AN: Well thank you SO much for all of my reviews. The tally for which I story wins is 2 for issues and 8 for Intense so welcome to the ninth chapter of my A to Z Bade Intense enjoy. Just for the heads up this one does have some sexual references in it. T for a reason.

Intense

Beck kissed Jade's neck and sat between her legs. He wasn't quite sure if they should be doing this tonight but he knew if he said anything then she'd bring up the fact that he promised. So he continued and her shirt came off followed by his. She kissed his abs and unbuckled his pants.

"Jade," his protesting hesitant voice came out almost against his will.

She sighed "what?" she was exasperated. He knew that she wanted him and damnit he wanted her too. So why? Why not just go with it? He already knew the answer something was wrong.

"Something is wrong," he whispered and lay down next to her. He was only in boxers and she only had on panties. She cuddled against him for warmth.

"Nothing's wrong besides the fact that I'm getting cold," she snapped at him.

"We'll take care of that after," Beck said. "Now tell me what's wrong you've been a little off pretty much all day." Beck tried to think back and pin point when Jade started acting funny.

"Nothing is wrong except that I want you and you're avoiding it."

"Something is wrong Jade," Beck stood firm. Sometimes he let things go but not this time he felt it in his gut they needed to talk.

"Beck stop avoiding this you've been putting me off for months now. Do you not want me? Am I not good enough to be your first time?"

"Jade baby that's not it I just feel like something is wrong."

"Well I guess your right Beck the thing that's wrong is you won't deliver you keep promising and putting it off but you won't go through with it!"

"Jade we both know that's not it!" Beck said trying not to raise his voice even though she was yelling already.

"That's always what it is Beck! You keep telling me we'll do this and every time you pull this!" Jade stood up from the bed and grabbed her bra and clothes throwing them on.

"Jade where are you going?" Beck was pissed now she was overreacting he was just worried!

"I'm going home and you'll be lucky if you see me tomorrow!" Jade stormed out of the RV.

"Jade don't do this!" Beck said pulling jeans on quickly. "I'm just worried about you."

"Well maybe I just had a bad day Beck! Hm did you ever even think about that?"

"I just want you to know you can talk to me!"

"And you had to make that clear right when we were about to finally do it?"

"Ya I did! Do you know why Jadelyn? Because if I'm going to give myself to you like that and I'm going to receive you in such a deep way I want you to know I'm always there for you! That involves being there more than just as pleasure it means being there for support and love!"

Jade froze at the word love. Sure she loved Beck and she kind of always knew he loved her but…wow it was out in the open. She took in a deep breathe "I know you love me Beck ok I love you too. We wouldn't even be talking about doing it if we weren't in love ok. It was just a bad day." The last bit came out snapped but she was calm enough to be led back inside.

"Tell me what happened," Beck said pulling Jade onto his bed so they were both sitting.

"Beck it was just a bad day!" Jade said beginning to become irritated again.

"Well tell me about your bad day then. Then I can shut up and we can get back to it," he said kissing her softly.

"Fine," she snapped. "My day started off crappy because I woke up late then I cut myself shaving. After that I hit every single red light I possibly could. I walked into Sikowitz's late and you were sitting next to slutty Vega and the only open seat was next to Sinjin! After that break was consumed by trying to finish a last second project and then when we had fourth period together I tried to convince you to have tonight tonight and you were super hard to convince. Then after I convinced you I needed to get the bag I stashed in the costume room. And while I was there," Jade's voice began to shake "my writing teacher came in and saw what was in the bag." Jade began to sniff and tears started to chase each other down her cheeks. "He told me that he'd turn me in if I didn't do what he said. Then he told me to get on my knees and I didn't have many choices then did I so I did as I was told and that's where I spend my whole damned lunch then in-"

Beck pulled Jade into his arms and she clutched onto him sobbing. "That's what happened. Oh Jade why wouldn't you tell me that?" Jade said nothing but only clutched him tighter. "Jade," Beck said knowing her so well "this isn't your fault," he whispered to her.

"I shouldn't have listened!" she sobbed.

"Jade he took advantage of you! He's the one who shouldn't have Jade. You were scared and he took advantage of that. Jade this was. Not. Your. Fault." Beck said kissing her head. She continued to clutch onto him and cry. "Jade honey why did you want to do this tonight so badly even after that horrible thing?"

"I, I don't want to think back on today and remember that. I, I want something really good to happen today. Something that will make me smile when I think back on today."

"Baby don't take this the wrong way but I don't think mixing the two is going to help. If you decide that you want to do this tonight I did promise and I will do it to help you. But I want you to make sure."

"Beck I want something good today. I want something to smile about," Jade said very steadfastly. So Beck kissed Jade and laid her down and Jade got what she wanted.

AN: Ok so I hope that doesn't disappoint I know the wait was long so I hope this was worth it. I have 14 people who have this on story alert so I hope to have 10 more reviews at least for the next chapter? Which by the way is going to be Jobs. Please review! Sorry this took so long by the way.