." My eyes shot open and looked at him.
I swallowed hard and tried to focus. How was I going to respond? What was I suppose to say? Did I love him still? What about Jake? All these questions started popping into my head at once and I got so jumbled, but then I saw his face moving toward me and I couldn't think anymore. All I could focus on was his lips that we coming closer to me. I closed the distance between us, smashing my lips into his. This surprised him because he stumbled back a little. I eagerly put my arms around his neck as he deepened the kiss. My heart was pounding against his and every part of my body was tingling. He had his hand cupping me face and his other arm secured around my waist. I had to stand up on my tippy toes to reach him, but I didn't mind; he was worth it.
Edward and I continued kissing and after a few seconds, he started pushing us towards the screen door. I was walking backwards through the door, tripping a couple times along the way. Once he got inside, he turned us around so that he was the one walking backwards and I was walking forwards while still kissing each other. He sat down on the bed then pulled me into his lap and kissed my neck. I felt myself shiver, but in a good way. I knew that this was wrong of me to do, since I was technically still with Jake, but every time I attempted to stop, I saw Edward's face and it made me more eager.
I pulled his face back up and kissed him sweetly before kissing the stubble on his cheek, making my way down his neck. He moved his hands to the side of my T-shirt and lifted it over my head. He looked down at me and I blushed.
"Beautiful Bella," He murmured, making me flush more. Then he gently laid me down on the bed and crawled on top of me. I started to unbutton his shirt as he kissed me every place he could reach.
I woke up to the sound of my muffled scream in my pillow. I was sweating and I reached up, running my finger through my hair to get it out of my eyes. I rolled over and saw that it was two in the morning. I sighed and knew I wouldn't be able to sleep anymore even if I wanted too. I just laid in bed, avoiding thinking about anything that involved… him, both of the hims, actually. I rolled over and stared at the wall.
It was December now, and very cold. The last four months hadn't been very pleasant… I winced at the memory that was coming even though I didn't want to think about it.
Flashback (Three Months Ago)
"I'm so sorry Jake." I said, truly meaning it.
He nodded, looking hurt and betrayed. "I'm not going to say that it's okay because it's not, but… at some point it will be."
I sniffled and blinked back the moisture in my eyes. I reached for his hand. I kind of wanted him to pull his away because it was what I deserved, but he didn't. He surprised me by interlocking his fingers into mine. "I know that it can't happen now, but… Is there a way we can still be friends?"
"Yeah… we'll always be friends Bella." He leaned down and pulled me into his famous rib-crushing hug and kissed my cheek. "Will you answer me something before I leave?"
"It's the least I can do."
"Are you with… Edward now?"
I shook my head. "I'm not ready to be in any kind of relationship right now. I'm taking a break from guys for a while." I said truthfully. I was just… very disgusted with myself right now, and probably would be for a very long time. I was never going to forgive myself for cheating on Jake. That was inexcusable and intolerable.
"I think that's a perfect idea." He joked then hugged me once more and walked away.
End Flashback
Seeing Jake's face the last time we talked always haunted me. He looked so fragile and upset and I was the one who made him like that.
When we broke up, rumors flew across our high school campus faster that wildfire. Some said we broke up because college would be starting soon. Some said we broke up because Jake had cheated on me by sleeping with Alice. How the hell that one sprouted up, I had no idea. Or, my personal favorite, Edward bribed Jake to break up with me so he could have me for himself. That made me chuckle. The things some people could come up were astonishing to me.
The dream I just woke up too wasn't exactly… a bad or a good dream. It was just one I tried to push aside. Edward and I were… friendly. Whenever he came home for the weekend we would say hi and tolerate each other. We talked on the phone occasionally, but kept it strictly friend-like. We never discussed our… intimateness that happened over the summer. I was glad for that, because, like I told Jake, I was currently taking a break from guys.
Alice objected to this very much and Rose said I couldn't do it. Rose said that I was too in love with Edward to stay away for long and Alice said the same. They had a bet on how long it would take the two of us to get back together. I ignored them. Their stakes held no interest to me.
Edward told me a few nights ago while we were on the phone that Emmett and Jasper had the same bet. He still didn't go so far as to say whether he thought one would win or not and neither did I. He said that they had about two hundred dollars piled up. I had laughed at that. He said that Emmett was betting May and that Jasper was betting for March for our reconciliation; whoever was closest would win. I'd rolled my eyes then asked to speak to each of them to yell playfully.
Emmett told me to calm down, and he didn't have two hundred dollars to blow on this bet. He said that if I made him win, then he would split the profit with me, fifty, fifty. I laughed at him, but he was totally serious.
Jasper said he was positive he was going to win and if I made him lose, then he would come down and personally make Alice give me a make-over. I laughed with him.
I really didn't care too much about their wagers. I had to admit that… sometime in the near future I did want to be with Edward. But, I have to learn to forgive myself for what I did and that didn't seem like it would be happening anytime soon. Edward wasn't pushing me, but made sure that I knew that he was available if I ever wanted to talk to him. I think that's where the phone calls every other day came in. I didn't mind though. I liked talking to him.
BPOV
I went to school on Monday in a daze as usual. I drove myself, like I have been for this past year. Usually Alice always picked me up, but I asked her to stop. I just hadn't been in a mingling type of mood lately. Rose would always meet me in the parking lot, and Alice I would meet in my first period.
"Bella, I'm scared for you." Rose explained to me as soon as we started walking towards the school.
"Why?" I asked, turning to look at her.
"You act… lifeless. Like you're a zombie or something."
"I'm fine." That was and wasn't a lie at the same time.
"Bella, you're my best friend and I'm supposed to help you…. Is the Edward thing still eating at you? Because you know he's waiting for you. You can go back to him any time you want. He's waiting for you to be ready to take him back."
"I know that." I said quickly.
"Then what's wrong?"
"I don't know…" I said. I guess I'm just… still angry at myself for what I did… I hate that I hurt Jake the way I did." I found this a little weird. I never opened up to Rosalie, only Alice or Edward. I guess I was too humiliated to talk to them about this. Rose was easier this time.
"Oh Bella," She put her arm around my shoulders. "I know that what you did was… cold, but I mean, you couldn't really stop it. You love Edward, not Jacob."
"I could have stopped. I just didn't. I should have." I looked down, ashamed.
"I get that you need time to get over that and to forgive yourself, but it's been what, five months? Shouldn't you be getting over it by now? Besides, we all make mistakes."
I shrugged. "I just can't. I'm too angry at myself." I admitted.
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